I LOST IN TUG OF WAR TO AN OCTOPUS!!

Good evening to my friends…how are you all doing today??...I am still on a high from last night!!.......the Essential Entertainment family went down to Waco and made history!!!....wow!!........now I have to get ready to rock Mambo Café tonight….and of course, I cant wait for that either……such a busy week……such a productive week…and we will top it off this Sunday with the Essential Victory concert!!........I hope you all are feeling as good as I am feeling right now…….

Well the backlash continues…..today, my frat brother was relieved of his duties here at work….now the reason behind it is still vague…I have heard two different stories…but my theory is…….its because of “the letter” from last week……now you may ask how does that letter have anything to with this guy getting terminated…..well, hear me out……the manager that was in question, was removed from her position and put in a different department…….no matter if this was the right or wrong thing to do…(believing if it was somebody else, they may have been terminated), there could have possibly been some anger towards the “middling workers”…..vengeance will be somebody’s………letters like that will be used to keep order in a workplace…..so now, if you screw up the least bit, you will be reprimanded….once something of that magnitude is uncovered, everything hits the fan……dotting I’s and crossing T’s if you will…..now is the time where you have to watch everything you do…all they need is a reason……..

I have a car that doesn’t run….2011 Cadillac Convertible……I have four tires but only two on the axle…..my engine is laying in the grass, and my steering wheel wont turn…….I haven’t used my turn signal in ages and the trunk wont open……

I know this old man….he has a 1967 green Chevy Pinto….possibly, the ugliest car I have ever seen…….but under the hood is a beauty……and he keeps up the maintenance……and he has never had any engine failure……and drives wherever he goes…….

IN UNITY THERE IS STRENGTH!!!...........

Sometimes we think because it looks good, it is good…..sometimes we get complacent or expect certain things to “just be”……..we have to understand that no vehicle can run properly without the proper parts and no company can function without that same unity……if we even take a look at the Cleveland Cavaliers this season….yes they had the MVP of the league on their team……but they didn’t have the best team……when you are working with people, you all have to have a common goal….thank goodness cars don’t have egos…imagine the life of new rims……fresh tint, or even a sound system….every time I drove past a beautiful woman, my music would go up, my brakes would stop and my spinners kept spinning, or my engine would idle to show off its horsepower…….yes, God created us with all individual talents…….but sometimes, we have to put away the individual for the collective………

Last night was evidence of this…..everyone that was with us did not perform a song…..but, everyone performed…..we went down to Waco as a unit, carried ourselves as a family, and was received as superstars….if we would have went down their with only our own gains as the intention, it would have showed and we could have possibly wasted a chance of a lifetime……stop thinking about how great YOU are all the time…..start think about how great WE are when dealing with your business partners, in whatever avenue…..IN UNITY, THERE IS STRENGTH………

THIS SUNDAY……THE MOST EXPLOSIVE CONCERT OF THE YEAR!!!.....THE ESSENTIAL VICTORY TOUR HEADLINED BY SPACESHIP OHAYSES AND ONE NIGHT STAND…….ALSO PERFORMING WILL BE SKYRON, MR. PROBLEM, DEREK DAIDER, WYZE, ALSACE, MOMU ENT., AND CHAMP……WE WILL BE ROLLS ROYCE…9220 SKILLMAN STREET IN NORTH DALLAS…DOORS OPEN AT 3PM…….TICKETS ARE $10 IN ADVANCE AND $15 AT THE DOOR……..WE ARE RAISING MONEY FOR A LOCAL CHARITY!!!...DONT MISS OUT!!!!!........

I am so excited!!...the way God has positioned this show and helping everything move forward is so awesome….I was truly nervous about this event, but its amazing how having confidence in Jesus will change everything…….I am not the least bit worried about what is going to happen this Sunday….I know we will have a great turn out and everyone will definitely enjoy themselves….if you are not doing anything, come on out and fellowship…help a family and support the community!!!.......

Well, I think I am about to wrap this up…..so here it is for today my friends……Rika’s Quote of the Day……….

“The best way to guide your own behavior is to make a commitment to always be a good example”

If you are doing right, you shouldn’t have to worry about if you are doing wrong……..

Shout outs to my man Hale…haven’t heard from you in a sec so I just wanted to put that out there…told Castro I expect to see yall this Sunday…….any excuses??.....totally don’t want to hear them…….need you to stay in my ear…God has a purpose for you in my life!!!...........

Love yall!!!


Church!!!!

GET YOUR OWN GPS!!!

I almost forgot to write today….been tweeting, working, face booking, and everything else today…….how are you all doing?....I am still sleepy….5 in the afternoon and I need a powernap like never before……but of course, I will not be getting one……I hope I come to you all in good spirits………I am doing well……had a weird night…..was going to speak on it but not sure now…….and tonight is another day in the adventures of Spaceship Ohayses…………

Tonight, Essential Entertainment’s own, Derek Daider will be live in concert in Waco…..I cant wait to see him perform in front of his hometown……to make things sweeter, ya boy Spaceship Ohayses will also be getting a piece of the spotlight…..not much though…..its not about me…….the whole camp is car pooling down there and I am really excited about tonight’s event………..one thing I am learning is that there is unity in strength……….

I will be performing at the Mambo Café downtown tomorrow night….ladies free before 11….this is a very nice club and if you want to come and chill and enjoy yourself, this would be the place to be………its on Lamar Street....sorry for not knowing the address off hand…..

And Sunday……THE MOST EXPLOSIVE CONCERT OF THE YEAR!!!.....THE ESSENTIAL VICTORY TOUR HEADLINED BY SPACESHIP OHAYSES AND ONE NIGHT STAND…….ALSO PERFORMING WILL BE SKYRON, MR. PROBLEM, DEREK DAIDER, WYZE, ALSACE, MOMU ENT., AND CHAMP……WE WILL BE ROLLS ROYCE…9220 SKILLMAN STREET IN NORTH DALLAS…DOORS OPEN AT 3PM…….TICKETS ARE $10 IN ADVANCE AND $15 AT THE DOOR……..WE ARE RAISING MONEY FOR A LOCAL CHARITY!!!...DONT MISS OUT!!!!!........

Not really going to touch on much today…….time is not on my side and I have to make sure I am out of here on time…..but I do want to touch on a something…….I was talking to one of the members of Essential Entertainment and we are trying to get on the same page as far as our vision…..I told them, in order to be a great leader, you have to be a great follower…and I don’t mean on twitter……so many times…myself included, we want to be the top dog….the head honcho…..the BMOC……it doesn’t work like that……when I placed myself on a pedestal, God quickly removed me…….and when you are removed quickly, it hurts a lot more……..I have to continue to allow myself to learn and take a back seat when needed……even last night…I wanted so bad to grab the mic and work the crowd to my liking……but what I did was pay attention….I listened to other MCs on the mic while they were getting the crowd hype…..some of the things he was saying, the mannerism, the songs……that’s not me….but if I want to be the best……..I have to know how to keep a crowd hype…not just the people in the crowd that get me and my style…but everyone…….so I sat back and chilled…and when I was able to get on the mic, I practiced…….I made sure I covered my bases on the things I was learning……and no one knew I was sharpening my skills….

Well, ima cut yall a break today…pray for our safety on this trip……I hope to see you all sometime this week.....a few of you, I expect to see….and more than likely, I will call you out BY NAME on this blog…….so you may want to confirm with me before then………

And here it is……….Rika’s Quote of the Day……………

“You can’t change the past, but you can ruin the present by worrying about the future.”

Shout outs to my girl Rika…she is going on to greener pastures at her workplace and I pray that God guides you and leads you in the right direction……..as long as you have email at your new gig, I’m good!!!..........


Love yall!!!!


Church!!!

THE MAN IN THE MIRROR WITH NO FACE

Wow!!.......it’s crazy how we can feel ourselves getting in a rut….and its easier to not realize when we are out of it…….its all a matter of perception…….how are you all doing this hot afternoon??......well its hot here in Dallas…the locals would call it “normal”……..I am feeling so good right now…..alot of beautiful things are happening in my life insofar as Essential Entertainment is concerned……the team is looking strong……everyone is getting on the same accord……and I am truly seeing the growth in each and everyone of us…..including myself……God has righted my disposition and shown me the errors of my ways……..now, I am prepared to take on the objectives he has set forth for me…not saying I wasn’t before……but I have had a work out……and I have been lifting mental weights…….

Can you say you don’t believe in something even if its contents have some truth??.......a few weeks ago I did one of those “what does your name say about you” quizzes on face book…….I cant remember everything it said about me, but there was two things that really struck a nerve…….it said that I am lazy……and it said that I like to avoid conflict……meaning if there is something I need to do, I will bypass it or ignore it instead of addressing it………and I agree…….I have found myself getting way too lazy……..my mental says the work isn’t hard…..whether it be cleaning my crib, cooking, handling EE business, or coming to work……but my body says rest, lay down and procrastinate…..find something else to occupy my time……..now when I get home, I try to force myself to handle business….instead of being on said face book or playing poker, I could be downloading pictures….adding to the websites…….networking with people……..its a bad habit that I have…always been used to working under pressure…..even in college, I didn’t write a report until the night before; two nights at the earliest……and it has made me complacent…..those words that I read forced me to create a wedge between what I read and what is the truth…..I don’t want to be known, even in my mind, as a man with great talents but a horrible work ethic………

And then the avoiding conflict statement…….very, very true……no matter how mean some people think I am….I don’t like to be a mean person…….sometimes it is hard for me to make tough decisions…….and I never want to burn a bridge…….I think I over think situations at times…….wondering how I will be perceived…..I remember even when I was married, I allowed my wife to leave….I knew our tenure was ending……I knew we didn’t have a relationship…instead of being vocal, I waited….and when she finally did leave, I was relieved………and I could say it wasn’t my fault……or I could say she was the one that left…..it was easier for me to point her as the cause of our divorce…….knowing that we both hurt our marriage, she was the one that left……..its my defense mechanism…….all my life, I have been used to people leaving me…being fed up with me not assimilating to their wants and needs….and when they get tired of it, they go……even associates….they would use me for what they could…..money, popularity, attention, a hang out spot, rides…….and when they didn’t need me anymore, they go…….so I have always figured, if I hang in there long enough, the next person will go…….now that I think about it, I do that a lot………smdh…….

FIVE MORE DAYS UNTIL THE MOST EXPLOSIVE CONCERT OF THE YEAR!!!.....THE ESSENTIAL VICTORY TOUR HEADLINED BY SPACESHIP OHAYSES AND ONE NIGHT STAND…….ALSO PERFORMING WILL BE SKYRON, MR. PROBLEM, DEREK DAIDER, WYZE, ALSACE, MOMU ENT., AND CHAMP……WE WILL BE ROLLS ROYCE…9220 SKILLMAN STREET IN NORTH DALLAS…DOORS OPEN AT 3PM…….TICKETS ARE $10 IN ADVANCE AND $15 AT THE DOOR……..WE ARE RAISING MONEY FOR A LOCAL CHARITY!!!...DONT MISS OUT!!!!!........

Some of you may know, I am always concerned about the turn out of any function I have……I am a very competitive person….at my job, I figure most of the people up here don’t support me…..yeah, a lot of them say what they are going to do…..when it comes down to it, they typically have a reason why they didn’t show up…and truth is, it gets me down at times…..until now……LET GO AND LET GOD!!.......I am believing that if he wants this program to run as awesome as I believe it will, that is one less worry I have on my shoulders…..its still crazy to me how people doubt your dream……actually, its not…….and I will no longer have a pity party up here when I get asked how my functions went….Dallas is a huge city and I know that more than enough people will come out and support the show….and we can all be believers in unison once you see the concrete evidence of God’s greatness towards me!!...........

I’m about to leave but I have something very important to say to women…….ladies, if you are calling a guy…and he never has time for you until one day…..then you guys go on a date, “get together”, or even converse on the phone for a long time……don’t get mad when you don’t hear from him the next day…..he was busy before yall kicked it and I guarantee he is going to be busy after that kick it moment………its amazing how women think one day of pleasure is going to make a man sit down and spend his free time with you…..so please, don’t ask me why he hasn’t called you…….he’s probably doing what he is always doing!!..........

And now ladies and gentlemen………Rika’s Quote of the Day……………

“Instead of overreacting, try under reacting because this response shows wisdom, patience, and peace.”

Shout outs to my girl Donna…….I promise I will do better and stay in contact with you……..you are so awesome to always check up on me……I better see you this weekend!!!

Love yall!!!


Church!!!!

MY LIFE, YOUR ENTERTAINMENT!!!

SIX MORE DAYS UNTIL THE MOST EXPLOSIVE CONCERT OF THE YEAR!!!.....THE ESSENTIAL VICTORY TOUR HEADLINED BY SPACESHIP OHAYSES AND ONE NIGHT STAND…….WE WILL BE ROLLS ROYCE…9220 SKILLMAN STREET IN NORTH DALLAS…DOORS OPEN AT 3PM…….TICKETS ARE $10 IN ADVANCE AND $15 AT THE DOOR……..WE ARE RAISING MONEY FOR A LOCAL CHARITY!!!...DONT MISS OUT!!!!!........

U know I had to throw that out there…….seems like I have a lot on my plate again…..this time around, I’m going to let other people eat as well though……how are you all doing today?...I pray you had a great weekend…I know I sure did!!.....but I did learn that me…and heat…are not a perfect combination……I know for sure I have to repent for my sins…because if its this hot in hell, I don’t wanna go…….and they said its dark down there too….hot and dark?....nah, I’m good……matter of fact…how is it dark if there is fire all around?............just a question……….

I had band practice this weekend……you talking about fun??!!!.......it was the best exercise I have ever had………I wish I could have stayed longer……I mean, I would still be practicing if it was up to me….well, at least when we were in the house on Saturday…..on Sunday, we practiced on top of an apartment complex…..that was so awesome….folks so nosey, they couldn’t help but see what all the noise was…and there goes a crowd….so you know I had to get down…..then I realized that we were closer than I usually am…….not a great feeling…..going 110% in 90 degree weather may not be the best idea…for future references………if you get a chance, check out practice on you tube: www.youtube.com/spaceshipohayses

The other day I was talking to this young lady and she was attempting to charge me up for knowing so many females…….I thought about it for a second and realized she missed one important fact…..I KNOW A LOT OF PEOPLE PERIOD…….after much consideration….(I really didn’t think about it that much, it just sounds better)……….I came to the grips that I know somebody in almost every state……..is that a bad thing?......I don’t think so…you never know when and where you may get a layover….and you never know where God will take you……the thing is……women talk more than men……..and I am somewhat of an advice column whether I want to come to grips of if or not…….I’m like a talk show via blog…..and I don’t have many guests…besides me…and people I choose to write about………last week, I put on my facebook a topic about women going through their man’s phone……now the women….they made sure they responded on my page…the guys…..they sent a message to my inbox………half of them probably realized they didn’t want to jump in that discussion with a bunch of rowdy woman….don’t blame them one bit……I didn’t agree either….I just posted it……

Why is it that women always want to know the why??.........that’s not a question I am good with myself…….I do a lot of things…….some just at the spur of my brain……and I honestly don’t think about it…..if I don’t want to talk to you, do I have to have a viable reason?.........wanting to know the why hurts a lot……if my girl cheats on me, it is what it is…….even at work…we see stats on the last day of the month….then two weeks letter we get the “final stats” for the month…..alot of times, they aren’t the same…and some people wanna know they why……and guess what?...most officers up here don’t have the answer…and they give us the run around…and people get frustrated because they know we are being lied to…….but a person saying “I don’t know” usually doesn’t suffice…..so we complain….we moan….and we get aggravated………all because we wanted to know the why………

So I have been writing this blog for over a year now….and you know the one thing that amazes me?.......how people say they don’t know what’s going on in my world until I write something about them…..then, out of the blue, I’m getting text messages…..emails….phone calls….remarks on facebook…..and even people that are not subscribers know what’s going on………to you people….I want to thank you today…….no, I may not know all of you out there that is doing this, but I have to say…….its better to be talked about than not…..and I know when I do see you, you will respond the same way you always have been….very fake……now you ask yourself, “Spaceship, are you venting or taking shots?”…….no……I had a small talk with someone that is a subscriber last night and it really put things into perspective……..when you treat people as important…..meaning friends, relationships, boos, and things of that sort……they will make you feel important……sometimes by simply letting me know the bought a song or ring tone…….or acknowledging they read the blog…….but when they feel less than…..they will attempt to ignore you and your purpose…..but the truth is, they can’t……because they are now a part of it……whether they want to admit it or not, they will continue to keep up with me….juuuusst in case, I happen to make it big…….they can come back into the fold as if they were supporting me the whole time…….I got it now though…its all good…..I already know who they are…….my remember is not all the way gone………TRUTH………..

Trying to figure out what I am going to eat tonight……….I made some awesome hamburgers yesterday, but I’m tired of ground beef……spaghetti, tacos, meatloaf, sloppy Joes, hamburgers………I think ima cook a duck and some dressing tonight, watch wrestling and then head to my homeboy’s album release party……..yeah…..that’s what ima do………or either some oxtails and cabbage………

Well I am about to tuck my tail up out of here…….and for those that get it…….here is Rika’s Quote of the Day………………………..

“Today picture yourself as the happiest person that you know and watch how contagious this enthusiasm for life is.”

I am learning that…….I used to have an infectious attitude towards life…….always happy……so jubilant that people thought I was high…..(well I could have been)…….when things starting hitting the decline, I saw my attitude changing and the people around me……I feel bad for it…..and now….with prayer three times a day…..I see myself in better spirits…..its a mind state…..how you feel inside will reflect how you look on the outside…….you cant love thy neighbor if you don’t love thyself!!!!........

Shouts out to my man Drama tha King……..check out his new mix tape and everything he is working on…….sorry I had to leave early bro……my face was hurting………

Love yall!!!!


Church!!!!

MENTALLY HANDICAPPED..AND STILL GOT A TICKET!!

I’m thinking I should write a little earlier on Fridays……people are not going to stick around the j.o to wait on my writings…and being perfectly honest, I wouldn’t either……..how are you all doing today?........I am incredibly sleepy right now….and I went to bed around twelve……after I got home from ft worth………but I think I know what happened…around 3, I woke up with a migraine……head was pounding….and I couldn’t truly go back to sleep to get that dynamic rest…….got to work and took a BC so I am feeling better in that regard………and then when I did get up this morning, by looking at the sky, I was sure it was going to rain……to my surprise, it ended up being 1000 degrees today…….and heat drains me too……..

I want to thank you all for the great feedback on the blog……sometimes, I do wonder as to whom is reading….who is digesting……and who really cares…..I think that is one of the downfalls of being an entertainer……and lately, I have been getting a lot of emails thanking me for the words I type…..I want to say now, don’t thank me……I am only a vessel used by God to say things that we already know…..its not just me and the things I go through……we all have this book called life and it takes some chapters to get through the end…….even in kid books, a conflict arises…..all I try to do is give some insight on what I do to get over the hump….sometimes good, sometimes bad…….sometimes, I allow things to get worse than what it is……but through it all, I still have joy!!...and of course you guys……..going back and reading some of these blogs show me a great journey…….and it does encourage me to continue pushing forward…….

After reading ole girl’s resignation letter yesterday, I definitely am more conscience of spell check….but to those that laughed at her…..spell check doesn’t help if you spell the wrong word right!!!........

Most people have vehicles…..most people know that there are places where they can’t park…there are signs that show us where we can or can not place our car…if we do, there are consequences…….sometimes, we receive a parking citation….sometimes we can get towed…..and even in rare instances, we can get our vehicles broken into…wrong time, wrong place….

I guess what I am trying to say is……DON’T PARK THERE!!!.....in our lives, we sometimes park our souls in places where we have no business…whether it’s a relationship, friends, jobs, or our environment……and then we wonder why things are not going the way they should…we wonder why our hearts are being towed and stored for us to redeem….because we lost it……we were in such a haste to do what WE need/want to do, we failed to think about the ramifications of our actions……in life, we all have a role to play…and when we fail to stay within that order and go against the parameters given to us, discourse is soon to follow……we then have a tendency to blame everyone else for our ill advised fate…when the finger of our own hands should make a direct U-turn………

And even when we do park, we need to be cognizant that eventually, we have to move……if your car stays parked too long, there is a possibility your vehicle can be….broken into, vandalized, stolen, a letter taped to it, towed, and even your gas can disappear…….we cant allow ourselves to stay in the same place too long…we must forever continue driving towards success and making every possible effort to keep our vehicle from being harmed……..

Its not a tough task…we must realize that every action has a reaction….every cause has an effect…….and every course has a destination……..sometimes, we do the things we do simply because of laziness….we don’t try to compromise or become better due to habit……we are selfish, spoiled, and angry creatures…..after all, we are animals…..but we all have brains….which gives us the opportunities to make wise decisions……if you are trying to get somewhere….if you are looking to journey to a place you have never been before…..or if you are simply attempting to get back to where you once were….DONT PARK THERE!!!........

SUNDAY, MAY 30TH, ESSENTIAL ENTERTAINEMTN WILL BE HAVING ITS FIRST “ESSENTIAL VICTORY CONCERT” AT ROLLS ROYCE…START TIME IS 3PM……YES 3 IN THE AFTERNOON….TICKETS ARE $10 IN ADVANCE AND $15 AT THE DOOR….PERFORMING LIVE WILL BE SPACESHIP OHAYSES, ALSACE, WYZE, DEREK DAIDER, MOMU ENT., CHAMP, MR PROBLEM, SKYRON, AND ONE NIGHT STAND…….PROCEEDS WILL BE GOING TO A LOCAL CHARITY…..I DO ASK THAT YOU ALL CONTRIBUTE AND COME OUT TO THIS EVENT…….

All jokes aside, I really want to see you all there….even the people that don’t necessarily like me (I’m talking to you)……and the ones that only read the blogs when they pertain to them (yep, you too)……even if you cant make it, tell someone…you never know how this may affect you or your loved ones in the future………I am very excited about this event…..if you do need a ride, let me know….I will suggest that you ask some of your friends that do have a car to come with you and bring you…………

Fyi: in my opinion, there is not anything better than a peanut butter and jelly sandwich on wheat bread….with a cold cup of milk!!.......I’m just saying!!!.......

Okay, think I am almost done for the day…….so here we go!!!!........Rika’s Quote of the Day……….

“Grow and learn from every situation no matter how insignificant because to stand still is really going backwards.”

Shout out to my man Vincent Tucker…..I got you fam!!...let me know when you want me to come up to the station and we can make this happen….I appreciate you checking in on me every once in a while…hope to see you at the concert next Sunday!!!..........

Love yall!!!!!


Church!!!!!!

SOMETIMES ITS NOT EVEN GRASS; MORE LIKE ARTIFICIAL TURF!!

Good evening beautiful people!!...I hope you are all doing good today…I am feeling grand…..still a little sore from yesterday, but I will be alright……I thought I was going to have to bash someone in this blog today….due to what I feel was a vey immature act….but knowing a little more about the situation, I will give my insight into the events that happened and hopefully, make since of this crazy world………

Now around 3 this afternoon, I notice one of my co-workers walking to the exit with three bags in her hand…..now I didn’t think anything of it…up here you can get Avon, Mary Kay, snacks for kids, or some people just realize they have too much stuff at their desk……I did sing “Bag Lady” in my head……but like I said, I didn’t think much in the way of drama……well nine minutes later, I received an email entitled, “FAREWELL”…….well, it was her resignation letter……and she sent it to the WHOLE COMPANY….Vice President included…….I couldn’t believe it….the hood in me has always heard about this happening and was cracking up on the inside thinking this woman had the gall to do such a stunt……at the bottom of the letter, she even had the audacity to put other places that were currently hiring……it was the talk of the building today…..I also found out that sent another email to her manager and other managers in her department detailing why she decided to make the choices she did…….to me, it was a big mistake……how dare she?....she must not be considering that if another job calls here for verification that they will tell what happened……

I also found out that what she was saying is true…and this is the problem with corporate America…..upper management never listened to her……other people on her team has quit for the same reasons as this young lady and nothing has been done to alleviate this cycle…..is it because they know how disposable we all truly are?.......does upper management really not care about its employees?.......its a very difficult thing to work for someone that will not listen to your problems……we all try to be content at our jobs……but reality is, if you are not the pimp, you are the hoe…….now, this young lady did not have the best “numbers” in the company, but a lot of people don’t have the best stats…….and there may be a reason why….one quote I have heard a lot lately is “where there is smoke, there is usually fire”………maybe her complaints are valid, and they pushed her over the brink……..in corporate world, we rarely have anyone truly to talk to about our issues…..yes, there is this thing called HR…..but seriously folks, whose side are they on?.........I know I have been to HR before and nothing was done…….and now, the fell off the cliff……..I hope she already has another start date somewhere else……..

SUNDAY, MAY 30TH, ESSENTIAL ENTERTAINEMTN WILL BE HAVING ITS FIRST “ESSENTIAL VICTORY CONCERT” AT ROLLS ROYCE…START TIME IS 3PM……YES 3 IN THE AFTERNOON….TICKETS ARE $10 IN ADVANCE AND $15 AT THE DOOR….PERFORMING LIVE WILL BE SPACESHIP OHAYSES, ALSACE, WYZE, DEREK DAIDER, MOMU ENT., CHAMP, MR PROBLEM, SKYRON, AND ONE NIGHT STAND…….PROCEEDS WILL BE GOING TO A LOCAL CHARITY…..I DO ASK THAT YOU ALL CONTRIBUTE AND COME OUT TO THIS EVENT…….

A lot of good things are happening for Essential Entertainment right now……next week is a full schedule of events for the team and I am really excited….I need to start stock piling sleep now….I actually went to bed right after the LAKERS won last night!!.......it felt weird but I had absolutely nothing to do……I did cook one of the best hamburgers of all time!!...two patties, grilled onions bacon, and A1 Sauce…yummy to my tummy!!...oh, my bad, tangent………next week, I need you all to com out and support…make sure you come out to the Mambo Café next Thursday as Spaceship Ohayses will be live in concert…also, the Essential Victory Concert will be held as stated above…….I am asking you guys to come check ya boy out!!...........

Had a talk with a good friend today….and we were discussing the difference between friends and those that say they are your friends…….and its big…….some people are there in your life masquerading as if they are there for you…….some people wish for your failure quicker than they wish for you to succeed…….I never want to be rude to people but its hard for me to detect at times….I am getting better at recognizing it……..and its allowing me to move past bs and focus more on what I need to accomplish as a CEO of a Fortune 500 company……..real friends support you…….clingers abandon you at the most opportune time for them…..life lessons………

Well its almost closing time here folks……I do want you to pray for my homegirl Destiny……she was in a car accident and I just ask that you give her strength during this time…btw, where the heck is Ms. Evans?????...I am so missing you??.......call me and let me know you are okay!!!...........

‘nother tangent…my bad…..here it is folks…….Rika’s Quote of the Day………..

“It’s very possible that our problems may not be as big as they seem and could sometimes actually be a blessing.”

That is very true….I am so learning that…………

Shout outs to my girl Ms. Williams……yes you……wow…I guess life does come full circle…….I appreciate you more than you may know…….you are pretty awesome!!...AND I KNEW YOU DIDN’T LIKE RED TOE NAIL POLISH!!!!!......


Love yall!!!!


Church!!!!

LOST MY MIND; WASNT ATTACHED WELL!!!

Jesus, KEEP ME NEAR THE CROSS!!!!!......how are you all doing today?...what a day……..craziness……tried to do things for the better good of Essential Entertainment and what happens….end up missing a nice chunk of work……but its all good…really, it is…….its crazy how God makes things happen and after its all said and done, the purpose is very evident…….

WE DID CANCEL DJ LADY JA-ROQ’S OPEN MIC SHOWCASE TONIGHT!!.......DONT FRET MY PETS, WE WILL BE BACK BETTER THAN EVER!!!!.........

Kinda upset about it……but sometimes you have to reasonable about priorities and making sure you keep good business values…….

So as I was saying earlier, I had a blow out today…and at the end of it all, I don’t think it was meant for my blessing……..I have a homegirl that is on her way to New York this weekend to participate in Freestyle Friday……..I know her through the music scene…..we just started conversing more as she is trying to get back out in the streets and get her music to the masses……well when I had the blowout…I tried to get roadside assistance to help me…..they didn’t………I called a friend to help, but he had to take his kids to school and couldn’t stay long……and all the tire and auto shops around were “no speaka englass”………I was frustrated…….here I am in oak cliff, by myself, and I don’t know a soul around……….I decided to give her a call……..she was actually upset that I had not called her sooner……immediately she came to my rescue……...

(isn’t God good?......someone I rarely talk to was willing to help me out in a time of need……and my prideful butt wasn’t even going to call)………….

While I was taking off my destroyed tired and fixing up my truck, we talked about things she had to do and things she has going….she re-iterated how important this trip was for her and how the devil and bestowed frustrations upon her……..I would say she was with me for about an hour and a half……she thought she was going to be gone by this time…not from around me, but on her way to NY………well, needless to say, by the time we did separate from each other, God had did some things in her life that she really needed………just by being in the same place I was, she was able to converse with some people and get some personal things for her family completed……she was overjoyed…….I was happy for her…in spite of what I was going through, somebody was able to get a blessing out of it……..isn’t life weird??...........

I tell people all the time….even when I am going through…..God cant bless me if I cant be a blessing to others…..and she was……..I probably could have called some other people…..not many of them would have came……not many would have had the ability to come assist me…..but yet, she was…….and was willing to get me back to my destination…..and for that, God instantly blessed her…oh it was a beautiful site…….I remember being in church a while ago and a pastor told me we should celebrate someone else’s blessings….they are very informative……they show and prove to us that Jesus still lives….if no one received blessings, we should start worrying…..but what do we do??...we get mad…..or at least we get jealous…..why she get a raise?...why is his music on the radio?......why does he have to be the host?........why she always got a man….nag. nag, nag……….our words keep us blinded from the goodness of God…….we speak hateful things…..think them more often than that…and at no point of time wonder why we are not being pleases by the riches and glory of God……the power of the tongue my friends………..

DON’T FORGET ABOUT MAY 30TH……..ITS THE ESSENTIAL VICOTRY CONCERT HELD AT ROLLS ROYCE……DOORS OPEN AT 3PM……TICKETS ARE $10 IN ADVANCE, $15 AT THE DOOR……..LIVE IN CONCERT WILL BE SPACESHIP OHAYSES, DEREK DAIDER, WYZE, ALSACE (my back babe!!)……..MOMU ENTERTAINMENT, CHAMP, AND ONE NIGHT STAND…….THIS WILL BE A GALA EVENT…PROCEEDS WILL BE DONATED TO A LOCAL CHARITY……….

So now I am here at work alone……yes I am still here….gotta make up some time……and I love it when I am by myself…..peaceful…I can get work done…..or I can get EE work done……..I still need to get my business management game up…I have that shortcoming and I pray that God delivers me from this personal burden………it seems like I do more work for the company here than I do once I get home……but tonight, with no show, no wrestling, and no desire to cook anything, I pray that I remember everything I need to get done….so if you do need to discuss business with me, tonight may be that night……at least for a little while…..I may try to go to sleep early….I was in that heat changing a tire…….and would that compromise my lesson from yesterday??.......knowing that I know I have work to be done?......woe is me!!!!!!........

Well let me let yall get to ya business…..here it is folks…….Rika’s Quote of the Day………

“Perseverance is the hard work you do after you get tired of doing the hard work you already did”

Let me digest that and get back to yall on that one………….

Shout outs to my girl Ms Burrell……..haven’t spoke to you in a while and it felt good chopping it up with ya....dont be a stranger…you say you still read the blogs, let me know every once in a while…….feedback is encouraged………..

Love yall!!!!!!


Church!!!!

I NEED A CTRL, ALT. DELETE BUTTON!!!!!

This is the day that the Lord has made…I will rejoice and be glad in it!!!!......howdy folks…..I pray that you all are doing well this afternoon….OMG, it is so hot here in Dallas……90 in May….are you serious??!....so, so serious…….but I am doing pretty good……just got out of a meeting that I think will be very beneficial to my success hear at work…….and I am usually the type that don’t care for meetings……especially up here…..but it was worth it…….in my opinion…..so I will take the information I received and run with it…….

Got a few things to discuss……not many…so don’t fret……I wont take up too much of your time today…..I don’t think……

DON’T FORGET!!!.....TOMORROW IS DJ LADY JA-ROQ’S OPEN MIC SHOWCASE AT ROOLS ROYCE…WE WILL BE ANNOUNCING ANOTHER $250 FINALIST!!....DOORS OPEN AT NINE….SHOW STARTS AT TEN…….AND IT WILL BE GOING DOWN FOLKS……$5 ENTRY IF YOU ARE OVER 21…….ONLY THE BEST OF THE BEST PERFORMING………9220 SKILLMAN STREET…….NORTH DALLAS…..

So as I was walking to my car this morning, I saw 2 men picking up concrete…..one of them was in a truck…the other was directing……well, the one driving the vehicle, you could tell he knew what he was doing……almost cocky in his work…….going back and forth, moving the concrete and doing his job with such regularity, he probably could have done it blindfolded…..but then, the other guy directing tried to get his attention…….but he chose not to pay attention…..warning after warning came and then without another opportunity to stop his tracks, he fell and got stuck in a ditch……..his crane couldn’t move…..he couldn’t lift that crane out of that hole…..no matter how hard he tried……eventually, the person that was directing him, assisted him in getting the crane out of the ditch and back to working again……..and I bet he started to listen then……

I realized this is our life…….sometimes, I……and I will use myself due to the things I go through……we have a tendency to think life is a cake walk……we get so comfortable with the usual, we don’t take the time to listen to someone who is trying to make sure we are going in the correct path…..and God is our director…….he tries to give us direction to live our lives in harmony….but of course, we don’t listen…we think we know the answers……heck, I’ve been me for thirty years……you cant tell me anything I already don’t know…….and then what happens……BOOM!!!......I fall straight in a ditch….once again, not listening or asking for help, I think I can get myself out the ditch myself……I pull, tug, squirm, and anything else I can think of to get out that darn hole……but I cant……and in the meanwhile, I am not doing anything but becoming more tired……can’t forget I still have work to be done AFTER I get out of this predicament……so then, with all the pride and ego inside of me, I finally ask for help……..and God looks….he laughs….(yes I believe he has a sense of humor)…….and he helps…….when I could have paid attention in the first place……..now, as weary as I am, I have to continue working and get the job that he has asked of me in the first place, finished…..wow life has so many lessons……..

SUNDAY, MAY 30TH, ESSENTIAL ENTERTAINEMTN WILL BE HAVING ITS FIRST “ESSENTIAL VICTORY CONCERT” AT ROLLS ROLLS…START TIME IS 3PM……YES 3 IN THE AFTERNOON….TICKETS ARE $10 IN ADVANCE AND $15 AT THE DOOR….PERFORMING LIVE WILL BE SPACESHIP OHAYSES, WYZE, DEREK DAIDER, MOMU ENT., CHAMP, MR PROBLEM, SKYRON, AND ONE NIGHT STAND…….PROCEEDS WILL EB GOING TO A LOCAL CHARITY…..I DO ASK THAT YOU ALL CONTRIBUTE AND COME OUT TO THIS EVENT…….

Now I do wonder this…except for my haters…..why not come support??.....we can go to a club where nothing will be gained, but in the instance where it will be beneficial to the youth and our community, we don’t come out……its amazing how nothing matters until it pertains to us….no struggles, sorrows, and tribulations are important until we are the ones needing assistance…..come on out and support this excellent event…….

Told you I wouldn’t be long today…like a pastor trying to see the football game…….but before I leave……..here is…….Rika’s Quote of the Day………….

“When you feel the need to tell someone how bad your day has been, tell them how good it’s been instead.”

I challenge you all to speak more positive things in your life…let’s not be defeated before we try it…I hear way too much drama in this world….lets compliment folks…….and God’s blessings will shine on you always…….

Shout out to my homie Veronica……we have the same birthday and act so much alike…but in the end, she is like a big sister…or a older sister that was big until she got the surgery……thank you for your words and being there when I need you…even when you think I am not being serious……….


Love yall!!!


Church!!!!!!!

HITCHIKING WITH NO THUMBS

How are you doing today?....I am feeling good…..well, I am getting there…working on a master plan to get my finances in order…I sure hopes it work……the thing is, its something I really didn’t want to do…but its looking like a necessity…….I pray you guys had an awesome weekend and enjoyed yourselves in this crazy weather down here…mine was cool……still a lot of things I need to get done…..

Such as cleaning my house…now I did finally fold the clothes I washed……last Monday….I know…..lazy is me…..I promise when I get home today, I am going to focus on cleaning that junk basket……and that’s all it is…..junky……its funny because I was sitting at home yesterday saying to myself how bored I was…..but I looked around and saw how much my crib needed attention…….so that’s when I decided to start cleaning up….and as soon as I did…Jayla woke up…….so I couldn’t do as much as I had finally planned on doing…….I have to do better!!!.........

DON’T FORGET TO COME OUT THIS WEDNESDAY FOR DJ LADY JA-ROQ’S OPEN MIC SHOWCASE!!...AT ROLLS ROYCE…..9220 SKILLMAN STREET IN NORTH DALLAS……WE ARE STILL IN THE RACE FOR $250!!!.......FIRST COME, FIRST SERVE……BRING YOUR “A” GAME!!!!!..........

So last week we are up there and are outside chilling before the show and we see a police car……..did I tell yall about this?.......next thing you know, we saw another…..and another…and another……and then about 30 more….I was like WTF??!!!...major Set it Off moment……you know, when Cleo was getting that issue at the end…that’s what it felt like…..no one could have been able to escape that…..not even Jesus……and the worst part about it…somebody outside was like, “Man! I bet I could rob guitar center right now and not get caught!”……..damn shame I tell you………

Just when I thought it was safe to come back, I may have to put a hold on the blogs again……I may not since I write most of them at work…….but I still have some issues to take care of…….just when I thought it was safe, the devil attacked me again this weekend…..and he hit me very hard………and I was almost in a very weak state……but this is why I love Stephanie……I may not like her at times but she tells me what’s real…….its crazy how we can give good advice but are so horrible at taking it…….we…and I do include myself…….never like hearing the words we give to others about how God can change situations very quickly……

I wonder what he feels about that….I mean, I try my best to be positive for other people….and at my most critical time, I find myself with the urge to give up…….sad….depressed…and not knowing where my source of life comes from…..yes, I know all the answers…..and I know how great he is…….I hope he is not mad at me for frontin’…….and when it boils down to it, that’s what I am doing……frontin’ like I trust him………..so not good….I need to trust him regardless…….without having to see his plans before he does them……..

Speaking on trust…I was talking to this young lady the other day and she was telling me how she likes to go through her man’s phone……..even if he is not her man yet……I asked why…she said because she can and she is just like that……for me, I don’t think I could date a woman like that….off the bat, you are telling me you don’t trust me…..but you wanna make this work?......I don’t get how that works……..I wrote about this on my facebook the other day and tried my hardest not to respond……of course, I couldn’t help it though…….I know some females that have been in my phone and they wonder why they would never have a chance at being with me……..that is so irritating…..men don’t care about things like that…..we don’t need to see the hurt to be hurt….unlike women……yeah, I said it……..even if you do have that inclination, you want the other person to just tell you, or you are gonna look until you find something……and may even lie about looking………now that’s funny……I had someone look through my computer once…and lie about it……..but its all good…….how can u trust someone like that??........im just saying…….two wrongs don’t make a right….but it will get you left!!!!.....ha ha!!!..........

Well, I need to leave early today…….I have to run some errands to get myself out of this conundrum I am in…..please continue to pray for me…..and for you haters…..you can pray for my death…..its cool…..im used to it………..

And here is……….Rika’s Quote of the Day……………………………

“If you are waiting to be happy, you never will be”

I am learning that one……..I was once told, when you die, you will still have things in your inbox……and in the meantime, I will continue to be happy and love the life God has given me……….

Shout outs to my Essential Entertainment family……I hope yall read the email I sent yesterday….the takeover is here…….I love each and everyone of you guys and I thank God you are apart of this movement….PUT YA PINIKYS UP!!!...........

Love yall!!!


Church!!!!

TAKE UR INBOX OUTSIDE AND DELETE IT!!!

It’s Friday!!!...and raining like a mother!!!....how are you all doing today?.....I’m feeling pretty good……ready to get off work….got a lot of running around to do tonight but don’t know if I want to due to this rain…….I have been sleepy all day……came to work and hardly did that…….but I didn’t slack all day……I hope you all are doing well and if you are in the Dallas area and you are going out tonight, please be safe……I don’t want to hear that somebody I know was hurt for being careless….no club or party is worth it…….and I will do the same……

Wow, the cavaliers lost last night……in a crazy way, that’s what keeps me going in the music industry…..you never know who is going to win…a lot of times I get frustrated because the game down here….its not about what you know……its about who you know…and I know a lot of the opportunities are going to friends and people they know and have heard about….but eventually, my time will be coming up…its all about holding fort…most people thought the Celtics didn’t have a chance…they were too old……injured….and didn’t have a player to match the skill set of LeBron James…….and what happened??.....besides on game in their series, Cleveland got out played, out worked and out hustled…….and that’s what I have to do…..work harder, be smarter, and do things with my TEAM that no individual can stop…….

I truly dislike my new phone…I thought getting one of these Android phones would make a lot of business easier……jokes on me…this thing freezes up, doesn’t delete my text, doesn’t get all the text in, and the screen is way too sensitive for my fat butt…….its crazy how when I had my cheap phone, it may have not worked well, but that’s what I expected….now, with this “upgrade”, I thought my phone problems would be solved…..nope…..seems like its getting worse….I guess I shouldn’t depend on a robot…….

And what’s up with people that always think you are talking about them??.......can a person really be that paranoid?.....I’m at work and there is this woman that sits by me….first, she is an ear hustler…don’t even be talking about her…then when we are discussing something and the conversation gets animated, when tries to join in……after her attempts fail, now she gets mad and think we wont let her be apart of the conversation because we must be talking about her…no sweetie….what we are talking about is not your business……even in my blogs or on my facebook, you would be surprised at how many people respond only when I am making comments about them……am I taking shots??....or is that guilt??.......inquiring minds want to know………

I miss Saturday morning cartoons…..I don’t even know if they have any on but I know they aren’t the greats of years past……I bet if they had better cartoons on in the morning, it wouldn’t be so hard for me to wake up…..Jayla likes them, but Yo Gabba Gabba doesn’t count as a cartoon……more like a sesame street rip off……I remember growing up…cartoons were on til 12……at 12, we would watch Soul Train and use the Zoom Broom….we couldn’t afford a vacuum cleaner……as the microphone……have our own Soul Train line and then after it went off, we cleaned up…..next thing we know, its 3 in the afternoon…….now, if I don’t have to work, I wake up about 12 and the day just drags…..but its not a day of relaxation…its more of “now what did I forget to do?”…….
Just found out in the month of June, we will be having mandatory OT……..what exactly is mandatory overtime??......isn’t that some type of contradiction??......if you are giving OT, it should be optional…..but no, you are telling me I have to work extra hours…….I assume that’s a good thing…..as I need the money……..but dang!!......the summer is going to be a hard one for me….my prayers are seemingly being answered, so my tenure here may not be long anyway………

Hopefully, I will have the tickets for the concert by Monday……the flyer is looking excellent and you all will probably be getting that tomorrow…I truly hope you all can make it out…..this is a very important event for me and I am happy that I can give back to the community……..

Well I am not going to keep you all long today……here it is folks…..Rika’s Quote of the Day…………..

“We have never before had today and we will never have it again…don’t waste it.”

I have to live like this…..I know that today is another opportunity for me to be great……I want to commit myself to doing everything I can to be better than I was yesterday…..

Shout outs are in order to my girl Krystal Shanti…..don’t get weary……..allow the Lord to show you what he wants to reveal to you…….you have known me for a long time…….I have had my ups and downs…and I am still standing…….you are destined to be great……..

Love yall!!!


Church!!!

JUMPING TO CONCLUSIONS WITH CONCRETE KNEES

Good evening ladies and gentlemen……I pray you all are having a good night this evening and are ready for the upcoming weekend…..I am feeling good today….a few more blessings this afternoon…a breakthrough on a “friendship”………and just overall feeling really good……trying to get into the habit of praying three times a day…..or when someone is attacking my spirit……its working to, for I don’t stay in a rut for too long……now work???...it’s the same…boring and I am so ready to go…….but hey, gotta pay bills you know……..

Had a very interesting conversation on Facebook today….if anybody gets a chance, check it out……I love some of my friends on there……….it is truly an honor to be able to indulge with intellectual people….now are they are sensible??.....of course not!!.....neither am I so I don’t expect them to be!!!......we all have our beliefs and I love when we can agree to disagree…..folks are so hilarious……

Now I want to put you all up on some of my upcoming events……now I know you may not possibly be able to make all of these, but the 27th and the 30th, I really want you all to come out……..

MAY 25TH: Spaceship Ohayses will be hosting the Dallas Xplosion Family Reunion @ Trinity River Sports Bar…..5214 s Lamar in Dallas…….there will be a free buffet…..come on out and enjoy yourself with some of Dallas finest artist and tastemakers………..

MAY 26TH: Essential Entertainment’s own Derek Daider and Spaceship Ohayses will be performing live in Waco Tx……more details coming soon………..

MAY 27TH: Spaceship Ohayses will be live in concert at the Mambo Café……2020 N. Lamar Street…..ladies free before 11……I need at least 30 people to come out and rock with ya boy and start Memorial Weekend off with me!!!.........

MAY 30TH: Essential Entertainment will be holding its first “Essential Victory Concert” at Rolls Royce…9220 Skillman Street……the concert start at 3pm……..live in concert will be Spaceship Ohayses, Wyze, Derek Daider, One Night Stand, Problem Child and Skyron, Alsace, MoMu Entertainment, and Champ……tickets are $10 in advance and $15 at the door…..proceeds will be donated to a local charity in Dallas…….for more information and sponsorship opportunities, contact Spaceship Ohayses…..

All I ask is that you mark these days in your calendar…..I know some of these events will be hard to get to, but that Thursday and Sunday mean a lot to me and I hope my “supporters” come on out and really get behind this movement……..

Man, I really need to clean up my house…I did all this fasting and getting away for a moment and my house still looks like its waiting on Jesus…..I told someone today…no matter how junky my crib is, there are two rooms that I make sure are clean…my bathroom and my kitchen……probably because I used them two the most…..
Folks that always got something to say about something……don’t you hate that…..I say I watched the mayweather fight a couple of weeks ago…they say they had tickets but didn’t go……I say I just recorded a new song…they say they went to the studio and Jay-Z was there……..I say I cooked for mothers Day….they took their mom to Emerill’s restaurant…..don’t you just want to punch them in the face??....but that’s not godly….so I chill…….but in my head, im punching them in the face…….

Had a friend call me today about a major, life-changing decision today……and no matter what kind of “advice” I give them, I will never be able to comprehend the ramifications of their decision……like marriage…I could never tell one of my partners to leave their wife…..what if they have kids?....what about their valuables and possessions……I love being me but understand, I don’t have all the answers…no matter how great you think I am……….

Well I am about to leave……and Rika didn’t send me a quote today……BOOOOOOOOO RIKA!!!!......but I have one…I made it up by accident……I like it though…..so here it is…..Spaceship’s Quote of the Day………..

“If you don’t have a vision, how can you see your destiny?”

Ahh haa!!...I know you like that……(in my McLovin voice, “chicka, chicka”)…….

Just messing with yall…….congrats to my Los Angeles Lakers!!!....please stop doubting us son!!!!......and death to the Cavaliers…….I can’t believe I am cheering for the Celtics……such a bad taste in my mouth…..

Shout outs to my homie Courtney……its working babe…I am so taking everything you said into account…wow…I so love you for it……even when we don’t talk I still hear your voice….I am learning to be more obedient….no matter how hard it gets!!!......love you!!!!!........

Love yall!!!


Church!!!

KEEP IT REAL...UNLESS YOU TALKING TO ME!!!

Man, I have been so busy this last half hour….truly thought I was going to be able to coast for the rest of the day…..but some things just don’t happen the way we expect….how are you all doing today?.....I am feeling really good…….God’s presence is so good!!!.......I hope I find you in the most awesome of attitudes…….I don’t have too long so I guess will cut this blog a little shorter than usual……..

TONIGHT!!...DJ LADY JA-ROQ’S OPEN MIC SHOWCASE IS HOLDING FORT AT ROLLS ROYCE…9220 SKILLMAN STREET……..DOORS OPEN AT 9….YES AT 9!!...THE SHOW WILL START AT TEN….WE ARE STILL IN THE HUNT FOR OUR $250 WINNER…..LAST WEEK WAS SO MUCH FUN AND I PRAY THAT YOU ALL COME OUT AND SUPPORT YA BOY…AND IF YOU THIRSTY, WE GOT THOSE DRINKS!!!!..........

So last night, I am on my way to see Stephanie at the Steak and Shake over here…..I’m thinking I hear a draft from my passenger window so I try to raise it up…now, this window doesn’t work too good so I try to be careful with it……..then I heard something click…next thing I know, the window falls completely down in its crack……so not a good look……..eventually I pick it out of there……with the help of some needle nose pliers and use every flyer in my car to tighten the tension between the window pane and the window frame………I so have to get that done today……and still the devil cant take my joy!!!!.........

You know how yesterday I was talking about not doing any shows as of late??......well, since Saturday I suppose….up until today, God has filled my schedule for the whole Memorial week…I may have one or two days off, but besides that, He is totally blessing me…..and I need to credit the way I think for that…when I was down, not knowing where my blessings were, it was hard for me to see them…..I’m not looking for them now…..and I think that’s why we don’t give thanks as much as we should…when a blessing does come to us, we take it for granted…or we allow people to say we are lucky….what is luck??.....I believe the word comes from Lucifer……think about it and look at them……the devil gives you luck…a false sense of security…….that’s why its so sporadic…no one is lucky all the time…..duh!!!!........

The connections I was looking for, the ability to do the things I need to, the work ethic….they are all coming back to me…..I have to keep my mind motivated…I became idle for a minute there….and it wasn’t good....as long as I am busy with Essential Entertainment, I know more and more things will come my way…….and this smile isn’t fake……..

But some things just don’t change….women…..and I say this with all sincerity…..STOP WEARING OPEN TOE SHOES IF YOUR FEET ARE BUSTED!!!....I mean seriously…no man wants to see that…no matter how much you don’t care…..and please don’t give me that, “if you don’t like it, get them done” crap……you should care……

Why are there people in the world that start arguments for no reason…….I was at the 7-11 down the street from my house last night and there was this young man in there…white guy…well this black guy comes to the door and the white guy asked for some change….I already knew he was going to ask so I asked him before he had a chance to ask me…..killed that thought real quick…yeah, I asked a homeless man for a dollar….try it, it works…….but instead of simply saying he doesn’t have it, he goes on this rampage cursing this guy out and getting in his face…..do you hate yourself that much dude?.........

Well I am not going to spend too much time with you all today…..hopefully I can get you all an itinerary of my Memorial Day events by tomorrow…I will say that Essential Entertainment will be holding the 1st ever “Essential Victory Charity Concert” on May 30th at Rolls Royce…..mark that in your calendar…….we will be donating half of the proceeds to a local charity in the DFW area…I am truly excited about this event and I hope you all come out….and you don’t have to go to work on Monday, so no excuses!!!......

There is something I am forgetting…….oh yeah!!!....Rika’s Quote of the Day……….

“Nothing happens out of order or by chance so look for the lesson that can be learned from each of your experiences.”

I am such a witness to that….make sure you become a follower: www.spaceshipohayses.blogspot.com and check out the music if you haven’t: www.reverbnation.com/spaceshipohayses ...............

Shout outs are in order for my homie Ms Evans……..I hope you are well today…really miss you at work…you all pray for her…she was in a car accident and we look to Him for your speedy recovery……..

Love yall!!!!!


Church!!!!

BAG OF WEAKNESS FOR SALE!!!

Should I?.....or should I stay gone??.....that is the burning question……but at the end of the day I missed you all…….its been a crazy past couple of weeks and in this writing, I may give you all some insight of what I have been able to get through……not all the way but I am starting to see the light….its still far……I’m getting there though……how have you all been??....gosh I have missed you…….its hard not articulating my feelings to you….I felt it was best though, as I was beginning to see myself as too negative for your lives………to those that genuinely expressed concern for me….I do thank you………I’m so used to only worry about my feeling and emotions, I didn’t take into account how tied our destinies truly are……..well, where do I begin??.........let me attempt to break down what I have been doing………and what I will be doing!!!........

FAMILY:

Its been a very weird few weeks for me……I talked to my father’s parents last week…….my and my grandmother had a long talk and she informed me that she would be telling my father I called…..I didn’t really care……figured he wouldn’t call me anyway…sure enough, he did….and just like last time, he told me he would call me at least once a week……he continued to apologize for not being a good dad…….I wont say that I took it with a grain of salt…….but I took it with a grain of salt…….he called me again last night…..two times in a week span……that’s probably more than he has in my 30 years of living….and you know what?........I was happy to see his name on my caller ID……..

Now my mom and I have truly been working on our relationship…or maybe our conversations……..now when we talk, I find myself not so much ready to get off the phone with her……..we joke, call each other names and now I am getting an idea of where my humor comes from……..I think this is all that I ever really wanted…..there is an old adage, “if you don’t learn from history, you are bound to repeat it”……I never knew who I was….why I did certain things, or think the way I do…..bridging this gap with my mom is really doing wonders just for my overall attitude……..

FINANCES:

With all due respect to those going through a recession……..I have been recessed since I can remember……the times I have went through these last couple of weeks have almost been unbearable…….Quita, Rhonda, Robin, Brandon, Tahj, Lisa, Chanell, Mama C, and everyone else that has lent their time, ears, money, and patience with me…..I so thank you…….it has been hard…….to wake up and not have any food…..to get paid and have nothing to show for it………to borrow and cant give back in a timely manner is very frustrating…..and I wanted so hard to become isolated….I never want someone to think I am abusing them or using them or taking advantage of their love…….but you guys would not let me…….you forced me to smile in spite of……you know, when the devil is bothering us and people say” you just going through a storm”, I try to believe it……I know I believe it…but my faith was tested…….no, I am not out of my circumstance….but I feel myself getting stronger…….

RELATIONSHIPS/FRIENDS:

The word friend is very loose right here……I have a hard head…..and I try to see the best in people……the truth is though, you cant……and when that storm does come and you have those situations in your life that take you away from what people expect you be, you find out who really loves you…not cut for you, like you, or want to have sex with you….but LOVES you…..unconditionally……..to those that stood by me, prayed for me, and made sure I was okay, rather they were mad at me, upset with me, confused with me….once again, thank you……..

One thing I don’t discuss on my blog is my relationship status….and I don’t really want to know because I don’t want anyone to think I am calling them out or putting them on blast…….but hell, it is my blog isn’t it??........its hard trying to settle down with someone when you can stand on your own two…….I have allowed myself to be my own worse crutch………but in these past few days, I realized a lot about relationships……..you know what?...ima leave it at that……….

GOD:

“Something about the name Jesus”……..I know my faith has been built as of late……even went on a fast…..one of the hardest things I have ever done…but He told me to distance myself…..and I did…..and in that meantime, I did increase my faith…..I have been going to church…..I have had a more praying life nowadays…….and that’s the key…as much as I breathe, I need to pray….now everything else I talked about tied together……..some people left, some people came, some things, I totally stopped, and things are working themselves out….as much as I take time to say how good my God is, I have to really digest that….and its hard…I’m used to being mean, selfish, shallow, invincible, scared, lonely, hurt, and hated…..but why??......and why must I continue to think this is the direction my life will take…….

I found myself crying a lot…….and I definitely wasn’t used to that!!...was it because of my grandmother?....was it because of my multiple eviction notices?...or the lack of food in my fridge?......it’s easy to make these the reason….I thought I was having some type of mid life crisis…..God was just breaking down my soul……….for so long, I refused to show any emotions……”it is what it is”…..but its not…and we can change what it is if we try……….and that’s my starting block…….all the pain, the animosity, the frustrations…..they will be there…..I just cant let them take reign over my soul……..

Thank you all for being there for me……and thank you for those that prayed for me….and thank you to those that chose not to deal with my foolishness……..I am glad you showed me your true colors….and I don’t fault you at all………Essential Entertainment, and myself will be better for it……guns are blazing…..life is a journey……and I will never say I QUIT!!!!...........

Well, I hope to see you all tomorrow at Rolls Royce…….yes, I’m still hosting open mics….even that became a source of anguish for me……but I got through it……if you know anybody that needs $250 in their life, tell them to bring their butts to 9220 Skillman Street by 9:00 tomorrow night…….

I love yall….I so really do………

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UNDER CONSTRUCTION

I have been going through a lot……..and I am learning a lot of things…..and right now, venting is not helping…its all about actions…..until further notice, I will be taking a hiatus from you all……thank you for being there for me….i promise to come back better than ever…….

Love yall!!!


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