Saturday, November 28, 2009

STATE OF SPACESHIP ADDRESS

Yes indeed!!!....Shipper is at work!!!......how are you all doing today?.....how was you evening?.......hope you guys were safe last night and had an awesome time doing whatever it is that you did…..its Saturday so get some rest, clean up and prepare for Monday!!!............

I went out last night as well…..didn’t do much but I realized a lot……I ended up going to Final Friday with the A-Teem…….I got down to the Liquid Lounge and found out they had moved locations…….it was at the Lounge on Elm Street…no biggie….so I get there and I tell Fatz that I wouldn’t be there long…..but I still host a lil……I cant help myself….now Final Friday is a venue where all the respected independent artist in Dallas perform…….for me, its an honor to be asked to host and even perform there…….but last night something got under my skin….allow me to explain……..

Now I understand there is a no smoking ban in the clubs and that’s fine if you want to smoke……but last night, I saw most of the “respected” artist outside chit chatting all night……now I hear a lot about how the industry is in a crisis…..and how up and coming artist don’t understand the meaning of hip hop…..my question is: why should they??......the artist that are accessible…the ones we can converse and learn from…..are too busy reminiscing with there partners to pay attention to the up and comers………last night bothered me because I felt like they put themselves on a pedestal to where their sole purpose was to come perform….and I see that a lot…….it wasn’t to mingle with artist they don’t know….and why is that??.......is wasn’t to support someone on stage…….from the outside looking in, I could understand the frustration of an artist that sees all this great talent ignoring them……when I moved here, I heard about certain artist....saw them perform and gained the utmost respect for them…so when I see them at a mutual show, im excited to show them what I have to offer…….it sucks to be on stage and they are either constantly outside or constantly doing something else besides pay attention to the acts…then when they get on stage, they want everyone to show them love…….isnt that a hypocrite??.........im just saying…………

So when I get off work, ima try my hardest to clean my house…..for some reason, I just cant get it together…….and I know its me…I need to cut the phone off, turn on some music and work hard for about two hours…that’s all it would take if I put my mind to it…….but it seems everytime, I try to clean up my closet, more clothes appear!!!....things I haven’t seen in years!!!.......I need to just go ahead and donate at least 30% of my wardrobe to a charity………that way I shouldn’t have to worry about them again…unless they find their way home……….

Did anybody get beat up during Black Friday??...............

TOMORROW NIGHT…RED EYE DISTRICT ALONG WITH ESSENTIAL ENTERTAINMENT PRESENTS PIMPEN’S BIRTHDAY BASH!!!!!!....ITS GOING DOWN AT THE GREEN ELEPHANT……ITS ON DYER STREET OFF OF GREENVILLE AVENUE….WE WILL BE HAVING THE ULTIMATE TEAM FREESTYLE BATTLE AS WELL AS A BIKINI CONTEST……$3.75 U CALL ITS ALL NIGHT LONG!!!.......COME ON OUT AND PARTY WITH US!!...I GUARENTEE THIS WILL HELP YOU CAP OFF YOUR THANKSGIVING WEEKEND JUST RIGHT…….DOORS OPEN AT 10………IT WILL BE STANDING ROOM ONLY!!!.........

No quote today………..bummer I know right…….

Shouts out to my homie Lena Faye…I love you so much and am so happy you are in my life……..when you coming back down here!!!!!!........and I need you to get some work done for me!!!!.....gotta get ready for the New Year!!!.........

Make sure you guys become a follower on my blogspot……..www.spaceshipohayses.blogspot.com…………

And check out my music on jango if you are not a believer yet!!!!......I NEED YOUR SUPPORT!!!!!!!

Love yall!!!!!

Church!!!!

Friday, November 27, 2009

BLACK FRIDAY, BROKE SATURDAY

Good Friday people!!!......I hope you all are having a great day today……I know some of you haven’t been to sleep since yesterday….waiting in line for Black Friday huh?.....while others, like me, had to work like yesterday was just a minor glitch in our matrix……..the day has gone by rather quick……and its almost time to leave this place…until tomorrow morning that is………..

Let me get this off my chest…I HATE T-MOBILE!!!!.......I have had their service for 5 years and it seems like now they decided to play with my service…missing phone calls…text messages not coming through…….and a few weeks ago, the thing was just flat out not doing anything!!!!!..........can a brother at least get some credit on my bill??........

TONIGHT, I WILL BE AT THE LIQUID LOUNGE FOR FINAL FRIDAY!!!....HEADKRACK OF 97.9 AND HIS SUPERFRIENDS ARE GIVING HIM A GOING AWAY PARTY….HE IS MOVING TO ATLANTA AND TONIGHT IS THE LAST NIGTH TO SEE HIM LIVE IN ACTION……THE LIQUID LOUNGE IS LOCATED AT 2800 MAIN STREET IN DEEP ELLUM…..GET THERE EARLY, THIS THING IS SURE TO SEEL OUT!!!..........

AND IF YOU DON’T FEEL LIKE GOING TO DEEP ELLUM, GO CHECK OUT MS KITTY AND SJ LADY JA-ROQ AT THE ALL NEW ROLLS ROYCE OFF SKILLMAN STREET…….ITS IN THE STRIP MALL ACROSS FROM ARBY’S…LADIES ARE FREE UNTIL 10…AND THE CLUB DOESN’T CLOSE TIL 3!!!.........IF YOU HAVE NEVER PARTIED WITH KITTY AND JA-ROQ, MAKE SURE YOU BRING A TOWEL!!!!!!..........

So I heard through the grapevine that yesterday was Thanksgiving………just kidding…..I did end up cooking…not much though…..ribs, fried and grilled chicken, a ham, green beans, dressing, yams, macaroni and cheese, pistachio salad and a million dollar pie……….I still stayed at home and had no visitors…but I wasn’t as somber as I usually am……I have some great friends…..even if I don’t like them sometimes…..they made sure that my mind wasn’t idle too long to think about negative things……by the time I got done cooking, I was so tired, I just appreciated sitting down and drinking my Heineken……….no, Jayla didn’t come over either….major screw up in communication…but you know, I would rather not even dwell on that……..when it boils down to it, somehow, it will be my fault…….now I am supposed to keep her Saturday…..and I haven’t received a phone call for confirmation on that…….and I wonder at what time tomorrow I will…because I know its coming………..

I want yall to plan on making it out to my show on December 11th as well……..ITS THE INDEPENDENT ARTIST CONCERT AT THE TI VENUE…….I WIL LBE THERE PERFORMING LIVE WITH CHAMP, DEONTE, CAP ACE, STANKE PRODUCTIONS, LIL TEX AND MORE!!!...........DOORS OPEN AT 9:30…….SHOW STARTS AT 11PM…….COST IS $5 BEFOR 10:30…….IM GIVING YOU GUYS ENOUGH TIME TO SET YOUR CALENDARS……I WOULD LOVE TO SEE YOU ALL THERE…….MY PERFOMANCES ARE BASED ON YOU!!!!.....I CANT MAKE IT OVER THIS MOUNTAIN WITHOUT YOU GUYS…………

Now I didn’t get a quote from Rika today but I had another friend send me one based on some dealings that I am going through….it was so good, I decided to put it in the blog today………..

“Don’t plant cactus seeds in your rose garden!”

I absolutely love it…..we have to remember how great we are and we cant plant something in our soul that can destroy our being….be conscious of what you say about yourself and others………..watch what you allow in your life………sometimes we plant the wrong kind of seed………and it can mess up anything else we have been growing and nurturing…………

Well im gone for the day…shouts out to my peoples….THE AMAZING AMATEURS!!!!!........they put on an awesome show last night at the Skillman Street Pub……you know it feels good to know the hottest artists in Dallas…..also I want to give a special happy birthday wish to my homeboy Bowski………this is my brother and I pray you many more candle blowing celebrations!!..............

Love yall!!!!!

Church!!!!

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

IS THIS THE END? (based on a true story)

Welcome, welcome, welcome……I am back for another edition……I hope you all are feeling swell today…..im doing good…….kinda……been doing a lot of thinking lately and its about time for a change………got some days to think about it to……especially with Thanksgiving coming up…….thought I was going to cook…not so sure now………

Before I continue….don’t forget about tonight ladies and gentleman……..TUESDAY NIGHT SHOWDOWN….ROUND 4……IT GOES DOWN PEOPLE!!!...DJ LADY JA-ROQ’S OPEN MIC SHOWCASE!!!!...WE ARE GIVING AWAY $250……DO YOU HAVE WHAT IT TAKES……..BE AT THE PLACE….MURPHY’S PLACE…..9410 WALNUT STREET…ACROSS FROM RICHLAND COLLEGE…..DOORS OPEN AT 9…SHOW STARTS AT 10…THE BEST OF THE BEST WILL BE AT MURPHYS…………..

I have a feeling tonight is going to be very electric……..you might not want to miss this one……..

Now, back to me…….as I was saying, even I know when changes have to made in my life……I need to take more time to focus on me and my career…..I am seeing myself getting so wrapped up in helping others, that I am ignoring the things I need to do to get where I want to be…….and I’m not necessarily talking about shows…..its starts from within…..getting proper rest…..eating right…..making sure I spend alone time…..now that’s going to be the hard part……some days, my phone doesn’t stop ringing….and I always answer…..I need to stop doing that……not trying to be rude but its hard to do other things when you always on the phone….like cleaning up…cooking….writing music…or spending time with my daughter……..I need to start exercising…my older sister asked if I did because of all the gawking I do about my cooking…….and anybody that has known me for an extended period of time knows how skinny I used to be…yeah ship was a boat once……..but I want to be healthy…..I need to be……I don’t want to be on stage at Madison Square Garden and pass out……imagine all those lights in my face!!..........

The harsh reality of it is knowing what to do……now it takes me to implement these things…….I haven’t been healthy for a minute……and I need to be…sometimes, I feel my body shutting down on me…..now this isn’t a sob story…..don’t want any sympathy……I just know that I have to continue to go to the next level…….most of us make those new year resolution things…..saying what we can change for the first few days of the year…until we forget about them…….I don’t want to do that…….but I also understand that the physical change will bring about a mental and spiritual change…the question is am I ready for that…….that’s one of the roadblocks we face with change…we only look at it in one facet……….anything that we try to eliminate or change in our lives, takes place on those three principals; not just one……..you cant leave your girl without mental, spiritual, and physical changes happening……a new job? Same thing……..a new car even?....yep!!........so I have to prepare my self for a great challenge……..

And that my friend is what I want to do with my life….continue to defy challenges……honestly, what’s our purpose if we don’t conquer anything??.....I know there are people out there that appreciates familiarity and complacency……some people like to have their life stagnant and normal……for me, it just doesn’t work well……..I wasn’t diagnosed with ADHD or ADD growing up but if I got bored, I moved to the next thing….or focused on something not as productive or positive….now, in order to continue to grow effectively, I need to overcome new challenges…whether its music, food…..because im really taking this cooking thing serious as well…….family, or………GASP!!...relationships……

(Its so funny how more people know about my personal relationships than I do…..folks still messy!!)

So now I get ready to go……..got a question for you though….what are you guys most thankful for??....let me know…its not going to be in a blog or anything…but sometimes, saying it really puts the importance of things into perspective…….we all look at the struggling times but rarely appreciate the minute things that makes life worth living……

And now……Rika’s Quote of the Day…………….

“You can’t help the poor if you are one of them”

Now when I got this quote, I had a blank look on my face……..but sometimes you have to think outside of the financial realm……..if you are poor in spirit, you cant help someone else in the same condition….that’s how a lot of problems occur……trying to get help from someone that doesn’t have it to give………and no its not sacrificing…its stupidity…………..

Make sure you getting people to read these….also, I need followers on blogspot…I know you guys are on here, but go to www.spaceshipohayses.blogspot.com and become a follower…..it makes me feel good………….

Shouts out to my best friend Tesah Michelle……how was your first two days at work??......I must call you…even after I said I am going to go on a phone diet…….congrats once again and I love you!!!...almost said my real name!! lol!!!...........

I love yall!!!

Church!!!!

TEXT MESSAGING FOR THE BLIND

So im back for another edition…..I hope you all are in good spirits today…….pray you all had a fantastic weekend as well…..whether was pretty good……..except for Friday…….but that was nothing……now its back to the grind of this week….for some of us…I know a few of you taking this week to give thanks…to having PTO………

So I went and saw Twilight Friday………and yes I did see the first one as well…….and it wasn’t as good as I thought it was going to be…..I didn’t know it was rated PG…as soon as it got to the “good” parts, it would go to another scene…..no gore……no long fighting….it felt like a Disney movie on Adult Swim….the plot?......so so at best……I understand how my counterpart attempted to explain that they were trying to give the back-story….but Kill Bill gave a back-story with a lot of action……and it was about vampires and wolves??!!....how can you not have gore??

So my grandmother is not doing well……my mother called and said that they had to care flight her to Ann Arbor…….the doctors don’t know what’s wrong…my older sister went home so that she could check on her and make sure everything is okay……I cant remember the last time in my life I have been this stressed out……..

And its affecting me as well……my psyche has changed…..im on edge more than usual…….I have been getting headaches and my body has been shutting down…….the doctor told me to rest…and I promise im trying…….I know I have to get over this hump……

I think as an entertainer, people forget the humanistic side of us…….I know its part of the work to be everywhere….to know everybody…..to perform when possible……..but when your mind and your body says no, why keep pushing??......for me it is a feeling of insecurity….not wanting to lose the momentum that I have accumulated…….you know, It has taken me three years to get the respect I have in Dallas and I know from being a host of open mics, that there is always someone trying to take your spot….friend or foe………..so for me, it the constant push to the finish line…….plus I don’t like to disappoint people……..

Speaking of open mics…….TUESDAY NIGHT SHOWDOWN….ROUND 4……IT GOES DOWN PEOPLE!!!...DJ LADY JA-ROQ’S OPEN MIC SHOWCASE!!!!...WE ARE GIVING AWAY $250……DO YOU HAVE WHAT IT TAKES……..BE AT THE PLACE….MURPHY’S PLACE…..9410 WALNUT STREET…ACROSS FROM RICHLAND COLLEGE…..DOORS OPEN AT 9…SHOW STARTS AT 10…THE BEST OF THE BEST WILL BE AT MURPHYS…………..

I need all of you artist out there….we are continuing to build this thing and we cant do it without you…..I know some of you have priorities and engagements, but if you are trying to be heard….if you are trying to get your music broke by one of the greatest DJs in Dallas, then you need to be there…bright eyed and bushy tail…………

I cant be an advice column much longer……for people that know me, I have a lot of female friends……yeah when I was younger, I was thrown into the friend zone……ugly guys know what that is…when you are cool enough to call, but not sexy enough to be exclusive with…..well, that WAS me……..ima beast now…but anyway…….a lot of my female friends/associates call me to get advice about things in their life….well first I don’t like giving advice…I will give my opinion…but if I do, don’t refute everything I say!!!.....if you always have a reason against the truth, what are you telling me about it for……….if a woman puts a gun to her head saying that she cant live without me…….im stepping back so she wont get blood on my new shirt……no evidence on Shipper!!!!........make grown up decisions……that’s all!!!!..............

So before I go…….Rika’s Quote of the Day……………….

“Opportunities are disguised as hard work, so most people don’t recognize them.”

I cant stand the word lucky…….doesn’t that word look like it could be derived from Lucifer…I believe in blessing…but faith without works is dead…….you get nowhere on just a prayer…….you have to work for what you want and then see doors open…..and continue to work once you get through them……..you have to recognize the benefits of everything you put in…you have a Monday and Tuesday hustle, expect Monday and Tuesday results……………

Shouts out to the greatest project manager in the world…....Joyia…….its been a rough patch to say the least…and you are still grinding with me……I appreciate you wanting to take over the world with me…….you have been the rock on my see saw…..thank you……..

I love yall!!!!

Church!!!!!

Friday, November 20, 2009

BRAIN LOST....LAST SEEN IN A TOOLBOX

Good evening people!!!!...I am so sleepy!!!...I hope you all had a good Friday…work was okay for me…….I have to get myself together on that end…..I don’t know if it’s the motivation factor…meaning I have none……..the inconsistent decision making…….or the fact that im still hung over from going home….whatever it is, I have to gain my composure…I like my job and don’t want to lose it due to me being lazy and taking a good job for granted………..

Someone been calling on my accounts…….and I almost went to snitch……had to catch myself….im possessive even in work……so for me, don’t mess with my money!!...........

I think I am about to sell my cell…….phone that is…..I lose it to much…drop it too much…and have to spend may more time worrying about it than I should……..and im tired of getting cursed out about it…….why is it that people are such pessimists??.....they would then the worse before they even consider the truth………

“Why didn’t you answer my call?”

“I lost my phone”

“Yeah whatever”

Fine…don’t believe me…….believe that for no apparent reason, I decided not to call you……for no apparent reason, I decided to continually not answer your call…you know what that is…I smell guilt……….

Today is one of those days that I don’t have a lot to talk about…….dealing with any personal to me……im having a blank canvas day…..so I decided to write about some random things………

Why it is that baby parent can’t get along in this day and age??....im proud to have a wonderful mother for my daughter….but it kills me how people are astonished that we are great friends…..are we supposed to hate each other because the relationship didn’t work???...............

What happened to Video Soul?......yo! MTV raps…….and Soul Train…..I think Soul Train is still on the air, but its not the same………now they have people on there we have no clue who they are…..WAIT A MINUTE!!!...maybe I should try to get on there!!......hell it is Soul Train…………….

Why do women wear weave saying there reason for it is to not damage their hair or to let it grow?.........but aren’t you putting glue, and all other sorts of chemicals in it??.........what’s a perm???........

When will there ever be another good black family sitcom??......and please don’t say House of Payne………it will never a classic……….

What’s more important nowadays……..$150 pair of shoes…or a light bill?............

Women with facial hair…..fad?.........or bad?...............

Am I the only person that thinks red toe nail polish looks horrid??.....and hoeish……..

How long should you eat leftovers??........I still got spaghetti in my fridge…….from last Monday……….

Will there ever be a Big John in Texas?............

Why cant people admit when they don’t like you?.........is it cool to be fake?...........

What’s up with these ugly boots???................

And finally………there is a woman pregnant at work……this is her second baby in the last year…..I think her kids are going to be six months apart……WHATSUPWITDAT?!?!?........

Okay, I have vented…….so without further ado……Rika’s Quote of the Day………..

“If you don’t have anything to say, please only say it once”

Almost didn’t understand that one….but some people like dram and attention…and this quote is a product of that act…don’t keep telling me you have nothing to say….Shut up!!!...and if I tell you I have no comment, don’t keep asking me……..gee whiz!!!!

Please….become a follower on my blogspot account……. www.spaceshipohayses.blogspot.com …….i am waiting!!!!

Shouts out to Stephanie…..yes my daughters mom……..I appreciated my lunch today…sorry I was on the phone the whole time……and I got you next Saturday!!!!.........


Love yall!!!!

Church!!!

Thursday, November 19, 2009

PRIORITIES HIAWATHA!!!

How is everyone doing today?.......im feeling a lil stoic today……hold on, let me check the definition of that word……

Okay…yeah…..I feel stoic…….ready to get off work…to do absolutely nothing……im having one of those “down” days…..and I have no clue of its derivation……a lot of times, things don’t bother me……..and even if it does, I usually know its origins……but today, I am clueless……I feel like going home and just crawling under the covers……

But I cant……I am supposed to go to UNT to MC a show with some Ques up there……..wasn’t in the plans but I just received a phone call…….its the struggle of an entertainer…………

I know I am feeling the jealousy bug…….and its easily recognizable……I have a question…why is it that the people that talk about you the most are typically the ones that come speak to you first……I know most of you will say guilt…but is that really it??....or is it that they don’t want you to know their true intentions……..sometimes I feel its flattering that you have to lie to me, but in the end, its still not cool………

I just thought about it….I think my attitude comes from my lack of sleep last night…….I went to sleep early but woke up an hour later and was playing bejeweled on face book until about 5……knowing I had to get up at six thirty……but I didn’t get up until nine thirty……yeah I had no clue I was dyslexic either……man, I have been late to work way too much even for my liking……..but its becoming a struggle up here…..sometimes you can see the end result way before it happens……..

And I didn’t even tell yall I got into with my old trainer up here…..if anybody knows her, stay away from Jane Overturf…….you know what bothers me the most about her??........its not that she doesn’t like me…im used to that part of the game…..but it’s when she acts like its all in my head that disturbs me……why did we get into it you ask??....well for one, we really didn’t get into it…..she asked me a question and I gave her an answer she didn’t like…..(sidenote: I am using a lot of didn’ts today….my apologies)………..but she knows we have our beef so why even speak to me….she wanted to get a rise out of me and when that didn’t work, she almost panicked…….and she went into one of the Operations Manager’s office complaining and lying on me……I admit, it was hilarious to hear what she was saying and how, once pressure was put on her she lost her thoughts…I had no clue she stuttered…….the OM wants us to reconcile……I would rather eat cactus…..this woman used to try to get me fired……by the looks of it, still does……..but I have to keep my focus………..

One of the hardest thing about developing your own company is making sure everyone keeps the vision as a top priority……..one power I wish I had is being a mind reader…….you hope and pray everyone stays the course, but what do you do when you see people veering off the road?.............being the “leader” or figurehead if you will, I know I will have to make some tough decisions……..and they will become harder as the company builds……..some people don’t realize that all successes and failures eventually lie at my feet…..yeah, I may have others in place to work with me, but if something doesn’t go right, its Spaceship’s fault………and if it does go good, its everybody else that gets the credit….I can deal with it….on the surface…….but on the inside, I pray every endeavor will be a success…right now, I am in the process of putting together a X-mas event that I would love all of you to be a part of……..when?....I don’t know…probably December…..where?.....you asking too many questions right now….but I will let you all know……..

Saw Twilight the other day…has anybody else saw this movie??......I am not a movie person but it was actually good……..now I have a date to see part two………yeah for me!!!...

If you have not done it, make sure you check me out on www.jango.com …….search Spaceship Ohayses and become my fan…numbers speak volume and I need each and everyone of you to support this movement………also, www.spaceshipohayses.blogspot.com will give you access to all the old blogs if you want to read them or if you want someone to take part of this Essential movement………

Whew!!!....I didn’t think this blog would be that long….almost time to go now!!....YEA BOY!!!..........

So before I retire…..Rika’s Quote of the Day…………….

“If you don’t stand for something, you’ll fall for anything”

Now haven’t we all heard this one before…and its true…..don’t be afraid to stand up for what you believe in…yeah, they may be mad in the beginning, but at least you will be at peace with yourself…….as adults, we all have to make tough decisions….whether personal or business…….make it with conviction and hold on to you turf……

Special shout outs to my girl Bianca……she was in the hospital and I got a text from her today saying she is doing well…..you all pray for her and keep her in your hearts during this time………..

Love yall!!!

Church!!!

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

IF YOU REAL AND YOU KNOW IT, CLAP YOUR HANDS

Oh boy!!.....what a day….how is everybody doing this evening?......I am good….woke up today without running water…..but its all good……..they were just working on the pipes…..I guess……had a pretty eventful night…oh yeah, btw, IM BACKKKKKK!!!!!!.......had so much fun at the crib…but as always, duty calls in the Big D……….so I have to continue my story from the crib and all the misadventures I had…….

Actually I was on my best behavior up there…..don’t know if it was fear or just the adrenaline but I was a good lad……but its crazy how the hood can remind you of who you used to be……

I stayed in trap house on Saturday……my “lil brother” is a D-boy up at the crib but it was just good to see him still alive……and the awesome thing was that everyone that came in there loved my music…..it was funny seeing hard core thugs singing “La La!”……..it was also flattering…..usually, folks don’t wanna hear music they don’t know…well at least down here……they didn’t care who it was, as long as it was good music and that made me smile……

They also reminded me of my grind…..the place that I don’t want to go back but also the place that taught how to continue to push and pursue my dreams……as much as I love Flint, its not a place I could see myself moving and living unless it was a major emergency that called for my attention………

But I will say I probably gained about 20 pounds being up there…..you know I had to get some white castles…check……big john steak and onions??....check……halo burger…….check……..captain codys, atlas, and max beef…….check, check, and check!..........some people think that the south has the best food…….not me…and its not about playing favorites……southerners add seasoning……..that’s the key to their dishes……up north, its all about natural flavors and adding the right combination into dishes………you would never see bar b que bologna in Michigan……no matter how good you say it is……..

But I cant stunt, I did see a sign that sold fried Twinkies…..talk about fat food…….if I was ever in that restaurant and somebody ordered that, I would punch em dead in the throat…..that’s nasty!!!....it’s already a junk food, so now you gonna fry it too…….disgusting………

I don’t know if I mentioned this yesterday……yeah I’m being lazy…….but it was so many people at the crib looking 10 years older than what they really were…..I don’t know if its due to the economic struggle up there or just a personal depression, but it was really crazy seeing all these people I grew up with looking like they were 40……..and then here I come, beaming and enjoying this getaway and I could really see the difference…..its hard living in a city having to be on pins and needles…….

But we did have at least one tragedy while I was home…..Saturday night….or should I say Sunday morning, around 4:30………3 people were killed when someone pulled up to a van…the van contain 5 passengers and they were parked in a driveway……whoever it was, opened fire on the vehicle……..of the other 2 passengers, one is in critical condition and the other was unscathed….and this happened in the driveway of a dope house……such a tragedy…….

Well needless to say, I had a ball…I really enjoyed my time being home….and to be honest, it felt good to just get a break from being Spaceship Ohayses…….I was just me…no gimmicks, no pinky, no music……now I did come back to some b.s……..but my mojo wont allow me to let it affect me……..and its time to do great things…….

Before I leave…..you know what it is….Rika’s Quote for the Day…………….

“Conserve energy….make love slowly”

Wow….I don’t know what to say about that one folks!!!.........I make love slow to conserve the burst….but that’s just me……….

Shouts out to the nurses that have been taking care of my grandmother….they need as much prayer as she does,……..its not easy being in a hospital and taking care of so many patients with they love and care that they do….you all are appreciated……..

Love yall!!!!

Church!!!!

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

BIG JOHNS, HINKY DINKY, AND ROBERT T LONGWAY

Well look at here!!!.......guess who finally decided to get his butt in front of a computer and communicate??...........how is everybody doing today??......words simply can’t explain how I feel right now…….I am on a cloud higher than nine……….and I don’t mean weed………. I haven’t talked to you guys in a minute!!!...felt like my life wasn’t complete without indulging in my misadventures……..now I know I wont remember everything I have been meaning to discussed, but I will try my best…….

So on the way here, I get pulled over in Missouri…..now it was crazy how it happened…..I look behind me and I see lights so I pull over……once I pulled over, there were so many police cars behind me, I thought I had jumped in front of a funeral……..but lo and behold, they wanted to search my vehicle……..for what you may ask?......being black, in a nice car driving from Texas to Michigan…….I MUST be transporting drugs……so they strip down my vehicle…….trunk, side panels, glove compartment…….backseat, luggage…….and they find nothing…had me outside my car for like 45 minutes……..then had the nerve to ask me why I was jumpy…….hell 3 cars equal JAIL……..but they finally let me go…..glad they didn’t look under the driver’s seat……..

So I gets to the house…after I see my girl Ti$h in the Nap……..well I get to the hospital…I go directly there from the highway……..I go up to my grandmother’s floor……butterflies are erupting in my stomach you know…..im not sure what I am going to see………and when I walk into her room, I saw a glow on her face…..it was such a great feeling……we sat there and talked…..and she is doing good……..she told me she had a feeling I was coming up there……..that and my older sister told her I might come in town……..but it didn’t matter…I was happy to see my grandma……..

So the doctor told us they are more than likely going to send her back to a “regular” room…..don’t know what that means….no hospital room is regular……..but she is doing good from the open heart surgery……...her problem right now deals with her blood pressure…it keeps going down when she tries to walk for an extensive amount of time……but God is good and I do see her getting out of there within the next few weeks……..

Felt good to be with all my family…..even went to see my grandfather Sunday….this was the first time I had been by his gravesite…….and it was as eerie as I expected….I went up there with my Aunt Tootie…..name self explanatory….my nieces, and my homeboy who happens to date my lil sister……….we get to his tombstone and I am speechless…..tears began to fill my eyes knowing that here lays the man that molded me into what I am today….the greatest man to ever live……..and just when the sentimental Ship is at his highest peak, my aunt has this to say…….

“Look good don’t he?”

Huh???...he’s dead…under grass…….I don’t know how he looks……..but the thinker in me took over……she spoiled the mood……..and then, as I am still tearing, she hugs me, rubs my back….and takes my cigarette……..and that bout a------!!!!
And then Saturday night went to the cabaret……..it was a comedy show where people just came to kick it…….but for me, it was like a class reunion……I saw so many of my old friends……..enemies…..and past loves……..even saw my last girlfriend that broke up with me when I went to college……..and we talked…….

I will continue my journey back at the crib tomorrow…………

I want to give special shouts out to Stone and Tesah………..people need best friends like me!!!...........they have truly been great since my arrival and I have had so much stressless fun since I got here…….and they get wasted like me!!!.......I love you two so much……..oh yeah, almost forgot about Nolie!!!.......love you too Nolie!!!...........

And please whatever you do; don’t forget how it’s going down tonight!!!........DJ LADY JA-ROQ’S OPEN MIC SHOWCASE!!!...ITS ROUND 3 IN THE $250 SHOWDOWN…..DOORS OPEN AT 9……SHOW STARTS AT 10………GET THERE EARLY TO SIGN UP………ITS AT MURPHYS PLACE…9410 WALNUT STREET……….IN NORTH DALLAS ACROSS FROM RICHLAND COLLEGE!!!.......THE GREATEST DJ IN THE LAND!!!...THE HOTTEST ACTS!!!!...DO YOU HAVE WHAT IT TAKES TO WIN $250?????............

And now, the part I have been waiting for……..this quote is hilarious!!!..........

Rika’s Quote of the Day………………..

“If you have to borrow money, borrow from a pessimist because that person won’t expect to get paid back”

That is funny!!!.........I never thought about that!!......hmmmm…… but lets look at that outside the realm of just money……time, business, love, events……..if you borrow anything from a pessimist, they wont expect a return…and its yours free of charge!!!..........

Oh it felt good to vent again……….

Love yall!!!!

Church!!!!

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

FINDERS KEEPERS; LOSERS FORGOT WHERE THEY PUT IT!!

Don’t get your panties in a bunch!!...im here…….you know its Wednesday and I work late…trying to get this week over with……ready to get on the road and take my butt to Michigan to see my granny…….how is everybody doing today??…hope your hump day went well and everything is going to plan for you all this week……

Well, the re-admitted my grandma back into CCU…….I haven’t heard much because my messenger has been MIA……you know, everybody has drama in their family so im not going to air too much dirty laundry…but I will say this…..if you are the gatekeeper to people knowing something of importance in regards to the family, BE AVAILABLE……..now is not the time to go on a drug binge because you are stressed out…I guess that’s the root of addiction….when you cant help it…….

I cant wait to get home…..as most of you know, I haven’t been there since my grandfather’s funeral…now the purpose of this trip is to check on the family…..I cant wait to see my nieces and to spend some time with them…but you don’t think im not going to kick it??!!!...you gots to be out of your mind…grandma cant have visitors after a certain time…..so im going to make sure I spend some time with the friends that also helped mold me into the person I am today……..

And you ask if I am going to write a blog this weekend??....doubt it,…..but you never know!!!.........

So last night we had round two of the Open Mic Showcase $250 challenge……and I must say it was awesome!!!...Murphy even had drink specials……I know, its going to snow in hell…but hey I guess anybody can change………all of the acts really did an excellent job and I realized that we need to put out a mix tape with all of the artist that perform at Murphy’s…..if for nothing else but to let people know how much talent there is in the DFW metroplex right now that is not stanky, peanut butter colored, or stopping for a pose!!!.........

I just had a thought…..how long do you ask somebody for something until you realize you not going to get it……I asked someone for some music and they haven’t gave it to me yet……and its frustrating because I am trying to do the right thing….but how much can I help someone that doesn’t help themselves…and it’s a little irritating…..

Make sure you go to www.jango.com and hit up my songs…just plug Spaceship Ohayses in there and add them to your radio station….if I can show these radio stations down here that people actually cut for me, how can they deny me entry on the charts……..what’s the worst that can happen??............

So I talk about a lot on here and I must give you an update on myself…im not feeling well…..im doing a little better but these headaches still wont go away……..last night at the show, it bothered me again….I promise, after this trip, I am going to rest…..I am going to take some time out for myself and do absolutely nothing....that may mean cutting my phone off, not working as many shows, and totally obscuring myself from the public……its not intentional…which I know some people are going to take it…but when you have no choice and your body is shutting down, who is really going to care about you??.....and I don’t say that in a malicious way but it’s the facts……..

Well before I go, you know I gotta do this……Rika’s Quote for the Day……………..

“Forget yourself for others, and other will not forget you.”

So many times, we do things with intent……..how many times do we help one another without looking for something in return??.....its the greatest feeling in the world…I am blessed to have a spirit that allows me to help those in need….even at my shows…..such as last night….its not about me all because I am the host….the open mic showcase would not mean anything if you guys didn’t come out and spread your talents for others to hear….and trust I know what its like to perform in front of 5 or 10 people………

Shouts out goes to my homegirl Robin……you know it’s always a good feeling to know that people you don’t talk to on the regular are still in the loop……even if they are getting on you about resting!!....and let Tracie know I’m still praying for her and her family!!!!!.........

Love yall!!!


Church!!!

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

ON A ROAD TRIP WIT A QUARTER TANK OF GAS

**cough cough**….im here in all my glory…….how is everybody doing today??.......im feeling a lot better…and I want to thank everybody that checked up on me……it made me feel real good……..two more of work and then im headed to the 810!!!!....contemplating if you guys will get blogs while im there…honestly, I may not have time………I don’t go home often so this will be a chance for me to kick it hard with the people that helped groom Spaceship Ohayses……so if you don’t hear from me, I should be doing pretty good…….

Now, I have a question……..don’t you hate it when people say your name wrong??...and isn’t it irritating when you correct them and they still say your name wrong??...ugh!! so frustrating…my name has 5 letters……no e’s….no l’s…….bet yet, I still have to spell my name out……

Okay so let me tell you all what happened….Sunday night, I hosted and performed at a show at Club Sting……..it was pretty good…I truly enjoyed myself……after I performed, I went back up in the DJ booth to put the extra microphone up…….now I have been having problems with an irritating cough but I didn’t think much about it……so im up in the DJ booth and I coughed……..and my whole body locked up…..I couldn’t see, I could close my hands, I couldn’t even bend down to pick up the microphone I just dropped…….for the first time in a long time, I was scared…….but my body relaxed and I was able to drive home…….the next morning as I got ready for work, I coughed again…..unfortunately, the same thing happened to me again!!!.......this time, I knew I had to go to the hospital………..

But first, I had an on air interview with Kia D and Lady B Smoove on KEBN radio…..if yall get a chance, go to the website and check it out!!!..........it was awesome!!!.......

So after the interview, I went to the hospital……the doctor (PA) said it may have occurred due to stress……tiredness and tension……..he told me the headache was derived from the cough and the reason the cough hasn’t left is because I don’t rest enough……..I think he is trying to tell me to sit my butt down……..I will consider it but I know my grind is my work right now……..they gave me meds and hopefully I will be brand new when I come back from Michigan…………

I want to give a special thanks to my daughters mom Stephanie…….she has truly looked out for me these last couple of weeks…you know its funny how I hear these stories about parents not getting along…..im blessed to have someone that is my friend and also the mother of my daughter…yeah we argue….we have our moments…but I don’t think I would trade her for any other baby momma……..now I was pissed when she was banging on my door last night because she couldn’t get a hold of me……hell, I was sleeping!!....you know, trying to rest……..but I can dig it….and I appreciate it dearly……..

NOW TONIGHT IT IS GOING DOWN…ROUND TWO OF THE DJ LADY JA-ROQ OPEN MIC SHOWCASE………WE ARE STILL GIVING AWAY $250……….IT GOES DOWN AT MURPHY’S PLACE…9410 WALNUT STREET IN NORTH DALLAS….ACROSS FROM RICHLAND COLLEGE………DOORS OPEN AT 9…SHOW STARTS AT 10….BRING YA FRIENDS…DRINK SPECIALS!!!...YOU READ THAT RIGHT…..THEY ARE FINALLY DOING DRINK SPECIALS……..IF YOU GOT SKILLS, THIS IS WHERE YOU WANT OT BE!!!........

So before I go, you know what it is…….Rika’s Quote for the Day……………

“Sometimes getting completely lost is the best way to find yourself”

Its crazy how her quotes really hit home sometimes……..we all want to know our purpose…I was telling a local DJ earlier, sometimes we HAVE to hit rock bottom to come back up the mountain…its okay to feel lost sometimes…but always stay focused on the goal……….

Big shouts out to my girl Booth…..I didn’t know you cared…when you hit me up, it made me feel very good…..thank you for being real…..for being cool…and throwing that pinky up for ya boy………

Don’t forget to hit up www.jango.com and search Spaceship Ohayses….and if you want to download my music, its at www.amazon.com and again search my name………


Love yall!!!!

Church!!!!!

Saturday, November 7, 2009

LIFE AS AN ASTHMA PUMP IS BREATH TAKING

Im here….don’t know how…..but im here…….felt like I only slept about fifteen minutes last night……hell, that’s how it feels most nights…….how is everyone doing today?......im actually good…here at work, ready to get off……….need to straighten up a lil bit more and await the arrival of Princess Jayla….I hope she’s sleepy!!...if not, I may give her a lil cough syrup to help her relax……….

So last night I had a ball!!!.......I think I traveled the whole DFW metroplex on a quarter tank of gas………and it was one of those nights where I actually enjoyed myself the whole night through…even stopped to get my haircut……grabbed some food………and kept it moving…..major love for all those I came to see last night……I do want you guys to remember this name: Platinum Status……..they are a hot, hot, hip hop band that is truly doing amazing things with their music!!!.........

Now I have somewhat of a dilemma……not really but I think this is something everybody faces at one point in their life…………before I say that, I do understand that its easier to give opinions than to commit the actions….so I will take all critiques at face value………don’t you hate it when you have a friend that wants to stay “parked in neutral”?..........let me explain……..we are all vehicles…….we are all heading towards a particular destination in our lives…we cant get there having our mental foot on the brakes OR being parked in the same location……..if your vehicle is parked, where is it going?........so you are ready to grow…ready to move on to greater things in your life…..but your best friend wants to stay where they are…..they are content…….see, for me, being parked means you wait until things come to you………if it happens to blow past your window, you may or may not see it, and grab it………but for me, I want to drive…I don’t want to wait until things come to me…I want to find them………I want to get to my destination and I want to see all that God has in store for me………

So for me…..if you are a person that is stuck in neutral, you can kick rocks!!!.....I am at THAT place in my life where everybody cant ride with me…….and if you don’t have your own vehicle, if you don’t want to drive your own vehicle, if you don’t have gas in your own vehicle, or if your vehicle is parked…….I CANT HELP YOU…..YO BAD!!!!!!!.......its not even about being mean anymore…….God has something in store for me…..and sometimes he just wants you to get close enough to it and he will hand it over……..


I want to thank everyone for so much positive feedback on these blogs………now I know I am a little tardy saying this today but…….THIS IS MY 200TH BLOG WRITTEN!!!!!!!.......I started writing these on March 26th of this year……I decided to write to help build the bridge between my fan base and myself…….I also wanted people to understand the journey of an MC…….there are rumblings that if you are a “rapper”, you live in this ghetto box……..that is all peaches and cream and that “rapping” is all I do……so not true…..and I hope you guys are able to see a little inside my world through these…..yes I have made mistakes, I have grown up, and I have realized my progressions throughout this year………please continue to read, continue to give feedback, and feel free to pass these on to other people….I hope to be able to encourage them and say something that can change their day around………..

So I have a few more topics…I think……..

Oh yeah….Spaceship realized he made a bitch move yesterday………and this is for anyone…..if you have more than 4 conversations with different people about the same thing, you are gossiping………especially if you are not proactive in your talks……I was guilty of this yesterday……..and I had to catch myself….I should never give a topic that much energy, especially when the outcome doesn’t matter to me…….so if you guys have caught yourself doing the same thing, STOP!!! In the name of mojo, STOP………….

I also reverted back to my old self……I got home from work yesterday and realized I didn’t put the spaghetti up from the night prior….I am such a genius………..so not only did I kill my lasagna noodles from the start, then I wasted my meat sauce…or at least I am gonna tell yall I threw it away…my grandma would kill me………

And yes, she is doing good…I think my aunt is tired of me calling…..she’s not answering the phone….or either they are at the hospital……..heard my grandma was trying to get out the hospital….they were having $2 shot specials at her favorite club………

And today we even have a weekend version of…..Rika’s Quote of the Day…………

“The main cause of failure and unhappiness is trading what we want most for what we want at the moment.”

You ever been saving money for something…then you see a fresh outfit you just got to have…you buy it thinking you can reimburse yourself…..but you don’t…now you cant go on your trip……..always push towards the high mark…..don’t settle for right now accolades………….stay focus, veer the course………and your prize will soon be bestowed on you……….

Make sure you hit me up!!!.......music is now downloadable on Amazon!!......also, hit me

www.myspace.com/spaceshipohayses

www.youtube.com/spaceshipohayses

www.spaceshipohayses.blogspot.com

www.facebook.com- if you know my real name!!!

just Google me!!!!

Shouts out to everyone that has read my blogs from day one……..if you want to read any of my archives…say you want to see what I wrote about on your birthday, hit me up……….theses things have been great……..

Love yall!!!!

Church!!!!

Friday, November 6, 2009

.....BUT HE AINT LISTEN TO ME

Ahhhh…..its Friday…….how are you all doing today?....im good…chilling…..ready to get off work…….and start my weekend…..even though I am not doing much…….but I will be doing a lot…….I pray you all are safe and make sure you have somebody to drive your drunk butts home if you get wasted……..

So I have a major announcement……IF YOU HAVE NOT DONE IT, MAKE SURE YOU GET TESTED!!!.....I TALK ABOUT A LOT OF THINGS, BUT LETS BE SERIOUS!!......IF YOU ARE SEXUALLY ACTIVE, YOU NEED TO MAKE SURE YOU STAY ABREAST OF YOUR BODY AND ITS FUNCTIONS……

And then you may ask why am I saying this….well, today I got my bi yearly check up……..ever since I was in college, I have maintain a commitment to get checked out……I was kicking it with this chick and an they had a free HIV/STD mobile unit on site….I got tested…..I wanted the free t-shirt you know….well I asked the girl to go get tested…she said no….if she HAD something, she wouldn’t want to know……so ever since that moment, two things happened….I made a commitment to always get tested….never fearing the results…….and I stopped talking to her immediately…nasty ass……….

If you are looking for something to do tonight, I have a few options……….Ms Kitty is opening her Friday Night spot at Rolls Royce…..its on Skillman in North Dallas………across from the Clicks……….and my homegirl Ashlei is performing in Arlington tonight off Division at Dreamworld Music Complex…..the addy is 3102 W Division Street……if you are trying to find something to do, get at me and I will do my best to get some directions to you………

As for Shipper…..I will attempting to go around and support as many shows tonight as possible…..I hope to see you guys at at least one of those spots…….

Question…….how do you decide between what’s right and what beneficial???........not that what’s beneficial is wrong…….morally….you just know it’s not something you want to do if you don’t have to do……….

So last night I was set on cooking lasagna…….had my meat sauce done………noodles were cooking……..oven was heating up…and then I got a phone call……it was a partner of mine from high school…we really started talking good business……..about 20 minutes later, I look up and my pasta is mush…….I was so sad…….so I had to make spaghetti….it was the only noodles I had in the cupboard……..it was good but I have never had pepperoni in my spaghetti………or should I say I had never had it………..

So what’s up with this Ft Hood debacle?.....man, the world is going pet coon crazy………that’s my granddaddy’s word………isn’t that a military base??......wasn’t he supposed to help protect our nation……now how is our armed services going to trust each other in the line of battle……..another reason for Spaceship to JUST SAY NO!!!........

Well before I go….its time for……Rika’s Quote of the Day………………….
“to TRY is to put forth effort with the expectation of failing”

My grandmother used to tell me all the time……”don’t try, do”……and I have live with that motto……..saying the word try sometimes can be a cop out…you tried but it didn’t work…….yeah but you may have thought it wouldn’t work before you tried…….so lets focus on doing……not trying to do…………

Shouts out to my man DJ SMG for showing me love last night and letting me host Champayne Thursday at 2026 Ultra Lounge…….I really don’t know how to say their name…..but I know where it is……I appreciate the fact that you cut for me…….you show me love………

Well I may blog tomorrow….Jayla will be over……..

Love yall!!!

Church!!!

Thursday, November 5, 2009

PLEASE TAKE WITH FOOD AND WATER

Hello honey…im home!!!....hope everyone is having a good day…..I am….I know this week has been tiring for me……draining even…but I am seeing the shining light……..one more day until the weekend……hell, its almost Thanksgiving…..this year has went by so quick!!!!.....................

I know this maybe a little last minute but I need yall support…….TONIGHT, SPACESHIP OHAYSES WILL BE LIVE AT THE ULTRA LOUNGE……ITS CHAMPAYNE THURSDAY @ 2O26 ULTRA LOUNGE…2026 COMMERCE STREET IN DEEP ELLUM………LADIES FREE UNTIL 12!!!!.......THE ENFORCER DJS WILL BE IN THE MIX!!!...ALSO, IM TOLD MAJOR LEAGUE DRINK SPECIALS ALL NIGHT!!!.....I MAY EVEN DO A LIL HOSTING..YALL COME OUT AND SUPPORT YOUR BOY!!....I WILL ALSO HAVE CDS FOR SELL……..

I haven’t mentioned this all week and I should…you know how ticked off T-mobile had me earlier this week??!!!...........I couldn’t even get a hold of my granny!!!....I was highly perturbed about the events…I wonder if enough of us call could be get our bill discounted………it was kind of cool because I had a good reason for not getting some phone calls…….but it was on a Tuesday and I do know of at least one person that couldn’t make it to Murphy’s because I could give them directions!!!...........

I think when I get home today, im going to do some thorough cleaning…may even cook…lasagna is on the brain……..please…don’t laugh at me………..plus I think im going to wash…twice in one week….crazy I know….but I found some quarters in some of my shorts……so I don’t have to get any……funny how when I was younger, I looked for quarters to get now and laters……now I look for quarters to wash…….priorities!!!........

Dang I just had a flashback…now I want some banana now and laters and a rock and rye faygo!!!!!...........what chall know about that????.........

Congrats to the New York Yankees for winning the Worlds Series last night……baseball used to be my favorite sport……the one I probably was the best at…..now I barely watch it………and I don’t go….not a Rangers fan…and I don’t trip on the “experience” of it…………$10 beer is not exciting to me………….

Earlier I was looking at my stats at work and it just amazes me……….I never really look at my progression or how focused I am at a task…I just try to do it………with everything going on……the album release, my grandma, promotions, shows, lack of funds……..my numbers haven’t decreased dramatically….now I wondered if this meant I am cold hearted or just focused…….is there a difference………when I come to work, I do attempt to block everything out…..at least until I get ready to blog or try to sell a CD………even though I wish my own company was up and running, I know I have to stay on top of my game here….I love being the best………..

I’m almost on blog # 200……..I cant believe it……..its hard remembering somedays to write………sometimes, I wonder if anyone really reads this….sometimes I wonder does anyone really care……then I jump back into my senses……its therapy for me!!!!........and when someone comments on my blogs that I usually don’t converse with, it makes this all the most rewarding………I guess I will have more to say when that time comes……….

I also forgot to mention this week that if you miss any blog or want me to repost one, you can now check me out on blogspot…….www.spaceshipohayses.blogspot.com……….I will be putting copies of everyday blog on there…..if you know someone that you would like to read it, they can go there and check it out……….that way, they can see for themselves……….

Also……MY MUSIC IS AVAILABLE NOW ON I TUNES AND AMAZON.COM!!!!!!........it should be located in other arenas as well but that soon will be coming…so if you want to preview the music…..choose your favorite songs…or buy the album and you are not in my area, feel free to go t oamazon.com….gosh im so excited about it!!!!!................

And before I go……..Rika’s Quote of the Day…………………

“It’s better to be deceived by a friend than to suspect him.”

I had to email her back….I wasn’t sure about this one…….her reply?.......if you suspect someone, you are challenging his credibility……even if nothing has happened……..and that can influence trust and the relationship…having a person deceive you….the character is no longer in question………..hmmmmmm…what chall think?.............

Well im gone….this was a nice blog don’t cha think………I enjoyed writing this one……..had some stuff to get off my mind…….shouts out are in order to my sis Ms Bradley………love you…hope the kids are well…….and thank you for being there for me……..

Love yall!!!!!!!!

Church!!!!

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

BITTERSWEET IN SPACESHIP'S LABORATORY

Im here....how is everybody doing?........its Wednesday.....i kinda feel indifferent today....no, i dont feel bad or anything........just a lil "eh".........maybe it was last night....maybe its because i can seem to shake this cold......dont know.....but im doing good........

i think i know what it is!!..tell you later......maybe.........

last night was pretty fun!!!...had a few new acts and they didnt disappoint at all........i really enjoyed myself....but as always, they are people that think you are playing favorites or hating on them......crazy because i guess they dont want me to be a fan on the artist that come.......being an MC is one of the hardest jobs...its so political.....everybody wants to be your friend.....but not really........they just want you to like them.....but the fact is, everybody cant do this....i know.......its a harsh reality/........but i can be a welder...........i cant be a professional football player......well i COULD.......but i wouldnt be as good as i should be or needed to be......sometimes we have to realize that its time to pick a new hobby..........

i was thinking earlier today how much my life is under the microscope, even as "underground" as i am now........i have had alot of people tell me how Dallas cant get on because of the hating.......and i really dont want to believe that....but more and more, i am seeing the fear.......its crazy when people tell you about yourself even when you know half the things......in the last week, i have had a girlfriend, im beefing with my label, i got a new car, and i have talked down on some groups BY NAME.........so funny!!!......my problem is that i like to feed into mess sometimes.........i think people refuse to acknowledge my intellect...they see Spaceship laughing and joking all the time, i know more than i get credit for..........and i kinda like it that way.......while some are worrying about my life, im too busy taking over the world........one sense at a time..........

granny is good.....supposed to have the surgery....even if they do, im still going to go up there next week.....get me some white castles......eat a big john and some coneys.........and then spend the weekend catering to her.....i am trying to decide if i should tell her im coming.....i dont want her to have another heart attack when she see me................

i watched the Len Bias story last night on ESPN.......man its sad what happened to him........excellent basketball player that died the day after he was drafted by the Boston Celtics..........its crazy because so many of us take for granted our shelf life.....the thing is....we dont know how long we got.........enjoy life, love it and embrace.....take nothing and no one for granted............i dont like movies like Final Destination, but i understand the meaning....when its your time to go, what can you do to stop it......just may not be as graphic...........

i moved Rika's Quote from this email so i will have it tomorrow......my bad!!!!!

shouts out to my girl Kellye.......thank you for being a friend....man i just thought about the Golden Girls......Rue was hot!!!!!........anyway, thank you for randomly checking up on me.....thank you for the encouraging words at time....and i appreciate you being at my album release party!!!.......


love yall!!!!

Church!!!

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

I DONT WANNA LEAVE...BUT I GOTTA GO RIGHT NOW!!!!

Hmmmm………its almost 6…..im still at work……im ready to go……but I cant…..my dumb butt been late….which is not a good look……..I know……..I need to sleep here so I can make it on time……probably wouldn’t…but it’s a thought…….how are you all doing today?.......I have a slight headache…..think I have been thinking too much…and for those with a comment, keep it to yourself…………I hope you all have had a great Tuesday…….overall, mine was….hmmmmppph!!..........

So I need to ask a question…….is there anyone reading this that is scared of bees??..........okay, now would you be scared if a bee flew into your car window??.........how about if it flew in your window while you were driving and landed on your leg, close to your treasure box??........would you jump? Would you swerve? Would you be a little scared?? Would you jump out of the car flailing you arms pleading for mercy??............okay, good….im not by myself!!!.........

Its Tuesday people and you know what that means!!!........... ITS GOING DOWN AT MURPHYS PLACE…….WE ARE STARTING ANOTHER ROUND OF COMPETITION FOR THE $250 GIVE-AWAY……..ITS DJ LADY JA-ROQ’S OPEN MIC SHOWCASE…DOORS OPEN AT 9…SHOW STARTS AT 10………IF YOU HAVE BEEN MISSING THIS TREAT, I DON’T KNOW WHAT TO TELL YOU……IT’S THE HOTTEST OF THE UNDERGROUND ARTIST IN DALLAS………THIS ISNT LIKE YOUR AVERAGE OPEN MIC…COME HAVE SOME FUN WITH US!!............

Wow….ugly people are so ugly sometimes……..I just went by my home girls desk….I spoke to everyone around…well there was this one chick sitting there…..she won the 2009 Ohayses Award for Worst Weave by a Pretty Chick btw………so I said hello to her and asked how she is doing…..she says okay and gives that smirk/frown……she then states “How good can I be at work?”…….better than folks that don’t have a job…duh…..some people say the damnest things!!!.............

I really want to go home right now………plus I need to wash…I think I run through way too many face towels………I forget what I use them for….face or body…..so I don’t want to cross contaminate………my grandma gave me that paranoia………

Speaking of granny….I haven’t talked to my aunt today….she told me that they were going to try to have the surgery so when I get off work, I will be calling the 810 to get my update…….its looking good to go home next weekend……..im not going to even tell my friends…ima see which ones actually read this……….

Thank you to those that have bought the CD…..its really has helped me look a lil more optimistic as far as going home next week…….I didn’t think I was going to be able to do it due to finances….but god blesses at the greatest times………..

Then I had a test today…..somebody dropped a jacket in the street…with a credit card in it…….don’t worry….I took it right to the front desk lobby……but it did look good for a minute there…….to the old me……………….

6:30 is really starting to look good to go ahead and get home…….but first………

Rika’s Quote of the Day…………………………………………….

“Seldom does an individual exceeds their own expectations”

This one was simple but yet difficult to articulate…….you are what you say you are……..if you think low of yourself, expect your results to be low…….its funny because I treat people like this quote all the time…..watch what you say and what you think about yourself…..it goes a long way into your own personal growth and prosperity………how can you expect someone else to hold you in high regard when its hard for you to do to yourself………………

Shouts out to my man Castro……..CASTROOOOOOOOO!!!!!..........this young man is just ecstatic about purchasing my CD…so much that he PROMISED me he was going to get it……so I will make sure I have him one tomorrow……….

Love yall!!!!

Church!!!!

Monday, November 2, 2009

BLUEPRINT 3, TRACK 14

AH HA!!!........im here lovely ladies and gents…I do apologize for not writing you all yesterday….something was wrong with my Yahoo…….I couldn’t even look at my fantasy teams until it was too late…got my butt whooped quick too……..how was everyone’s weekend?.........mine was kinda crazy…at least Saturday night was…yesterday, I was in a mental coma…….and I didn’t want to get out of it…if you called and I didn’t respond, accept my apology…if you don’t accept it, sorry!!!..........

THIS TUESDAY ITS GOING DOWN AT MURPHYS PLACE…….WE ARE STARTING ANOTHER ROUND OF COMPETITION FOR THE $250 GIVE-AWAY……..ITS DJ LADY JA-ROQ’S OPEN MIC SHOWCASE…DOORS OPEN AT 9…SHOW STARTS AT 10………IF YOU HAVE BEEN MISSING THIS TREAT, I DON’T KNOW WHAT TO TELL YOU……IT’S THE HOTTEST OF THE UNDERGROUND ARTIST IN DALLAS………THIS ISNT LIKE YOUR AVERAGE OPEN MIC…COME HAVE SOME FUN WITH US!!............

So my mom calls me last night around 10:30…….she didn’t want to talk long……she just wanted to ask me a question…..

“When I ask you to borrow money, do you tell me you don’t have because you don’t want to let me borrow it….Are you paying me back for not being there when you need me? Or do you like me to struggle?”

“Well ma, you forgot one option. Maybe it’s because I don’t have it.”

“Mmm. Okay. Well I will let you go.”

“Okay. Love you”

“Click.”

Wow….just like that……I don’t get mad……it is what it is…..I pray everything works out for her……she doesn’t fully understand that I am struggling myself…God has just been providing for me……plus my grandma always told me that you have to help yourself first…….my moms big issue is that she don’t have a job….and I don’t know if she is looking for one…just handouts……

Even in my case, if I have go to Michigan……which I am planning to do within the next two weeks, I gotta hustle for it……that’s why I am asking everyone to purchase this album!!.....all proceeds will go to me getting home…no Its not a fundraiser….but I want you guys to know what’s going on…….I have a small fear about going because knowing me, I cant really say when I may come back....family is first especially my grandmother……I didn’t want to make this trip……especially not now……but I need to go home….so I ask for your support………even if you don’t really cut for me like that, give it away….but if you do listen to it, you will see the vision………

Kinda got busy at work so I need to make this edition come to an end…………
But before I go……its time for…..Rika’s Quote of the Day……………….

“The toughest part of getting to the top of the ladder, is getting through the crowd at the bottom”

You have to stay focused on your task……..there are a lot of people trying to go where you are trying to go……so don’t be discouraged…….work hard and set yourself apart……..

Shouts out to Vincent Tucker…..”Young Heartbreak” is a young up and coming media mind…..didn’t have another word for it….he has his own morning radio show and I was honored to co-host Final Friday with him………thank you so much for blessing us with your presence and you all find, him, check him out, and ensure that the future of entertainment is in the right hands………..

Love yall!!!!!!!

Church!!!!