AN INTERVENTION FOR MY INTERVENTION

Sooo…I get back from lunch and a woman passes out right by my desk…not trying to be funny but it was the one with the eyebrows…….please pray for her……you never know what a person is going through……and if the ambulance have to come, then take that as serious…….what’s disturbing is the amount of window shoppers that come around looking like we in a zoo……I had to tell one of my co-workers to help me watch my tongue…..I so don’t like when people do that…just for the sole purpose of trying to get a story to tell everybody else in the building…..sounds like the media doesn’t it???.........

DJ LADY JA-ROQ’S OPEN MIC SHOWCASE HAS MOVED TO WEDNESDAYS!!!.......COME ON OUT TO ROLLS ROYCE OFF 635 AND SKILLMAN AND SHOW US WHAT YOU HAVE!!!!.......WE ARE STILL GIVING AWAY $250…..AND NOW, WE ARE ALSO LETTING YOU HAVE YOUR OWN 15 MINUTES SHOWCASE SLOT…..FOR DETAILS, YOU HAVE TO BE THERE……DOORS OPEN AT 10!!............DONT BE LATE KNUCKLEHEADS!!!!!!..........

Yes, it still feels funny not going to an open mic tonight…..but hey, growth is what growth is……this may be a better move for us in the long run so I am still excited about it….need more people to come out……new more acts to come perform…..I never knew it was so hard to give away $250!!!........

As soon as it gets halfway hot, here comes the summer dresses and open toe shoes…..I hope it rains!!!!.........and some women….I’m only saying this to some…need to wait until they get their feet done before they wear sandals and the such…..feet look like they walking on S.O.S. pads……….

Well……today is March 30th……..it is my mother’s birthday……yeah, I did call her…she didn’t answer but I did my part…….and im not saying that to be funny……I barely call people…so if I remember tonight, I will call again….if I don’t remember…she says she reads my blogs…..SO HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOMMA!!! I LOVE YOU!!!!......watch this be one that she doesn’t read……

On a serious note though folks…..if your life has been anything like mine, forgive…..let bygones be bygones……no pain is permanent unless we let it…..true, our relationship has not been the grandest……that does not take away her being the most instrumental woman in my life…….she is my mother….and my wish is that one day we will be able to enjoy each other as get along in peace and harmony………

So last night I am watching Wrestlemania…again….and all of a sudden it goes off….in the middle of the match!!!!...so I go back to my DVR recordings to start it again and its not there!!!....iii am so uber upset right now…..I didn’t even get a chance to systematically dissect all the matches!!!........ima call Time Warner today and see if they can restore it…I still have last years Wrestlemania recorded…….I don’t play about my wrestling……..

Got a quote for today…it’s from my girl Alsace…one of the hottest females artist in the world today…..yeah Rika wasn’t on her job…again….but I wont let it bring down my spirits……..


“To do more for the world than the world does for you- that is success”

Guess I’m a failure right now……the world does a lot for me…….right now……….

Please……it’s a joke……..no sympathy emails……….

But I do want you to check me out: www.reverbnation.com/spaceshipohayses ......the best music in the world happens right there………

Well I am about to get out of here…….shout outs to my homie Ms. Henderson………I always know, no matter what that at least one person is keeping up with me on my blogs…..and I thank you so much from the bottom of my heart……..

Love yall!!!!!!


Church!!!!

A DAY LATE, A DOLLAR SHORT

Hello to all!!!......ahhh!!!...I had a wonderful weekend!!!....I hope you all did as well…….how are you feeling today?...yeah I know its Monday, but it is beautiful outside!!!.....one of those “I wish I wasn’t at work” days….and by the looks of it up here, a few people thought the same thing…..that’s on them!!......I’m trying to bonus…..plus I’m still trying to get my PTO back from granny’s funeral…yeah I know…its been a while huh……..going on 5 months in April………so you ready for me to tell you what I did this weekend??

I WATCHED WRESTLEMANIA!!!.......and it was pretty darn good if I may say so myself……..the worse part about wrestlemania was Jayla wanting to play animals……I tried…..I really did…but I have been waiting on this day all year you know…..I caught myself smiling when it came on…….and then to top it off, I grilled steaks….made smothered potatoes and corn on the cob…even made some kool-aid…hadn’t done that in a while……..and of course….Heinekens……the Shawn Michaels/ Undertaker match was everything plus more………even the championship matches were good….I’m happy I spent my day at the crib…didn’t go too many places....washed some clothes, hit the grocery store and chilled at the crib…….

As I mentioned, I grilled steaks…why is it that when a bar b que grill is blazing, we tyro t find whatever we can to cook on that heat??.......I ended up making hamburgers, hot links, and turkey sausage along with the steaks……..is it really a subconscious thing about waste not, want not?........but at least I had lunch ready made for me…and dinner tonight……tomorrow, I will probably make spaghetti……..

The show Saturday was pretty awesome as well……I want to thank everyone that came out to support your boy…and also to all the groups that performed……something very ironic happened on Saturday that had me really thinking about how my music career has come full circle here in Dallas……I remember a show I performed at a few years ago and in the middle of my performance, my music shut off……..I didn’t know what to do…..I was stuck….embarrassed…..and angry….I felt it was done on purpose because I wasn’t from here…..they don’t like my kind of music and they just was hating…this was my opinion……well Saturday, in the middle of “I Am Ohayses”……(available on iTunes and Amazon)…….the music cuts off again……..this time….Spaceship is ready….I keep rocking with no music…..and the response by the end of the song was incredible……sort of like me!!!.....there was no fear…no trepidation……no anger….I knew that I had to complete my show……that’s my mind frame right now….NO EXCUSES!!.........yeah, the music messed up….so what??......my words are the same….my emotions are the same…and the power behind the music is the same…….yes Rhonda…I see the growth…….

So many people are asking for CDs……if you are serious about getting one……I’m sorry………IF YOU ARE SERIOUS ABOUT GETTING A SPACESHIP OHAYSES “NO PRESERVATIVES” CD, PLEASE FO TO AMAZON, ITUNES, RHAPSODY…….AND NOW IT IS AVAILABLE EXCLUSIVELY AT www.reverbnation.com/spaceshipohayses this is a must have album…… I mean seriously…you say you support me….you say you like the music…so why don’t you have it again??......NO EXCUSES!!!!.............

Still looking for comedians…….about to get a big show together and I need some comedians to help make this next venture a reality……..too many bridges to build and not enough time……..don’t be selfish with who you know….this may be there chance to get to where they want to be………..

Well I am actually about to cut this short…….so without further ado……..Rika’s Quote of the Day……………..

“When people can walk away from you, let them. Your destiny is never tied to anybody that left.”

Sometimes people can walk away from there destiny……because they think “it’s the right thing to do”…..or….“If they love me they will come back”….seriously??........our attention spans are like 2 seconds long……bye!!!!........

Special shout outs to my best friend Tesah Michelle……you are now officially in the dirty thirty club…I got you AARP membership waiting on you……HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!...I love you so…..wow……can’t believe I have known you for like 20 years…and you are still the same size!!!!........head bigger though……..

Well I am about to go drop some kids of at the pool before I leave here………..

Love yall!!!!!


Church!!!!!!

WHERE IT ALL BEGINS AGAIN!!

Its Friday people!!!.......most of you are already on your way home or there….I hope you ended with a great week at work………and have a safe and enjoyable weekend……and for those that don’t have a job………I still hope all of you television shows were awesome this week………I am doing quite well today…..got to work on time……..and actually worked pretty much the whole day…..less a few meetings…….but it was pretty cool…actually ready to get home……but ima try not to fall asleep like yesterday……..that got me into BIG trouble………

I crashed out about 6….woke up around 11 and I had some missed calls from Stephanie……now I figured she would be sleep but I try to return her calls….you never know if anything is wrong with Jayla…….so I call her….she tells me someone is mad at me…….it was Jayla……on Wednesday when I called, Jayla was excited to tell me she had cleaned her room……she wanted me to come see it but of course, I was at work until 9……so I told her I would come over yesterday…..totally forgot!!!......so now today, I have to make sure I go see my pooka…….and guess what?.......bet her room will be dirty by now………

Sooooo……today is March 26th………2010…….last year…..on March 26th, 2009, I decided to start writing a “blog”………I really didn’t know what I could honestly write about on a consistent basis…….I don’t even know what I would write about probably……I also didn’t know if people would begin top get irritated by receiving a text from me….who would read it everyday?.....could I keep up?.......and how long would it last until I run out of thoughts……as I have continued to develop this blog, I have learned some new things about computers….I have been able to look within myself and search my soul…….you guys have walked with me through the car washes, the rendezvous with PB Ent, the release of “No Preservatives”, the passing of my grandmother, the black history program, and my birthday……..you have helped me raise money to go to Miami, school supplies for kids, and put together an awesome program for the community……I guess what I am trying to say is…..THANK YOU…..

You guys have been my rock…..behind the jokes and the laughter, the observations and the shows, is a young man in search of himself…….there have been times that I have doubted myself…….yes, I have wanted to quit this journey……stop writing the blogs, and disappear……..I have had my relationships tested….whether they have been physical, mental, emotional, or spiritual……..I peaked…and hit major lows…..a lot of things you guys may not know….but once I started to write…..once I began to jot down my ideas, the pain would evaporate…….

At just the right time, the right people would respond or comment and it would brighten my day…..I have had people hate me because of assuming….I have had people email/text me wanting clarification….that means I have their attention…..I have learn tact…..I am learning to have fun again…….I have tried my best to be an open book with you all…within limits……and to show you just how human an entertainer can be…….

This is just the beginning…..I’m hoping that within this next year, this blog grows bigger…..I am focused on doing a video blog…..as I have told you all time and again, I will soon only have this blog on my BlogSpot account……some of you will care…..some will be relieved from seeing my name pop up in your inbox……if you have not done it yet, go ahead and become a follower: www.spaceshipohayses.blogspot.com ……….

I am not going to write long today….today’s blog wasn’t really about writing…..but I guess I did anyway huh….its about giving thanks and being appreciative to those that continue to make this a success……I know how it feels to be a customer and not feel recognized…..I wish I could thank you all individually, but it would honestly take too long…….so here………kisses to women, pounds to the fellas……….

THIS SATURDAY, MARCH 27TH, SPACESHIP OHAYSES WILL BE LIVE IN CONCERT…….SEASONED VETERANS SERIES AT THE LIQUID LOUNGE……DORRS OPEN AT 8………COME ON DOWN TO DEEP ELLUM…..IF YOU HAVE NOT SEEN SPACESHIP OHAYSES LIVE IN CONCERT, YOU ARE MISSING A TREAT!!!.........THE LIQUID LOUNGE IS LOCATED AT 2800 MAIN STREET ….DRINK SPECIALS ALL NIGHT LONG!!!!!...........

You are my shout out today…..no quote….no particular entity….but you….once again thank you………..

Before I go though….I do have to give my wrestlemania predictions…Wrestlemania 26 is this weekend and yes, I will be watching it……..probably throw some steaks on the grill…grab me some Heinekens……and chill out the whole day long!!!!!..........

ShowMiz over John Morrison and R-Truth

Kofi Kingston will win Money in the Bank

Bret Hart over Vince McMahon

Cody Rhodes over Randy Orton and Ted Dibiase

Rey Mysterio over CM Punk

Sheamus over HHH

Chris Jericho over Edge

Undertaker over Shawn Michaels

John Cena over Batista

Well there goes my picks…if you have no clue what I am talking about…….YO BADD!!!!

Love yall!!!!


Church!!!!

SLEEP SHOULD'VE BROUGHT YOU HOME LAST NIGHT!!!!!

To those I did not text about the cancellation of Rolls Royce last night……..please accept my apology…….I found out around the same time you all did…..that rain came out of nowhere!!!........also, I don’t know how to use my phone yet…….I was at work and trying to send out individual text messages to over 1600 people is harder than you would think……I promise, next week, its on!!!........how are you all doing today…….I am tired….very…but its worth it……..I was up until 6 this morning…….tell you about that later……..still at work……of course…….don’t know what time I am getting off……and today was one of those frustrating days………but it is Thursday!!!..........

Last night, I decided to create a power point for Essential Entertainment………consisting of its goals, visions, and the mission of the company……some of you may be like what’s the big deal…..I haven’t done a power point since 2004………seriously………and even then, I think that was only my first or second one……but last night while working, I became completely infatuated with the program…….next thing I know, I look at the clock and its 5:50…….now I knew I should not have went to sleep……..but I tried to get a powernap……..yeah yall know what happened……and my boss was not a happy camper…hell, I wasn’t a happy camper…but I was excited about my presentation…..im still looking at it…..Essential Entertainment is on its way to new horizons…..greater levels…and bigger results………….

***I NEED COMEDIANS!!!.......IF YOU KNOW OF ANY COMEDIANS, PLEASE GET AT ME!!!.......I DON’T CARE WHAT STATE YOU ARE IN….WHAT COLOR THEY ARE……OR HOW MUCH THEY CHARGE….SO YOU SHOULDN’T BE EITHER!!!!.........LET ME WORRY ABOUT THAT…..GET ME SOME TALENT!!!!!***

I have posted this request on a few of my social networking and the first question I receive, is will I be performing at this comedy event….two things stood out…first, who said I was having a comedy show……and two……do you really think I am funny enough to keep a crowd entertained??......I tried that before…..I am good at spontaneous jokes……I am not that guy that can think of a routine……simply because of my fear that I may forget it……and its not about me being on stage all the time……sometimes, I just want to go somewhere and enjoy the atmosphere…….

Everything that glitters aint gold……..I love facebook…..it is truly an awesome thing that I am able to stay in contact with people I have met over my life…….being from Michigan…..going to school in Mississippi…………and now living in Dallas, I have had a hard time trying to keep up with those I consider friends……they have been many sites that have given us that opportunity but facebook is about as close as you will get to meeting all your social needs……..you even can put your real name in it………seems like it was sent from heaven……….

But so was the devil………

As much as I love facebook, it is the devil…….I was talking to one of my homegirls last night and she was telling me about how she is kicking it with this dude….my first piece of advice?....DO NOT ADD HIM AS A FRIEND!!!!..........she asked why…….Facebook allows drama to come to people….its amazing how sensitive we get by reading things that are on here……..we get upset if someone likes something on our people page…we continue to make encrypted statements knowing that the person we want to read it will……….people put things on pages for the sake of starting mess…and what do our negative minds think?.....that somehow, these remarks come from somewhere……I put a remark on there about someone not being pregnant and I was happy about it……does that mean that I thought someone I screwed was preggo?...........not for me, but for others, indeed, since I put it on my page……now I know that people have the right to think what they want…but if you bring it to me, I am going to give you an answer you may not like…….we need to watch ourselves….so much in our life is much ado about nothing……..

Lets focus on what people say directly to us…not what are surroundings are trying to give the impression of……..including myself……if I cant use a platform such as MySpace, twitter, or facebook to vent and recruits new fans…what’s the purpose……..we don’t criticize movies because someone got killed……..do we?...............

THIS SATURDAY, MARCH 27TH, SPACESHIP OHAYSES WILL BE LIVE IN CONCERT…….SEASONED VETERANS SERIES AT THE LIQUID LOUNGE……DORRS OPEN AT 8………COME ON DOWN TO DEEP ELLUM…..IF YOU HAVE NOT SEEN SPACESHIP OHAYSES LIVE IN CONCERT, YOU ARE MISSING A TREAT!!!.........THE LIQUID LOUNGE IS LOCATED AT 2800 MAIN STREET ….DRINK SPECIALS ALL NIGHT LONG!!!!!...........

Okay…I’m about to stop for the day…..I gotta get this money….almost didn’t blog……been on some work type ish all day….since I got here…..but she’s back……….Rika’s Quote of the Day…………….

“Don’t believe all you hear, spend all you have, or sleep all you want.”

Learn values….learn rations………learn how to judge……..we don’t have to maximize everything in our life….sometimes, a little is just enough……….

Well I am out of here…..shout outs to my girl Necole….been meaning to call you…..aint heard from you in a while……also, to the Eckles family……from husband to wife and all your beautiful kids…..DIE!!!!!!....(don’t worry yall, it’s an inside joke!)…………

Love yall!!!!!!

Church!!!!

AMERICA'S NEXT TOP WHINO

Yall should hear this rain!!!!......well, if you are in Dallas then you hear it….im at work and it feels like something off 2012……..knew I shouldn’t have watched that movie……how are you all doing today?........I’m doing pretty good today….thought I was going to come into work early……but I didn’t…….I have a very good reason though…..so I am still here…dreading these last few hours….hoping that by the time I get ready to leave, this rain would have ceased………

So last night, I start on my new song…..yeah, shipper has a new classic about to drop…the title right now is tentative…….don’t even want to say what it is because I am not that excited about it…….I have to truly listen to the chorus to get a good feel of what the song title will be…….told someone in the studio last night that writing music is a drug to me…….once I start, its hard to stop……realized that I haven’t been in a studio since before No Preservatives was released….that’s crazy!!!!......once I start hearing beats, so many thoughts and ideas come to my head……..so now I have to find a place to put them all down……shhhh!!!!...another album on the horizon????............

So I was watching Extreme Makeover: Broke Folks Edition the other night…….if you don’t know the concept of the show, they find people that are in critical need of new living arrangements and totally help them have their dream house……..or at least a complete upgrade…….the key is…getting them away from their current house long enough to build this new facility…….now as excited as these people are, they must have patience in allowing this TV show to do its job………these people know that they are in for a surprise but what good would it be if they tried to live in that new house before all the repairs and designing is complete………..

And this, my people is our lives…….more to the point, our businesses, our destiny, our tribulations……..sometimes, we see that end result……..we want so very badly to live in that big beautiful house of success and live as comfortable as possible……but its not possible if the house isn’t complete………what happens if you walk into that home and notice you are missing steps to go upstairs??.......now what is the point of having an upstairs……..lets say there is no windows………..walls haven’t been painted……….back yard full of nature………

See, I understand……Essential Entertainment is a part of me…..and I want so very badly to enjoy the fruits of my labor…..the thing I fail to realize at times is that my labor is not done………there are still things I need to pick up….things I need to add to my repo ire…things I need to throw away….and things I need to try……..as I continue to build this enterprise, I cant get impatient…….I can not allow myself to let the anticipation of my finished home ruin the process of building it…..it takes many people to build a home….and it takes just as many, in ratio, to build the foundations of our lives…..no, everyone we meet may not be for our benefit……and sometimes, we have to do things that seem like detours…….but even in a car…..not trying to use too many analogies, you have to remove an engine to get to the alternator……..get my drift?........

Lets all continue to love the building process of our souls as much as we wish for that completion…..its coming….and even then, we will still see places where repairs and upgrades may be needed……..they say patience is a virtue…..well so is a happy home……..

I know you haven’t received a text from me this week….that’s because this Smartphone is stupid….nah, but I don’t know how to send out mass texts yet…….I still need to sit down and attempt to read this book…..even I have to learn how to display patience…… but any who……….

TONIGHT!!!.....TONIGHT!!!!! TONIGHT!!!!!!.......DJ LADY JA-ROQ’S OPEN MIC SHOWCASE HAS MOVED TO WEDNESDAYS!!!.......COME ON OUT TO ROLLS ROYCE OFF 635 AND SKILLMAN AND SHOW US WHAT YOU HAVE!!!!.......WE ARE STILL GIVING AWAY $250…..AND NOW, WE ARE ALSO LETTING YOU HAVE YOUR OWN 15 MINUTES SHOWCASE SLOT…..FOR DETAILS, YOU HAVE TO BE THERE……DOORS OPEN AT 10!!............DONT BE LATE KNUCKLEHEADS!!!!!!..........

AND THIS SATURDAY, MARCH 27TH, SPACESHIP OHAYSES WILL BE LIVE IN CONCERT…….SEASONED VETERANS SERIES AT THE LIQUID LOUNGE……DORRS OPEN AT 8………COME ON DOWN TO DEEP ELLUM…..IF YOU HAVE NOT SEEN SPACESHIP OHAYSES LIVE IN CONCERT, YOU ARE MISSING A TREAT!!!.........THE LIQUID LOUNGE IS LOCATED AT 2800 MAIN STREET ….DRINK SPECIALS ALL NIGHT LONG!!!!!...........

I would love to see everybody out this Saturday……I really haven’t performed much in the last few months so this is a nice chance for me to re-kindle with the audience and it gives you a chance to see me perform….on a weekend even!!!!!..........

I just realized I didn’t get a quote today….WHATSUPWITDAT???............

Oh well…still have a quote though………………….

“We are no longer happy as soon as we wish to be happier”

Ever felt like that at work?.......as soon as you start looking for a new job, everything at your old job sucks……even in relationships…..start talking to someone new and everything your old companion does irritate you……watch that…grass isn’t always greener…..and if it is, it might be fake……hell sometimes there isn’t any grass on the other side…I’m just saying………..

Shout outs to my girl Chips Ahoy….yeah, I got a nickname for you…….I appreciate you reading everyday…..and my mans Blaze Won…….Google that name……I guarantee he is somewhere on some website killing some innocent cat with his spit……..that’s hip hop for lyrics mortals…………

Okay I am out of here…..

Love yall!!!!!!!!


Church!!!!!!!!

HUNGRY HUNGRY HIPPO

So we are back my people, we are back!!!.........how are you all doing this beautiful Tuesday…..so we go from sun, to rain, to snow, to cold, to sun again……..and that’s just from Saturday…….yeah, gotta love TX weather……wish I was queuing today….but I still have leftovers from Sunday so I will probably go get me some 99 cent chicken from Popeye’s and call it a meal……..I am actually doing well today……got up on time…….almost…..was able to shower and iron….yes I ironed…..and still got to work on time….almost……but at least I can get off between the 4 and 5 o’clock hour………

Okay before I start thinking I have a question…what’s up with women and pickles??........and when they eat it……..

Okay….next topic……

So my grandmother was the best cook I knew……I don’t like to talk about her in the past tense but I will today because I don’t have a lot of time for editing……on holidays, we knew where all the family would end up…at our house….there was one rule……no one was allowed in the kitchen……only if she offered you a mixing spoon or a fork full of something were you ever to get close to the kitchen…….and in all my years of eating my grandmother’s awesome meals. I never saw her measure anything…..she knows what it took to make food compelling and delicious………..

To this day, I try to cook like my granny…to no avail…..when I was in a tight spot cooking…like making gravy, I knew exactly who to call…..she probably wouldn’t give me her exact recipe…I knew that….but it was enough to get me by…and if I tried hard enough, with the simple basics she gave me, I would be able to create my own signature dish………..

When I thought about writing this, I thought about life……we all have our recipe for success….we tend to look at others and think that if they did a particular thing, we should be able to have the same amount of success with the same recipe…….life doesn’t work like that…….we may have the foundation of our existence down pat, but it is up to us…..depending on the amount of work and creativity we put into our lives to create our signature dish……..the things I see others doing to become great or successful may not necessarily be what I need to do in order to obtain greatness……..my mental and emotional pallet may not like heavy salt…….or too many seasonings….meaning, sometimes less can be more……..or maybe we are trying too hard to be like someone instead of making people want to crave us…….why do you think there are sop many fast food restaurants……they took a blueprint and created they own signature……..now we have options……..how great would life be with only McDonalds??..............

And at the time where we are concocting our recipe…..sometimes we don’t need a bunch of people in our kitchen……..yes, I know natural response for humans is to be admired and appreciated, but them same people can wait until the end product……..if you let everyone taste your product before it is done, they all will have opinions…now you have more people to please….more modifying to do, hoping that it will eventually please your audience……take time for yourself….figure our how much of yourself you should measure out at particular times………and you don’t have to share your recipe to anyone……give them the basics…and let them discover their own recipe………

I NEED EVERYONE’S ATTENTION!!!!!!.......DJ LADY JA-ROQ’S OPEN MIC SHOWCASE HAS MOVED TO WEDNESDAYS!!!.......COME ON OUT TO ROLLS ROYCE OFF 635 AND SKILLMAN AND SHOW US WHAT YOU HAVE!!!!.......WE ARE STILL GIVING AWAY $250…..AND NOW, WE ARE ALSO LETTING YOU HAVE YOUR OWN 15 MINUTES SHOWCASE SLOT…..FOR DETAILS, YOU HAVE TO BE THERE……DOORS OPEN AT 10!!............DONT BE LATE KNUCKLEHEADS!!!!!!..........

AND THIS SATURDAY, MARCH 27TH, SPACESHIP OHAYSES WILL BE LIVE IN CONCERT…….SEASONED VETERANS SERIES AT THE LIQUID LOUNGE……DORRS OPEN AT 8………COME ON DOWN TO DEEP ELLUM…..IF YOU HAVE NOT SEEN SPACESHIP OHAYSES LIVE IN CONCERT, YOU ARE MISSING A TREAT!!!.........THE LIQUID LOUNGE IS LOCATED AT 2800 MAIN STREET ….DRINK SPECIALS ALL NIGHT LONG!!!!!...........

Hopefully, you enjoyed this piece……I think Spaceship is getting into his preacher mode……I am looking to launch the weekend blogcast starting April 3rd……….I want to continue to have substance…..what do you all think about today’s topic….agree?........think I am way off base?....shoot me an email and let me know what you think………

And don’t forget to become a follower: www.spaceshipohayses.blogspot.com

And here it is people……..Rika’s Quote of the Day………………

“Success is the sum of many small efforts”

It doesn’t start as an avalanche………you have to build to it…………..

Well I am about to get out of here….shout outs to my girl DD….happy birthday to you babe!!!!..........also wanna give some love to dude KenF 5000…..appreciate you hitting me up this weekend bro…miss you and love you!!...............

Ahhhhhh……..almost time to go……………

Love yall!!!!


Church!!!!

I LOCKED MYSELF IN THE HOUSE!!!!!

Shhhhh!!......don’t tell anyone…..im still at work!!.......didn’t get here until 1 today……woke up with the BGs and I just couldn’t do it…..called in and told him I was going to come in late…so I did…and that’s why I am still here……how have you all been?......I know we haven’t truly conversed in a minute……..I wanted to give you all a minute to miss me as well as read what’s been going on the past year with this big date coming up…….but I cant lie…I missed venting to you all…….there is something about getting things out of my system…..it allows me to continue to move forward without placing too much emphasis on the past……..

Social networking sites will be the death of society…….you heard it here first if you don’t already believe it….yeah its fun to be on Tagged and Facebook and all the other sites……..but don’t date anyone!!!........its a dead end……because if you are on facebook, its worse than the police……anything said WILL be held against you…..whether you provoked it or not……..ladies….and yes I am speaking to you all since I get phone calls telling me about your problems……..remember how you tell us guys that you have more male friends because women are messy??.......well don’t think because it’s a website that that theory changes…….its hilarious to see women arguing on someone’s page…….and mature if I may add……..to all my female friends with this dilemma…stop getting your panties in a bunch…Satan will try to destroy anything……we have to act sensible…..and stop being so obvious on those sites as well……everybody don’t need to know all your business…………

So yesterday, I woke up at 9….yes, in the morning!!!........that’s crazy because I cant seem to wake up early on a weekday that early without my alarm clock……I wanted to go back to sleep…..but I didn’t…….instead, I got my butt up and cleaned up……yes, I did……hush!!!.....and it wasn’t a straighten up type of clean up…….I can actually see the floors in my bedroom as well as my closet……..I am very proud of myself……I didn’t stop until my work was done……it was dirty though….just junky…clothes everywhere…….I got two garbage bags full of clothes and I think I am going to go donate them to the Goodwill……..Salvation Army or CCA……….I don’t need them…so why not give them to someone that does you know?...............

Thought I was going to be able to cook tonight…..guess not……but its cool…probably will cook spaghetti and fish tomorrow when I get off work……

I NEED EVERYONE’S ATTENTION!!!!!!.......DJ LADY JA-ROQ’S OPEN MIC SHOWCASE HAS MOVED TO WEDNESDAYS!!!.......COME ON OUT TO ROLLS ROYCE OFF 635 AND SKILLMAN AND SHOW US WHAT YOU HAVE!!!!.......WE ARE STILL GIVING AWAY $250…..AND NOW, WE ARE ALSO LETTING YOU HAVE YOUR OWN 15 MINUTES SHOWCASE SLOT…..FOR DETAILS, YOU HAVE TO BE THERE……DOORS OPEN AT 10!!............DONT BE LATE KNUCKLEHEADS!!!!!!..........

AND THIS SATURDAY, MARCH 27TH, SPACESHIP OHAYSES WILL BE LIVE IN CONCERT…….SEASONED VETERANS SERIES AT THE LIQUID LOUNGE……DORRS OPEN AT 8………COME ON DOWN TO DEEP ELLUM…..IF YOU HAVE NOT SEEN SPACESHIP OHAYSES LIVE IN CONCERT, YOU ARE MISSING A TREAT!!!.........THE LIQUID LOUNGE IS LOCATED AT 2800 MAIN STREET….DRINK SPECIALS ALL NIGHT LONG!!!!!...........

So Stephanie just called and said Jayla’s cursing now………like its my fault…those that know me know I have one the calmest voices and very respectable mouths in the world……im just saying………

I want to go home…..wrestling comes on in thirty minutes and this is making a glitch in my matrix……..should I leave early and make the time up throughout the week?....or should I stay, tough it out and not come in late on Wednesday??........decisions, decisions………

Also, before I go….I posed a question on my facebook yesterday and I would love for your participation as well…….what is worse……someone cheating on you or someone(you are not dating) popping up at your house??.........I want to know what you all think……I did receive some responses but I want to see what you all think about this question…think hard now……

So before I leave you all for the day…..Rika’s Quote for the Day………………

“Courage is fear holding on another minute”

Being scared of something can wait…..we have to fight with all our might for our dreams to come true……..we can worry later……..

Shout outs to T-mobile’s customer support team…..I got a free upgrade Saturday….so I am missing numbers….if I haven’t called you…YO BAD!!!!........I even got a Bluetooth……yeah, Spaceship is now voyaging into the 21st century!!!......NTF…………

Love yall!!!!!!!!


Church!!!!!

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY

***so i decided to re issue some of my old blogs........in 9 days, i will be celebrating my one year of writing blogs......i may write during this time, but i also want some people to see the progression of this past year.......this blog was written june 21, 2009...enjoy***

how is everyone doing today?......you know, on holidays i decide to write late because i have to sincerely think of what i want to write.....now for mother's day, i discussed my relationship with my "mom"......i thought about doing the same thing with my dad......i realized though he doesnt even deserve that much credit......when i think about it, holidays and I really dont get along...maybe it is because of the relationships i have with my parents.....another story for another time........

in my 29 years of living, i have had three children.....a son, a daughter, and one that didnt make it past the first trimester........i have always wanted to be a part of a big family......atleast four kids....ideally, with the same mother.......the white picket fence, the after school activities, the family vacations........you know, the things i didnt have.....i always wanted a son.....with the fact that my father wasnt in my life and the family that raised me having a different last name than mine, it was always a dream to have me a junior.....well i did have a son....Kobe...yeah, his mom liked the lakers too!!!.........

he was born in April of 2001......big fat jaws...handsome little fellow.......his mom and I had a brief summer fling but that didnt matter to me......the important part was that i had a son.....was i ready for one?..........of course not.....but God had given me my life line.......someone to live for.......someone that loved me...........someone that looked up to me.....

now a lot of times, women wonder why men dont claim their kid, or why they would rather be on child support than to simply be there for the mother......first of all, let me break this down...women, if you agree to a man taking a blood test, that might mean you have some questions........especially if you are not doing it to prove him wrong........with the level of promiscuity going on nowadays, can you honestly blame him?..........secondly, the way women try to hold kids over a man's head......that ish is not needed......and sometimes a man's ego will not allow him to suck it up and do whats best...no, im not saying that is right..... but it happens.........lastly...all because im not a good mate, does not mean i wont be a good father....i may just not like you!!!!...or you might just not like me........

well this story didnt have a happy ending.........i did wonder if Kobe was mine from time to time........she told me i was the only person she was sleeping with...but something didnt add up...everytime we had sex, i used a rubber...and i didnt think it broke......but we used some of hers sometime......i raised Kobe for three years.....when i went home, i made sure i saw him and he stayed with me.....i would send her money......she would send me pictures and I would show him off.......hell, he kinda looked like me.........then i got ready to graduate........I asked Kobe's mom if I could come get him for the summer...i set up having a babysitter when i had to work and i wanted to give his grandmother some time off......she said it was cool...........i decided to go get him after graduation......

now the grandmother decided it was time to get me to pay child suppport....after a certain time, you cant get a father on the birth certificate so she decided now was the time...........i was trippin but if thats what she wanted, so be it....i was going to get a good job once i graduated......and i had just proposed to my girlfriend......we could manage......

had the bloodtest........about a week before graduation.......yeah i thought about it but more because i was pissed.......is she trying to set me up for the okey-doke.......i called her as soon as my graduation ended........i planned to party today, sleep the next day, and drive to Michigan on Monday...........

" ring"

"hello."

"whats up? is it still good for me to come get Kobe?"

"yeah....my mom will be waiting.....i got the results back."

"and?"

"and he aint yours?"

"CLICK!"

thats the last time i talked to her................it messed with me.....even when Jayla was first thougth about Kobe came back to life.........thats cold-blooded....for 3 years, i thought i had a son......in 30 seconds, i didnt anymore.............

but as i looked in my baby's face today....as she smiled at me...as she called me a king........i have no thoughts of Kobe...........i have no recollection of that pain.........no sorrow....no remorse...........my Jayla is all that matters...........the pain i felt has been redirected into a passion for her to see me great........

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY TO all the fathers in the world..........LOVE YOUR KIDS........REGARDLESS.............YOU ARE THEIR KINGS.......THEY HAVE NO CHOICE BUT TO LOOK UP TO YOU...THEY ARE YOU.......


love yall!!!!


church!!!!

LAY DOWN WITH DOGS, WAKE UP WITH FLEAS

***so i decided to re issue some of my old blogs........in 9 days, i will be celebrating my one year of writing blogs......i may write during this time, but i also want some people to see the progression of this past year.......this blog was written october 28, 2009...enjoy***



Howdy folks!!........im feeling good today……..and in about 30 minutes, I will be feeling better….I hope everyone is doing well today…one more day til the weekend!!.......im actually excited about this weekend…..I don’t have to work….and I will try my hardest to see my daughter…….haven’t seen her in a few weeks….due to being sick……..but I plan on spending time with her this weekend…….


So……today was Box Day up here at the job……..Box Day is when the higher ups decide to find reasons to let people go……I think about 7 people got “the Box”………now, im no saint…..and I figure if you do get the box, you probably did something against policy…….but it still sucks…especially when they are hiring all these temps to work here……and then say they aren’t hiring…..but I figured out that they didn’t finish their sentence……they are not hiring anyone that they have to give benefits too……that’s what that is……..



Went to Halftime Bar and Grill last night to kick it with my PB Ent family and chill with my dude Darren of the Movement…….now, im not one to bash any setting for I know that its hard to make progress but last night was not a good look…and it wasn’t his fault…..to an extent…the DJ got mad because “his” Hispanic crowd left the club when the darker skinned folks got there……but it was only 7 of them in there to begin with!!!.....then he leaves the DJ booth in the middle of a performance and the music cuts off!!!.....and where was he?....we have no clue…he gets mad and decides to leave the club………yeah......exactly…WOW!!!!.......



I was posed a question today…….what would happen if the internet crashed and we could no longer get on the World Wide Web……man I would miss my porn!!!.........



Going to tie up all my loose ends tonight…..going to get my tickets…sign my contract with the club owner and having a talk with my partner about the album release party….I also think ima have some ringtones for yall by the morning…and an opportunity to download my lead single from the album ‘No Preservatives’, Act A Fool………….



You know as a child, I sold a lot of things for my school, hoping to get a bike, or earning books, gift cards, something…..you know what im talking about….selling cookies, sausage and cheese, all those “fundraisers”….(im sure using a lot of quotes today)…….well, new as an adult…THOSE THINGS ARE SO IRRITATING!!!.......everybody in this building that has a kid is selling something…and exactly who is this money going to??........the school…..and for??...you know I used to be a teacher and last time I checked, the states funded a lot of things for the school……im just saying………



I came to work at 7 this morning…….yes!!.... 7 o’clock……I can’t believe it either…..I think this was the hardest thing I have done since I said “I DO”…lmao……and I couldn’t believe that either……



Ever have someone ask to borrow money but don’t get it when they say they need it…then by the time you are broke, they ask for it again??....only to get mad because you don’t have it now??.......or is that just my life??........



Well I am about to go and wrap up this work day…….as I mentioned, we are giving you Rika’s quote for the Day…today’s quote:



“A chip on the shoulder is the heaviest load a person will ever carry”



Let it marinate……..got it?....good!!...........



Shouts out to my DJ…DJ Lady Ja-Roq…..she has been on the sick and shut in list with the flu, but hopefully she will be back in full effect very very soon……..





Love yall!!!!!!!!



Church!!!!

EXTREME MAKEOVER:MOJO EDITION

***so i decided to re issue some of my old blogs........in 10 days, i will be celebrating my one year of writing blogs......i may write during this time, but i also want some people to see the progression of this past year.......this blog was written june 23, 2009...enjoy***
okay...this will be short and sweet......sorry...got off work at 7 and been rushing since i got home......man! i am getting old......i look forward to taking a bath in epsom salt when i come home......how is everyone doing today?........its almost wednesday!!!...and that means two more days until FRIDAY!!!....got a few topics i want to cover and then Ima retire for the evening..............

so Morgan Freeman has been sleeping with his grand-daughter.......yeah, they said it was his step, but he has been raising her since she was little..........and he was one of the few black men in entertainment that I personally looked up to........we thought he was a model citizen...come to find out, he's been modeling her off at movie premiers.........the uber sad part is that his wife knew about it........thought it was going to stop........now i gotta watch when i chick calls their man "daddy"..........

one of my co-workers was looking for a customer today.......well, another one of our team members found some information on him......he had just been released from jail......see dude is/was a pastor at a pretty big church in florida.......very prominent in their community.....and loved for their relationship with the community.........he was so kind, he let members of his church pay their tithes with food stamps.......and then reselling them and using them to buy food for his meat market........gnr..........he was being charged with felony illegal distribution of food stamps.....also some other stuff, but that's what caught my eye.....he got off........along with an assistant minister.....but 2 others were convicted, as well as 2 sons of the pastor and assistant...major league WTF moment........

this chick at work passed out in the bathroom today.....at the same time, another woman had her baby...........wow!!.......everyweek we got either the PD, the FD, or the MD at our job!!!......................

i had a discrepancy with one of my homegirls today......i warned her about this guy i personally dont care for.......we used to work together and he was truly an individual that i wouldnt throw a clean bone to if he was homeless.......well, she works with him now........and today they met.......i told her i couldnt converse with her anymore if she continued a relationship with this guy...am i wrong?........she's a grown woman and i am not trying to control her.......but as a close associate, i am considering the long term effects of this situation......give me your input...i have been known to trip in the past...and ive been known to be right.......this guy loves the term drama...and his esteem is so low, he always looks for new ways to confiscate someone else's..............

ITS TUESDAY AND YOU KNOW HOW IT GOES DOWN!!!! ITS DJ LADY JA-ROQ'S OPEN MIC SHOWCASE!!!......ITS AT MURPHY'S PLACE....9410 WALNUT STREET...DOORS OPEN AT NINE.......SHOW STARTS AT TEN...TONIGHT WE HAVE PB ENT'S OWN KRISTINA AS OUR FEATURED ARTIST.....YALL BRING YA BUTTS......IF YOU MISSED LAST WEEK, ITS NOT MY FAULT.........GET THERE TONIGHT!!!!

shouts out to my brother Mac Mittens........RTE in the building...just wanna show you some love homie...let you know you in my heart.........come to TX and do a show!!!!


im gone....im late............

love yall!!!!!!


church!!!!!!!

POOR LIL TINK TINK BROKE HIS ARM!!

Greetings to you all!!!....I hope I find you all in good spirits and not letting any negativity around you disturb your groove……I am having a pretty decent day…….I think……..I know im sleepy……I have a problem……if I don’t get sleep, im tired…….if I get too much sleep, im still tired……..earlier this morning, I was barely able to keep my eyes open……but I made it home for lunch…got a jolt of energy….and im good now…….only a few more hours left at work and I can actually rest again tonight………

TONIGHT THERE WILL NOT BE MURPHYS GOING ON TONIGHT!!!......TOMORROW WE WILL BE AT ROLLS ROYCE OFF SKILLMAN…….ITS THE NEW DJ LADY ROQ OPEN MIC SHOWCASE!!!!......KITTY WILL BE THERE!!!.........SPACESHIP WILL DEFINATELY BE IN THE BUILDING!!!....AND WE HAVE A MAJOR ANNONUNCEMENT DIRECTLY FROM DJ LADY JA-ROQ HERSELF……THE HOTTEST ACTS…..HOLLA AT ME IF YO WANT A 15 MINUTE SET!!!.........

I kinda excited about our new location….just the adrenaline rush of a new venue…….sometimes in life, very little needs to change to make things exciting again…..kind of like relationships…..a man or woman don’t have to make drastic changes to their person, but something small and saddled can usually do the trick……so you all come on out tomorrow and party with us…even heard they may have $2 wells all night!!!!.......

Well I must say…..WRESTLEMANIA is less than two weeks away!!!......now some people were excited about the Pacquiao fight……others go to bars to watch UFC……I am still a diehard wrestling fan and can not wait for March 28th……….I will be giving my predictions in the upcoming days so be on the look out for that………the card looks stacked with very few questionable matches…..the past few years, they have had a hard time trying to figure out star studded matchups……this year, I think they are doing a good job building up each match as a main event attraction……………

I think I have a boil…..on my butt……that’s my excuse for not sitting in my seat……..and I am sticking to it……….

Soooo…….the saga continues……last night, while watching wrestling I received a phone call…..had to answer…….it was Mr. Rhymes……….my mentor…..and then man I credit for helping me become who I am today……..he called because he had received a call earlier that day…...from my mother…….now he didn’t call to belittle me or to make me feel bad, he simply inquired about my book…..I told you all yesterday that my mom didn’t really approve of the chapter I sent out Saturday………it was funny because Joyia had suggested that we see a counselor….well, Mr. Rhymes has always been my counselor…….I told him I loved my mom……told him that book was written 5 years ago when she wouldn’t have cared what it said……..do I think she doesn’t like it because she feels guilty?.........no….she has no reason to feel guilty…its fiction right?........but we discussed not only my feelings but hers as well…..I am not going to stop shopping my book……that would be self censorship…….and someone….somewhere….has went through the tribulations that I wrote about…..I know somebody needs to hear it…even if she doesn’t………….

I wonder if people think they can take advantage of me………I say that because I am getting a lot of offers for favors….now I ask for favors as well…..in the industry I am talking about….but I ask with the premise of, if they go out their way to help, I am grateful…..and maybe others think the same way……but there is a thin line between helping someone and feeling prostituted…….I cant continue to do shows for free…..at least I refuse to host them….I cant any token of appreciation…….unless, you have helped me……isn’t that the circle of life….favor for a favor?........if you have helped mold me into who I am today, then we don’t have a problem there either……but these newbie’s…..the ones that act like I should know them already……nah playa…..up them duckets ya dig!!!!!..............

My boss has the attention span of a three year old…..you ask him one thing and if something distracts him, it’s a wrap…..I have been waiting a week on my password……..and yes, I have asked him……..

Don’t you hate people that take word and always make them have a negative connotation……I told someone my grandmother was ignorant……they got upset…look in the dictionary…….it means not knowing…there were a lot of things she was ignorant too…….there are a lot of things I am ignorant too now…….that doesn’t make us dumb……get your words straight……..

Well, no Rika quote…..and I did see her today…..but ima let her make it……she probably is going to be shocked I blogged this early…..but I do have a quote……I think its pretty cool….and accurate as well………….

“Holding on to anger is like grasping onto a hot coal with the intent of throwing it at someone else. You are the one getting burned.”

Not letting things go never ends well for the one with the grudge………..

Well I am about to go…shout outs to my homie La Donna……..God blessed her with a new house this weekend and if anyone deserved it, she did…….she exemplifies being a Christian woman and a great friend….let me know when my invite is!!!!!!!......what would you like for a housewarming gift?...........maybe I can get you a Fat Head of me!!!!............

Love yall!!!!!


Church!!!!!!!

KEITH MURRAY GOT BEAT WITH AN UGLY STICK!!

Good Monday beautiful people……hope you all had a great weekend…I know I did…very restful……..not too eventful…..forgot yesterday was turn your clock forward day…lost a whole hour of sleep……but I did get some things accomplished……and there are a few things I still need to do………

Well, where should I start today……THERE WILL BE NO OPEN MIC ON TOMORROW!!.......WE WILL BE MOVING LOCATIONS TO ROLLS ROYCE STARTING WEDNESDAY…….DONT WORRY….SAME HOTNESS!!...MORE OPPORTUNITIES TO WIN!!.......MORE OPPORTUNITIES FOR EXPOSURE!!........WE DON’T DIE, WE MULTIPLY!!!!............DETAILS FORTHCOMING TOMORROW!!!!!.............

So I watched a movie last night…yes I sat at home long enough to watch a movie……for two reasons……one I was folding clothes…….yes I finally washed……and two…where I washed clothes, they were watching the movie and actually made me interested…….I wont get interested about a movie just by trailers…I have to see it and it catch my eye…I know trailers only show the best parts anyway……it was a good movie…….the effects were okay…….I wish there would have been more…….I think im tired of the love story undertones movies have…….couldn’t they just save themselves and that be it?.......noooooo!!.......I have to re-create the magic with my ex wife because we are both close to dying…..and she sure did fall back in love quick after her current boyfriend died….talk about getting over someone!!!...........

Im thinking about going to this audition for a play Saturday…….not sure if I want to do it……seeing that it will take away some things I host during the week……but hey, it is a paid gig….and I think I could be the next Will Smith……LOL…….I have to get everything together as far as head shots and I need to find some reading material….I guess this is one of the things I need to pray on to see if it will be beneficial for me……..I know it will be……..just wondering if I really want to do it………..

So, as you all know I sent out a except of my book on Saturday………..well my mom read that chapter……and she called me last night…..needless to say she wasn’t happy about it……..she even asked me why do I hate her??.........I will answer to you all the same way I answered to her….I don’t……..the book is about life……not necessarily about mine in details, but I know of other people that have went through the same struggles as I……….it kinda hurts when she says that……its not the first time I have heard that……one of our biggest disagreements come from her recognizing that she was not taught how to be a good mother……..or how to be a mother at all…….then I think about kids that have babies by the age of 15……..I think about myself, raising Jayla…not knowing how to be a father, but doing the best I can……..I think about my grandparents, raising 2 kids two generations separated, still trying…….what I guess I am trying to say is, at least we tried…….I cant look at myself in the mirror and convince my conscience that I tried if I didn’t….Jayla doesn’t want much…..time, affection, a few tickles, and some juice……..and I am the best father in the world……I told my mom last night, its not too late…I love her with all my soul…….but this is something she needs to realize…..I don’t want money from her, I want love……I want her to say she is proud of what I am doing……..I want her to come visit me without me having to ask…….that would be awesome………

I so totally went out of my comfort zone yesterday…..not only did I watch a movie, I had a new dish for dinner as well……my sister Charita took me out for my birthday and I wanted to try something new…..so I ate the Shrimp Portofino at Macaroni Grill……..it had a lemon butter sauce…….spinach, pine nuts, mushrooms, pasta and shrimp…….not my type of combination……but it was good……will I get it again…probably not……but it was not as bad as I thought it would be……and the answer is no!!!.......I will not be eating any Alfredo sauce in the near future………..

So March madness is upon us……..do you have your brackets filled out????..........should we do a blog wide bracket…..I doubt it but it sounds good……..who do you think is going to win???.......every year, I choose Michigan State……..that’s my team……..but realistically, I am going with Kansas to take it all……don’t know if I will do more than one pool......cant take that many chances………..but I will be enjoying myself watching all this basketball………

Well I am about to get out of here……I need to get my butt up in the morning…..I promise I try so hard……and I do not want to get fired for something I know I can control…..I just got to get my lazy butt up……….before I leave though……here it is……..Rika’s Quote of the Day……………………….

“To get what you have never had, you have to be willing to do what you have never done.”

Sometimes our comfort zone can be our worst enemy…………..

Shout outs are in order for my homie D Ray………she always makes sure she checks up on me!!......and Lauren!!....what happened to you this weekend….probably won’t hear from you for another 6 months…hope all is good!!!...............

Holla atcha boy!!!

Love yall!!!

Church!!!!!

REAL THUGS DON'T GO TO COLLEGE

***more from my upcoming book, "Real Thugs Don't Go To College".........enjoy!!***


Chapter 12


My senior year was like a movie. So much stuff happened, I need to see it again just to remember it all. Let’s see, where do I start? At Northern, I was returning to school with a 3.4 gpa and I had received a 24 on my ACT’s. Once again all my classes were at Northern, but I didn’t play sports due to working and Kudos occupying most if not all my free time. Kudos was my air; it was my focus in life and I looked forward to going to Gundry (Mr. Rhymes had left his previous school to take the same position here) every Monday to work on being great. Mr. Rhymes became my best friend, even if he didn’t know it. For some reason, this was the one person that knew everything about me. I didn’t lie to him, probably because I didn’t need to- he never once judged me. I was a main attraction at all of the parties (or at least that was my impression) and had become one of the top dancers in the city. Since I lacked shyness, when I stepped in the club, everybody knew they were in for a show. Any and every club in Flint got a piece of Black Soul and the cool part was that I knew when there were eyes on me. That would make me perform harder. Being high didn’t help matters either. Yeah, I still smoked but it was usually when I kicked it with Zip. We would plan our weekends around the car wash and would get burnt up all day. Even if we didn’t have cash (because neither one of us was selling at the time), we knew how to get it. One summer when I was playing AAU basketball, I learned a new hustle. When we had a tournament to go to, we would go around to certain businesses (Meijer’s, K-Mart, Target, etc.) and solicit funds from patrons. It was legit when I played hoop, but now I had made up some fake donation sheets and used my gift of gab to get people to donate to us.
Excuse me. If I could have a moment of your time. My name is Chris Tucker and I am here on behalf of the Intelligent Men’s Basketball Club. During the (your holiday of choice here) break, we will be going to (your city of choice here) to participate in an all-around hoop it up basketball tournament. If you could spare a small donation, it would be greatly appreciated.
And that was my hustle. Most Saturdays, we would end our day with anything from fifty to five hundred dollars. We split the cash and got fucked up for the rest of the day. Ended up at the club, dancing and sweating my ass off. I didn’t know it was so easy to fall asleep in the club!!
My mom tried to have a relationship. Actually, I moved out of my granddad’s house and my only option was to live with my mother. I was reluctant seeing how great our relationship had been, but I knew that she was working third shift and I remembered how much fun I had at Zip’s house when his mother was at work. There were a couple of reasons why I decided to leave. One was that my mom stayed closer to my job and to Kudos practice. It was tough trying to get back and forth especially when the bus line would close down for the evening. I wouldn’t have to rush to make sure I wasn’t late for work or even a meeting for that matter. Mr. Rhymes taught us that being on time meant being early. It became a pet peeve for me not to be the first person somewhere. I thought the best came first and the rest came second, so I had to be where I supposed to be early. The other reason I moved with my mom was because my granddad made me.
“Clayton, that’s your mother. You have to learn to love unconditionally. If you can’t love your mother, how will you ever love another woman..”
WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT? ALL BECAUSE MY MOM AIN’T SHIT DOES NOT MEAN THAT I AIN’T GONNA KNOW HOW TO TREAT ANOTHER WOMAN. I HAVE GREAT RELATIONSHIPS WITH WOMAN. AND AIN’T NO OTHER WOMAN GONNA DO WHAT SHE HAS DONE.
“Yes sir.”
It wasn’t as bad as I thought moving with my mother. Sometimes she would try to start arguments, but if you ignored her long enough, she would get the point and shut up. But somehow, we had each other’s back. Even at times when we seemed to be at odds, moms had my back and I had hers. When I first did the Dr. King’s “I Have a Dream” speech at the library, she was there. She recommended a place for us to have our step show and she set it up for us. She never made me feel like I didn’t have a family member that loved me-even if she didn’t say it. And if anyone bothered her, that was their ass. That’s why when she paged me 911 during 4th hour, I didn’t think twice about finding out what was wrong.
“Ms. Rumph, can I go use the phone. My mother just paged me 911.”
Ms. Rumph was my English teacher. She was also the basileus of Phi Delta Kappa, the group that sponsored the Kudos. She knew of my past and understood the severity of my request. She agreed and gave me a pass to the counselor’s office to use the phone.
“Momma, what’s wrong?”
“I came home this morning and we’ve been robbed! They didn’t take much but my jewelry and--”
“Click!”
A substitute teacher that I had problems with in the past had came into the office and hung up the phone without asking any questions. 2 seconds was all it took for me to look at her and decide to choke the shit out of her. I was so angry, I had the strength to raise her in the air and declare:
“If you ever hang up on my momma again, I will kill you!!”
Once reality set back in, I went back to my class and told Ms. Rumph what happened with my momma. She gave me a pass to go home and check on things. The next day when I returned to school, I received another message while I was in Ms. Rumph class. This one was from the principal’s office. I knew what it was about and was prepared for my suspension. I wasn’t trippin’ because I had already told my mother what had went down and she said, if need be, she would come and get things situated, because she had previously had an altercation with this particular sub when she came up there before.
I walked into Mr. Johnson’s office and the auto shop teacher, Mr. Ewing was in there. He took over principal duties when Mr. Johnson was out taking care of some type of business. Ewing was an old, playboy type man that smoked cigarettes and cursed the students. Everybody was pretty cool with him and when he did pitch a threat, it was usually idle. I saw him sitting there, paying more attention to paperwork that probably didn’t concern him than the person walking in. I sat down, he looked up, realized who I was and asked:
“What school do you want to go to?”
HUH?! WHAT DOES HE MEAN, WHAT SCHOOL? COLLEGE? WHY DOES HE CARE WHAT COLLEGE I WANT TO GO TO? IS HE GONNA GET ME IN?
“Well, I was thinking about Morehouse or Bowie State.”
“Not college. High school. You’ve done too much here, you can’t stay. We have to find you somewhere else to go.”
STOP FUCKIN’ PLAYING!!! YOU CAN NOT KICK SOMEONE OUT OF SCHOOL HIS SENIOR YEAR. FOR THE PAST THREE PLUS YEARS, I HAVE BEEN A SYMBOL OF THIS SCHOOL. I’VE PLAYED SPORTS, I’VE BEEN THE MASCOT, CLASS OFFICER, I’M THE MOST PROMINENT KUDO YOU HAVE, AND I HAPPEN TO BE ONE OF THE SMARTEST STUDENTS IN THIS SCHOOL.
But there was nothing I could say or do. There was nothing anybody could do about it. I begin to get scared.
WHAT WILL MR. RHYMES SAY? WILL I GET KICKED OUT OF THE KUDOS? THIS IS BULLSHIT! NO ONE EVEN ASKED MY SIDE OF THE STORY. SHE HUNG UP ON MY MOMMA AND WE JUST GOT ROBBED!
It didn’t matter. WE decided that I would go to Northwestern since I lived closer to the school. The funny thing is that I was able to go to Northern for my first two classes of the day. Why let me attend some if I couldn’t go all day? I guess by changing home schools, the responsibility of my actions were on them now. For the rest of that day, I cried. I had a speech to do in my 6th hour but instead of doing what I had prepared, I talked about my experiences at Northern. I thanked all my peers for all the great memories and left leaving behind my legacy.
It seemed like no one was surprised that I got kicked out of Northern. No one scolded me, disregarded me, or chastised me. They accepted my fate- one that was a long time coming. Mr. Rhymes didn’t trip either. It seemed as though he kept a tighter hold on me figuring I was on the edge of quitting school. I didn’t want to go to N-Dub; that was the equivalent of Magic Johnson joining the Celtics to me. Everybody at Northwestern knew me through my trash talking and my days in the sports world. My first day of school, I even wore my JV football jersey to school.
It was hard to get motivated for school. Instead of actually getting kicked out, I began to lie about it just as I wouldn’t have to go. I hated everything about the school. I hated that it was only one story high, I hated that it was close to Beecher, I hated it because it wasn’t Northern. To me, Northwestern was the Section 8 of high schools. I stuck it out though, I had to. Why would I not graduate after being this close? Because my motivation was gone that’s why. Somewhere in between my promise to my grandma and me going to a new school, I had forgotten about college. I stopped talking to colleges about my future plans and considered staying at home to care for my family. Some kind of way, momma got laid off from her job so most of my paycheck went to house bills and it seemed like the more I paid, the more they were. I never complained (I guess it was because of a sense of manhood and accomplishment) and I ended working close to 60 hours a week including school and Kudos.
I graduated high school. I finished with a 3.7 grade point average and after taking the ACT test again, I got a 31. A 24 was not good enough for me because other kids, I had heard, had got higher scores. The only difference between me and them was that they had a future. By this time, I was working at Burger King and back to selling drugs when I could. I began working so much, I started to spend nights up there so I could be back at work on time. I couldn’t let us get evicted and since momma was looking for a job, I thought doing this was only temporary. College became an afterthought until one of the customers asked me a question:
“Excuse me. I see you in here everyday when I come to get some coffee. How often do you work?”
“It depends. I usually work about 60 hours a week, unless someone calls in. Then I can get about 70 or 80 a week.”
“Wow! Why do you work so much if I may ask?”
“Well, my mother got laid off from General Motors and someone has to pay the bills.”
“Really. How old are you?”
“ I’m 18.”
“ Man, must be rough. Well young man, I commend you. Your family must be proud. Take care now.”
And with that, he leaves. That wasn’t really the time I thought about college. The next day was. When the man came back, he told me he was a reporter for the Flint Journal and wanted to do an article on me concerning how the lay-offs affected families. To him, I had and amazing story. In return, the local newspaper would give me a scholarship to any college in America.
STOP FUCKING PLAYING WITH ME!!! ANY COLLEGE IN AMERICA! OKAY, WHAT’S THE CATCH? IF THIS NIGGA AIN’T JOKING, I’MA BE THE SHIT!! ON THE FRONT OF THE JOURNAL AND A FULL RIDE?! SHIT, THAT’S SWEET!
“Let me think about it. Come by tomorrow and I’ll let you know.”
“No problem. You work the same time?”
“Yes sir.”
I could barely work for the rest of the day. All my co-workers knew the great news and almost all the customers I encountered. I couldn’t wait to get home and tell my momma. The opportunity to get out of the house and to be on my own was right in front of me. When I got home from work, I ran into my mother’s room. She was sleep but that didn’t stop me from screaming the news to her.
“Momma, guess what?! I’m going to college!”
“Hunh? How?”
“This guy that works for the journal came in and said if they can do a story on me about how the lay-offs affected my family, they will send me to college, wherever I want to go.”
She woke up instantly. The look on her face was not of elation but of disgust.
“You bet not dare tell family business to no newspaper. How dare you think that selfish? If you tell anybody our business, I will personally make sure you burn in hell!”
I couldn’t even be upset. I mean, after all this family has been through and my mom had the audacity to say this. You know pride is a motherfucker. Even though I respected her wishes, I finally realized that I would simply have to say fuck her and find me a place on my own. There was no way I could stay with her after she just crushed mine and grandma’s dream. So I continued to work at Burger King hella hours, but instead of my check going to the bills at 5606 Susan, they went into the “Clayton Robinson Get-A-Crib fund”. I had raised about 2,000 dollars when one Ms. Rumph comes up there.
“Hey Clay! How is everything?”
“It is what it is. I guess. ‘Bout to get my own place finally.”
“Let me ask you, you wanna go to college?”
“Yes ma’am.”
“You can go if you want to. You can go to my old school.”
“Where’s that?”
“Alcorn State University.”
“Where’s that?”
“In Mississippi.”
“When do I leave?”
“Tomorrow if you like.”
“How will I get there?”
“You can catch a bus. WE can get you a ticket.”
By we she meant Mr. Rhymes and herself. They had already promised me that I would go to college. They were the only two people (and my grandma) who really wanted me to go to school. Everybody else thought it would be best for me to go to the Army, to get some discipline. I told them both what had happened with the Flint Journal and they saw how disappointed I was. But I still wasn’t sure if there was a catch.
“How much do I have to pay for school?”
“Nothing. We got it taken care of. Yes or no Clayton.”
Sorry, not the long dramatic thought that takes 5 minutes to think about here buddy.
“Hegs yeah, I’m there. What time do I leave?”
“The bus leaves at 1:30. I’ll come pick you up from your mother’s house at 10. I want to get you some things before you go.”
And with that, it was final. My boss let me get off work early when I told him the news. He wished me the best in life so I didn’t need a two week notice or anything- this was my future. No matter how much I liked working there, I didn’t want to end up like Ms. Ella, a 60-something year old “hospitality rep” that comes Monday through Friday faithfully and has been doing so for over 40 years. I got home and once again, my mother was sleep. I crept in her door, trying not to scare her, so I can tell her my news. There was nothing she could say to change my mind this time. I was going to Mississippi to school. By myself. As I approached her, I started to gently call her name to prime her for my arrival. She opened her eyes as if she knew my appearance was inevitable.
“What do you want?”
“I’m leavin’ tomorrow.”
THERE, I SAID IT. NOW TURN AROUND AND LEAVE. DON’T SAY SHIT ELSE.
“What?!”
“I’m going to school tomorrow. I’m going to Alcorn, down in Mississippi. Ms. Rumph got me in.”
“Ms. Rumph?!”
FUCK!!
“Did you ask me if you could go? Matter of fact, fine! Go! You’ll be back. Thugs can’t make it in college.”
I don’t think she thought I was serious. I didn’t even sleep that night. I brought 3 trunks and packed them full of clothes. That’s all I had left. We pawned most of our things trying to keep the lights on. But I wasn’t tripping. I’m still a hustler, and I know I can make it down there.
The next day, Ms. Rumph comes to pick me up and ironically, my mother wasn’t home. Who cares?!! We go and grab me a few essentials out of the kindness of her heart. When we get to the bus station, Mr. Rhymes is there. It’s crazy; this is only the third time I remember crying in my life (other than when I was getting an ass whooping). I found out it was going to be a 25 hour bus trip. Cool, I can sleep. The only fucked up part about it was that I didn’t have any bud on me. I did manage to get a fifth of Vodka though. I guess I could have got some green but I didn’t know if they would be searching. They check my trunks onto the bus, I say my good-byes, and without another glance of my past, the bus ride begins. I could never have fathomed what 25 hours on a bus felt like, but it is not something I would wish on an enemy. After we made our last stop in Memphis, it seemed like civilization quit there as well. Tree after tree after tree is all I saw for the next 8 hours. My stop was Port Gibson and when I arrived, the bus driver dropped me off at an Exxon station with a Greyhound sign at the top. I looked around and saw the most rinky dink city ever. So this was Mississippi.

CLOSED MOUTHS GET FED THROUGH IV'S

Ugh!!......I am so full right about now!!!........just got back from lunch and I am so ready to go to sleep…….like that is going to happen……..how are you all doing today?........I am feeling really swell…….got a lot of things I am working on……and a lot of doors are opening…..I’m learning that if you just open your mouth, you make some moves in your life…….so that’s what I have to do……continue to push myself and strive for excellence.....yeah, I get weary at times….but isn’t that one of the characteristics of hard work?........and I had a talk today with someone that really put me in my place…….

Sometimes, I get frustrated about not getting enough paid shows…….but talking to a DJ today, I realized it is kinda my fault…….getting paid shows to perform, he told me, is going to be hard until I build a big enough buzz in the streets…and yes, I know most of you may know me and my music……but that’s not enough……its about supply and demand…..and unfortunately, Spaceship Ohayses is not in demand right now……the thing I have to focus on is getting my music into the hands of the masses……into the right hands…….and I need to make my presence felt when I do reach out to them……..

But of course you know me, so I had to keep the conversation going…..”Well, what about me hosting?”…….there he said, I should be getting more opportunities…but I need more footage…much more footage….and I need someone dependable that is going to take this footage and edit it, and make sure it gets the proper exposure……that’s what I am lacking…consistency………and there is no reason why someone has not picked up on my footage of being incredible……I have infinite number of shows and opportunities to be on camera…yet, I struggle for footage…I wonder why that is………

So this morning me and my supervisor had a talk……then my big brother down here emailed me and we had a conversation…..the reason these two conversation intertwined is due to one word…..ACCOUNTABILITY………a strong word if I may say so….and something we all must look at and ask ourselves are we guilty of it……..the reason some people don’t get to the next level in their life is because they don’t hold themselves accountable for things that don’t go right…….if Murphy’s is packed and everyone is having fun, then so many people get credit…but what happens when the club is empty?......who is there to blame……what about relationships?......when things are going right, we never give the other party credit…..we may be happy with them…but we credit a healthy relationship to the connection…..where is that connection when things go awry……its always the other person’s fault……even at the job…….who gets fired and agrees with their supervisor or HR?......doesn’t happen often does it…….so I know I need to take accountability for everything I do…the good, the bad, and the ugly……

Twitter can give you nuggets if you are looking for them!!!........so today, I got online and hit up twitter…haven’t done it much lately…I can see im a spurt person…..maybe I would more if it was on my phone…..but anyhow……I see an opportunity to perform in Tyler for spring break……I talked to one of the promoters and she wants me to send her some information on myself….some music….pictures and anything else that will help show her what I have in store……I’m excited about this opportunity because I know she will like what I have to offer…she even asked for references……now what’s awesome about that you ask…..I hit up some people I consider references and they all agreed to vouch for my incredibleness…..once again, a great feeling……especially to know that even if I haven’t blown up yet, my peers respect my craft enough to tell someone else, I am worth putting on their line-up……….

I am learning that no one…..let me repeat that….NO ONE……..will work as hard for you as you will……don’t care how much love is involved…….how much money has been invested…at the end of the day, I have to make sure my legacy is getting to the right people…….talk to one of my administrative assistants today about making sure she stay on the grind…….and the thing I appreciate about her is, there is no back talk…..she understands the investments we have made and how close we are to success…..sometimes, we all need wake up calls…….its easier to give someone a wake up call when they are not intimately tied to you……because it can never be business when its personal……..do you think Bill Gates hired his family…no……and why not?......because they probably couldn’t take his criticism…….and it would strain their relationship……….agh!!! the price of fame………

Not going to do much this weekend….Jayla will be over pretty much all weekend….and I am quite excited…always fun to spend time with her…even more fun when I am able to rest before she comes…….I guess I must get ready to play animals…….

Well I am about to get off here….only took me 2 hours to write this today…….but before I go…….Rika’s Quote of the Day…………………………

“Many of life’s failures are men who didn’t realize how close to success they were before they gave up.”

Shout outs to my DJ…DJ Lady JA-Roq……..got a birthday card from her and she wanted me to let everyone know she is on her grind and is doing well…….I love you big sis…hurry up and get your butt home……

Love yall!!!!


Church!!!

THEY PUT EPSOM SALT ON MY FRENCH FRIES!!!

Did you miss me as much as I missed you?.......good afternoon to all……I hope I come before you in good spirits and I am not the only reason to smile today…….I am feeling fairly well…..actually got 5 hours of sleep last night……got to work on time…..and have been headache free all day…..even though I haven’t eaten in two days……technically……but I promise to cook something tonight….or at least get something to eat……how did you all like the blog yesterday??...a little different huh?.......just wanted to go outside my comfort zone and give you something new….to awaken your emotions……that was the point of the blogs in the first place……..

I don’t think I mentioned that I talked to my nephew on my birthday……it meant a lot because my sister and I have not talked since my grandmother’s funeral…..sometimes, she chooses to act like she’s my mother and I typically let her……on the occasion mentioned above though, I did not…and she didn’t take well to my objections….so she chooses not to contact me……well, her son does…..my brother and I are the only males prominent in his life so its important for me to attempt to keep contact…..well, he called again today…..told me him and his friend made up a rap song…..and you know what?...its kind of hot…may have to steal it.....the important thing was that he mentioned that his mom told him to call me about the song…..that’s a good feeling….even though her pride wont let her call, at least she keeps me acknowledged in his life….that’s my dude………

So the number one question yesterday was who was my letter directed to???...............

Been talking to Ms Kitty about moving open mic night to Wednesdays…..and changing locations…..its looking more and more likely but as well as know, change is hard……sometimes it is forced….while others times, it’s a necessity……….in this instance, I think it is both…we have been at Murphy’s for over a year and every once in a while, you have to reinvent yourself and make things exciting for your audience…..plus they have this cross eyed bouncer at Murphy’s that makes things unbearable when he is not in a good mood……he tries to take it out on people and one day…..ONE DAY…..someone is going to go apeshit on him and give that man a piece of something other than their mind……

HT even called me about the blog…..he told me with my writing, I have raised the bar on my blogs....I know that and it was my intentions……I think some people may not know or forget that I majored in English…I have written a book….and writing is my passion……I want you to think when you take time out of your busy day to read my thoughts……my blogs are not solely intended on being an advertising space…….its a place to vent…..a place to relieve stress……and so I say that to say this…prepare yourself for more blogs to feed your spirit……..as many responses as I got yesterday, I want more…….I got a chance to see who truly reads this……..

What are the characteristics of low self esteem?......and I am not being funny about this one…….I think we really don’t pay attention to people who display these qualifications……is it our fault though?...those that do think highly that we don’t acknowledge friends that display these qualities…..should we speak up or not worry about it……should we care?........its a tougher answer than you make think, especially when there is a vested interest in that person…….but as my granny would often say, you can lead a horse to water, but you cant make them drink……you can show someone how much they mean but if don’t believe it, why keep worrying about it…….

MARCH MADNESS IS HERE!!!......im a basketball fan so for me, tournament time is one of the best times of the year…upsets, great games, games ALL DAY!!!...and I don’t have time off to watch the first day…..I always look to see how my alma mater is doing…Alcorn State University……but I don’t think they are going to make it this time…..anybody wanna put up on their brackets?...get at me……………………..

So, it looks like I will have Jayla most of the weekend…which I will be so excited about……the older she gets, the more time she wants to spend with me…….she doesn’t cry once her mom leaves her with me…no, I’m not a bad dad…..she just has more opportunities for destruction at her mom’s house…….I already destroy my house enough….still need to clean up from when the family was here…..doing a pretty good job at it……but not being home at night is a big reason why….when they were here, I was at home long enough to straighten…now its back to the come home, change clothes, respond to replies, get dress, prepare for the road, and leave……..I need to get a dresser ASAP…………

Do you know how close I was to not writing today?................

And no…..I was NOT talking about you yesterday…………

Well, I think it is time for my retirement today…….big show for Spaceship Ohayses March 27th at the Liquid Lounge…..doors open at 8pm…guaranteed to sell out…..holla at me for more details……..

I almost forgot…women…..those belts you wear…are not for everybody……or please get your size…..that does not make you look good…it makes you look like a clown…what belt you ask?....the one you wear just around your midsection……no loops….no holding your pants up…just a belt…….that’s like me wearing a tie on my leg……what’s the purpose right?..........

So before I forget……..Rika’s Quote of the Day…………………………….

“Triumph is often nearest when defeat seems inescapable.”

She sure knows how to press a brother’s buttons don’t she…….also, she has tickets to the fight this weekend….if you wanna go, get at me and we can get you some!!!!..........

Shout outs to everyone that responded…even if you did it because I was talking about you……..thanks for reading…….and stop tripping….but some of yall…….no words can describe how funny you acted……..but I love you still……….

Love Yall!!!!!!


Church!!!!!

GOODBYE LOVE

March 10, 2010
2:27pm

Dear You,

I know that you have been expecting this letter…….and well, I have been expecting to write it…….but for some long, I have tried to organize my feelings so that there will be no misunderstandings in this communication…….and yet, I still feel there will be because my thought and actions are at two different places…….let me say this now……even though it may not mean much as this letter continues…….but I love you……I appreciate all that you have done for me and how you have helped mold me into the person I am today…….but I also think that is the problem…….somewhere, you have become a stronger force than I am…….you have come into my life and the person I used to be has disappeared………I want to apologize to you for me allowing this to happen…..as of today, this cant continue………..

Do you remember when we first met?......I do……didn’t understand who you were and where you came from…….I even told you how reluctant I am about new people coming into my life……but you were persistent……pretty much told me you were my destiny……..you were not going to take no for an answer…..and what did I do?........I gave in……but I truly didn’t think you would have some stay here…….a lot of people said they wanted my time…….but soon, they would see that the risk was not worth the reward….and I had accepted it……..I grew up thinking I was a disappointment so really, what’s one more?...........but you held on…..even pushed my previous into obscurity……so now it was just me and you…..and wow what a ride it was………

When I felt alone, you were there……when I was troubled, you were there to lift me up…..when my mind was at a blank, you inspired me…….you never allowed me to keep a smile on my face….but then something happened……you began to consume me……I tried to deny it but I felt it……the pressure of you and you affection slowly dwindled my happiness……I started to feel like a shell of myself…….in all actuality, I started not to feel anything……I became a man of movements, not thoughts……..I worried more about what you would think then what I felt was right……I thought you were want I wanted in my life…..no…..I thought you were what I needed……..seems like you needed me more…..so that people would recognize you…..adore you…..and so you can have importance…….

I guess what I am trying to say is that, maybe we need to end this relationship…….I am spending way too many days questioning my worth now…….the things that I felt God delivered me from are returning and I don’t like it……..over the past 15 years, I have had my ups and my downs….my joys and disappointments…….successes and failures……but now, I wonder where this relationship is leading me……..do I want to let you go that easy……not at all…and I know this is not the last I will hear from you and vice versa…..I am just so confused…….they say if you love someone, let them go and if they return, then it was meant to be……I don’t want to leave you and wait on that day, but its hard waking up knowing you are apart of my life……sometimes, I just want to go away……to be by myself to think……we both know, you wont allow that…….we both know, that you are doing all you can to control my thoughts, my words, and my actions……..and its my fault because I have allowed it for so long…….

“if it doesn’t kill you, it only makes you stronger”………does it?........because I feel like I am dying on the inside……would I prefer a quick death or a slow methodical one…….seeing my grandmother in November, I don’t think she wanted to suffer…..and I don’t either…..in the end, we are both dying…….I am no longer sure how you benefit me anymore…..yeah, I have grown……and yes you have helped out my dream……but once again, I don’t like feeling the way I feel………

So this is my dear john letter………I love you………I hope one day, we can put away all the things that are making this relationship difficult…..until then, I will disappear….and to those this may effect, I do apologize………sometimes, you have to take care of yourself before you can take care of others……….it hurts………hopefully, I will be stronger in the end……..



Love Always,


Me

FOR A MOMENT LIKE THIS...........

The first blog of thirty……..don’t really know how to feel…..maybe don’t know how I feel right now…..in one of those moods today……I think I know why…but I will get to that later…….how are you all doing today?..........how was your weekend?......hopefully, you all had at least 10% of the fun I had……I can say, this was probably the greatest birthday God has allowed me to have………it was without a doubt, a true indication of the greatness of those I associate myself with………

As you all know, some of my family came down for my birthday…….my younger sister, my cousin and their boyfriends……they got here Thursday and from the time they arrived to the time they left, I have never been more happy……and we kicked it!!!.....probably a little too hard…but hell….who is complaining??!!!!.......it was such a contrast for them coming from Flint and being in Dallas…..hopefully, I put a big enough bug in their ear to make them want to leave the crib…….more jobs, more opportunities, bright skies, and happy people……their faces were in awe of all the things they saw in Dallas…….and we didn’t even get to the South Side of the metroplex!!!............

Then on Monday, we decided to watch my grandmother’s funeral…..thought I could handle it……I could not handle it…….and being there with my family, it was really touching…….we tried to narrate some of our funniest moments of grandma but it didn’t take away the pain of missing her………I watched my grandfather’s funeral as well……they didn’t want to see that at first……..but it helped relive some memories to keep our focus on being great…………

Then they left…..and I haven’t been the same since….I miss them already and they haven’t even touched Flint yet…….it was weird for me to see my family everyday….mind you, I have been gone since 1998………they know me….they know when something is wrong….when I am frustrated…….when I am hurting, happy, sad, and excited…..I don’t have to tell them…….they don’t have to ask…..and the love they showed me was more than any present I could ask for………the only family I have in Dallas is my daughter so for me, it was a happy birthday………..

So I realized a pet peeve of mine……I cant stand people that 1) always jump in conversations and 2) talk to damn much……..I came to work today, already sad and these women I sit around now just wont shut up…what’s worse is they butt in conversations that don’t even pertain to them…….and for those who know me, I show my emotions on my face…..sometimes……..so I gave them this cold stare……and then when I don’t say anything, they ask what is wrong with me?........”YOU!! shit”…………..one woman asked why I wasn’t talking and I had to tell her the truth…….”because you won’t shut up”……..I was so irritable today…………

Well the black history program is done…my birthday fiesta has concluded…..time to work some more……and I promise one thing….H is not going to let me stand by idle….I love that guy!!!...I need that motivation……..what’s next you ask?.......I have no clue right now……..I am thinking about taking a lesser role in performing and hosting…especially if I am not getting paid for it……..the more time I am away from my house and computer, the less time I have to plan things of importance…….and I cant keep doing charity work…….its not beneficial to me……..got some good things on the blackboard right now……its time to implement a plan and make these things a reality………..

DON’T FORGET ABOUT TONIGHT!!!.....DJ LADY JA-ROQ’S OPEN MIC SHOWCASE IS TONIGHT!!!!!....WE ARE STILL TRYING TO FIND THE BEST ARTIST TO GIVE $250 TO…….ITS GOING DOWN AT MURPHYS PLACE….9410 WALNUT STREET IN NORTH DALLAS…..ACROSS FROM RICHLAND COLLEGE….DOORS OPEN AT NINE………..SHOW STARTS AT TEN……$3.50 WELLS ALL NIGHT LONG…..BRING YOU CAMP…..BRING YOUR FANS…BRING YOUR FRIENDS…………..

Need people with job opportunities to get at me……I have a few people that are looking for jobs and we could use the blessing of helping them find somewhere to work…..there is no need to be quiet about something you don’t need anyway……..

75 degrees outside and what do I see……wasps…….walked out my front door today at lunch and they were everywhere…..not a good feeling……I don’t do wasps…..I need to go to Sam’s Club and buy me a family pack of flying inspect spray…….don’t matter to me….I will spray febreeze, Lysol, totally awesome, starch, anything in a can if it will make them go away….I have a nest somewhere around my house…..just don’t know where………….

And now its time for……Rika’s Quote of the Day………………

“Natural ability without education has more often raised a man to glory and virtue than education without natural ability”

You don’t get by off book sense alone……..

Well I am about to retire for the day…..make sure you become a follower……its easier on your computer or cell phone…….. www.spaceshipohayses.blogspot.com

I want to thank everyone that celebrated with me for my birthday…..my family is not the only reason it was special…..you never know who cares for you until moment like this…….I also want to thank those that either didn’t celebrate with me or texted me like they forgot my birthday was this weekend…….you have shown me that I really don’t matter and for that, PEACE!!!!..........I got home last night and had over 100 thank you messages on facebook…..it was overwhelming and a true blessing……….

Love yall!!!

Church!!!

MICHAEL BUFFER GOT KNOCKED OUT!!!

It is time……now Tuesday I was at Murphy’s……and Wednesday, I was at Rolls Royce…..but tonight the party begins!!!....how are you all doing??......im tired but my adrenaline is pumpin……30 years old is right around the corner……funny because most of the people I hang with call me young…most of the people I do business with call me old……I feel old but I act young……so that counters both!!!....I hope you all are having a great day…I certainly am…..one more hour to go…….

So let me get you a rundown because honestly, I don’t know if I will be writing this weekend………

TONIGHT- we will be having the Official Round One Spaceship Ohayses Billionaire Birthday Bash at The Bank……located at 1313 Main Street in downtown Dallas…..its free for everybody before 11pm……Grown and Sexy Attire…….bottle and drink specials all night……….

FRIDAY- I will be performing live at the Ice Bar….2012 Commerce St…also downtown Dallas……doors open at 9……$10 cover and their will be special guest and a comedy roast of me!!!........

SATURDAY- I will be having a VIP party at Club Sting…….located off Arapaho and the Tollway…….we will also be celebrating the birthday of my man Cato…….doors open at 10pm……

SUNDAY- gotta go to church in the morning….followed by a VIP Bar B Que hosted by Spaceship Ohayses and the Essential Entertainment family……..that night, we will be at the Martini Village…off Rosemeade…….doors open at 9pm………

I would love to see everybody at least once this weekend…I am truly excited and blessed for this day to come………..

Now the reason for my excitement is more than just me turning 30……..see, I have 2 sisters and a brother……my older sister…our relationship is parallel to the relationship I have with my mom….yeah I know right….my younger sister and brother, I really didn’t see mature much since I went away to college when they were younger…….we keep in contact, but most of you know how rare it is for me to go home….well, my sister and my cousin are coming down tonight….as a matter of fact, they are on their way now!!!.......I am so happy that they are going to be a part of this weekend……my family has not come to see me….besides my mother….since I have left Flint, so its easy for me to tell them what I am doing with my life…for them to see it in the flesh is a whole other experience…..I want to give them the absolute best time while they are down here and allow my sister to check out some jobs………

So I talked to my “role model” up here that I discussed yesterday……he gave me an explanation as to why he didn’t come to the program…and I accept it….am I too gullible?..........

And you know, sometimes miscommunications are as easy to fix as just talking to a person…….last night at Rolls Royce, I was able to converse with one of my former camp members……nobody else was around…I wasn’t drunk yet…and there was no animosity…….and we were able to smooth things out……..unfortunately, we both heard so much from third parties, its just sad….simply sad……….

I asked a young lady a question yesterday and so I will ask you all the same thing…….if you are talking to someone…as in courting or dating……but you spend too much time trying to play the “chase me” role……do you ever think that they don’t call you or spend time with you because someone else is keeping their interest……..do we think about that ever?....or are we concerned about making sure they like us??......don’t miss out on a blessing trying to be cool people…….

Well I am….OHAYSES!!!....just kidding…..I am about to get out of here…….but first……Rika’s Quote of the Day……………………

“The secret to getting ahead is getting started.”

Hmmmmmm….2 procrastination quotes…is she throwing hints???......

Shout outs to all my March babies……I am celebrating for each and every one of yall this weekend……..I promise…31 shots for 31 days……come get yours!!!!.........

Love yall!!!!

Church!!!!!!