THE MENTALITY OF A POP UP BLOCKER

Its Friday….and it seems as though this day has lasted longer than the whole week!!!......how are you all doing today??......I’m good….sleepy but good…….almost called into work today….but since my boss is on vacation, I decided against that……didn’t want any issues……don’t need any issues……so I came…and I have been dragging all day……life is topsy turvy right now……some days I don’t know if I am coming or going……I have had this feeling before…so I know it wont last long……I think I need to sleep it off…….

Okay, I have something to get off my chest…..HA HA!!! THE MAVS LOST!!! WHO HOO TO THE SAN ANTONIO SPURS FOR WHOOPING THEY BUTT!!!.......I hope there are not any die hard Mavs fans that were adamant this was their year……but I don’t even blame the team on this one……I blame this one on the coach…..his play calling and substitutions even had me baffled…….but why should it really?...they should have never let Avery Johnson go…….now, its going to be hard for them to get back to the stature they once were…no matter who is the coach and who are the players……..

So I am trying to get a payday loan today….this is so much work……I got so many emails from different companies…I don’t know what I did wrong……its quite bothersome…don’t even know if I am going to get one by the end of the day…don’t like answering my phone at work in the first place……..I heard these things were the devil…and I have tried to refrain from getting them…I guess at the end of the day, its my fault…I have so many opportunities to make something happen down here but I haven’t…….and once I do put the pedal to the medal, I wont have to worry about living check to check and getting payday loans……these things are for the birds!!........

Was almost considering not writing today……I received a text about an hour ago thanking me for my writings…so I decided I have an obligation to connect with you all…..I can say my life has been boring for the past few days so its hard to come up with different things to write….when it pertains to me…..I try to keep a lot of media information out of blogs…because quite honestly, news coverage is so sad and negative……hell, my life hasn’t been a barrel of roses lately…..but I do feel at least I try to give you a taste of reality…….a look into the life of a up and coming entertainer…..its funny….the stereotype is that I am balling, got a lot of groupies, and am as hood as can be………I am so totally the opposite of these things…..and I love it…when I was in college and balling, I never thought about my purpose……I never cared about the struggle……am I saying that I only care now that I am forced to?........no…….but that does play a part……it did open my eyes……I am learning that I am somewhat a voice for some……that I can relate to what others are going through…..its not easy to articulate struggles…especially to strangers……or even loved ones for that matter…….behind that tissue window we call our bodies lies a soul that longs for understanding and purpose……many of us have felt that struggle and the pain that coincides…..and when we go through, we all feel like no one will understand…well, I do…….because I am you and vice versa……….

So Jayla is spending a night tonight……she tells me what to do…….its funny because I was told she runs me……..and I don’t think that is the case……I just love her dearly…….I’m not spoiling her though……now and days, that is such a thin line……and when she is with Stephanie, I know she runs over her…..not at daddy’s….but we will have fun……and its always relaxing to have her over to the house……..I told Stephanie to get some rest tonight since se will be baby free……bet you a dollar she doesn’t……

Was going to hold a raffle for Mother’s Day….until I realized Mother’s Day was next week…….ugh!!......I surely need to do better keeping up with dates and holidays…that is not my strong suit………I could possibly go my whole life and not know when a holiday is going to fall…….and I think that’s a bad thing……since I don’t pay attention to them, I never save up for the occasions…….I don’t give gifts, not out of maliciousness….I just have no clue when these days are……and its not like I have family to tell me when they are……

Well, I had gas station tacos for lunch…and now they are fighting back so I am going to retire for the day…stay tuned…next week, I will have some big announcements for you all…….but before I go……Rika’s Quote of the Day………….

“Spend less time trying to change and more time making the best of who you are.”

Sometimes the best person we can be is the person we already are………

Shout outs to my mans J-Dub aka Sincerious J…….we have a lot of work to do fam…give me a call if I don’t call you…….I had a vision…you are an important piece to this puzzle……I am here if you are ready………

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Love yall!!!!


Church!!!

PREPARATIONS OF A PAPERBOY

Just went to check on the mavericks game…..Mavs 21, Spurs 42…..LMAO!!!....how are you all doing today?....I am having a good day today…….day got started weird…..as do most of my days……still at work……ugh!!.......ready to go and take a powernap before I have to come back…I hope you are all doing well……be safe if you starting your weekend off tonight………you lucky devils…….

So I had to go to court this morning…..downtown Dallas……now, I live about 35 minutes away…without traffic…today it seemed like it took an hour……then about 30 more minutes just to get searched……oh, I had to pay for parking as well…….had to find my courtroom…….but they didn’t have my name on the list to see the judge……..got down to this office where there is about 30 more people in line…and patiently wait my turn……get to the front of the line….give them my name and social….and they tell me my case hasn’t been filed yet…….they gave me a number and told me to call every two weeks…..now I am thinking to myself, “couldn’t they have just called me”……….now I have to drive all the way back home, and go to work…without getting anything accomplished…….

Communication…..H always tells me about being a better communicator……and I am trying to do just that….but how much do we lack communication just because we are fearful of what the other person will think?......a better question is….should we care what they think?.......there is a thin line between truth and tact………trust me, I know……but why should I be afraid of saying what I feel , especially when in my heart, I think this is a progression of a relationship……too many times, I have been an ear witness of someone saying, “why didn’t you just tell me?”……..that’s a good question……a lot of doors could open with communication as well…….the other day I wrote about 6 degrees of separation in relation to Ryan Howard…….if I never communicate that I would like to meet him, how would anyone know…and what’s the worse that can happen?........we spend a lot of time communicating thoughts that we know are negative…. “I bet my lights are off”….or “there bet not be any problems”………why cant we say something that can help further us in our lives…too many times, we stay in a certain state due to fear……lets build bonds by being real…….its not hurting anyone but ourselves in the end………….

So I went to the club last night…..it was supposed to be our open mic night but instead we allowed someone to have a birthday party……..I think people don’t really pay attention to how important promotion is of an event……its easy for someone to tell you they are going to show up……then the day of the event, everyone has an excuse why they didn’t show up……even myself, I was close to not going…….I fell asleep on my floor and was really happy about that…..didn’t want to move….my man Skyron called me and asked where my location was…after a brief talk, I decided to get up and show my face……..some days it hard…but being a host and an MC, I want support so I have to give support………no, I don’t make everyone’s event…but I honestly try……..now as far as the proceedings, I wasn’t hosting, so I wont comment…..poor baby……….

Looked at my check today…YEAH!!!.........my money will be gone with two bills….NOOOOO!!...and then I am back to square one…..almost got frustrated about it……but I have to be an example for the things I write……the pressure is really on me right now to make some things happen……I cant keep trying to stay afloat on the income I have right now…….I have a lot of prospects for shows…now its time to implement them…..think ima go on a fast this week…..no phone, no TV, no drama…..I’m just going to focus on getting events and opportunities for Essential Entertainment….I have some ideas….just need to bring them into fruition………

got some disturbing news on Tuesday….now, I have been ranked in the top two for the last 4 months…….I was ranked #2 on Monday….get to work on Tuesday and I am ranked 17th……huge bummer…that’s about a $600 difference in bonus money………and with it being the end of the month, its going to be hard trying to recoup…..the reason?.........don’t even let me get started…..people that work here now why…its something we cant control that they ask us to control…how do you do that?........when you figure out the answer, please let me know………

well, I think I am done for the day…almost didn’t blog today……but I just couldn’t have my fans missing me!!!...and now…..Rika’s Quote of the Day……….

***BEFORE I GO***** don’t you hate people that join in every conversation….they always know something about everything??.......ugh!!!!...........

“Do not let yourself be judged by others or ruled by approval or disapproval”

Whose opinion of you is more important……yours or theirs………

Shout outs to my secretary and little sis Neke…..she has a little toothache and we are praying that she has a speedy recovery……and to the first lady of Essential Entertainment, Wyze……DUN DUN DA DUN!!!!!!......God is about to bless you tremendously…….you are a very awesome woman…..stay on my butt……I need you……..

Love yall!!!!!


Church!!!!

THIS ISN'T A BLOG...IT'S A TOSTADA.........

Happy Wednesday people…….I decided to write a little early today……just had an awesome idea…..in spite of the circumstances……and im going to have to completer a lot of work to get it done……especially looking at when I would like to do this…….I hope I come to you in good spirits…….just came back to work from lunch and had a lot on my mind….that may have been due to alterations……..talked to a few people about some progressions…….and realized a lot about my current situations………

Before I continue this, I would like to apologize……now I am not sure that this apology is warranted….but I want people to understand something……with my daily rants, I don’t mean to compound anything you are going through…….I don’t want you to feel as though I take anyone for granted……as I mentioned, I don’t know if this is warranted, but watching and listening to life, I have to come to terms that it could be a lot worse…my standing that is……yes I have been through a storm…….so why don’t I take time to realize other people have storms as well….they may just not be as vocal as me……..it a crazy way my life reminds me of Dave Chapelle on Half Baked…….remember when he went to the NA meeting??.........they were furious because his drug of choice was not as severe as theirs……..maybe with me having financial or relationship issues does not compare to someone who may be dying………or had someone pass……..

I do think I have become an emotional shell of myself……..I catch myself in a place I have never been……my purpose in life is becoming more defined……its not to be gangster…….its not to be a baller…….it may not even be to be secluded and isolated…….I want people to learn from the mistakes I have made, are making, and am going to make………I know the changes I am going through has nothing to do with me…per se…..I am that symbol…that example…..the person that hopes to show you that you can do it………but wow…….for me to sit at home and think about things…over think at times…..is unbelievable……..and I care about things so much more…..sometimes I think everything but myself………..

While I was at home, I was watching Sportscenter……..they had an interview with Ryan Howard on……now I am not going to say this just because of the 6 degrees factor in knowing him and one day he may choose to make a hefty investment into Essential Entertainment………but they were discussing his new contract…I think its something like 5 years and $125 million…….the reporter asked him how does he feel about people that say he shouldn’t get that type of money…..DONT WE ALL WANT RAISES??....he is getting paid for what he has done…not for what he is going to do….is it his fault his talent was in an occupation where we over price seats, food, beverages, and parking??........was he supposed to not accept the money?........its crazy how jealousy in our minds make us believe that somebody is evil or wrong for accepting a raise at work………now, if I can just holla at Steve………….

TONIGHT WILL NOT BE DJ LADY JA-ROQ’S OPEN MIC*********I REPEAT, TONIGHT WILL NOT BE DJ LADY JA-ROQ’S OPEN MIC**********INSTEAD, MY MAN TREE DOGG WILL BE HAVING HIS BLACK AND WHITE BIRTHDAY BASH……..ACTS ARE STILL NEEDED……DOORS OPEN AT 9……AND THERE WILL BE A LIVE VIDEO SHOOT….AT ROLLS ROYCE………9220 SKILLMAN STREET………COME ON OUT AND HAVE FUN WITH YG RECORDS!!!.........

Man that was quick!!!...had to take a few phone calls and forgot all my good thoughts…gotta stop being lazy and write them down………I was ready to go deep like BlackStreet……but oh well……maybe tomorrow……..

Oh…and yes…my Lakers won last night…….BIG UPS TO ALL MY HATERS!!!!......

Well before I leave………Rika’s Quote of the Day………………..

“Set up your priorities daily because some things in our path are just not important enough to use up our time and energy.”

Sometimes we give things too much power……especially when they are not stronger than us…….

I want to give a special shout out to my girl Portia……….God Bless You…….I am truly praying for you and if you need an ear, I am here……no need to rant…….

I do have a question……..why cant we take time out to pray for people…but yet when we are going through that’s the first thing we throw at people……God works miracles…that’s why He is the Great I Am…and when 2 or more are in agreement of his word, everything can happen…….you don’t need to know who the person is and what they are going through….but you can always claim Victory!! Over the enemy……..

Love yall!!!!!


Church!!!

I'M THINKING OF A GOOD THOUGHT TO THINK OF.....

Welcome to Tuesday’s edition of Wise Words of Spaceship……..its ya boy, Spaceship Ohayses, bringing you whatever the heck comes to his mind during the next thirty minutes to an hour……I think I have the only sitcom with no time slot!!!....how awesome is that!!.........I hope you all are having a great day…I sure am……day has been going by pretty quick…..or at least when I am not looking at the clock……ready to get home and get this evening started…..so much to do…so little time to do it…….

Was hoping to write a more intricate blog today….seems like I got caught up at work…..yesterday my numbers were looking good….today, they need some work…..and this being the last week of the month, I need to make sure I do all I can to bonus…….hell, the bonuses are what’s keeping me afloat……my check without those is a sad state of events…but I know its only a matter of time when my checks will look like social security numbers………

Had a talk with a friend today about cleaning out closets and knowing what our destiny is…….there is an old adage, “faith without works is dead”……..so many times, we believe God…..to a certain extent…or we expect miracles to come without any actions……I am here today to tell you my friends…..it is up to us the blessings we receive from God……all my life, I have known this little secret that my destiny on this Earth is a little different from most……yet, I have chosen not to pursue all God has for me for a variety of reasons……the more I attempt to mature, the more I have to learn that I have to give my all to receive his riches and glory…….another friend of mine reminded me about an alter ego I had in college, Countrytime……now CT (that was the abbreviation) was a bone head…explosive….said what he wanted and cut people off quick…..as bad as that description may sound, one thing that I did not do back then was hold on to baggage….excessively……whether it was people, things, classes, cars…..whatever……I find myself now being a person that takes forever to let go of things….a mental hoarder if you will…..I have to get back to that place…..I have removed about ten people recently and the backlash is crazy……..but if you are not helping me progress, what’s the point……..

I think one of the big reasons I have held on to things is because I have lost so much in the last five years…until my grandparents passed, I didn’t have a major death in my family…I have been homeless twice, divorced, and have worked more than my fair share of jobs…that’s just not like me……..so the things I have been able to latch to, I don’t want to go…….even though in my heart, I know its best…….but eventually, you get tired and things lose value…whether we recognize it or not………..

I saw on somebody’s facebook today a question that really got me thinking…….does having a title in a relationship matter…..I don’t know the answer to that…my response is not until you get married…..or you propose…why do you ask?........I think it lessens the blow if something doesn’t work out….now and days, with the way society is…I feel we over analyze things……plus there is a lack of privacy that is very evident……also consider the fact, that the things we consume…music, television, magazines, other people’s relationships…it makes us microwavable….we want everything right now……and when things don’t work out, we are ready to split…so now we have hurt hearts…..its crazy how you can talk to a person and within a week, they are ready for you to commit to them…..you don’t even know my favorite food……and for me, its even more serious because why would I want a woman that doesn’t support my shows?.........or doesn’t read my blog?........and then comes the Jayla factor……so I say no…..titles are not needed……it only creates a tenser atmosphere for parties involved…….some people need titles for confirmation…to each its own…but if I am going to treat you right, it doesn’t matter what I call you……..

I NEED EVERYONE’S ATTENTION!!!!!!.......DJ LADY JA-ROQ’S OPEN MIC SHOWCASE HAS MOVED TO WEDNESDAYS!!!.......COME ON OUT TO ROLLS ROYCE OFF 635 AND SKILLMAN AND SHOW US WHAT YOU HAVE!!!!.......WE ARE STILL GIVING AWAY $250…..AND NOW, WE ARE ALSO LETTING YOU HAVE YOUR OWN 15 MINUTES SHOWCASE SLOT…..FOR DETAILS, YOU HAVE TO BE THERE……DOORS OPEN AT 10!!............DONT BE LATE KNUCKLEHEADS!!!!!!..........

Last week we had a nice crowd…but I know we have more acts out there that’s trying to get their grind on…if you know someone with skills, get at me……..don’t let $250 slip away from you for being lazy……….

I was outside talking to this old woman and her phone went off…..her ringtone was Sex Room by Ludacris…….hmmmmmm………

Have you ever had someone try to talk to you about something at the most inopportune time…….especially when you at work…I received a text today while I was in the restroom….”freshening up”…..I answered…..and they kept texting back……..EXCUSE ME!!......I AM TRYING TO FOCUS OVER HERE!!!...WILL TALK TO YOU LATER!!!!!...WHEW!! THEY FINALLY GOT THE PICTURE……DAMN!!!!...ANOTHER TEXT!!!!!!

Gotta go to court on Thursday……yall pray for me………

Well I am about to get out of here……gonna try to do a little more work before I head out….and you know its time for…….Rika’s Quote of the Day………….

“when you are wrong, have the courage to admit it because it’s the best way to show you are wiser today than yesterday.”

That’s my mission…to admit I am wrong…….which I am most of the time….once….but I try not to be twice…..

Happy birthday is in order to Joyia…hope you are having an awesome birthday....be safe and don’t get too wasted!!!

Shout out also to Cretia…I will be praying you have a successful surgery…..may God have his grace on those doctors………

Love yall!!!

Church!!!!

SCISSORS BEAT ROCK EVERYTIME!!

Hmmmm…..so the weekend is over and yes, another work week begins……how are you all doing today?......I’m good…was actually having a great day…and still am….but I have a headache now…..from what, I have no clue………was it the heat earlier?......was it the fact that I found out another childhood friend was maliciously chopped to pieces over the weekend?.........was it just me thinking about way too much stuff…….I don’t know…but at least wrestling comes on tonight and I will be cooking so that is always relaxing…………

So this weekend we conducted the first Essential Entertainment photo shoot…..I am so anti cameras but I know it was a good look for the company as a whole…..it was a lot of fun as well…..I think the thing about breaking new ground or doing new things is knowing that I will have the capabilities to do better the 2nd time……coming in to the shoot, I was in my “it’s whatever” mode….that’s how I am on a lot of things I am ignorant about…….its my gift and my curse…..I choose not to be too concerned with things I’m not concerned with……as we proceeded, I still felt that way in relation to shots and angles, clothing, and how many scenes we should have……..but looking at the pics, I realize I have to be more hands on….I don’t know how that is going to happen, but as a CEO, I have to learn how to think outside the box and I assume generate ideas on my own………I told the photographer Saturday, im an artist, not a picture taker……but I guess I have to use my creative juices for more than just music and programs……

Been doing a lot of working…and thinking…….and working…..and thinking……and for the most part, its kind of getting me upset…….mainly at myself…….so many doors have opened and I feel I cheated myself out of a good 6 months of networks and opportunities…….yeah, I know I can attribute some to the passing of my grandmother, but even that is not an excuse…….I was laying on my couch yesterday, truly aggravated by my lack of progress….now I know some of you will say that I have made progress but to me, I think I could have done more……it makes me angry……it makes me go into my hermit mode where I don’t want to deal with anyone if you are not helping the progression……a lot of things are changing in my life and I am realizing that I have to make some major adjustments in order to move up that ladder of success…….

But I have been preaching to the choir………

You see, I have not lived up to my own words all the time…….it is very hard to let people go……especially those you have built a relationship with……I have always been a person that does not want to burn bridges…..my grandmother taught me that……but when do you say, “this bridge is not for use” anymore……..I thought that you don’t……so what do I do to it?.........or better yet, what do I do period?......should I find another route, hoping that this bridge is a sturdy as the first one……..should I try another means to travel…….its really difficult for me for crush relationships….it really is…..through associates and people that God has placed in my life, I have strived beyond expectations……at what point do those same people become a hindrance??....I think I have allowed folks to stay around because of not wanting to hurt feelings……I only decide to remove folks that totally boil my blood…..when I am finally fed up…why do I have to wait that long?...shouldn’t I have the strength to let them go before that?........I am so a work in progress……..

To all my mavs fans….LOL LOL LOL LOL…….its okay…you lose Every season so you shouldn’t be that upset……now all my laker fans…..don’t fret…….we will be winning this series…..just had a few bumps in the road…Oklahoma city has a lot of energy and are happy to be in the playoffs….but it don’t get you a series win over the defending champions……….

Why are Stephanie and I arguing over a can of salmon??.......ugh!!.....I think this may be the derivation of my headache………

Did not perform this past weekend….did a little hosting and got an opportunity to host a club in Arlington but not sure if I want to do that……honestly thinking about not hosting for a minute…at least until I get my own spot…tired of answering questions for people and being the one people look at in a negative light for no reason…..its becoming a draining experience……that I don’t feel is worth the reward right now…….maybe if the profits increased, I could deal with it….but I am seeing that it is messing with some relationships that are not called for…while the people that run the show, is getting off scot free…….

I NEED JESUS…..MOMENT OF SILENCE…SOMEONE COME LAY HANDS ON ME……..

I truly need a cigarette right now……..

Before I go have my nervous breakdown, here is Rika’s Quote of the Day……….

“Trouble comes to everyone, but feeling miserable is no reason to make other people miserable.”

Misery loves company……but misery does not like Spaceship Ohayses!!!.........

Shout outs to all my thinkers…….to each of you that put more merit into things than what should really be…..I pray that you all calm the F down and enjoy life…..everything that is said is not meant for you……and every action isn’t cause for a reaction……live life……love yourself…and have fun!!............

Love yall!!!


Church!!!!

A PENNY FOR MY THOUGHTS; A DOLLAR TO SHUT UP!!

Not in a good mood right now……well kinda….cant let people steal my joy……and having such great friends really helps out with me not staying upset too long…..how are you all doing today?......I have had a wild day to say the least……one of those day where you wake up and think, “did that really just happen?”………but I am feeling good…….and I pray my weekend goes well also……I have a lot of things to do……and cleaning my house is one of them….I just doubt that that actually happens…but we will see……

As some of you may know, about 7 years ago, I had a son……not going to get into the whole story of it all, but today, I actually spoke to his mother…….and I saw a picture of him…..it was kinda one of those out of body experiences…..you know when you feel like you have done something before….I call it the déjà vu experience…….he is in good health and the actual father is not in the child’s life….that sucks…..he looks like an amazing young man and my dream was always to have a son…….I pray to God I do one day………its crazy how people think…..see, we stopped talking because she felt ashamed……she didn’t know how I would look at her being that she was adamant the kid was mine…I wasn’t sure and come to find out, I was right….but I told her….we could have always remained friends……back then, I probably would have allowed myself to stay his father…if that sounds logical…….

I was asked how do I feel about the situation……my reply was that I don’t know…..I wonder has the life I have chose to live created a callousness inside of me…..I don’t think I miss him……I don’t find myself thinking about him on a day to day basis…..today was a good opportunity just to see him…….for me, family love is something I am learning….I have been used to giving out friendly love…..the love of all mankind without categorizing someone in a special category……true, there are a few in that special place….and that is due to God softening my heart…….but we all know I am still a work in progress…….it feels good to love again…….hopefully, I can continue down this path and truly become a man of God in relation to loving all unconditionally………

Tomorrow, Essential Entertainment is having its first official photo shoot……I am very excited about it although I have no clue what it may consist of…….I take a lot of pictures but I am far from photogenic……..we still have to get everyone on the same page and get the outfits, location and all that together…but the hard work is what drives me……

Talk to my mom for a brief moment……and once again, we had a pretty good talk…..I’m learning….if you don’t let people spew negative energy on you, they wont……..its hard to do sometimes, especially when you have a history of frustration…..but attitudes are not one sided…….no one can argue with a sign post…if you don’t allow the devil to interfere with your mental state, I promise, things will be a lot better……we even made jokes today and its been awhile since we have done that……I have prayed on this for along time……I honestly had no clue if it was going to happen….our relationship getting better…but the more I believe it will happen….the more I am seeing it develop……MY GOD IS AN AWESOME GOD!!!..........

Want to go to church tonight……don’t think I am going to be able to make it though……have to go to Ft Worth to check on the prospects of opening a club out there……I hear that it’s a nice location……sometimes I wonder if God gets made when I don’t follow through with my intentions……the one thing I do want to start doing on a consistent basis is tithe……I was talking to a friend last night and told her how I know there will be a lot of upset people in my previous life very soon…..

**tangent**** people that repeat themselves because everyone ignored them the first time they said it…….so irritating………

Back from our commercial…….yeah, like I was saying……I know there will be a lot of people upset…..and I am to the point where I am not worried about it……I was taught that you have to release things in your vessel in order to get more…….you cant put gas in a car that’s already full…….if you eat and are already nourished, that’s gluttony…..so in order to truly walk into this destiny, some things are going to have to be let go of…….

And this my friends, concludes today’s edition……I want to thank everyone for their kind words regarding my 300th blog….it means a lot to me……..all artist, if you want to be on a mixtape….THAT WILL BE OUT BY THE SUMMER, you need to get at me……laziness leaves you in last place……and now I bring to you…….Rika’s Quote of the Day…………

“Imagine joy and you will find it.”

There should be another part to this quote…imagine pain and hurt and it will be there as well…..you are what you think you are…..the thoughts and words that come out are mouths are instruments used to paint of life…..create a positive direction for you life and watch excellent things manifest in it……..

Shout outs are in order to my big brother Daider…….his wisdom is so needed in my life….its funny how we know so many people with malicious thoughts…..I told him today he changes my thinking on things, people, and circumstances…..what more can you ask for a person….if they are not trying to enhance you life, they are trying to destroy it…and to you, Daider, I appreciate you enhancing my knowledge and helping me become a better person………….


Love yall!!!


Church!!!!

AMERICAN GLADIATOR

Good evening lovely people…I hope you all are doing well on this Thursday….working sure makes the week go fast doesn’t it??......I am here now listening to this overpass of thunder waiting on the tsunami to occur…….I am having an iffy day today…..it has not been bad….just think the devil chose to have me with an attitude…so you all pray for me…..I’m fighting right now…….today’s blog is really big for me though…on March 26th, I celebrated my one year anniversary……throughout the past year, I haven’t written everyday…as with all of life, life changes things……I decided early on in my writings, not to write on the weekend…or rather, not be upset if I didn’t work on the weekend…….so today, I am celebrating my 300th blog……wow…….300 of these things……one day….maybe one weekend….im going to go back and read everything I have written…for you all to do it, some of them might not make sense…..but for me, I will know everything I am talking about….so it should be fun……….

Last night was an awesome night……now its funny what’s happening at Rolls Royce and our open mic……when we made the change, a lot of people complained…and I understood…..we were the first open mic on Tuesdays in Dallas…..and people were comfortable kicking it with us……now that we have not only moved locations, but days and times…..the regulars are not coming out in numbers like they used to…of course we had a few last night…and I will take that because the ones that come have outstanding music……..the point I am trying to make in this rant is that we are getting new acts….hot acts…and they are bringing their own crowd….now when our “regulars” come back to the fold, I wanna see what’s going to happen……..will they feel they still have their status??.......how will they receive this new act that is becoming the new face of the open mic…….will jealousy and envy play a part??.........hmmmmmm….

This weekend is really important to me……got a lot of things to do in the business of Essential Entertainment…….this next month is going to really see who is behind this movement and who isn’t…….I understand skepticism, especially when the dream isn’t yours…..the hard work without getting paid…….the sacrifices it takes to get from point A to point B……..and seeing that many of the relationships within Essential Entertainment are based solely on the last 4 years of my life……..but I know God has a destiny for me…and with that destiny, he will put the right people around me to grow into a successful business…….it may even be people that I don’t get along with…….but in regards to business, it will be people I need to get along with……

The text messages that I get………LMAO!!............

My boss is trying to really get under my skin……I know I have that itch that I am ready to do bigger and better things….but not until God is ready for me to do these things…..as smart as I work…I wont say I work hard…….as much as I am a top performer here…it feels as though its never enough…….sometimes it feels as though he is waiting on me to explode……the Ron Artest syndrome……people cant look past what he has done to see what he is doing…and if he does get into a situation, everyone is going to say, “ I knew it”……..your reputation proceeds you….and I am known for being eccentric….an individual……one that dances to the beat of his own drum…….its ironic….when I had my interview, I told them that I was not here to make friends…and they loved that statement….now, it seems that they want me to be involved and happy go lucky with “certain” people……but they don’t want you to be too socialable………its kinda like the bonus structure here…up and down……….the woman that sits in front of me…..with the eyebrows…has been calming me down today….thanks, God….I needed that………..

Well….I’m kinda out of words….it’s getting late….why I gotta be here……….

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It means a lot to me when I go on either one of these sites and see followers….more followers than the day before…….it lets me know you all are paying attention……it lets me know that you all care…….and at the end of the day, you are the reason I do this…..

And before I close for the night……..Rika’s Quote of the Day…………….

“Don't be afraid to give your best to what seemingly are small jobs. Every time you conquer one it makes you that much stronger. If you do the little jobs well, the big ones will tend to take care of themselves”

I want to send a special thanks to all those that were on the first blog…….you guys are the foundation of this….don’t know if you even still read, but from the bottom of my heart, thank you…..thanks for putting up with me sending an email everyday venting and talking about some things you probably didn’t care about…….I love you all…….

Love yall!!!


Church!!!!

LIVING ON A PRAYER, DYING FROM ASSUMPTIONS

Good afternoon ladies and gents……I hope I come before you in good spirits…..I am doing very well today…….Satan did his best to rattle my spirits…and for those that have never experienced it……..to change your way of thinking at the drop of a hat is hard to do……that’s why I am a work in progress……I am learning to refuse for anything to get to me……..and it is making my overall day a little better….I remember my grandfather telling me, “don’t sweat the small stuff, its all small stuff”……sometimes, I tend to forget those words…..but it is truly growing as part of my mantra…….

So yesterday, I get home and my internet is not working…….my modem blew out…..so I couldn’t do any work…..its amazing how when its time for your service to be cut off, they can do that so quickly……but when there is an issue on the other side…or even new installation, you have to make a date…….the Filipino guy tried to tell me when they are first available…I politely told him that I don’t need first available…I need now….of course at the time, I didn’t know that my modem was blown…I just thought there was a connection issue they needed to come fix……its done now……thank goodness but it wasn’t without struggle……..

Most of you know, I have to be to work at 9…..woke up this morning at 9:15…..why may you ask??......because the electric company turned my lights off…….no, I paid my bill………they cut off the wrong person’s light…..and once again, they tried to tell me they could come out tomorrow…so what am I supposed to do…...with my food…bathing in hot water……ironing….well I don’t iron good anyway……..finally got them to come back and cut me on….but it was three hours later…so I had to take a cold shower, come to work, and leave within two hours…..I didn’t have to leave, but I needed to make sure they would not forget….or cut the wrong lights on………and when I called, there is never an option for “mistake on your part that needs to be corrected immediately”…..the need to add that button……..

Went to Murphy’s last night for the T.A.M. six minute showcase……..what a joke…..seriously……the guy that was running it, really exposed himself as someone that does not care about the industry……now there is a thin line with taking shots…and whomever may be reading this and has an affiliation to him…….you can tell him what I am about to say….these aren’t shots…it’s the truth…….so he wanted me to bring my crowd to his open mic….yet, after last Tuesday, I never heard from him…..he had a representative call me on Monday to confirm I was coming…..I had no directions as to how his showcase was being ran……so why would I promote it to get a bunch of questions I cant answer……so I get there last night…..and he’s late…like 10:45pm late……but wants people to come back to the door so he can charge them….LMAO…….up until 11:20, I believe, we didn’t even speak……when we did, he only asked did I send out a text……mind you….(tangent moment)….I asked to be placed on the flyer…….nothing…so why should I promote his night again??.......(okay I’m back)……..by 11:50, we had one act there…mind you, I was not scheduled to perform…..the act that performed, was honestly one of the worst performances I have ever seen…..I don’t even know if his songs were good….he mumbled over three tracks…..he did not know his own words……so I decided, before the crowd leave, I should try to cheer them up…….so I performed…..got a standing ovation…(duh)…….and by that time two more acts came in…….now everyone in the club basically told me how outstanding my show was……AND I WAS SOBER!!!........except the guy that was holding the showcase……..the next two acts……..better than the first, but I still MC Hammered them…..(can’t touch this)………he showed me how unappreciative he was last night….so therefore, I wish him luck in all future endeavors…….I could have been sleep!!!.....or watching wrestling!!.....wasting my damn gas like that………

DJ LADY JA-ROQ’S OPEN MIC SHOWCASE IS TONIGHT!!!.......COME ON OUT TO ROLLS ROYCE OFF 635 AND SKILLMAN AND SHOW US WHAT YOU HAVE!!!!.......WE ARE STILL GIVING AWAY $250…..AND NOW, WE ARE ALSO LETTING YOU HAVE YOUR OWN 15 MINUTES SHOWCASE SLOT…..FOR DETAILS, YOU HAVE TO BE THERE……DOORS OPEN AT 10!!............DONT BE LATE KNUCKLEHEADS!!!!!!..........ALSO IF YOU ARE UNDER 21 AND WANT TO PERFORM, YOU CAN!!!!.......ADMISSION FOR THE YOUNGINS IS $15…YOU WILL HAVE TO WEAR A BRACELET SO WE CAN DIFFERIENTIATE BETWEEN THE TWO…….

so I get to work today and there is a newspaper on my desk with an article circled…..one of my co-workers wanted me to read something…the heading read, “Fraternity Disbanded over Hazing”…….yep....my frat…..Phi Beta Sigma at Prairie View are responsible for killing a pledgee……..they worked him so much in physical activities without giving him water that he died from a rare medical syndrome that was triggered by strenuous exertion……..this is a sad day for me……I got hazed when I pledged…but I did not give them the power to disrespect my body….and because I am a member of said organization, it is a disturbing reality that hazing is still going on……the didn’t want anyone to cross paper…..let me let you all in on a lil secret…….I am 30 now….no one ask me if I got my butt whooped as evidence of my pledging experience……if someone wants to test my credentials, they ask me history……beating someone proves nothing but you are a coward……touch me….AND A FIGHT COMES WITH IT!!!..........

I was chilling last night before my show…celebrating the holiday yesterday…..and I saw the infomercial for Topsy Turvy Tomatoes……..you know they had a shortage in Florida a few weeks ago which caused fast food restaurants not to sell tomatoes…..so I see this commercial and I’m thinking….”why don’t I sell tomatoes? I could make a killing!!......like a door to door tomato salesman……..so I ordered four……you know this is the third time in two years they have had to stop selling tomatoes…….never again…..I got the hookup………..

Well I am about to leave in a minute…..so here we have it…..Rika’s Quote of the Day………

“If you think success and really believe it will happen, you will perform in a manner that leads to success.”

I love motivation…..I was told today that I walk different…I talk different…and I look different……just trying to get my CEO on ya dig!!!!............

I will see you all tomorrow…..shout outs to my home boy Quentin up in Flint…..he is getting married Saturday and even though I am going to miss it, I want to wish you and your wife to be many blessings…love you bro!!...........

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Love yall!!!!


Church!!!!!

PAPER, PLASTIC, OR ORIGAMI

I have done absolutely a lot of nothing today……how are you doing today??....im good…told I had bags under my eyes….but I promise I slept at least 5 hours last night…….and I took a powernap when I got home yesterday….man, that felt so good…….the day has gone by pretty fast and I am now awaiting my moment when I can log out and get to the crib……..even though I wont be there long…….

Tonight I will be hosting at Murphy’s for the T.A.M’s…….that’s Texas Artist movement 6 min showcase…….they will be giving away slots on their mixtape, studio time, as well as entry into other events they will be having…..the show starts at 10……and it $5 to get in and another 5 if you wanna perform…….come on out and get ya rhymes on….remember you only have 6 minutes to perform……….

I NEED EVERYONE’S ATTENTION!!!!!!.......DJ LADY JA-ROQ’S OPEN MIC SHOWCASE HAS MOVED TO WEDNESDAYS!!!.......COME ON OUT TO ROLLS ROYCE OFF 635 AND SKILLMAN AND SHOW US WHAT YOU HAVE!!!!.......WE ARE STILL GIVING AWAY $250…..AND NOW, WE ARE ALSO LETTING YOU HAVE YOUR OWN 15 MINUTES SHOWCASE SLOT…..FOR DETAILS, YOU HAVE TO BE THERE……DOORS OPEN AT 10!!............DONT BE LATE KNUCKLEHEADS!!!!!!..........ALSO IF YOU ARE UNDER 21 AND WANT TO PERFORM, YOU CAN!!!!.......ADMISSION FOR THE YOUNGINS IS $15…YOU WILL HAVE TO WEAR A BRACELET SO WE CAN DIFFERIENTIATE BETWEEN THE TWO…….

Because of the discrepancy of last week, let me state the terms of the Open Mic…..it will last for 7 weeks….we will have 6 winners and on the 7th week, we will have our finals…if you win the preliminary round, you will get a featured slot the next week and you are automatically entered into the finals……if you win tomorrow night, you do not win $250…….OKAY??!......sheesh!!!...........

What are the purpose of hints?......aren’t those just for game shows??......I ask because I am getting tired of using them and I am getting tired of them being handed to me…….I didn’t ask for them…….kinda like a fast food restaurant……..they give this and tell you it’s the same thing in the picture…no its not…its smaller…….it doesn’t look as juicy…….and it does fill me up….if you got something to say, SAY IT!!..........

Got a phone call today about getting paid shows………YIPPIE!!!!.........then I was told I have to pay to get paid…….AWWWWW!!!!........I got too excited way too quick…….but who knows??.....the way God has been blessing me, I may have a check in my mailbox when I get home that will cover the amount…..and I know if I am able to perform at the gig, I will definitely have the band behind me….who needs a voice over track??........I needed to do something else since the producer I made most of the songs with don’t want to give me just the beats…….that’s mature, I know…….hating……but once again, God blesses those that are blessings……….

Why do I wonder why……………

I almost forgot…………….HAPPY 420 EVERYBODY!!!....WHOOOO-HOO!!!!!!.........

Okay, I’m back……..I often wonder why I think about if people think everything I write is about me…….its easy to say that people want to create news or situations……but why do I choose to defend myself at times or even articulate that its not about me………I write because I think………I think because I am living…and I don’t see anything wrong with that……..I felt that my blogs do give enough insight on my life without giving all…….I have clearly refrained from certain topics but yet when I do display characteristics of those topics, I must be talking about myself…….negative…..I talk about life….I do talk about things, I hear…or see……or even been apart of….but not now………life is so wonderful to me and I appreciate everything that happens….even when I was a nervous wreck last week, I still had some joy in the struggle….I should have had more…….but what can I say…I’m working on my faith game…….talking and living are TWO different things……..

Do I want to get Popeye’s tonight for a dollar……or do I want to cook Pork Chops….decisions, decisions……….

Well, I have successfully allowed myself to spend too much time rambling….good job ship……..big ups to my DJ…….DJ LADY JA-ROQ!!!!........FREE JA-ROQ!!!!!.......

And now for the one and only………..Rika’s Quote of the Day……………………

“Fall seven times, stand up.”

I had to think about this one for a minute…then I realized the first time you fall, you are already standing up……shhh!!!....don’t talk about me……..

Shout outs to my girl KD…I hope you are doing better love……understand I am praying for you and I have a lot of smiles on my face because of you…..your heart is made of gold and I want you to know that God sent me an angel………..

And Danielle…..I am happy that your surgery went well today……it wasn’t about me doing a good deed….I was obligated……after all God has don for me, I would have been a horrible person not to assist you……..lets take over the world!!!!!.............

Love yall!!!!!!!!



Church!!!!!!!

A BIG BOWL OF CROW AND A SIDE OF SHIP FRIED RICE

I am having a pretty good day!!.......actually, I have been on a high since Friday…….as most of you know I went to church…and in the small amount of time I was there, it created a great release of a lot of emotions I have been holding on to and it was bogging me down……..how are you all doing?...I hope you all had a great weekend….for me, even with all this rain, the sun was still shining……..its crazy how perspectives can differ so quick…..I think its all about opportunity………..

So like I said, I went to Friday……..I told one of my friends and the first thing they said is, “it don’t mean anything. You aint gonna go long.”…….or something in that regard…and I got to thinking……”why are you even in my social circle?”……….but I begin to realize how much we don’t grow because of people not expecting us to grow………so many times, we expect everything to change…..from our pay scale, to the type of car we drive, to the type of people we date….but when it comes to our inner being, we are the ones that attempt to decide who will be who……..the amazing part about that is that we end being so judgmental, we don’t even see it……..this is not my journey into higher righteousness, simply a point of view from someone who struggles with himself on a daily basis…….I know there has been times when I did something because it was expected of me…….when I was Hustle Man, I was expected to be a hustler…..when I was Countrytime, everybody on campus knew I was crazy and tactless…..Spaceship Ohayses is a heartless, creative genius……something like a mad scientist………and yet, I spend more time proving to people they are right than proving it to myself………when are we going to actually start loving people we say we love…….we will I finally lose the fear of losing friends simply because something in my lifestyle changes??...........

That’s another thing….how much of a friend are you if you are too busy insisting on someone doing something that are questioning??.........I relate a lot of this to myself because its what I think about…….I have people I am cool with…..some think we are closer than what reality dictates……..but if my well being is not in your cards, how much do you care about me……yes, I smoke or drink but what if one day………(coughing)……..(swallowing)…….(gathering my thoughts)……..what if one day, I decide to quit…why should I have you in my life if you are pressuring me to do it?.......do what you want….I definitely wont knock you because I have been there……but don’t try to force me into it……when I am done…..typically I am done………..

Hush Bianca!!!........

Well let me finish off my weekend….so we had the concert Saturday….WHAT SHOULD BE ON THE RADIO PART II……..I would say if you missed it, I understand…but I’m not by evidence of the 200 + people we had in there……man I had so much fun…..I even got to play with a rock band……yes I had a band to cover “I Am Ohayses!!”…….it was a rush like none other…..I remember playing with the band when I performed and hosted at the Sterling Hotel……but they were soft jazz…..neo soul…….these were Linkin Park type players here……I want to say congratulations to Global Takeover as well as Madame Ice for winning the competitions that night….and too everybody that came out and supported in the rain………I was on a whole other level that night…….I can wait for Part III………..

I almost got my cell phone down pat……even without reading the manual….NOW!!!!.......(sticking my tongue out)……….

Am I the only person that trips going up stairs?......so embarrassing…………

Well…me and my tangent butt forgot to finish my story……..I know I mentioned to you guys that I want to start running my own clubs……..as of today, I have three opportunites to host my own clubs…….and they will not be simply open mics…..that’s the one thing I honestly don’t wanna do……I am an entertainer…….I have so much more to offer than being harassed about when a group is going on…….now don’t get me wrong……I love open mics…I love the underground…….I love the music……but how many can I truly host that I can profit from?...........when you have people that don’t know you that well telling you they see the destiny, we have to take heed…….and when you have people that know you asking what you are waiting for, you have to take heed………I know I am not a saint…….(waiting for the laughter to cease)………but I do believe God is preparing me for this next level……………

I NEED EVERYONE’S ATTENTION!!!!!!.......DJ LADY JA-ROQ’S OPEN MIC SHOWCASE HAS MOVED TO WEDNESDAYS!!!.......COME ON OUT TO ROLLS ROYCE OFF 635 AND SKILLMAN AND SHOW US WHAT YOU HAVE!!!!.......WE ARE STILL GIVING AWAY $250…..AND NOW, WE ARE ALSO LETTING YOU HAVE YOUR OWN 15 MINUTES SHOWCASE SLOT…..FOR DETAILS, YOU HAVE TO BE THERE……DOORS OPEN AT 10!!............DONT BE LATE KNUCKLEHEADS!!!!!!..........

Even though I still have some time left, ima let yall go……but I have been conversing with most of yall today……lol…they dun messed up now…….but before I go I want to give a special shout out to Rika…….who has displayed how authentic and real she is…I appreciate it and your contributions will not go in vain…..but here it is……….Rika’s Quote of the Day……………

“Its not that I’m smart, it’s that I stay with problems longer.”

Rest if you must….but don’t you quit!!!......................

Shout outs and happy birthday wishes to my girl Asha….I am so excited that you will be here this weekend…we have to definitely kick it!!.......I pray you had an awesome birthday and if you need a tour guide, I am your man…….and tell Big Toni I said hello!!!..........

Love you!!!!


Church!!!!!

SEARCHING FOR A NEW FLASHLIGHT

I’m here…I promise….how are you doing today?.....im still in my funk…..but I know its my fault……I have to get out of it…but most of the news I have been getting this week has been irritating…….and the problem is….I made it that way...things cant irritate you if you don’t let it……and I have…..I think I am somewhere in between a pre mid life crisis and a nervous breakdown….my focus over the next few weeks is too get over this mountain……relax more and become more focus on the goals at hand……..

So last night, we and my boy Dre roll up to this club and have a drink…we needed to talk about some upcoming business venture we have coming up……we only stayed thirty minutes cause the spot wasn’t that jumping and it was real hood…..so as we leave we notice this white girl and black girl scuffling….out of no where….SMACK!!!!!.....the white girl puts all her palm in the black girl’s face…next thing you know, they are scrapping all over the parking lot….Dre and I are rolling!!........the guys they are with are trying to break up the fight but by now the black girl is dragging the white girl all over the curb…….finally the guys break up the fight……the black girl’s boyfriend comes over there and makes sure his girl is okay…

WAIT FOR IT!!!!..............

WHAP!!!!!.........he smacks her in the back of her head demanding to know why she would pull a stunt like that…….she hits her again awaiting an answer and pulls her by the hair to get in the car…..at no time did she resist his actions….she was too busy asking the white girl what she slap her for………sad…….just sad…….so the situation calms down…….I leave…….about 20 minutes later I get a phone call from Dre who stayed around to see the after effects….he says the funniest thing happen…..the black girl, apparently when asked about the events made a proclamation……”I know he still loves me!!”………..

I don’t know the point of this story but it was funny….you had to be there….how dare her….how dare him…..how dare our society……..

So I have a busy weekend lined up….tonight…..and yes I am going to say it now…..I will be going to the Potter’s House…my homegirl has invited me over and over to come fellowship with her…well, tonight is the night….and after drinking some truth serum, I will say…..I need it…I don’t know why my dumb butt don’t go more often…..everything that is rocky in my life right now is because of my relationship with God…..yeah I love him…and I pray…when I can stay focused……..but I need to release……I am so full you guys…….the pain that is stirring on the inside needs a place to go so I can continue living…….because there are times where I truly feel like I am dying…..and when there is no one to call on, I have to lean on him…..but I hate when I feel like I am using him…….and that’s what I feel when I don’t offer everything to him…..its easy to say “thank you Lord” when something good happens…..I want to be sincere when I say it while I am going through my storm……..he never leaves me so why do I leave him…….I think my relationship with people is tied directly with Him…….I have to have a better commitment……..to him, to you all, to my loved ones………

DON’T FORGET, THIS SATURDAY, SPACESHIP OHAYSES WILL BE LIVE IN CONCERT!!!......”WHAT SHOULD BE ON THE RADIO PART 2” WILL BE TAKING PLACE AT ROB’S BILLIARDS AND SPORTS BAR IN FT WORTH, TX……..13930 TRINITY BAR IS THE ADDRESS……….DOORS OPEN AT 9, SHOW STARTS AT 10…….IT WILL BE PACKED WITH SOME OF THE BEST ARTIST AROUND!!!.....IF YOU DON’T KNOW, YOU NEED TO BE THERE IN PERSON…COST IS $5 ALL NIGHT LONG!!!!....$5, CMON YOU DON’T HAVE IT??..........TRUST YOU WILL TOTALLY ENJOY YOURSELF…….

And Sunday I will be having an Essential Entertainment meeting to go over our summer plans…..be afraid…be very afraid……….

Well I am about to leave so I will let you all go…..I know, not much to talk about but you will be okay………

Today’s once again, I have two quotes……..and I love both of them…..the first is our usual……Rika’s Quote of the Day……………….

“I may not be there yet, but I am closer than I was yesterday.”

And my girl Alsace sends me quotes everyday so I love this one……………

“Opportunity is something most people would recognize if it wasn’t disguised as hard work.”

I love both of them….two totally different people and both of their quotes are geared for me………

Well I am out….shout outs to my girl Courtney……I will see you tonight darling……..and Consuello……..love you (in my Barry White voice)………..

Love yall……………


Church!!!

PUTTING WHIPPED CREAM ON A PILE OF TRASH

So I don’t know how to feel today……I don’t feel good….but I think that is the fault of my own……im in a good mood…but I just want sleep…how are you all doing today……its Thursday, so that means one more day until the weekend…….I have had a lot on my plate this week and I promise I am just waiting until its over……its okay though….all storms passed……..and soon, this one will as well………

Had a great night last night…..and for me, I think it is the source of why I feel like this……someone decided that last night was the night to repay me for my birthday…..he told me he was going to take care of me and the next thing I know, 5 shots of patron was in my system…..terrible right?.......yeah, I know……..but beggars cant be choosers…..that’s what granny used to say to me……and on top of that, the club did not have Heinekens!!!.......are you serious….very…and I was not happy about it to say the least…had to drink a Coors light……such a different flavor……but the acts were awesome…..the crowd came out and supported everyone….and all enjoyed themselves…except for one……..and the funny thing is, they were the ones that won……

Apparently, they thought they were going to win the $250 last night…..and of course, when someone thinks something, you can never be wrong…..and they were highly upset…….said they were going to put our open mic on blast for lying…..the thing is, they don’t want to come back and perform……..it was supposed to be a one night stand to make some quick cash…….yeah, the club was poppin but we have been doing this for three years and this is the first time somebody has mistaken how we award winners….will they com3e back for their feature?.....who knows……matter of factly…..who cares…their loss……..I knew something was up when they kept asking who was the judges…you don’t need to know…and no, im not one of them……….

The other day I was at Dave and Busters……there was this basketball team there and they were in the gift shop flying everywhere, looking at everything and deciding how they were going to spend their winnings…..the sales clerk told them that they didn’t have to use all their tickets if they didn’t want to…..they could save them for another day……I doubt that they heard her…they kept trying to find things that would enable them to leave their Dave and Buster’s card there…….then it hit me….these young men recognize that they may not come back to this place again….their happiness was refreshing because it was authentic…..they were at a place that most of them had probably never been…….doing something they probably would never do again…..or until they have their own finances to do it…….my spirit became overwhelmed because we rarely recognize things like that…….being able to go and come as we please, we don’t take the time to appreciate the little things….everyone does not have the same resources….we are all not from the same background……we must take into account other people’s story…..in the end, it’s what each and everyone of us great…………

I called my mom the other day….and we had an actual conversation…….it was crazy because when she asked how I was doing, I realized she didn’t even know I had been to jail….that’s how rarely we talk…….I started to think about the blogs she didn’t like…in particular, the book……she tells me she reads them, but I was wondering how often……its easy for someone to find out when there is something written about them…..when it doesn’t concern them, its easier to turn a blind eye…….we had a good conversation and I am praying God turn things around for her…..her faithfulness to him is going to get her across the bridge………this is a start…..and if I am the one that has to make the attempt……I will….I have too……..

I am so sleepy….and I have to go home and burn some CDs for one of my co workers so I probably will be up until 1 doing that………things we do for money…..remember, if you do need any music, make sure you get at me….I got any and everything you need……

This is not a shout out but I want you to pray for Stephanie’s grandmother…..she is going through some things and even though I know God’s will shall be done, prayer is always encouraged……when you pray tonight, say a little prayer for her…..that her predicament is temporary and no weapon formed will prosper………..

And before I get to Rika’s quote…I have another one for today that I truly liked…….

“You must learn from the mistakes of others. You can’t possibly live long enough to make them all yourself.”

Everything that happens to people aren’t just for them…….sometimes we are made examples of so that it wont happen again……remember if you don’t learn from history, you are bound to repeat it………….

And now………Rika’s Quote of the Day………………………………………

“When the world says give up, HOPE says give it one more shot”

Before I get beat up…..shouts out to my babe Lena Faye……yesterday was her birthday and in my haste, I forgot to acknowledge it……this is one of the most important people in my life….I call her my conscience…….I can confide in her and she does the same to me….some people act like they know you and some people KNOW you KNOW you…….she KNOWS me….and for that, I cant hide who I am…..my feelings, my joys, my successes……..I thank you…I love you…and I cant wait until you come down here and kick it with me again…….HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!


Love yall!!!!!


Church!!!!

THE LAWS OF UNINTENTIONAL DISTRACTIONS

IT’S TONIGHT BABY!!!!!!.......DJ LADY JA-ROQ’S OPEN MIC SHOWCASE HAS MOVED TO WEDNESDAYS!!!.......COME ON OUT TO ROLLS ROYCE OFF 635 AND SKILLMAN AND SHOW US WHAT YOU HAVE!!!!....9220 SKILLMAN STREET.......WE ARE STILL GIVING AWAY $250…..AND NOW, WE ARE ALSO LETTING YOU HAVE YOUR OWN 15 MINUTE SHOWCASE SLOT…..FOR DETAILS, YOU HAVE TO BE THERE……DOORS OPEN AT 10!!............DONT BE LATE KNUCKLEHEADS!!!!!!..........

I am really feeling good right now!!!!......and I hope you all are too…..im thinking, my dilemma may be over…for now…..may be getting myself in some deep ish…….but I think there is a light at the end of the tunnel…..I am learning that there are resources in some of the most unlikely places………and its awesome…you know yesterday, I asked what was God trying to tell me……once I open my eyes, more things will be revealed……

How are you all doing today?.....I pray your Wednesday has been good…….the weather will get you in trouble at times like this…….and don’t be missing unnecessary work!!!......

ALSO, THIS SATURDAY, SPACESHIP OHAYSES WILL BE LIVE IN CONCERT!!!......”WHAT SHOULD BE ON THE RADIO PART 2” WILL BE TAKING PLACE AT ROB’S BILLIARDS AND SPORTS BAR IN FT WORTH, TX……..13930 TRINITY BAR IS THE ADDRESS……….DOORS OPEN AT 9, SHOW STARTS AT 10…….IT WILL BE PACKED WITH SOME OF THE BEST ARTIST AROUND!!!.....IF YOU DON’T KNOW, YOU NEED TO BE THERE IN PERSON…COST IS $5 ALL NIGHT LONG!!!!....$5, CMON YOU DON’T HAVE IT??..........TRUST YOU WILL TOTALLY ENJOY YOURSELF…….

I almost forgot…and this is a big concert for the Dallas area…it is an opportunity for people to really see the artistry that is comprised in this city……not trying to talk down on anybody…..every style is art……I prefer not to make dance music…I grew up on the premise of hip hop….and if that is what you like, you should come check me and my friends out this Saturday…………

“I’m thinking of a masterplan”………………

And it will soon be here…….last night, I ended up going to Murphy’s…now you know I have not been up there since we moved locations….and apparently, he is doing other things on that night now……but once he saw my face, he knew he missed me……and some of my regulars were up there too……I missed them as well…….the promoter for the evening had no clue who I was……..I found out it was because the camp I used to be in, chose not to tell him about me…….he had no idea the talent that was dwelling in me…….he knows now….and he saw first hand the relationship I have with the artist……and it made me think….why am I not hosting my own club somewhere???........

When do you know you are been taken for granted…….thinking about this month so far…..as great as I know I am…there is no reason for me to be struggling…….I know my worth in this game but yet, I am still begging and clawing to make ends meet…..and no matter how much love I have for people…something needs to change……I cant keep struggling for gas and bills when I know I will need it in my life……once you up your game, you have to present yourself in a certain way or people will run over you…….and that can not happen…..hell, Stephanie is gonna stay in my ear ensuring it doesn’t happen…..baby need new shoes……..

All artist that are looking to get maximum exposure….I have a inexpensive way to get you on a mixtape…….if you want information on how to not only get on a mixtape, but also be on the cover, get at me……..I am learning that I cant disclose all information on here because the haters are thieves too!!!!.....so get at me if you are serious about your craft……….

Sometimes I hear people wonder why they haven’t got on yet….maybe its because your grind isn’t up to par….some of these artist that we think shouldn’t be on the radio are there because they put there music in people’s face……….and yet, we sit there to stuck on complaining to move……..faith without works is dead…remember that………

Well I don’t have much longer at work…..got real busy today so the blog is coming a little later than usual……

Here it is………….Rika’s Quote of the Day…………………………..

“Life is not about waiting on the storm to pass. It’s about learning how to dance in the rain!”

I know yall liked that one…I sure did…brought a smile to my face when I read it……..we can rush a storm…….and we cant waddle in it either…..lets celebrate the life changes we are able to be a part of…..sunny days will be here again…………

Shout outs to my homies Audacious, Lady B Smoove, and Kia D………..you ladies are the epitome of grinders…..you may not know it, but yall are my role models…..I promise ima pop up at one of your shows………..

Love yall!!!!!

Church!!!!!

WINE, WOMEN, AND NAKED BONES

If it aint one thing its another…..H, I know…….but a man has to have principals…feel like I’m going to have to whoop some youngster’s ass up here at work…….and you know, they say you never know what a person is going through….and today is not the day for the mess……..

****wow…H just called…….I almost forgot….I’m a CEO……I don’t have time to be bothered with these peons up here……their destiny is this place…this is just a rest area for me………if I was him, I would hate my life too****

How are you all doing today?.....I do apologize for starting today’s blog off with drama……some of you know what’s going on……and as I mentioned, today was not the day for the foolishness…….but I’m calm now….I am really thinking someone wants to be made an example of…..but I know how I can get…..you may not….but those from the 810 and even some from the sip understand that statement……my cruelty doesn’t just come out in jokes…….I hope you all are having a great day today…..the sun is shining……wind is blowing……and they gave out free movie candy today!!...you know, those big boxes…..look like they bought em from Sam’s Club…….

Well, I got home yesterday and had a notice on my door…….yep, that notice…..and I was so bummed out yesterday…..I was ready to pack my stuff up and just leave Dallas……since I have been here, I have done my very best to live the straight and narrow…..growing up, I did what I had to, not only to survive, but have more than the needed…..ballin is what we call it……after graduation, I decided to clean myself up…of course, I was teaching, but I was tired….tired of hustling….tired of random people coming to my house…..tired of being paranoid……..tired of being a d boy…….so I haven’t sold a piece of weed in 6 years……..yesterday, was the first day I thought about it again……DON’T WORRY!!! I’M NOT!!!!......and the reason I’m not is because I have some awesome people in my life……when I was younger, I guess I supplemented my feelings with money…..now that the money is not as long as it used to be, I am revealed……….without the fame, the money, the television show, the music, I guess I am human…….and as much as we know right from wrong, sometimes we need to hear it…….and we need to know that somebody cares about us…….I knew it was coming…..dealing with the jail situation and having to get my car out of impound, I was suspect about the check bouncing…so when I pulled up to my house after work, I saw a note taped to my door….I already knew what time it was…….I just didn’t know how I was going to get myself out of it…….and then I was hit with it………

GOD IS TRYING TO TELL ME SOMETHING!!!...........

The hard part about life is figuring out what he is sayin and taking the time to be still and listen……..and that’s something I have trouble doing…..and when He does speak, I need to act…….the world was built with hills and valleys so as much as you go up in life, you are guaranteed to come back down…….no elevator stays on the top floor…unless it’s broken……….maybe my movement needs to be geared in another direction……..maybe my mentality is in the wrong place…..whatever the case may be, I know I need to walk in my destiny and not just say it……He has a lot of good things in store for me but I cant receive them if I don’t open my heart to his goodness……..

I was told today I have a foot fetish…….BUT I HATE FEET!!!.......is that a fetish…..she told me every time a woman walks pass me, I look at their feet……I think feet can define a woman’s character…….what does it say if you choose to wear open toe shoes but don’t choose to have them done properly…….yes, you can take the polish off….or you can do them yourself…..if you have a sturdy hand….but chipped toenail polish….seriously??......and that is supposed to be attractive to whom?........and you can say, “well my man don’t complain”….you know why?....he doesn’t want to hear your mouth….there is nothing cute about a woman having her toes out looking like they just played kickball with open paint cans…….NOTHING………..

Why am I still getting text messages in the middle of the day asking me what I am doing???.....it’s called work nimrod!!!..........

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I NEED EVERYONE’S ATTENTION!!!!!!.......DJ LADY JA-ROQ’S OPEN MIC SHOWCASE HAS MOVED TO WEDNESDAYS!!!.......COME ON OUT TO ROLLS ROYCE OFF 635 AND SKILLMAN AND SHOW US WHAT YOU HAVE!!!!.......WE ARE STILL GIVING AWAY $250…..AND NOW, WE ARE ALSO LETTING YOU HAVE YOUR OWN 15 MINUTES SHOWCASE SLOT…..FOR DETAILS, YOU HAVE TO BE THERE……DOORS OPEN AT 10!!............DONT BE LATE KNUCKLEHEADS!!!!!!..........

ALSO, THIS SATURDAY, SPACESHIP OHAYSES WILL BE LIVE IN CONCERT!!!......”WHAT SHOULD BE ON THE RADIO PART 2” WILL BE TAKING PLACE AT ROB’S BILLIARDS AND SPORTS BAR IN FT WORTH, TX……..13930 TRINITY BAR IS THE ADDRESS……….DOORS OPEN AT 9, SHOW STARTS AT 10…….IT WILL BE PACKED WITH SOME OF THE BEST ARTIST AROUND!!!.....IF YOU DON’T KNOW, YOU NEED TO BE THERE IN PERSON…COST IS $5 ALL NIGHT LONG!!!!....$5, CMON YOU DON’T HAVE IT??..........TRUST YOU WILL TOTALLY ENJOY YOURSELF…….

Well, I think im going to leave on that note…….woosah……pressure points……..

And here it is people……….Rika’s Quote of the Day……………..

“If you want to get ahead, you must first get started.”

This is my motto……for now on….in order to succeed or fail, you have to put in the effort………

Major shout outs to Ms Rhonda and Quita……..thank you so much for all you do………Rhonda, the glory of the Lord is shown in (almost) every word you speak……I thank God for given me the opportunity to get to know you and for you to be in my life….Quita……what can I say……..I hope you are having a great day!!! LOL…that you for everything…..even putting a smile on my face when I promise I don’t want one there…………

Love yall!!!!!!


Church!!!!!!!

RESERVATIONS AT A FAST FOOD JOINT

Howdy folks!!......how are you all doing today…..yes I know…I didn’t even attempt to do the video blog…….I was being lazy this weekend…well sort of…….how are you all doing today?.......did you even miss me a little??.......I didn’t think so…….its cool…..I missed yall!!!!!.......and I couldn’t wait to write…but seeing that I am at work a little longer, I decided to try to wait to write so that when I am finish, work is almost over for me/………I pray you all had a safe weekend……..I didn’t do much…..kicked it with Jayla and opened some doors………

So the ball is rolling….the plan is coming to fruition…very shortly folks, my comedy spectacular will be in effect…..this will not be for the faint at heart……this is something that I am looking forward to doing on a monthly basis…I have a meeting tonight with a club owner….pray for me…..I can admit I was in a rut for a split second…..not knowing what I was going to do next…but now I have a few ideas…..actually, a bunch of ideas…..I have been working for other people for so long, its become a habit……even when it comes to hosting……now I know I need to get my own night……do my own thing….and see if I can sink or swim……I love hosting and performing but the money is not what that is right now….and reality is, I need to get my worth…….so now, is the time…..either you sink or swim with Essential Entertainment……..

Am I bitter?....not in the least…but I have caught myself worrying about you all not coming to shows or if you are reading the blog……if you are too busy looking at the fly on the windshield, you will miss the traffic in front of you…….so I have to focus on my destination…….an I hope you guys continue this journey and come out and support……the music is still bumping….the ringtones are out…….the shows are everywhere…….all you need to do is take that chance to give your eyes and ears some much needed release from the norm……………

OOOOOOOOOOOOOOHHHHHH!!!....why did I watch some of that “to catch a predator” series last night…….it was so sad…..now I know there is an answer for this question, but why would a grown ass man take, condoms, liquor, rope, duct tape, and an overnight bag to a 12 year old girls house??.........like seriously…what’s sexy about a 12 year old…….what is in their mind to want a girl that young……..and if I come to your house…wait…nevermind…I’m not coming to your house…..for NO REASON WHATSOEVER……….I don’t think I have anything in common with a 12 year old boy besides we both pee the same way…….I hope……..so ridiculous………

And why don’t we ever see women preying on young boys…..don’t get it twisted…its out there……..I don’t think we look at it in the same light as the other way around……but its some nasty grown women out here…best believe that……..

I haven’t talked about this subject much this year so I will touch on it very briefly……THE LOS ANGELES LAKERS WILL WIN THE NBA CHAMPIONSHIP AGAIN THIS YEAR!!!!!........don’t think because they aren’t playing their best, that means they are doomed……they are resting themselves……..the Mavs don’t have a chance…..LeBron is not what that is………and the rest of the field…..jokes…..mark my words people……Kobe is not done yet……but the NBA season has been looking good…a lot of surprises and great players stepped up this year………

I NEED EVERYONE’S ATTENTION!!!!!!.......DJ LADY JA-ROQ’S OPEN MIC SHOWCASE HAS MOVED TO WEDNESDAYS!!!.......COME ON OUT TO ROLLS ROYCE OFF 635 AND SKILLMAN AND SHOW US WHAT YOU HAVE!!!!.......WE ARE STILL GIVING AWAY $250…..AND NOW, WE ARE ALSO LETTING YOU HAVE YOUR OWN 15 MINUTES SHOWCASE SLOT…..FOR DETAILS, YOU HAVE TO BE THERE……DOORS OPEN AT 10!!............DONT BE LATE KNUCKLEHEADS!!!!!!..........

ALSO, THIS SATURDAY, SPACESHIP OHAYSES WILL BE LIVE IN CONCERT!!!......”WHAT SHOULD BE ON THE RADIO PART 2” WILL BE TAKING PLACE AT ROB’S BILLIARDS AND SPORTS BAR IN FT WORTH, TX……..13930 TRINITY BAR IS THE ADDRESS……….DOORS OPEN AT 9, SHOW STARTS AT 10…….IT WILL BE PACKED WITH SOME OF THE BEST ARTIST AROUND!!!.....IF YOU DON’T KNOW, YOU NEED TO BE THERE IN PERSON…COST IS $5 ALL NIGHT LONG!!!!....$5, CMON YOU DON’T HAVE IT??..........TRUST YOU WILL TOTALLY ENJOY YOURSELF…….

FYI: I put the address on here….don’t ask me for directions……google them!!!........it is not that hard….and I am not trying to be funny…..but it so much easier that way…..cause I don’t know where it is……and I don’t know when I am performing either!!!!......get there at 9, have some drinks with me, and enjoy the concert!!!!..........

Well, its not time to go yet…….but I think I have written enough…….I think……oh yeah…had some “talks” today with different people….I want yall to know I love you and everything is going to be okay……..don’t worry about so-called friends, especially if they cant build you up…why are we so pessimistic??........I do wonder……..how many times have we truly gotten good advice from someone……does that mean they are hating?.....I’m just asking……….

I love this quote for the day……and here it is for you…….Rika’s Quote for the Day………….

“Don’t let a little dispute injure a great friendship”

Pride is a mother….and sometimes……I have learned…nobody is right…..and nobody has to be………love covers a multitude of things……..if we let it……..

I have another quote my girl Alsace sent me as well…………….

“I can have peace of mind when I forgive rather than judge”

Stop worrying folks about how somebody did you and for the rest of your days, you are examining their character….get over it and move on…….life is more important than us wasting our time worrying about something inconsequential……….

Shouts outs to my girl Tamisa……she is starting her own Fortune 500 company and needs our support….now I am not racist…but I do believe in helping our own…we can go out and spend hundreds on “name brand” fashions, why not where someone that we know and can relate to…her company is called J’Niche Fashions…….the least you can do is check it out…….and I know her drive and passion…and I am here to endorse her…so if you would like to learn more about what she is doing, feel free to hit her up at: tamisa@jniche.net ………..in unity, there is strength…………

Whew!!....promise I’m done……….

Love yall!!!


Church!!!

MY EMOTIONS NEED TO GET THE SURGERY!!!

Happy Friday to you all…..how is your day going??.......I’m still in one of those moods….well, not really…had Chinese for lunch and I’m still full….cant barely move…….that’s what I get for being on this one-a-day diet……..I will try to eat tonight….doubt it but I will try…..I’m excited it’s the weekend….I have a lot of things to do and a lot of contemplating this weekend……and of course Jayla will be over so I hope to make enough time to do something fun with her……I hope you all are safe and have fun this weekend…..it seems like its going to be a beautiful weekend…then again, this is Texas…it may end up snowing!!!.........

I would like to say thank you to those that responded to my blog yesterday……now I do not want to be misunderstood……that was not a sob story….it is a realization of who I am….a release…..we all have flaws and I think by now, I should know what mine are……I understand the inner battle going on in my soul between good and evil…..and yes it is hard….sometimes I ask myself why is so hard…..but the answer is clear…..God has a mighty calling on my life……(yes Courtney, I do know!!)……..my destiny, although not totally revealed to me yet, is very powerful……..I know that I am still in training……but you only train for so long…..I don’t want to be put into the cross fire without all me necessary weapons……..

To those that shows support and love…thank you……even the butthole in me loves you!!!...it is you all that keep me focused…….sometimes, I do feel alone…I am human……and when it boils down to it, the only person I truly feel I have in my life is Jayla….but God has given me so many more friends than I could imagine…..and when I think about the greatness of all of you, I realized that I am in good favor with Him……..

I need a vacation……I really need a vacation……even though I went home for my granny’s funeral, it was a vacation…..I was there with things on my mind…….I was told when I came back from Michigan, I was a different person…uh yah!!.......my life had completely changed……even when my grandfather was alive, he was not the person I talked to about my maturity….he was not the one that would give it to me straight……he was not the one that would tell me his feeling from his inclinations…..it was my grandmother……and without her, there is a major void in my life……they were my parents and until you lose BOTH of your parents, I don’t think someone would know how I feel….even yesterday, I felt my grandmother rubbing my back, telling me it would be okay……..I look up and I see her smiling…she is on my phone…..a reminder to watch my mouth…she is listening!!!.............

So the other day I watched, “Why Should I Get Married Too?”…….please don’t ask why….I was sincerely bored at home so I decided to turn it on as I fell asleep……but I didn’t……watched the whole thing…..and my honest opinion of the movie…..it was a pretty good movie….except for the end……now before I discuss what happened, is there anyone that has not seen the movie???.......oh okay….I don’t see any hands…good……the movie showed me exactly what I thought all along…..women are CRAZY!!!!.......stop blaming someone because of what you THINK……..never put a man’s shortcomings in his face……its not a pride thing, it’s a man thing…….the same way you don’t want us to call you fat AFTER you ask us do we think you fat……don’t remind a man of where he is failing…and especially seek help in your ex…idiot!!!!.......and don’t think we don’t pay attention to you…..we know more than you give us credit for….the only difference is, we watch, you guys say…or beat around the bush to it……..once we get fed up, we are going to ask…please believe that……..but yes it was a good movie……I recommend no man watch this movie……..

And last night I watched Law-Abiding Citizen……very good…now this is a movie I am going to watch again….I wasn’t paying attention all the way through……but what I did see, it was awesome……I am just wondering why they couldn’t do anything once he killed the dude with the steak bone…….there isn’t an automatic death penalty for something like that??........

I think when I get home I am going to get wrinkled…..ima soak in the tub and watch Hot Tub Time Machine…..I started watching that but of course, I fell asleep……so I will be watching that…….maybe…….once wrestling is over…….if not, there is always tomorrow….and no, this is not going to become a ritual…….but it is cheaper than going to the movies……….

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And now….Rika’s Quote of the Day……………….

“If everyone thought alike, then no one would have to do much thinking-be creative”

I’m truly thinking about doing a video blog this weekend……when? Where?.....I have no clue….but look out for it…….you may see it on www.youtube.com/spaceshipohayses .......I’m just saying............

Well I am about to get out of here…..shout outs to my girl Krystal Shanti…….after all these years and you still stand beside me….the true character of a person is defined by how they feel about you through adversity……thank you for always lifting me up……love you!!!!.........

Love yall!!!!!!


Church!!!!

WHY DID I GET DIVORCED??

When I was 12 years old, I remember being outside playing in the garden at my grandmother’s house…….on one of her roses, appeared a ladybug………I was absolutely terrified of ladybugs………..but for some reason, this particular, I was not running from……..there was this pepper jelly jar that stayed in the garage…..never had anything in it, it simply tanned when we opened the garage door…….I grabbed this jar and proceeded to guide that ladybug into that jar…….my grandmother called………I hurried and closed the jar and placed in it the garage………..I ran back to help my grandmother pull some weeds and went about my day…………………

That ladybug never took another fresh breath of air……….sometimes we have to let things breathe……sometime we have to let things out………you can’t keep putting air in a tire……….a lot of my writings have been compromised…….a lot of my writings have been tainted…….as “mean” as I can be perceived at times, I truly consider the feelings of all parties…….I know, to keep interest, I can’t simply write about my upcoming shows…..hell, most of you don’t come anyway……….I have to write about my heart, my soul, and my mind…..and even when I do this, I still end up misinterpreted and possibly mistaken for taking shots……..I will state now, this blog is not intended for that purpose…………

I know I am an ass……a big one….I know that sometimes I say too much or too little………sometimes I only give my story……and I am wrong for that……”OH!!!!! SPACESHIP DUN GOT CHECKED??!!!!”””……..NO….Spaceship been thinking………..I have been very selfish……..I have restrained myself from completely loving others because of some fear………I want to get this straight first…….this is not just about my blog from yesterday……..but reading my words…sleeping and praying on it, it made the picture bigger…..it’s about Stephanie, Jayla, my momma, my family, and to those of you I call friend…….in 30 years, people have loved me because of my attitude……I have not changed………I have continued to be the funny, blunt, asshole that everyone can count on for something spontaneous and mouth dropping……….I have been known to struggle, to be a prick, to be stern, hard-headed, and stubborn………I always want people to care about me, even as I scream it more…….and there are those of you that do care……….but the question I ask myself is, how long will I hold this grudge………….

As I think about the events of the previous year, and the things I wrote just yesterday, I was wrong……….now, understand that what was written will not be labeled an aberration…..what I am saying is, I need to stop looking at things so negative once they are completed………..why must I look for infinite completion…….this young lady in question, while doing things NOW that I can look on as bad, never gave me an inclination while we were in business that she did not have Essential Entertainment’s best interest in mind…….I stand behind this………she was at one point exceptional at her job and I would not have traded her for a pot of shillings…………..
This blog is not meant to refute my writing of yesterday…….this is my microscope………..
I fear relationships………..I fear allowing someone so close that they know all of me………I do not know why this is……I love you guys…everyone that has had a breath of my body in conversation, God knows I do…….I never intend to hurt and disappoint so many people…….I know a lot of times, a question that we have about me is “Why?”………this is not just a question that I have in physical or emotional relationships……I fear having a relationship with anyone……I have tried…….too many times, I have been shown examples of wanting people to change……but how much have I changed……..this morning I woke up feeling like Janet Jackson in “Why Did I Get Married Too”………I’m the one that is supposed to have all the answers……..today, I have the questions…………

What do I do?.......how do I go about changing the grave danger to my soul?.........I’m 30 now…..I should have got it by now…….why can’t I allow God to give me all that he has for me for fear that I will lose it all?........yeah, I’m a victim of it…….scared of success….I must be…..it’s right there and I won’t grab it……….is the struggle better than the reward in my mind??.............I’ve met HT, I have a beautiful daughter, I work with the hottest acts in the DFW, I am the hottest MC in the business and yet, I’m waiting on something………right now is not the time to spare my feelings…I am becoming a failure……NO, I MA NOT A FAILURE…..BY RECOGNIZING IT NOW, I CAN STOP IT….AND I WILL!!...........

To get what you want, you have to do what you have never done…………
It’s going to be difficult………nothing earned is ever really easy…..but I need to fight……..right now I am in the ring but I’m not throwing any punches……..it’s do or die right now……..I can’t get knocked out………

This is the point in my life where I have to show my character…talking about it is not going to get the job done…….if I say I am a man, I will have to live and make decisions as a man…….I cannot allow my ignorance and selfishness to hinder my growth…….and I vow to not take you all for granted…………….

Not you mom…whom I love dearly……..the person I know gave me life………I LOVE YOU
To Stephanie……the one person that loves me so much that she hates me…….your words hit deep……..I honestly think there is nothing in the world that I could do in my mind to repay you for everything……….I LOVE YOU

To Jayla…….the ONE person I live for…….if it wasn’t for God giving me you, I don’t know where I would be…..for stabilizing my mind…I promise to be a good father to you…..and I have to live as your role model…..I LOVE YOU……

To everyone I have been shallow to…..I sincerely apologize………some of you may say I have never been mean, but if there has been times where I could have been there and I wasn’t, then I was mean….because you have been there for me…..and up until this point, I expected you to be there for me……..because you have been………I will never take your kindness, your words, your jokes, and your support for happenstance…….

And to her……this is my blog….and I vent……but some things should not be aired……and I was wrong……take care of yourself…..continue to be great……….and if God chooses our paths to cross, I pray many questions have been answered by then……..

LOVE YALL!!!!!!!

CHURCH!!!

A HARD HEAD MAKES A SOFT...............

Lol…where do I begin…..I guess I will start off by saying this: this blog may not end up being for the week at heart…..I was truly focused on trying to conjure up something to write about……but, I am human…..and I do have emotions and feelings…..no matter what some of you may think……so, just like anything else that presses my brain, I have to vent……that’s what this thing is for right??.......so if you think I am talking about you in this edition, I probably am…….I can only contain myself for so long you know……

But first, how are you all doing?.......I forgot to tell you all I bought a lottery ticket yesterday……44 million dollars….might as well…..or did I tell yall??......don’t know…….

I’m a liar……or at least I think I am…..I say that because I have lied before….and probably will lie again……I don’t think I am one of those compulsive liars…….you know somebody that lies for no good reason……but I’m a liar none the less…….before you go and judge me, at least I am brave enough to admit it……it took a long time to get there…..and yes, I know it doesn’t make me better than the next person, but don’t you simply hate people that lie for no reason????........over the past 24 hours, I have that there are two distinct type of liars……..one is those that lie to other people…….the second is those that lie to themselves…….I have known a person for over a year and just realized she was on the Jay-Z, R. Kelly album…….yes, she is the best of both worlds………..

Well what do you mean Spaceship??......I will explain……..first, she has been lying to herself……..to truly understand this dilemma, I have to give you a tad bit more information than I normally do….and trust, I don’t like to do that…….she was part of the Essential Entertainment family…….she was someone I could call on and I was sure she had the best interest of the company in mind……egg on my face……looking back now, she became part of this dynasty for one reason: to get close to me……..and I still didn’t mind…to a certain extent……..she worked hard and I felt I could trust her with my life…….to her, though, the things I did and the amenities she received was an offering for a relationship……I ignored it…..but my heart wont let me totally bust her out……maybe after a while, these feeling would disappear……LMAO………

Through events, I saw for myself that this was becoming more than a business venture for her; it was becoming a relationship…….I was told by many people that this was indeed true……but how many times do we not want to see, hear, feel or taste the truth?........c’mon…raise your hands…..I’m single and in my mind, I stayed that way….in her mind, I was hers……..but that’s not the bad part…..the more a relationship played in her mind, the less work was getting done……..now we are starting to see frustrations on my part………

Now this is the lying to herself part…….kind of like the white woman on Obsession….yeah I went there…..the lying to me part??........let me count the ways……..

Talk is cheap….if you say you are going to do something, DO IT!!.......yet, at the end of the day, the progression of Essential Entertainment was being put in jeopardy over emotions………I knew the union was doomed once we discussed the origination of Essential Entertainment…this baby had the nerve to tell me it was “ours”….ours??.....hold on….meaning we…..usses…….together……..as one….she made that up….and the dissension began………from then on, I saw the lack of work ethic, the spending more time partying and lolly gagging than working, and the focus was not on the company…..hmmmmm…..not a good look……so I figured, some time needed to be spent refocusing…….I even gave her a month to get things on her end together!!.......

Instead of getting it together, things fell miserably apart……….

So recently I decided I had to remove her from the company…..it was a hard decision……and honestly not one I wanted to make…..everyone in my circle thought it was a move that should have been done way sooner……..but you don’t find people that believe in your dream everyday….and she did…….but somewhere things change…….was it my fault?....yes……im too nice………

Now even with her leaving the company, we remained friends…..until a few days ago……now, I had already known that she was going through my things……checking my emails, phones, suspecting people of being intimate with me……I didn’t entertain it…hell, she wasn’t my girl……she can look all she wants…….but it was confirmed by a conversation I had with a very important person in my life……..and this is when the straw made the camel need a chiropractor……but wait!! there’s more!!!...........she did some shady things concerning another one of my friends and that’s when I knew the outcome……now the sad part about it is…….WE PROBABLY WONT EVER GET THE TRUE STORY!!!.........instead of simply telling the truth, she lied……and had to tell another lie to cover that one…and another and another and another……energizer bunny lies………..and finally, she brought up how I talked to other chicks and the things I was doing……

OKAY! HOLD THE F UP!!....YOU AINT MY GIRL!!!!!!....AUGHHHHHH!!! NOW THE TRUTH COMES OUT!!!........YOU ARE SCORNED!!!!!!!!.........

And she failed to see the reason for my disgust had anything to do with us per se……..learn not to be a liar and be accountable for your actions……isn’t that the key to maturity??..............

So now, she is history…….and a new chapter is my life begins……..

TONIGHT**TONIGHT**TONIGHT**TONIGHT**……….DJ LADY JA-ROQ’S OPEN MIC SHOWCASE HAS MOVED TO WEDNESDAYS!!!.......COME ON OUT TO ROLLS ROYCE OFF 635 AND SKILLMAN AND SHOW US WHAT YOU HAVE!!!!.......WE ARE STILL GIVING AWAY $250…..AND NOW, WE ARE ALSO LETTING YOU HAVE YOUR OWN 15 MINUTES SHOWCASE SLOT…..FOR DETAILS, YOU HAVE TO BE THERE……DOORS OPEN AT 10!!............DONT BE LATE KNUCKLEHEADS!!!!!!..........

What a blog…….sorry if I bored you….I still aint done with the story….but the major characters know their role……so let me go…here is…….Rika’s Quote for the Day………

“Talk slowly but think quickly”…………….

I had no clue…….this is so ideal!!!!..........you have two ears and one mouth…..do you know why?....to hear twice as mush as you speak……..

Im out…hope to see you all tonight…..shout outs to her………so long…farewell…..avida says goodnight!!!........you know its tough knowing someone wants to be with you and you don’t feel the same……..especially when you do care about that person…….all fairytales have a happy ending…for someone……….

Love yall!!!!!

Church!!!!

I USED 27 PIECES TO BUY ME A DOOBIE!!!

I promise…..these customers come up with the worse excuses……and even worse lies!!!......and somehow, I am supposed to feel sorry for them…..not saying I’m heartless……I just don’t see how you have a business and cant afford your car note(s)……and then on top of that, you in an Escalade…..something wrong with that picture don’t cha think…..and the worse businesses?....you guessed it…….churches….and I don’t mean the chicken joint………its going to take one repo on a Sunday to get them folks straight………how are you all doing today?.......I’m good……tired but that’s because I’m sleepy…kinda liking this new schedule……until the afternoon when everyone besides me leave………but at least I’m not late…….so far that is…..coming in at 9 though, I should not have too many excuses……..

Not much to talk about today…..but don’t I say that everyday??..............

Why does it seem that the older we get, the nosier we get as well??.........I know there are a few people that defy that curve, but golly!!!....everytime I say something at work, I’m hearing a “what you say?” or a “huh?”….I was not talking to you!!!!......that is one of my pet peeves…….and because you are older than me does not mean I wont tell you about yourself…..got a woman that sits by me now that wont even speak anymore…..good!!.......so now she can’t assume I was talking to her!!!!...........

Today at work , I was looking on line at some maps of locations…..for some reason, I decided to look at my granny’s house……and yes, I had a mental breakdown…….I don’t know if it was forced, but it hit me a little harder than usual…….every moment I think about it, I realize a little more that my parents are gone……yes my mother and father are both still alive, but the two people that raised me are not here……I couldn’t even call grandma when I was in jail so she could reject my call!!!!...........

I have a question…and I hope you all are reading this……do you guys support me?........have you listen to the music?....saw the videos?.........have you taken time to pass the blogs to someone that may like to read them (even if you don’t)?........I ask because I really want you all to be a part of this movement……yes, I know you say you are, but let’s be real…if some of you saw me on TV tomorrow, I probably would get a lot more responses and hear about how we have been cool and I’m your boy and all…….but you haven’t been on iTunes….rhapsody……have you been to the facebook?......or how about www.reverbnation.com/spaceshipohayses to hear the album….I don’t say this to vent……I’m speaking realistically……just don’t tell me you support me…actions speak louder than words…we spend a lot of time by computers…… go check out www.youtube.com/spaceshipohayses ......... you are not harming yourself by spending a few minutes to see what all the buzz about….. I guess if I made a game on facebook, I could get your attention then……..

I cant believe I am saying this……congrats to the Duke Blue Devils for being this year’s college national basketball champions…they beat a determined Butler team and it was a really good game……..most people didn’t think Butler would get as far as they did…….it just shows what believing in yourself can do……you don’t have to wait on anybody to gain trust in your abilities…it starts within…..let your little light shine……….

I was told today that I should put Jayla in some Spanish classes……at first, I was like why…then I thought about it…I took Spanish from my 8th grade year in school all the way up to my college days……and I learned how to say hola…….the teacher was teaching it but I didn’t believe I would ever need to know Spanish……I grew up in the hood….lived around hood folks…..and then went to a HBCU…..never thought I would be moving to Texico…….now im paranoid around Hispanics……if you are not talking about me, why cant you speak English…….and why do you keep looking at me!!!........so I am definitely going to consider not only taking her, but trying to sit down for a couple of lessons……….

Well I found out two more of my home girls got that box yesterday….after I blogged…not gonna go into details but I am not happy about it….I mean for them…..I wont be a martyr or anything…just sad to see someone lose their job………

I NEED EVERYONE’S ATTENTION!!!!!!.......DJ LADY JA-ROQ’S OPEN MIC SHOWCASE HAS MOVED TO WEDNESDAYS!!!.......COME ON OUT TO ROLLS ROYCE OFF 635 AND SKILLMAN AND SHOW US WHAT YOU HAVE!!!!.......WE ARE STILL GIVING AWAY $250…..AND NOW, WE ARE ALSO LETTING YOU HAVE YOUR OWN 15 MINUTES SHOWCASE SLOT…..FOR DETAILS, YOU HAVE TO BE THERE……DOORS OPEN AT 10!!............DONT BE LATE KNUCKLEHEADS!!!!!!..........

I actually had someone call me today asking me to host their show on Wednesdays……told him I couldn’t do it…..and it was a tough decision especially with the money he was offering….but the grass isn’t always greener on the other side….loyalty has to count for something doesn’t it?..........or maybe that is my problem………

Well I am about to jump out of here and try to work…..doubt I do but I am going to make a conscience effort…..need that bonus check more than ever now……

So here is ladies, gentleman and the rest of you…..Rika’s Quote of the Day……………….

“Never laugh at anyone’s dream. People that don’t have dreams don’t have much.”

In this world, why would we rather see someone fail?.......it’s hard to have a circle of nothing but encouragers…….not we live in doubt and despair and controversy……..

Well I am going to get out of here……shout outs to Tiger Woods…….he made a mistake…..get over it…..and no he does not have to tell us anything that happened…..he is taking his beating like a man and its frustrating those that want to know more……stop wondering…….some people say its goes with the territory…no it doesn’t………some of us have skeletons begging and knocking to get out of the closet……..let the man be and good luck at the Masters this week………..

Love yall!!!!


Church!!!