So i am here.....and i know its late......but do you know what that means??......my Internet is on!!!!!........happy new years eve everybody!!!!.......wow, 2009 is almost gone....and approaching is a new decade...new inventions,.......new scandals........new champions.........and new families.........some people say don't look back on 2009...but i want to......i feel if you don't know where you came from, you wont know where you are going........so i want to attempt to remember my life as it unfolded in 2009.....
january........january.....i think we were just starting at Murphy's............it was weird because I had worked with Ja-Roq and Kitty alone at our previous stops.....we had a fourth member...and boy they were a handful.........this was one of the few times I ever thought about leaving DJ-Lady Ja-Roq's Open Mic.........it was hard trying to work business with an emotional person.......we had alot of acts coming to Murphy's at this time.......most of them though, just weren't, in my eyes, compatible to what we had established over the last year........it wasn't a thought based on ego or prejudice.......it was that certain genres belong in certain places........and I pride myself on loving hip hop................
February.........don't remember much.....it was my daughter's birthday........i was working hard at my job........i think i was even still getting to work on time.........
march.......this was my birthday month.........lot of good things started or happened in march..........i was about to play softball with my job.....yeah i was ready to try to exercise!!!!!......my birthday party was held at Murphy's......ooh wee, i had so much fun.........I was so drunk......someone stole my Blackberry at my first softball game......March 26th, i started writing my blogs......and I joined PB Ent.............by April 1st, things were looking up.....i was back i the studio working on my No Preservatives album.........I completed "Act A Fool".......Spaceship Ohayses was blasting off......Ja-Roq and I even starting working at the Sterling Hotel......or was that in February???..........
April.........first thought is the Young Gem Video Release Party at the Lounge.....you can watch that: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E4Q9NgJjUR8...........here........i started hosting Final Friday at the Liquid Lounge..........Fatz, I appreciate the opportunity!!...........people were getting in tune with Spaceship Ohayses..........Murphy's was picking back up after a little down month after the abrupt changes.......i met my project manager at Sterling....................
may..............started washing cars.....my project manager officially came on board...............the car washes were excellent and gave Essential Entertainment alot of exposure..........but it was hot!!...and i am a big boy......but no matter what, we always had somebody out there supporting us......thank you to Joyia, Rhonda, both Courtney's, JaVon, Drama, Killa Cev, Momma and Trice, and anybody else that came out there and supported me and washed a few cars..............
June..........or was this when i started washing cars??..........i don't know......but i started shooting more videos.....had a feature spot at Final Friday along with hosting it....i was on a high this past summer......people were jammin my music.........somebody even asked to buy the La-La song..........i was getting ready for my first big trip...........to Miami........and can i forget???.....Michael Jackson passed away this month.........
July..........went to the M.I.A- YO!!!!!!..........what an awesome time......it was truly a blessing to have the ability to go to a place like that and network......it was alot of hard work and now i was actually getting my music in the hands of people that could make a difference....met Compass Boy, one of the hottest artist coming out of the Bay Area.........
august...........started the Back 2 School giveaway.......we blessed alot of people during this event....learned alot about business though......gotta to make things affordable for all.........cant let profit dictate success....also worked with the Back Pack Foundation at the Absinthe Lounge......this was a month where i realized that Essential Entertainment will be a successful business.........
September......connected with, became a part of Frontline Entertainment........i can truly say, when you believe good things are going to happen, they begin to snowball.....HT has truly been an excellent mentor for me..........he increased my business knowledge and helped push me to get my album out........the ball got rolling for the album release party in October.......i entered the Lil Jon concert and made a hot song with my man Habit...........they took OT away at work so i had to work harder at my music...........
October......No Preservatives......need i say more??........this was a momentous month for me...and my God, it was a hair puller as well...........i dont like stress but when the pressure is on, i want to be the one to call on..........Joyia, Neke, Charita, Lisa, Ebony, TrulySpoken and everyone else that busted their butts with me to make this thing a success, I so love you all....Tommy at the M Street Bar, thanks for taking a flyer on me........this was also the month of the 2 year anniversary of my grandfather passing....he died October 22, 2007........my album release party was October 23rd......so was my grandmother's birthday...........and the day she had her heart attack..........
November...........i was sick this month......didn't do alot of shows......but we did celebrate our 2 year anniversary of DJ Lady Ja-Roq's Open Mic Showcase.....and it was also on a night of our $250 showcase...and Murphy's was wall to wall!!!...........this was a great feeling as it was the culmination of alot of hard work on the part of Ms Kitty, Ja-Roq and myself...............performed at the Skillman St Pub as well for Thanksgiving...........the week after I went home to see my grandmother.....
December............probably the hardest month of my life...my grandmother, Mary Louise Barker passed away on December 6th.............i took alot of time to myself with me being under the weather with bronchitis, and my grandmother passing........but as I have sad recently, Im not sad.......i just know that its time for me to step up......i did come back and perform at Alsace concert in Arlington..........
i have done alot.......alot i have forgotten......but i can say God has blessed me this year....I look forward to all he has in store for me next year.........wow, that was harder to do than i originally thought..........
now for my final 5 predictions for 2010..................
5. Oprah will direct a movie about her life and it will hold box office records, while Will Smith will not make a 4th of July movie..............
4. I will release another album by the Fall.....i will have a major distribution deal and will be flooding your TVs from June on...............
3. The war in Ira will finally end..............
2. The next type of flu will be Goat Flu............
1. All of you will be blessed in multiples as long as you don't get discouraged.....we all have stories, we all have tribulations..........remember, you cant see faith...........
well i am out of here....i love yall...Happy New Year!!!!........i cant tell you not to go party.......cant tell you not to drink........or drive drunk........but i do want you all to be safe........you have families that want to see you in the morning...no partying is worth agony.........i will talk to you all in 2010!!!!!!!
Love yall....................
Church!!!!!!!!!!
Thursday, December 31, 2009
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
SHE DIDNT EVEN WASH HER HANDS!!!
How are you all doing today??.......only two more days until 2010!!...wow!! Are you ready??.........im not having a good day…….don’t know why…think it was the glitch in my matrix……..but nonetheless, I am in one of those moods…..this is one of the hard parts of writing everyday…or at least attempting to write everyday…….the motivation when I just don’t want to be bothered……and don’t say anything…everybody has those days………but for someone like myself, you don’t get a day off……..I rarely have an opportunity to cut my phone off……..I signed up for it…..so complaining is futile…….
This is probably going to take me a long time to write this edition……..its still early at work (3:46p cst) and I haven’t even went to lunch……..but I needed to start writing….it is truly becoming the only positive way for me to vent…….especially because I don’t need advice a lot……..sometimes we vent to people and expect the to give us a golden answer……..even when people vent to me, I don’t know what to say all the time……what’s makes the words I say so valid?.......so I just listen…or don’t answer when I can………
So I finally got my performance review for my boss…..kind of bittersweet…but I don’t have to get my box ready…….I was one of the best at my job but not the best…and that sucks……because I am such a competitive person….but looking in the mirror, I know why…these last two months have been really hard for me and I have missed more than my fair share of days…….once again though, 2010 is a-coming and I will have to recapture that focus and make sure I stay on point…….
I just thought about it…….I don’t remember what I did for New Year’s last year………I think I went to church…….hmmmmm…research……
Is it just me or does it seems like reality TV stars have the lowest self-esteem??..........or are they simply taking advantage of a market created by nosey people??..........
Okay….ill be back…going to lunch now………
Just got an email about free pizza for lunch tomorrow!!!! WHOO-HOO!!!!!................
Im back…..it’s amazing that the most natural things can make you feel better……….
Had an idea on lunch and I need your feedback……..If I held a Valentine’s Day raffle and the grand prize was a dinner for two at the Cheesecake Factory and a free (conditional) hair do/haircut……..would you take a chance on that??.........the raffle I held for the school supplies was a success….and I think we made a lot of people happy…..so I want to bring some joy to others………give me your feedback……….
My home girl that is putting my website up just called….AND THE FRONT PAGE IS DONE!!!!.......I know it’s not much, but it put a smile on my face……..and that’s what I needed right about now……..
2010 is going to be a year of major moves……im excited about moving into the New Year…when I look back on 2009, I have done so much to improve my life……I will probably go into detail tomorrow…..im thinking that could be a whole blog in itself……….
But I do want to get to my predictions for 2010……now I have thought about these hard…..well some of them…and others were visions……I gotta a lil Cleo in me……..but they are all sincere……today I will give you 5….tomorrow(hopefully), the other 5…….why is my cable still off??........not a happy camper right now…thought I had the money and then they said I had to pay the NSF fee………its my fault though….that’s why I don’t usually pay with checks…………..
10. Chris Brown will get beat up by a gang of female midgets at an awards show…….
9. A homeless man will find a bag full of money, turn his life around, become CEO of a Fortune 500 company, and then write a book……….
8. George W. Bush will die from cocaine overdose………………….
7. There will be a big scandal consisting of Tiger Woods, Ne-Yo, baby oil, and TMZ
6. The Lakers will repeat as NBA champions
And there they are 5 of my ten predictions for 2010………tomorrow, I will bring you the final 5……..the only one I missed last year was Rick Ross having a baby….but I still think that’s gonna happen……..call it a hunch………I may even have my ten new year resolutions tomorrow…yeah, I have a lot of fixing up to do………
Well today we don’t have a quote….more like a rhetorical question…..so now….Rika’s Quote of the Day……………………
“There is so much comedy on television does that cause comedy in the streets?
This is not really a quote, but a response to the fact that every time someone gets shot or beat up the media blames it on rap music and television… is that really fair??”
That’s directly from her…….what do you think??..........think about it……they blame black violence on movies and music….but the don’t blame crazy wives on snapped……or serial killers on Criminal Minds……….why would they point the finger only in isolated events……I like this thought………..
Also, don’t forget to sign up for my blog at www.spaceshipohayses.blogspot.com …….and you can preview the website at www.WeAreEssentialEnt.com ………….
Shout outs to the greatest DJ in the land DJ lady Ja-Roq……..she will be bringing in the New Years at Rolls Royce tomorrow……if you have never been to Kitty/ Ja-Roq New Years bash, you are missing out!!!!...come on down and get drunk………
Love yall!!!
Church!!!!
This is probably going to take me a long time to write this edition……..its still early at work (3:46p cst) and I haven’t even went to lunch……..but I needed to start writing….it is truly becoming the only positive way for me to vent…….especially because I don’t need advice a lot……..sometimes we vent to people and expect the to give us a golden answer……..even when people vent to me, I don’t know what to say all the time……what’s makes the words I say so valid?.......so I just listen…or don’t answer when I can………
So I finally got my performance review for my boss…..kind of bittersweet…but I don’t have to get my box ready…….I was one of the best at my job but not the best…and that sucks……because I am such a competitive person….but looking in the mirror, I know why…these last two months have been really hard for me and I have missed more than my fair share of days…….once again though, 2010 is a-coming and I will have to recapture that focus and make sure I stay on point…….
I just thought about it…….I don’t remember what I did for New Year’s last year………I think I went to church…….hmmmmm…research……
Is it just me or does it seems like reality TV stars have the lowest self-esteem??..........or are they simply taking advantage of a market created by nosey people??..........
Okay….ill be back…going to lunch now………
Just got an email about free pizza for lunch tomorrow!!!! WHOO-HOO!!!!!................
Im back…..it’s amazing that the most natural things can make you feel better……….
Had an idea on lunch and I need your feedback……..If I held a Valentine’s Day raffle and the grand prize was a dinner for two at the Cheesecake Factory and a free (conditional) hair do/haircut……..would you take a chance on that??.........the raffle I held for the school supplies was a success….and I think we made a lot of people happy…..so I want to bring some joy to others………give me your feedback……….
My home girl that is putting my website up just called….AND THE FRONT PAGE IS DONE!!!!.......I know it’s not much, but it put a smile on my face……..and that’s what I needed right about now……..
2010 is going to be a year of major moves……im excited about moving into the New Year…when I look back on 2009, I have done so much to improve my life……I will probably go into detail tomorrow…..im thinking that could be a whole blog in itself……….
But I do want to get to my predictions for 2010……now I have thought about these hard…..well some of them…and others were visions……I gotta a lil Cleo in me……..but they are all sincere……today I will give you 5….tomorrow(hopefully), the other 5…….why is my cable still off??........not a happy camper right now…thought I had the money and then they said I had to pay the NSF fee………its my fault though….that’s why I don’t usually pay with checks…………..
10. Chris Brown will get beat up by a gang of female midgets at an awards show…….
9. A homeless man will find a bag full of money, turn his life around, become CEO of a Fortune 500 company, and then write a book……….
8. George W. Bush will die from cocaine overdose………………….
7. There will be a big scandal consisting of Tiger Woods, Ne-Yo, baby oil, and TMZ
6. The Lakers will repeat as NBA champions
And there they are 5 of my ten predictions for 2010………tomorrow, I will bring you the final 5……..the only one I missed last year was Rick Ross having a baby….but I still think that’s gonna happen……..call it a hunch………I may even have my ten new year resolutions tomorrow…yeah, I have a lot of fixing up to do………
Well today we don’t have a quote….more like a rhetorical question…..so now….Rika’s Quote of the Day……………………
“There is so much comedy on television does that cause comedy in the streets?
This is not really a quote, but a response to the fact that every time someone gets shot or beat up the media blames it on rap music and television… is that really fair??”
That’s directly from her…….what do you think??..........think about it……they blame black violence on movies and music….but the don’t blame crazy wives on snapped……or serial killers on Criminal Minds……….why would they point the finger only in isolated events……I like this thought………..
Also, don’t forget to sign up for my blog at www.spaceshipohayses.blogspot.com …….and you can preview the website at www.WeAreEssentialEnt.com ………….
Shout outs to the greatest DJ in the land DJ lady Ja-Roq……..she will be bringing in the New Years at Rolls Royce tomorrow……if you have never been to Kitty/ Ja-Roq New Years bash, you are missing out!!!!...come on down and get drunk………
Love yall!!!
Church!!!!
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
$3.24-MONEY IN THE BANK BABY!!
So I sneak home to go get my charger for my phone…..AND MY FREAKIN’ CABLE IS OFF!!!!...........a check bounced…so not excited about that……..need to check my bank account and get that fixed……ASAP!!....how are you all doing today??....im good besides my dilemma………trying to get over this cough…..and enjoying the snow……..yep, you heard me right…it is snowing again in Dallas…….but its not that cold…and I don’t think its going to stick…….but then again, this is Texas and anything is bound to happen……….
TONIGHT IT’S GOING DOWN AT MURPHYS!!........(if its not snowing and icy)…….9410 WALNUT STREET ACROSS FROM RICHLAND COLLEGE…DOORS OPEN AT 9….SHOW STARTS AT TEN……….THIS IS ROUND TWO OF THE $250 SHOWCASE!!!......NOW IT IS IMPORTANT THAT ALL OF YOU BRING YOUR FANS??.....DO YOU HAVE FANS???...PROVE IT AND COME ROCK OOUT WITH DJ LADY JA-ROQ…..THE ONLY DJ IN DALLAS THAT WILL BREAK YOUR MUSIC ON THE SPOT!!!!!..........
Who doesn’t ear hustle??.......you know the comment I made yesterday about the woman with 8 kids wanting to settle down??....well today I was at Popeye’s….you know its 99 cent Tuesday……..and a woman with 5 kids was talking about wanting to settle down…..LMAO!!.....what a coincidence………what do you all think??.........is it possible??......
Now my homegirl Kia D of KEBN Radio……..go online and check her out after you read this……….loved that topic…and she wants more for her radio show…….so send me some topics with a human feel…rather from experience or seeing it…….become a part of her show…..just email me back some show topics that you would liked to be discussed…….things that are on your mind….that’s what makes her show great…..it doesn’t deal with things we cant relate to……but there is always room for growth……..and her growth is through each and everyone of you…….so c’mon, let me hear those ideas!!!!!..........
Tomorrow, I plan on writing my top 10 predictions for 2010……..stay tuned…….
THIS SATURDAY, SPACESHIP OHAYSES WILL BE HOSTING THE EXTREMEM HUNNIES 2010 CALENDAR RELEASE PARTY AT CLUB 2026/ULTRA LOUNGE……COST IS $5 ALL NIGHT…..FREE BUFFET…..AND SOME OF THE HOTTEST MODELS IN THE DFW………..ADDRESS IS 2026 COMMERCE STREET IN DALLAS 75201………..ITS A SATURDAY, YOU HAVE NOTHING ELSE TO DO……COME PARTY WIT YA BOY SPACESHIP OHAYSES AND THE EXTREME HUNNIES…….
Also……the website will be coming soon……look out for more information in the coming weeks……..
Im getting excited about the new year……one of my good friends texted me and said we are gonna win in 2010……I like that saying…sounds a little presidential, but hey…you are what you say you are……so I will be presidential in 2010…Obama better watch out!!!!!......I always thought I was going to run for president one day…….
How difficult is change?........im not talking about moving or getting a new job....I mean your person……changing the things you once were known by…the hardest part about it is not inside you…but others….doubting your change is sincere….wanting you to go back to where you have grown from….im fighting that right now…..and its difficult…..not because I doubt my change but because I don’t like having to cut folks off…..but if they are not benefitting your growth, what is their purpose anyway???......watch who doubts you…their intentions are not good……some people like to see others fail…….that’s their success story……..
And now today’s installment of Rika’s Quote of the Day……………
“If your aim in life is nothing, you can’t miss (and you can’t win)”
No goals?.....no problem….you are on the right track………don’t get discourage about nothing going your way….you ordained it with your thinking….shoot high and reach for the stars…you will be surprise how close you get if you don’t reach it…we don’t know our limits until we surpass them…its like a tank of gas………
Major shout outs are in order for my girl Quita….you just don’t know how much this means to me….you were definitely put in my life by the grace of God……Spaceship’s having a great day!!!
Love yall!!!!
Church!!!!
TONIGHT IT’S GOING DOWN AT MURPHYS!!........(if its not snowing and icy)…….9410 WALNUT STREET ACROSS FROM RICHLAND COLLEGE…DOORS OPEN AT 9….SHOW STARTS AT TEN……….THIS IS ROUND TWO OF THE $250 SHOWCASE!!!......NOW IT IS IMPORTANT THAT ALL OF YOU BRING YOUR FANS??.....DO YOU HAVE FANS???...PROVE IT AND COME ROCK OOUT WITH DJ LADY JA-ROQ…..THE ONLY DJ IN DALLAS THAT WILL BREAK YOUR MUSIC ON THE SPOT!!!!!..........
Who doesn’t ear hustle??.......you know the comment I made yesterday about the woman with 8 kids wanting to settle down??....well today I was at Popeye’s….you know its 99 cent Tuesday……..and a woman with 5 kids was talking about wanting to settle down…..LMAO!!.....what a coincidence………what do you all think??.........is it possible??......
Now my homegirl Kia D of KEBN Radio……..go online and check her out after you read this……….loved that topic…and she wants more for her radio show…….so send me some topics with a human feel…rather from experience or seeing it…….become a part of her show…..just email me back some show topics that you would liked to be discussed…….things that are on your mind….that’s what makes her show great…..it doesn’t deal with things we cant relate to……but there is always room for growth……..and her growth is through each and everyone of you…….so c’mon, let me hear those ideas!!!!!..........
Tomorrow, I plan on writing my top 10 predictions for 2010……..stay tuned…….
THIS SATURDAY, SPACESHIP OHAYSES WILL BE HOSTING THE EXTREMEM HUNNIES 2010 CALENDAR RELEASE PARTY AT CLUB 2026/ULTRA LOUNGE……COST IS $5 ALL NIGHT…..FREE BUFFET…..AND SOME OF THE HOTTEST MODELS IN THE DFW………..ADDRESS IS 2026 COMMERCE STREET IN DALLAS 75201………..ITS A SATURDAY, YOU HAVE NOTHING ELSE TO DO……COME PARTY WIT YA BOY SPACESHIP OHAYSES AND THE EXTREME HUNNIES…….
Also……the website will be coming soon……look out for more information in the coming weeks……..
Im getting excited about the new year……one of my good friends texted me and said we are gonna win in 2010……I like that saying…sounds a little presidential, but hey…you are what you say you are……so I will be presidential in 2010…Obama better watch out!!!!!......I always thought I was going to run for president one day…….
How difficult is change?........im not talking about moving or getting a new job....I mean your person……changing the things you once were known by…the hardest part about it is not inside you…but others….doubting your change is sincere….wanting you to go back to where you have grown from….im fighting that right now…..and its difficult…..not because I doubt my change but because I don’t like having to cut folks off…..but if they are not benefitting your growth, what is their purpose anyway???......watch who doubts you…their intentions are not good……some people like to see others fail…….that’s their success story……..
And now today’s installment of Rika’s Quote of the Day……………
“If your aim in life is nothing, you can’t miss (and you can’t win)”
No goals?.....no problem….you are on the right track………don’t get discourage about nothing going your way….you ordained it with your thinking….shoot high and reach for the stars…you will be surprise how close you get if you don’t reach it…we don’t know our limits until we surpass them…its like a tank of gas………
Major shout outs are in order for my girl Quita….you just don’t know how much this means to me….you were definitely put in my life by the grace of God……Spaceship’s having a great day!!!
Love yall!!!!
Church!!!!
Monday, December 28, 2009
MONOPOLY WITH REAL MONEY
Can a woman with 8 kids be ready to settle down??............
Good afternoon humans…….its amazing what a weekend full of irregular sleep can do to you…….how did you guys maintain this holiday weekend?......one down, one to go!!!..........and then it’s a whole new year!!...already??!!........I hope Santa brought you all everything your hearts wanted…and for those that got coals…shame on you!!!!......my Christmas was pretty cool…spent time with my family……meaning those down here that are close to me…and they would not let me sit and be sad…and at the end of the day, it was so appreciated…….it would have been so easy to sit at home and feel down….I didn’t even cook…….but it was such a beautiful thing…even when I got out the house , I wanted to sulk…my sprit and theirs would not allow it…it may not have showed on my face, but I am truly grateful for a wonderful Christmas………..
And I was so full!!!!!.........food was good…I had some yams that tasted like sweet potato pie…what’s that you say??....they are supposed to taste like that??.......anyways………..
Thinking about doing my Annual Prediction for 2010 in an upcoming blog…….if you have never read them, you might want to check the myspace…..or my inner thoughts……..I am going to predict 10 things that are going to happen next year………and you will be amazed by how my mind works…if you are not already!!........
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE….DO NOT FORGET ABOUT DJ LADY JA-ROQ’S OPEN MIC SHOWCASE TOMORROW NIGHT AT MURPHYS!!!!........DOORS OPEN AT 9, SHOW STARTS AT TEN…….$3.50 WELLS ALL NIGHT LONG!!!.......THIS IS THE HOTTEST OPEN MIC IN DALLAS…….AND JUST THINK, YOU COME OUT AND HAVE THE CHANCE FOR $250!!!!!!........YOU WASTING YOUR TIME AT OTHER CLUBS……….WE ARE THE D!!!!!!...........
So I have been having this funny feeling I will not be at my job long…..you can say its me…….I still aint feeling this getting up in the morning thing……..plus I’m ready to move unto what God has in store for me……..and sometimes, you have to leap upon that faith…….you can wait until the situation is right for you……a situation will never be right…there is always something missing….what’s missing could be my commitment……I know its going to be hard,……..but life’s hard…that’s what makes it fun………..
For the record: conversate is not a word!!!!!!.........geez!!!!!.............
How bogus is Dallas?......hot weather all last week and then what does it do Christmas Eve??....snow!!!!....good snowstorm too……but that’s not fair…they should get snow for a whole month and see how they can deal with it………but I learned something………snow plus non insured drivers minus salt trucks equal empty highways!!!!!......and no, sand does not work as well as salt….morons………….
Somebody tried to blow up Detroit?!!......for real…..a terrorist……two of em I actually heard……..I guess everybody wasn’t cool with General Motors shutting down!!!......what was blowing up the D going to do?......send a wake up call to South Central??....Cleveland?........im just saying……..
Without further ado……..Rika’s Quote of the Day………………
“Defeat is not defeat unless it is accepted as a reality in your own mind”
That is so true……..you can’t lose unless you think you think you have already lost……stay focus on the task……don’t sound defeated…..don’t allow your spirit to take in negative energy………..
Shout outs are in order my girl Blaq Stallion……she is one of the hottest MCs in Dallas and if you are very around where she is, she is the coolest…..make sure you ask the DJs if they got that Blaq Stallion!!!!!!.................
Good afternoon humans…….its amazing what a weekend full of irregular sleep can do to you…….how did you guys maintain this holiday weekend?......one down, one to go!!!..........and then it’s a whole new year!!...already??!!........I hope Santa brought you all everything your hearts wanted…and for those that got coals…shame on you!!!!......my Christmas was pretty cool…spent time with my family……meaning those down here that are close to me…and they would not let me sit and be sad…and at the end of the day, it was so appreciated…….it would have been so easy to sit at home and feel down….I didn’t even cook…….but it was such a beautiful thing…even when I got out the house , I wanted to sulk…my sprit and theirs would not allow it…it may not have showed on my face, but I am truly grateful for a wonderful Christmas………..
And I was so full!!!!!.........food was good…I had some yams that tasted like sweet potato pie…what’s that you say??....they are supposed to taste like that??.......anyways………..
Thinking about doing my Annual Prediction for 2010 in an upcoming blog…….if you have never read them, you might want to check the myspace…..or my inner thoughts……..I am going to predict 10 things that are going to happen next year………and you will be amazed by how my mind works…if you are not already!!........
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE….DO NOT FORGET ABOUT DJ LADY JA-ROQ’S OPEN MIC SHOWCASE TOMORROW NIGHT AT MURPHYS!!!!........DOORS OPEN AT 9, SHOW STARTS AT TEN…….$3.50 WELLS ALL NIGHT LONG!!!.......THIS IS THE HOTTEST OPEN MIC IN DALLAS…….AND JUST THINK, YOU COME OUT AND HAVE THE CHANCE FOR $250!!!!!!........YOU WASTING YOUR TIME AT OTHER CLUBS……….WE ARE THE D!!!!!!...........
So I have been having this funny feeling I will not be at my job long…..you can say its me…….I still aint feeling this getting up in the morning thing……..plus I’m ready to move unto what God has in store for me……..and sometimes, you have to leap upon that faith…….you can wait until the situation is right for you……a situation will never be right…there is always something missing….what’s missing could be my commitment……I know its going to be hard,……..but life’s hard…that’s what makes it fun………..
For the record: conversate is not a word!!!!!!.........geez!!!!!.............
How bogus is Dallas?......hot weather all last week and then what does it do Christmas Eve??....snow!!!!....good snowstorm too……but that’s not fair…they should get snow for a whole month and see how they can deal with it………but I learned something………snow plus non insured drivers minus salt trucks equal empty highways!!!!!......and no, sand does not work as well as salt….morons………….
Somebody tried to blow up Detroit?!!......for real…..a terrorist……two of em I actually heard……..I guess everybody wasn’t cool with General Motors shutting down!!!......what was blowing up the D going to do?......send a wake up call to South Central??....Cleveland?........im just saying……..
Without further ado……..Rika’s Quote of the Day………………
“Defeat is not defeat unless it is accepted as a reality in your own mind”
That is so true……..you can’t lose unless you think you think you have already lost……stay focus on the task……don’t sound defeated…..don’t allow your spirit to take in negative energy………..
Shout outs are in order my girl Blaq Stallion……she is one of the hottest MCs in Dallas and if you are very around where she is, she is the coolest…..make sure you ask the DJs if they got that Blaq Stallion!!!!!!.................
Thursday, December 24, 2009
PRICE CHECK ON HAPPINESS, AISLE 5
I know its kinda early…….but I knew I couldn’t guarantee a blog later on….im trying to get out of here as soon as possible…..so I wanted to go ahead and say hello to you all and extend Christmas greetings…….I actually had started writing earlier but my computer crashed and I had to re boot it……needless to say, I lost all that I had wrote so this is my futile attempt to remember everything I previously said…..even though I know its not going to work……..
Speaking of work…why am I here again??.....been calling companies since 7 and guess what?.......no one has answered the phone yet…..and more than likely won’t…..especially this afternoon………and then they wonder about productive cost…how productive can Christmas Eve really be for a collection agency??!!...........
So im sitting here bored and I look at my grandmother’s program…….and I got sad…again…..I don’t think having this on my desk was a smart idea…….the feeling now is still surreal…….realizing my grandmother is never going to call me or answer my phone again is a tough pill to swallow………
As many of you know, I am not a holiday person……but this year, I am not only buying my daughter things for X-mas, but I am also attempting to wrap gifts to put under the tree……for those that know my slogan about my music…..(I’m not a rapper….rappers are only useful for candy bars and Christmas time)……..I wish I was a wrapper……I tried…..unsuccessfully to wrap Jayla’s gifts last night but to no avail….
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I just received an email requesting volunteers for homeless shelters this holiday season……if you know any groups, clubs, family members, or organizations that would like to serve holiday meals in the DFW area, please contact or have them contact Misty Farr at 817-535-6462, extension 112 or mfarr@safhaventc.org.........
From the “Does he realize what he is doing?” files……..this guy up here….name is Eric….has been harassing women and I think he feels he is untouchable……he’s the type if you tell him to chill out, he thinks you are hating…….so….I will let him be……but I have a sneaky suspicion he is on box watch…and he don’t even know it!!..........
So I wake up today and it’s actually cold…on top of that, I hear we are supposed to get snow……LOL!!........that is going to be a sight to see….snow down here is like 1/16 of an inch……..and even when you get that much, you have to watch out……..folks here cant drive if the roads aren’t clear…like I always say……its not about how well you can drive; make sure you watch out for others……
Well guess what?.....I have a quote for the day……yeah Rika finally decided to care about me again….so without further ado, I present to you…..Rika’s Quote of the Day………
“Every job is a self-portrait of the person who did it….Autograph your work with excellence”
If you want people to know more about you, show them your work…or accomplishments……there is no denying that your work is a representation of you life and state of mind……ever see someone do a horrible job at something?......do you think they are taking it seriously??......im just saying……..
Well im gone……about to go into a Christmas meeting……I want to extend a very Merry Christmas to my Mama C…love you with all my heart!!!.....it is because of people like you that my drive to greatness will never be deterred……..
Love yall!!!
Church!!!
Speaking of work…why am I here again??.....been calling companies since 7 and guess what?.......no one has answered the phone yet…..and more than likely won’t…..especially this afternoon………and then they wonder about productive cost…how productive can Christmas Eve really be for a collection agency??!!...........
So im sitting here bored and I look at my grandmother’s program…….and I got sad…again…..I don’t think having this on my desk was a smart idea…….the feeling now is still surreal…….realizing my grandmother is never going to call me or answer my phone again is a tough pill to swallow………
As many of you know, I am not a holiday person……but this year, I am not only buying my daughter things for X-mas, but I am also attempting to wrap gifts to put under the tree……for those that know my slogan about my music…..(I’m not a rapper….rappers are only useful for candy bars and Christmas time)……..I wish I was a wrapper……I tried…..unsuccessfully to wrap Jayla’s gifts last night but to no avail….
****SPECIAL REPORT*******SPECIAL REPORT*******SPECIAL REPORT*******
I just received an email requesting volunteers for homeless shelters this holiday season……if you know any groups, clubs, family members, or organizations that would like to serve holiday meals in the DFW area, please contact or have them contact Misty Farr at 817-535-6462, extension 112 or mfarr@safhaventc.org.........
From the “Does he realize what he is doing?” files……..this guy up here….name is Eric….has been harassing women and I think he feels he is untouchable……he’s the type if you tell him to chill out, he thinks you are hating…….so….I will let him be……but I have a sneaky suspicion he is on box watch…and he don’t even know it!!..........
So I wake up today and it’s actually cold…on top of that, I hear we are supposed to get snow……LOL!!........that is going to be a sight to see….snow down here is like 1/16 of an inch……..and even when you get that much, you have to watch out……..folks here cant drive if the roads aren’t clear…like I always say……its not about how well you can drive; make sure you watch out for others……
Well guess what?.....I have a quote for the day……yeah Rika finally decided to care about me again….so without further ado, I present to you…..Rika’s Quote of the Day………
“Every job is a self-portrait of the person who did it….Autograph your work with excellence”
If you want people to know more about you, show them your work…or accomplishments……there is no denying that your work is a representation of you life and state of mind……ever see someone do a horrible job at something?......do you think they are taking it seriously??......im just saying……..
Well im gone……about to go into a Christmas meeting……I want to extend a very Merry Christmas to my Mama C…love you with all my heart!!!.....it is because of people like you that my drive to greatness will never be deterred……..
Love yall!!!
Church!!!
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
EGGS AND FISH(TELL THE DJ)
Do me a favor……go sign in and become a follower at www.spaceshipohayses.blogspot.com ………….make sure you do that today…..how is everyone doing today??...myself, coming down with another cold……it’s my throat…gotta stop going outside after my shows sweaty…easier said then done though……only 2 more days until Christmas, can you believe it??.........is it me or does it truly not feel like a major holiday is approaching??.......more importantly, 2010 is about two weeks away as well……2010?!!!.........wow!!!
I don’t know about you but last night, I had an awesome time!!....the energy in there was lacking a little but eventually, it got picked up and we had some outstanding acts……the thing that keeps me going is the amount of new acts that come out……they don’t know what we have to offer at Murphy’s and don’t know what to expect…but they definitely bring their “A” game….and it makes our regulars step their game up…there is no complacency at Murphy’s and soon, everyone will know the truth about the hottest open mic in Dallas………
So as most of you know, due to this being written so late in the day, im still at work…….and one of my co-workers just asked to see the program from my grandmother’s funeral……..and hen she gave it back….IT HIT ME…….my grandmother is no longer here…..no tears yet, but my stomach hurts now…….and knowing that this woman that I looked at as invincible and immortal is now gone from this Earth absolutely sucks……and its going to be crazy not hearing from her on a holiday…….the same as it was not hearing my grandfather whistling after his passing……..
RED EYE DISTRICT PRESENTS PIMPEN’S BIRTHDAY BASY THIS SATURDAY AT THE GREEN ELEPHANT………GET AT ME FOR MORE DETAILS….HOSTED BY SPACESHIP OHAYSES!!!!....IT’S THE HOLIDAY; YOU HAVE NOTHING ELSE TO DO!!!.........
You know I went to Marshall’s today on my lunch to buy Jayla a few more things for Christmas……now I’m not old but I’m not a teenager either……..it bothered me today how many “older” people were so rude….and not just to me……to anybody that was younger than them…….I saw them snatching items, cutting lines, stealing parking spaces…..it was very eye opening………and a very hard thing to swallow…….
So my boss tells me tomorrow I have my performance review…..the day before Christmas……I’m not nervous though…..I am actually proud of myself……been here for about 20 months as well as been pushing this music and neither one has been affected……that much….yeah I have had a few rough patches but for the most part I have able to maintain a high work ethic (for me) as well as continue to progress in my entertainment career……..
And why do we have to come to work tomorrow anyway??.......it’s Christmas Eve for Christ sake…get it? Christ?!...LMAO!!!.......no one is trying to pay a bill tomorrow…..people are doing their last minute shopping and if I was seeing a 1-800 number come across my cell phone, I know I would ignore it…….but we have to be here….and I have to work Saturday…..so you know how much excitement is on my face……
Well, I am about to go……im still attempting to work so it took a little longer to write this today…….
I have a question for you all since I don’t have a quote tonight…..
What’s worse: being loved by someone you don’t love or loving someone that doesn’t love you………
And I am talking to the people with a conscience on this one
Shouts out to my girl Skye…you may not know this but you have been my motivation at work lately…I appreciate your drive for greatness….its infectious……
Love yall!!!
Church!!!!!
I don’t know about you but last night, I had an awesome time!!....the energy in there was lacking a little but eventually, it got picked up and we had some outstanding acts……the thing that keeps me going is the amount of new acts that come out……they don’t know what we have to offer at Murphy’s and don’t know what to expect…but they definitely bring their “A” game….and it makes our regulars step their game up…there is no complacency at Murphy’s and soon, everyone will know the truth about the hottest open mic in Dallas………
So as most of you know, due to this being written so late in the day, im still at work…….and one of my co-workers just asked to see the program from my grandmother’s funeral……..and hen she gave it back….IT HIT ME…….my grandmother is no longer here…..no tears yet, but my stomach hurts now…….and knowing that this woman that I looked at as invincible and immortal is now gone from this Earth absolutely sucks……and its going to be crazy not hearing from her on a holiday…….the same as it was not hearing my grandfather whistling after his passing……..
RED EYE DISTRICT PRESENTS PIMPEN’S BIRTHDAY BASY THIS SATURDAY AT THE GREEN ELEPHANT………GET AT ME FOR MORE DETAILS….HOSTED BY SPACESHIP OHAYSES!!!!....IT’S THE HOLIDAY; YOU HAVE NOTHING ELSE TO DO!!!.........
You know I went to Marshall’s today on my lunch to buy Jayla a few more things for Christmas……now I’m not old but I’m not a teenager either……..it bothered me today how many “older” people were so rude….and not just to me……to anybody that was younger than them…….I saw them snatching items, cutting lines, stealing parking spaces…..it was very eye opening………and a very hard thing to swallow…….
So my boss tells me tomorrow I have my performance review…..the day before Christmas……I’m not nervous though…..I am actually proud of myself……been here for about 20 months as well as been pushing this music and neither one has been affected……that much….yeah I have had a few rough patches but for the most part I have able to maintain a high work ethic (for me) as well as continue to progress in my entertainment career……..
And why do we have to come to work tomorrow anyway??.......it’s Christmas Eve for Christ sake…get it? Christ?!...LMAO!!!.......no one is trying to pay a bill tomorrow…..people are doing their last minute shopping and if I was seeing a 1-800 number come across my cell phone, I know I would ignore it…….but we have to be here….and I have to work Saturday…..so you know how much excitement is on my face……
Well, I am about to go……im still attempting to work so it took a little longer to write this today…….
I have a question for you all since I don’t have a quote tonight…..
What’s worse: being loved by someone you don’t love or loving someone that doesn’t love you………
And I am talking to the people with a conscience on this one
Shouts out to my girl Skye…you may not know this but you have been my motivation at work lately…I appreciate your drive for greatness….its infectious……
Love yall!!!
Church!!!!!
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
PUT A HUMP IN YA BACK!!!
And so I have returned….how are you all today??......I am so tired…….and if you think good advice would be for me to go home and get some rest…THINK AGAIN!!!!.........
TONIGHT LADIES AND GENTLEMAN IT GOES DOW AT MURPHY’S PLACE….ITS DJ LADY JA-ROQ’S OPEN MIC SHOWCASE……..THE FIGHT FOR $250 CONTINUES!!!...DO YOU HAVE WHAT IT TAKES??....BECAUSE WE ALL NEED THE MON-AY!!!!.........DOORS OPEN AT 9…SHOW STARTS AT 10….9410 WALNUT STREET IN NORTH DALLAS ACROSS FROM RICHLAND COLLEGE……..KITTY HOLDING IT DOWN….JA-ROQ ON THE ONES AND TWOS…AND YA BOI, SPACESHIP OHAYSES ON THE M.I.C……..THERE IS NOTHING BETTER OR GOING STRONGER IN THE DFW!!!...........GO AHEAD TRY TO FIND IT!!!...........
I’m kinda excited about tonight….especially with the fact that I missed last week due to my grandmother’s funeral……..so I hope to see you all there……
I want to thank everyone that wrote me back yesterday……I didn’t write about quitting because I wanted attention….its something that I really thought about…….but knowing that you guys are truly supporting me makes me feel really mushy on the inside……
And for you all that don’t support the movement…I KNOW YOU DON’T…….I have come to the realization that you don’t….and its cool……
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Why this older lady….probably about 50 or 60……that sits behind me singing Poison by BBD?.....I don’t know how to feel about that!!!
I am learning not to expect you to…..hating is a habit….something like an addiction……some people are born and raised around it and it becomes their character……others learn from their ancestor’s mistakes……..but I say this in return…..don’t get upset when I give you no respect……..because that is what you deserve….and that smile in my face person??…I wouldn’t do that if I was you!!!.........
I was supposed to perform at an album release party in Natchez Mississippi this Saturday……..come to find out, as of last night, it has been cancelled…..”for reasons beyond our control” they say……typically that means somebody went to jail……..
From the he’s sensitive dept……….kinda perturbed that no one on my “team” at work has said anything about my grandmother’s passing….I know I shouldn’t care…and I don’t to a certain extent……….but I will hold a grudge……..I don’t like people to converse with me when its convenient for them…just not the cloth I am cut from!!!........
And from the Watch ya mouth dept…..last night I was at the Lounge on Elm Street……had a horrible headache and was ready to go home………I wasn’t talking to positive to someone and the next thing I know, first I dropped my phone in some water…….then I got hit on wit some bird poo…….see….sometimes you have to leave well enough alone……..
Does anyone really know how much gas they have in their vehicle before they run out……I know I don’t!!!.........
Well catch me tonight at Murphy’s and I will keep you posted on any upcoming events we have brewing……..
If you have anybody that needs to be prayed for, send me their name…..if we come in agreement, the wonders of God will be magnified…….you don’t have to tell me who they are in relation to you or for what….but I have to continue to give glory to God and if he blesses me, he will bless them as well…………
Shout out to my man Marc Cowley…..love you big bro!!......fat boy!!!!........once again…pot meet kettle!!!........
Love yall!!!
Church!!!
TONIGHT LADIES AND GENTLEMAN IT GOES DOW AT MURPHY’S PLACE….ITS DJ LADY JA-ROQ’S OPEN MIC SHOWCASE……..THE FIGHT FOR $250 CONTINUES!!!...DO YOU HAVE WHAT IT TAKES??....BECAUSE WE ALL NEED THE MON-AY!!!!.........DOORS OPEN AT 9…SHOW STARTS AT 10….9410 WALNUT STREET IN NORTH DALLAS ACROSS FROM RICHLAND COLLEGE……..KITTY HOLDING IT DOWN….JA-ROQ ON THE ONES AND TWOS…AND YA BOI, SPACESHIP OHAYSES ON THE M.I.C……..THERE IS NOTHING BETTER OR GOING STRONGER IN THE DFW!!!...........GO AHEAD TRY TO FIND IT!!!...........
I’m kinda excited about tonight….especially with the fact that I missed last week due to my grandmother’s funeral……..so I hope to see you all there……
I want to thank everyone that wrote me back yesterday……I didn’t write about quitting because I wanted attention….its something that I really thought about…….but knowing that you guys are truly supporting me makes me feel really mushy on the inside……
And for you all that don’t support the movement…I KNOW YOU DON’T…….I have come to the realization that you don’t….and its cool……
****SPECIAL REPORT*****SPECIAL REPORT*****SPECIAL REPORT******
Why this older lady….probably about 50 or 60……that sits behind me singing Poison by BBD?.....I don’t know how to feel about that!!!
I am learning not to expect you to…..hating is a habit….something like an addiction……some people are born and raised around it and it becomes their character……others learn from their ancestor’s mistakes……..but I say this in return…..don’t get upset when I give you no respect……..because that is what you deserve….and that smile in my face person??…I wouldn’t do that if I was you!!!.........
I was supposed to perform at an album release party in Natchez Mississippi this Saturday……..come to find out, as of last night, it has been cancelled…..”for reasons beyond our control” they say……typically that means somebody went to jail……..
From the he’s sensitive dept……….kinda perturbed that no one on my “team” at work has said anything about my grandmother’s passing….I know I shouldn’t care…and I don’t to a certain extent……….but I will hold a grudge……..I don’t like people to converse with me when its convenient for them…just not the cloth I am cut from!!!........
And from the Watch ya mouth dept…..last night I was at the Lounge on Elm Street……had a horrible headache and was ready to go home………I wasn’t talking to positive to someone and the next thing I know, first I dropped my phone in some water…….then I got hit on wit some bird poo…….see….sometimes you have to leave well enough alone……..
Does anyone really know how much gas they have in their vehicle before they run out……I know I don’t!!!.........
Well catch me tonight at Murphy’s and I will keep you posted on any upcoming events we have brewing……..
If you have anybody that needs to be prayed for, send me their name…..if we come in agreement, the wonders of God will be magnified…….you don’t have to tell me who they are in relation to you or for what….but I have to continue to give glory to God and if he blesses me, he will bless them as well…………
Shout out to my man Marc Cowley…..love you big bro!!......fat boy!!!!........once again…pot meet kettle!!!........
Love yall!!!
Church!!!
Monday, December 21, 2009
ONE BABY, TWO BABY MOMMAS.....WTF?
My first day back on the job…and I didn’t forget all my passwords!!...and to a certain extent, im kinda happy to be back……how are you all doing today?.....im feeling pretty darn good…..and I got to work on time!!!..........now that I have experienced a reality check, its time to get back to work…….how will I do that?...I have no clue, but I do know God will assist me as always………..
I must drink some truth serum…….I was close to not writing anymore……not that I was tired of writing, but sometimes I feel I cant be myself……due to “unstated censorship”……trying to make sure nobody feelings get hurt or not to give out too many of my thoughts…….sometimes, I write just to vent, and when you have to think about how you want to vent, it loses its steam……then I felt like maybe some people aren’t that interested….the funny part is, if I put their name in this, they wouldn’t even know……..but I decided against it….I think that’s why it took so long for me to write again…..I didn’t want to be too boring……or repetitive…or have you all thinking I was becoming depressed….over the last two months, a lot has happened and even for me, a feeling of mortality hit……..
I had someone tell me the other day that I don’t know the meaning of true friendship…..and you know what?.....it didn’t even phase me…check this out……IF YOU ARE MY FRIEND…..NOT AN ASSOCIATE…A FRIEND…DO I TALK TO YOU ALL THE TIME??.......exactly my point……if you are a true friend, there is really no need to converse everyday all day…..but when you need me, I will be there…..now the whole issue is, she gave me some money to get home…….and now I am supposed to feel guilty because there were days I didn’t want to talk to her when she called to “check up one me”……..I texted…..and then she got fly….
*****SPECIAL REPORT******SPECIAL REPORT*****SPECIAL REPORT*****
Spaceship is in negotiations to perform in Atlanta for New Years!!!....more updates as this story develops…………..
Okay im back……so should I feel guilty about it…its really a turn off but I promised I would pay her back…..but I have the worse attitude when you get on my nerves….and I know how to simply cut people off with no regard……….but right now, I don’t want to be forced to talk to someone…..I know, I know, my bad………..
Got back to cooking last night….nothing big…spaghetti, pork chops, and salad…..burnt my garlic bread…….looked like Chris rock in a tunnel…..shipper did not touch that!!......but it felt good to be back in the kitchen and cooking it up…….that is such my release……there is no greater restful place for me than in my kitchen………
YOU GUYS DON’T FORGET ABOUT THE PLACE TO BE TOMORROW NIGHT!!.....WE WILL BE LIVE AT MURPHYS!!!....9410 WALNUT STREET IN NORTH DALLAS!!...DOORS OPEN AT 9, SHOW STARTS AT 10…..$3.50 WELLS ALL NIGHT!!.......WE ARE STILL GIVING AWAY $250!!!...BRING YOUR “A” GAME AND COME PARTY WITH MS KITTY, DJ LADY JA-ROQ, AND OF COURSE YA BOI, SPACESHIP OHAYSES THE INCREDIBLE!!!.........
Christmas is 4 days away…..wow!! Does it feel like it??.......you know I actually put up a tree in my house….and I have gifts for Jayla……so I need to wrap them up because she is nosey like her momma!!!..........
Well I think…I think…I think I have…….Rika’s Quote of the Day!!!..........
“Even on the road to hell, flowers can make you smile.”
Huh?............oh yeah…….don’t get confused….all because you see roses does not mean you are on a clear path……sometimes you have to ask for directions and make sure you are on the right course…….
Big shouts to my girl Destiny…yes I am back!!!!.......and Bianca….excellent job Saturday……yall are so awesooome!!!!...........oh yeah, happy birthday Janelle…I called you last night!!!!!!
Love yall!!!
Church!!!!
I must drink some truth serum…….I was close to not writing anymore……not that I was tired of writing, but sometimes I feel I cant be myself……due to “unstated censorship”……trying to make sure nobody feelings get hurt or not to give out too many of my thoughts…….sometimes, I write just to vent, and when you have to think about how you want to vent, it loses its steam……then I felt like maybe some people aren’t that interested….the funny part is, if I put their name in this, they wouldn’t even know……..but I decided against it….I think that’s why it took so long for me to write again…..I didn’t want to be too boring……or repetitive…or have you all thinking I was becoming depressed….over the last two months, a lot has happened and even for me, a feeling of mortality hit……..
I had someone tell me the other day that I don’t know the meaning of true friendship…..and you know what?.....it didn’t even phase me…check this out……IF YOU ARE MY FRIEND…..NOT AN ASSOCIATE…A FRIEND…DO I TALK TO YOU ALL THE TIME??.......exactly my point……if you are a true friend, there is really no need to converse everyday all day…..but when you need me, I will be there…..now the whole issue is, she gave me some money to get home…….and now I am supposed to feel guilty because there were days I didn’t want to talk to her when she called to “check up one me”……..I texted…..and then she got fly….
*****SPECIAL REPORT******SPECIAL REPORT*****SPECIAL REPORT*****
Spaceship is in negotiations to perform in Atlanta for New Years!!!....more updates as this story develops…………..
Okay im back……so should I feel guilty about it…its really a turn off but I promised I would pay her back…..but I have the worse attitude when you get on my nerves….and I know how to simply cut people off with no regard……….but right now, I don’t want to be forced to talk to someone…..I know, I know, my bad………..
Got back to cooking last night….nothing big…spaghetti, pork chops, and salad…..burnt my garlic bread…….looked like Chris rock in a tunnel…..shipper did not touch that!!......but it felt good to be back in the kitchen and cooking it up…….that is such my release……there is no greater restful place for me than in my kitchen………
YOU GUYS DON’T FORGET ABOUT THE PLACE TO BE TOMORROW NIGHT!!.....WE WILL BE LIVE AT MURPHYS!!!....9410 WALNUT STREET IN NORTH DALLAS!!...DOORS OPEN AT 9, SHOW STARTS AT 10…..$3.50 WELLS ALL NIGHT!!.......WE ARE STILL GIVING AWAY $250!!!...BRING YOUR “A” GAME AND COME PARTY WITH MS KITTY, DJ LADY JA-ROQ, AND OF COURSE YA BOI, SPACESHIP OHAYSES THE INCREDIBLE!!!.........
Christmas is 4 days away…..wow!! Does it feel like it??.......you know I actually put up a tree in my house….and I have gifts for Jayla……so I need to wrap them up because she is nosey like her momma!!!..........
Well I think…I think…I think I have…….Rika’s Quote of the Day!!!..........
“Even on the road to hell, flowers can make you smile.”
Huh?............oh yeah…….don’t get confused….all because you see roses does not mean you are on a clear path……sometimes you have to ask for directions and make sure you are on the right course…….
Big shouts to my girl Destiny…yes I am back!!!!.......and Bianca….excellent job Saturday……yall are so awesooome!!!!...........oh yeah, happy birthday Janelle…I called you last night!!!!!!
Love yall!!!
Church!!!!
Sunday, December 20, 2009
BACK TO THE FUTURE
hmmmm......so after much thought, i decided to blog......and i dont know how successful this one will be......got people over here.....but i have missed you all so much....and i thought that i should give you an update on how I am doing as of late.......tomorrow is the beginning of the rest of my life so to speak....how is everyone doing today?.....how have your lives been?............mine has been okay....had a little turbulence but the clouds are gone....sunny days ahead.........
well, its been a week and a day since the funeral.........i still haven't had that breakdown that some people are expecting...yeah, i miss her alot........and i do think about her everyday...........but i haven't had that moment where the tears won't turn off.......i told my Aunt last night that i think it will only hit once i really need to talk to her.......you know...the day when something comes up and i need a honest opinion of something.......
the funeral was crazy...hell, my momma is crazy......she just has to make things about her..........even when she said her remarks, it seemed they only discussed what she did......it was a very awkward situation.....i hate thinking so much....even while i was mourning, i was wondering what the hell she was talking about..........and it was hilarious when the screaming began........all the kids had a bet about who would cry first.....my mom or my Aunt Tootie...........i guess they had it planned out already.......Aunt Tootie did the intro, when we walked in and my mom had the closing of the casket.........
my dad came.....for about 5 minutes....i saw him with his father and I spoke to my grandfather...i didn't want to say anything to him but he kept trying to get in my face......i was talking to one of the women from the church and he came up to me for the last time of the day........
"Excuse me one moment, Sis Smith."
"Hey boy! You looking good!!"
"Why are you here? You havent called me....you told me that you would always stay in contact."
"I lost your number."
"You know my momma number. You know where my grandmother stay. You know where my sister work. You didn't even come to my grandfather's funeral. Matter of fact, you can leave."
And he did.......and i didn't care....aint spoke to him since..and i figured...i didnt want his sympathy...not then.......heard he came over my grandmother's house before i got there.....got some food and never returned.....my mom was kinda mad at me too.......but i didn't care then either.......why does she even talk to him???.....he doesn't care about his only son........but hey.....they are my parents...........
i know yall know but i gotta tell you again.....ITS GOING DOWN THIS TUESDAY AT MURPHYS!!!!!...THE $250 SHOWCASE CONTINUES......9410 WALNUT STREET IN NORTH DALLAS......ACROSS FROM RICHLAND COLLEGE........DOORS OPEN AT 9...SHOW STARTS AT TEN......MAKE SURE YOU ARE THERE.....AND BRING YOUR CROWD..........$3.50 WELLS ALL NIGHT.......THIS IS THE HOTTEST OPEN MIC IN THE DFW...YOU DONT BELIEVE ME??....YO BADD!!!!!!............
had an outstanding time at Rack Daddy's last night.......My girl Alsace really put on an awesome show and I want to thank her for allowing me to host and perform.......if you know anybody that needs a host get at me.....also, any persons interested in a Black History Program also need to get at me...........
JANUARY 2ND, I WILL BE HOSTING THE EXTREME HONEYS OFFICIAL CALENDAR RELEASE PARTY AT CLUB 2026 ULTRA LOUNGE.....STAY TUNED FOR MORE DETAILS........
well, i think i am about to get out of here......for those that dont have the music, here's a sneak peak....its the lead single, "Act A Fool"...........its getting late....i missed yall so much.......ahhhh, i guess the vacation is over.......
love yall!!!!!
Church!!!
well, its been a week and a day since the funeral.........i still haven't had that breakdown that some people are expecting...yeah, i miss her alot........and i do think about her everyday...........but i haven't had that moment where the tears won't turn off.......i told my Aunt last night that i think it will only hit once i really need to talk to her.......you know...the day when something comes up and i need a honest opinion of something.......
the funeral was crazy...hell, my momma is crazy......she just has to make things about her..........even when she said her remarks, it seemed they only discussed what she did......it was a very awkward situation.....i hate thinking so much....even while i was mourning, i was wondering what the hell she was talking about..........and it was hilarious when the screaming began........all the kids had a bet about who would cry first.....my mom or my Aunt Tootie...........i guess they had it planned out already.......Aunt Tootie did the intro, when we walked in and my mom had the closing of the casket.........
my dad came.....for about 5 minutes....i saw him with his father and I spoke to my grandfather...i didn't want to say anything to him but he kept trying to get in my face......i was talking to one of the women from the church and he came up to me for the last time of the day........
"Excuse me one moment, Sis Smith."
"Hey boy! You looking good!!"
"Why are you here? You havent called me....you told me that you would always stay in contact."
"I lost your number."
"You know my momma number. You know where my grandmother stay. You know where my sister work. You didn't even come to my grandfather's funeral. Matter of fact, you can leave."
And he did.......and i didn't care....aint spoke to him since..and i figured...i didnt want his sympathy...not then.......heard he came over my grandmother's house before i got there.....got some food and never returned.....my mom was kinda mad at me too.......but i didn't care then either.......why does she even talk to him???.....he doesn't care about his only son........but hey.....they are my parents...........
i know yall know but i gotta tell you again.....ITS GOING DOWN THIS TUESDAY AT MURPHYS!!!!!...THE $250 SHOWCASE CONTINUES......9410 WALNUT STREET IN NORTH DALLAS......ACROSS FROM RICHLAND COLLEGE........DOORS OPEN AT 9...SHOW STARTS AT TEN......MAKE SURE YOU ARE THERE.....AND BRING YOUR CROWD..........$3.50 WELLS ALL NIGHT.......THIS IS THE HOTTEST OPEN MIC IN THE DFW...YOU DONT BELIEVE ME??....YO BADD!!!!!!............
had an outstanding time at Rack Daddy's last night.......My girl Alsace really put on an awesome show and I want to thank her for allowing me to host and perform.......if you know anybody that needs a host get at me.....also, any persons interested in a Black History Program also need to get at me...........
JANUARY 2ND, I WILL BE HOSTING THE EXTREME HONEYS OFFICIAL CALENDAR RELEASE PARTY AT CLUB 2026 ULTRA LOUNGE.....STAY TUNED FOR MORE DETAILS........
well, i think i am about to get out of here......for those that dont have the music, here's a sneak peak....its the lead single, "Act A Fool"...........its getting late....i missed yall so much.......ahhhh, i guess the vacation is over.......
love yall!!!!!
Church!!!
Thursday, December 10, 2009
READY OR NOT
Guess what??!.....I’m blogging!!...and I’m in Flint!!!.......how are yall doing today?......I still good……….holding up well………still don’t think the events have hit me yet…………I’m at the trap house right now…….watching GI Joe………but they got the internet!!!!!............I hope everyone back in Dallas is doing well…miss yall so much…….but for a moment, Spaceship Ohayses takes a back seat and Hustle Man returns…………
You know its crazy how often I don’t come home………I love it when I do….but its usually for something like this….well at least the last few trips have………but I do get to see my family and friends……and in return, they get to see my maturation……..and we get along……everyone of course except my mother……..I don’t know why she has a problem just blending in…..she wants all the attention on her and if she doesn’t get it, then there is a problem…..I think I figure out what it is….my mom is slow…now I know what yall are thinking but there are slow people in the world…and they are related to somebody……..unfortunately one of those people is my mom……she has something not clicking in there and I don’t know if she will ever get “it”…….she’s about to be fifty………
And my friends up here are awesome….they open their doors for me and treat me as if they miss me….its crazy that I can come home after so many years and still be recognizable………not just by face but by name….because I don’t remember everybody’s name…….I didn’t even remember some of my relatives today at my grandmother’s house………..
It felt really weird going in there and not seeing her sitting at the table or in the kitchen fixing plates……..her telling me to take my shoes off and take out the trash all in the same sentence…..I’m still not sad…..yet…….have a feeling I wont be able to either……momma gonna cause some type of drama….I have to prepare myself………back to grandma……I took some trash out to the garage and put some food in her van….and it hit me that my grandparents are no longer here…….she had so many friends and family that loved her, it did ease the pain today…….and I think our family is going to be okay…….everyone except……….
Well, I love you all…not going to stay on this computer long…..don’t really wanna be here that long……so I just wanted to touch bases and let yall know I’m okay……..if you have my number, you can hit me up because I don’t know when I will be back on a computer……
But I do have a quote………
“Show me the people you hang around, and I’ll show you who you are.”
Yeah….thought you might like that……make sure you go see my man Champ in concert this Friday at TI Blvd and then check out DLP at Kwanzaa Fest…all because I aint there doesn’t here I’m not there……and Tuesday at Murphy’s was CRAZZZZZYYYYYYY!!!!!!..........
Love yall!!!!!
Church!!!!
You know its crazy how often I don’t come home………I love it when I do….but its usually for something like this….well at least the last few trips have………but I do get to see my family and friends……and in return, they get to see my maturation……..and we get along……everyone of course except my mother……..I don’t know why she has a problem just blending in…..she wants all the attention on her and if she doesn’t get it, then there is a problem…..I think I figure out what it is….my mom is slow…now I know what yall are thinking but there are slow people in the world…and they are related to somebody……..unfortunately one of those people is my mom……she has something not clicking in there and I don’t know if she will ever get “it”…….she’s about to be fifty………
And my friends up here are awesome….they open their doors for me and treat me as if they miss me….its crazy that I can come home after so many years and still be recognizable………not just by face but by name….because I don’t remember everybody’s name…….I didn’t even remember some of my relatives today at my grandmother’s house………..
It felt really weird going in there and not seeing her sitting at the table or in the kitchen fixing plates……..her telling me to take my shoes off and take out the trash all in the same sentence…..I’m still not sad…..yet…….have a feeling I wont be able to either……momma gonna cause some type of drama….I have to prepare myself………back to grandma……I took some trash out to the garage and put some food in her van….and it hit me that my grandparents are no longer here…….she had so many friends and family that loved her, it did ease the pain today…….and I think our family is going to be okay…….everyone except……….
Well, I love you all…not going to stay on this computer long…..don’t really wanna be here that long……so I just wanted to touch bases and let yall know I’m okay……..if you have my number, you can hit me up because I don’t know when I will be back on a computer……
But I do have a quote………
“Show me the people you hang around, and I’ll show you who you are.”
Yeah….thought you might like that……make sure you go see my man Champ in concert this Friday at TI Blvd and then check out DLP at Kwanzaa Fest…all because I aint there doesn’t here I’m not there……and Tuesday at Murphy’s was CRAZZZZZYYYYYYY!!!!!!..........
Love yall!!!!!
Church!!!!
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
DINE IN OR CARRY OUT???
It’s been a lil over 36 hours since I got the phone call……. And in about 24 more, I will be preparing to make my way to her homecoming celebration…….the more time gets closer, the more knots develop in my stomach…….still not sad…….but I have a feeling I will be…….how is everyone doing today??......im good under the circumstances……ready for tonight…..which has me uber excited by the way…..I have this feeling Murphy’s is truly going to be memorable……
First, I would like to say thank you……to everyone that has sent words of encouragement, offered help, or was there to listen to me…….times like this are humbling for me…..I try to build a wall and I don’t allow many through……a death…..no matter how tragic brings people together……..it exposes people as humans (at least me)………and it puts the trivial parts of life into perspective…….during this ordeal, you guys have made sure I knew I was loved and if I needed anything, to call on you……I cant tell you guys how much it means to me!!!........no I haven’t had that “breakdown” that most people have after a death…but it has got to me at times……I put her picture up as my desktop…..so I look at her all the time……I catch myself saying things she did…….today I was at Wal-Mart at lunch and all I saw was old people……peaceful people…….people of wisdom……so from me to you, thank you…..thank you for not allowing me to be somber…..thank you for keeping my spirit afloat……thank you for reminding me all the things she has done…….thank you for being my family……….
And I will be heading home tomorrow….for how long, I don’t know……..will I blog?.......im going to try…….it may not be as often as now, but I promise you, I will keep you posted and updated………
Don’t know if I should be happy that I am going to see all my family this weekend??.......the circumstances of our last two family gatherings have been my grandparent’s passing…….bittersweet to say the least……..
Now here’s a funny……Jayla and I put up a Christmas tree together at my house last night……now I was coerce into getting this tree, but for those that know me, this is a first!!!......not the most holiday spirited person in the world……I figure, grandma been dead less than a week and is always living vicariously through me……maybe she wished that I had better holidays….maybe she wants to make sure my daughter has better holidays…..but the point is, I actually celebrated Christmas in my house……tree, stockings, got a few gifts……ughh, my stomach is churning LOL!!.............
And if you don’t know……TONIGHT WE ARE CELEBRATING THE 2 YEAR ANNIVERSARY OF DJ LADY JA-ROQ’S OPEN MIC SHOWCASE!!!....YEAH, I KNOW…..MOST OPEN MICS DON’T LAST THAT LONG!!!.......ITS GOING DOWN AT MURPHY’S PLACE….9410 WALNUT STREET IN NORTH DALLAS…….WE ALSO ARE HAVING THE FINALS OF OUR $250 SHOWCASE WITH SOME OF THE BEST ARTIST IN THE DFW!!!.......ALSACE, DOUBLE, HY STYLEZ, NUKE. THE HOOD, AND MR DALLAS TX WILL ALL BE VYING FOR THE MON-NAY!!!!.............AND THE BRAGGING RIGHTS OF BEING THE HOTTEST OF THE HOTT!!!!........DOORS OPEN AT 9…..SHOW STARTS AT TEN!!!!!.......
I just realized I haven’t packed yet………
Don’t forget to check out my music people……www.jango.com…….search for Spaceship Ohayses……..
So before I go, once again it is time for……Rika’s Quote of the Day………………..
“Don’t cry because it’s over, smile because it happened.”
Yall see how she do me!!..........this one is self-explanatory……..and yes, I will smile at the love my grandparents showed/taught me……..
Now I have another one…..one of the older couples at Wal-Mart gave me this one and I thought it was pretty good……….
“You may not always disagree, but never become disconnected.”
We were discussing marriages and longevity…..the husband says this is the key…..and in all relationships….friends….music…work…….whatever it may be…once you lose that connection, there is no power…………
Shout outs to everyone that comes tonight…..the rest of yall, I will see you on the flip!!.......
Love yall!!!!!!
Church!!!!
First, I would like to say thank you……to everyone that has sent words of encouragement, offered help, or was there to listen to me…….times like this are humbling for me…..I try to build a wall and I don’t allow many through……a death…..no matter how tragic brings people together……..it exposes people as humans (at least me)………and it puts the trivial parts of life into perspective…….during this ordeal, you guys have made sure I knew I was loved and if I needed anything, to call on you……I cant tell you guys how much it means to me!!!........no I haven’t had that “breakdown” that most people have after a death…but it has got to me at times……I put her picture up as my desktop…..so I look at her all the time……I catch myself saying things she did…….today I was at Wal-Mart at lunch and all I saw was old people……peaceful people…….people of wisdom……so from me to you, thank you…..thank you for not allowing me to be somber…..thank you for keeping my spirit afloat……thank you for reminding me all the things she has done…….thank you for being my family……….
And I will be heading home tomorrow….for how long, I don’t know……..will I blog?.......im going to try…….it may not be as often as now, but I promise you, I will keep you posted and updated………
Don’t know if I should be happy that I am going to see all my family this weekend??.......the circumstances of our last two family gatherings have been my grandparent’s passing…….bittersweet to say the least……..
Now here’s a funny……Jayla and I put up a Christmas tree together at my house last night……now I was coerce into getting this tree, but for those that know me, this is a first!!!......not the most holiday spirited person in the world……I figure, grandma been dead less than a week and is always living vicariously through me……maybe she wished that I had better holidays….maybe she wants to make sure my daughter has better holidays…..but the point is, I actually celebrated Christmas in my house……tree, stockings, got a few gifts……ughh, my stomach is churning LOL!!.............
And if you don’t know……TONIGHT WE ARE CELEBRATING THE 2 YEAR ANNIVERSARY OF DJ LADY JA-ROQ’S OPEN MIC SHOWCASE!!!....YEAH, I KNOW…..MOST OPEN MICS DON’T LAST THAT LONG!!!.......ITS GOING DOWN AT MURPHY’S PLACE….9410 WALNUT STREET IN NORTH DALLAS…….WE ALSO ARE HAVING THE FINALS OF OUR $250 SHOWCASE WITH SOME OF THE BEST ARTIST IN THE DFW!!!.......ALSACE, DOUBLE, HY STYLEZ, NUKE. THE HOOD, AND MR DALLAS TX WILL ALL BE VYING FOR THE MON-NAY!!!!.............AND THE BRAGGING RIGHTS OF BEING THE HOTTEST OF THE HOTT!!!!........DOORS OPEN AT 9…..SHOW STARTS AT TEN!!!!!.......
I just realized I haven’t packed yet………
Don’t forget to check out my music people……www.jango.com…….search for Spaceship Ohayses……..
So before I go, once again it is time for……Rika’s Quote of the Day………………..
“Don’t cry because it’s over, smile because it happened.”
Yall see how she do me!!..........this one is self-explanatory……..and yes, I will smile at the love my grandparents showed/taught me……..
Now I have another one…..one of the older couples at Wal-Mart gave me this one and I thought it was pretty good……….
“You may not always disagree, but never become disconnected.”
We were discussing marriages and longevity…..the husband says this is the key…..and in all relationships….friends….music…work…….whatever it may be…once you lose that connection, there is no power…………
Shout outs to everyone that comes tonight…..the rest of yall, I will see you on the flip!!.......
Love yall!!!!!!
Church!!!!
Monday, December 7, 2009
MY FIRST, MY LAST, MY EVERYTHING
Its 1:45 in the morning and my cousin is calling me……..I know I told the family that if they needed someone to talk to, I would be there……but I have been running around with Jayla all day and I wish to go to church in the morning so this is my attempt to catch a powernap…….I look at the phone and I don’t answer…….she calls back…….I reluctantly answer not knowing how long this venting session is going to last……..
“hey nay ray.”
“hey Jones.”
“what’s wrong?”
“well, she’s gone.”
Just like that……this was the first of many phone calls I received over that past 36 hours informing me that my grandmother was gone……and yet, I have not cried…….I loved her…..everyone that knew her did…..and I appreciated all she did……..and for some reason, I’m not in that mourning state……YET………I know once I touch soil in Flint it is probably going to be a wrap……..totally different story….but for now, im holding up nicely……………..
I remember moving to Flint back in 1989…….my grandmother was working at General Motors and my grandfather had to retire early because of a heart attack he had………I know I didn’t appreciate it but it was amazing to see a woman wake up at 3 in the morning and work all day just to provide……..no I didn’t put into perspective the fact that my sister and I were not her kids………nor did I think about how much of a gap it was in her raising 3 daughters of her own to 20 years later raising 2 grandkids…include the fact that I was the first male born into the family and I now understand the struggle in store for them……….
She made sure I was in the church…..usher board, junior church, youth choir, YPWW, praise team, sign language, Purity class…….I didn’t know a lot about life…but I knew the Greater Holy Temple C.O.G.I.C was on Dort Hwy next to the Sunoco and I was not going to miss any event they had…..and more than likely, somehow, I was going to be part of the event………and it wasn’t that go to church and be involved just so people could see you type of deal either…….if I wasn’t acting godly in church, I was going to know about it when we got in the car…….and if I was really cutting up, then she didn’t care if we were in church or not……..I had some of my worse ear tugging episodes in the church…..usually when the pastor was preaching because I would be sleeping……..
My grandmother didn’t care about material things……I think her ignorance made her great……..now understand the true definition of that word…..she didn’t know anything about Used jeans, or Cross Colours……..she could care less about Jordan’s, Bo Jackson’s, and Time Hardaways…….her mission was to provide….could she have afforded it?...yeah….but she taught me that nothing can define you except your character…….her name stood alone….you didn’t associate her with the type of car they had…or the amount of money she had…you knew her as Mary Barker……….
While I lived with my grandmother, I thought I was in hell……sometimes…….I had the dilemma of being cool and being smart…….I wondered how much she really cared……I did my share of idiotic things……..I didn’t understand some things….like why she never looked at a report card…….or why she never came to a step show……..I lashed back and eventually got myself kicked out of her house…….and she let me take a black eye with me………….
Our relationship was strained, but as a child of God, she forgave me………and she continued to love me……once I went to college, it was more for the sake of “proving people wrong”…..including my grandmother….for me to give up after high school, stay in Flint and make a complete nothing of myself would have been easy……it would have been accepted as my fate…..my destiny……but I can say I strived to make my grandmother proud of me…….I wanted her to see that the things she and my grandfather did molded a great man………I longed to hear her say she was proud of me……..
But my family is not all lovey dovey…….we didn’t have to say we loved each other…it was understood….until my grandfather passed…..October 22nd, 2007…………
Once he went to heaven, things started to change…….there was this communication wall that started to break down…..I began to have relationships with all my family members…..my aunts, nieces, cousins, siblings, my mom for a while, and my grandmother……..I started to actually feel like they understood my worth…….it wasn’t the usual “ I should be a lawyer” talk, but more of a “ at least you doing something good” talk…..trust me, it was a lot better than what I used to hear……..when I conversed with my grandmother, her innocent ignorance would shine again……not really knowing what I was doing….but loving enough to encourage me because she heard the passion in my voice……..she truly became my strength as I went through my divorce, my homelessness, and my doubting if I could make it………..
I remember talking to her about 3 months ago…….all of this started with vertigo……..she fell down the basement steps and they put her on bed rest…….she got better and was on her way to recovery….the night of my album release part, October 23rd, I received a phone call from my Aunt Tootie……….grandma had a mild heart attack……it went from a heart attack, to open heart surgery, to low blood pressure, to the cardiac arrests, to the kidney and liver failure………6 weeks later, I am lost again…….I feel like the 9 year old in Georgia wondering what I am going to do because my mom and my dad were no where to be found…this time, I don’t have my grandparents to come save me……..
An old adage says, “this is the day that the Lord has made. I will rejoice and be glad in it.”………this still rings true……..Sunday was designed before I was even born…there was absolutely nothing anyone could do about it……I will rejoice even through because I know my grandmother a) didn’t want to suffer and 2) was saved, sanctified, and filled with the holy ghost………
So grandma….Mary Louise Barker……we will miss you….I will miss you….but the lessons you have taught me will never be forgotten!!!
Church!!!!!
“hey nay ray.”
“hey Jones.”
“what’s wrong?”
“well, she’s gone.”
Just like that……this was the first of many phone calls I received over that past 36 hours informing me that my grandmother was gone……and yet, I have not cried…….I loved her…..everyone that knew her did…..and I appreciated all she did……..and for some reason, I’m not in that mourning state……YET………I know once I touch soil in Flint it is probably going to be a wrap……..totally different story….but for now, im holding up nicely……………..
I remember moving to Flint back in 1989…….my grandmother was working at General Motors and my grandfather had to retire early because of a heart attack he had………I know I didn’t appreciate it but it was amazing to see a woman wake up at 3 in the morning and work all day just to provide……..no I didn’t put into perspective the fact that my sister and I were not her kids………nor did I think about how much of a gap it was in her raising 3 daughters of her own to 20 years later raising 2 grandkids…include the fact that I was the first male born into the family and I now understand the struggle in store for them……….
She made sure I was in the church…..usher board, junior church, youth choir, YPWW, praise team, sign language, Purity class…….I didn’t know a lot about life…but I knew the Greater Holy Temple C.O.G.I.C was on Dort Hwy next to the Sunoco and I was not going to miss any event they had…..and more than likely, somehow, I was going to be part of the event………and it wasn’t that go to church and be involved just so people could see you type of deal either…….if I wasn’t acting godly in church, I was going to know about it when we got in the car…….and if I was really cutting up, then she didn’t care if we were in church or not……..I had some of my worse ear tugging episodes in the church…..usually when the pastor was preaching because I would be sleeping……..
My grandmother didn’t care about material things……I think her ignorance made her great……..now understand the true definition of that word…..she didn’t know anything about Used jeans, or Cross Colours……..she could care less about Jordan’s, Bo Jackson’s, and Time Hardaways…….her mission was to provide….could she have afforded it?...yeah….but she taught me that nothing can define you except your character…….her name stood alone….you didn’t associate her with the type of car they had…or the amount of money she had…you knew her as Mary Barker……….
While I lived with my grandmother, I thought I was in hell……sometimes…….I had the dilemma of being cool and being smart…….I wondered how much she really cared……I did my share of idiotic things……..I didn’t understand some things….like why she never looked at a report card…….or why she never came to a step show……..I lashed back and eventually got myself kicked out of her house…….and she let me take a black eye with me………….
Our relationship was strained, but as a child of God, she forgave me………and she continued to love me……once I went to college, it was more for the sake of “proving people wrong”…..including my grandmother….for me to give up after high school, stay in Flint and make a complete nothing of myself would have been easy……it would have been accepted as my fate…..my destiny……but I can say I strived to make my grandmother proud of me…….I wanted her to see that the things she and my grandfather did molded a great man………I longed to hear her say she was proud of me……..
But my family is not all lovey dovey…….we didn’t have to say we loved each other…it was understood….until my grandfather passed…..October 22nd, 2007…………
Once he went to heaven, things started to change…….there was this communication wall that started to break down…..I began to have relationships with all my family members…..my aunts, nieces, cousins, siblings, my mom for a while, and my grandmother……..I started to actually feel like they understood my worth…….it wasn’t the usual “ I should be a lawyer” talk, but more of a “ at least you doing something good” talk…..trust me, it was a lot better than what I used to hear……..when I conversed with my grandmother, her innocent ignorance would shine again……not really knowing what I was doing….but loving enough to encourage me because she heard the passion in my voice……..she truly became my strength as I went through my divorce, my homelessness, and my doubting if I could make it………..
I remember talking to her about 3 months ago…….all of this started with vertigo……..she fell down the basement steps and they put her on bed rest…….she got better and was on her way to recovery….the night of my album release part, October 23rd, I received a phone call from my Aunt Tootie……….grandma had a mild heart attack……it went from a heart attack, to open heart surgery, to low blood pressure, to the cardiac arrests, to the kidney and liver failure………6 weeks later, I am lost again…….I feel like the 9 year old in Georgia wondering what I am going to do because my mom and my dad were no where to be found…this time, I don’t have my grandparents to come save me……..
An old adage says, “this is the day that the Lord has made. I will rejoice and be glad in it.”………this still rings true……..Sunday was designed before I was even born…there was absolutely nothing anyone could do about it……I will rejoice even through because I know my grandmother a) didn’t want to suffer and 2) was saved, sanctified, and filled with the holy ghost………
So grandma….Mary Louise Barker……we will miss you….I will miss you….but the lessons you have taught me will never be forgotten!!!
Church!!!!!
Friday, December 4, 2009
END OF THE ROAD
So they say they are going to pull the plug on Sunday……..just like that……no who exactly “they” are, I don’t know at this time…….and I don’t know how to feel……..right now, I’m not sad……..I’m not hurt………and I did most of my crying yesterday………shocked?.....stunned?.......those words could fit the description……..but I also have faith…….I went to school to be an English teacher, not a doctor so there is not much I can do at this time……and in all actuality, there is not much anyone can do…..it is in the hands of my Father……..its easy to thank him after the storm…….I believe he can heal my grandmother within a blink of an eye……..and in a way, I believe, he already has…..we just don’t know it yet………..
The one thing that bothers me is why does it take a tragedy for people to come together??.......I don’t want to sound cynical but….and I hate that word……it shouldn’t take something happening to my grandmother for a family member to tell me they love me……because I may not say it back…..I loved her and she loved me……there used to be a time when no one in my family was proud of me……I would put into question if they even acknowledged my presence…….my grandmother, rather right, wrong or indifferent, never stopped loving me…..even when she didn’t understand my vision……..she wasn’t ashamed of me…….but now…as the legacy of my grandparents comes to fruition, everyone wants to make sure how I am doing??......cant say im doing the same as when she is in good health…….but I am going to make it because they instilled in me the strength to always push on…….I do have a bad attitude…at times…….so it will be difficult to put these feeling away for the greater good of the situation…….but its hard to forget……and its harder to act like I did……….
So now I have to figure out how I am going to get home….probably drive but finances suck……..and if I don’t go, this will be another issue…….but I don’t think anyone knows how much I have missed work and been under the weather lately myself…….and since I’m a “rapper”, I should have money flowing out of my pockets……they want us all there Sunday to say our good-byes………I don’t want to be there to see her take her last breath…….I know I need to be there to make sure business is handled accordingly, but as far as seeing them put her in a bodybag?!!.......you can have that playa………and am I wrong for thinking about life after grandma??.......what’s going to happen to her house??......her car?.......her investments? Bank accounts? Prize possessions??...........that’s another thing I need to deal with but don’t want to…….if anybody disrespects my grandmother in anyway, it’s going to be smoke in the city……..
Its funny how things work…all my life I considered myself a bastard child……..not having a mother or father in my life……my grandparents raised me to the best of their ability……and as I got older, I considered them my parents…within a span of 2 years, they are now gone……..and yet, I have to find this place in my heart to continue to grow……continue to push towards the things God has destined for me…….as I stated earlier, I’m not sad…….in a way, I’m happy for her……because I believe she is dying of a broken heart……she misses her boo…..and now, God has decided to reunite them…….and I know their spirits cant wait…….
Well, I may be back later today….just had to vent for a minute……..
Love yall!!!!!
Church!!!!
The one thing that bothers me is why does it take a tragedy for people to come together??.......I don’t want to sound cynical but….and I hate that word……it shouldn’t take something happening to my grandmother for a family member to tell me they love me……because I may not say it back…..I loved her and she loved me……there used to be a time when no one in my family was proud of me……I would put into question if they even acknowledged my presence…….my grandmother, rather right, wrong or indifferent, never stopped loving me…..even when she didn’t understand my vision……..she wasn’t ashamed of me…….but now…as the legacy of my grandparents comes to fruition, everyone wants to make sure how I am doing??......cant say im doing the same as when she is in good health…….but I am going to make it because they instilled in me the strength to always push on…….I do have a bad attitude…at times…….so it will be difficult to put these feeling away for the greater good of the situation…….but its hard to forget……and its harder to act like I did……….
So now I have to figure out how I am going to get home….probably drive but finances suck……..and if I don’t go, this will be another issue…….but I don’t think anyone knows how much I have missed work and been under the weather lately myself…….and since I’m a “rapper”, I should have money flowing out of my pockets……they want us all there Sunday to say our good-byes………I don’t want to be there to see her take her last breath…….I know I need to be there to make sure business is handled accordingly, but as far as seeing them put her in a bodybag?!!.......you can have that playa………and am I wrong for thinking about life after grandma??.......what’s going to happen to her house??......her car?.......her investments? Bank accounts? Prize possessions??...........that’s another thing I need to deal with but don’t want to…….if anybody disrespects my grandmother in anyway, it’s going to be smoke in the city……..
Its funny how things work…all my life I considered myself a bastard child……..not having a mother or father in my life……my grandparents raised me to the best of their ability……and as I got older, I considered them my parents…within a span of 2 years, they are now gone……..and yet, I have to find this place in my heart to continue to grow……continue to push towards the things God has destined for me…….as I stated earlier, I’m not sad…….in a way, I’m happy for her……because I believe she is dying of a broken heart……she misses her boo…..and now, God has decided to reunite them…….and I know their spirits cant wait…….
Well, I may be back later today….just had to vent for a minute……..
Love yall!!!!!
Church!!!!
Thursday, December 3, 2009
DEAD FISH, BROOMS, AND WEIRD DREAMS
Well looky here!!.....im back…..and yes I have missed you all…….some of you may know my whereabouts….while others may not even care……but with this being my blog, I guess I can tell you…….the kid has been sick again!!!!!.......these migraines were not getting any better and I knew I needed to go back to the ER to find out what was wrong…….only thing they could tell me is that I wasn’t crazy…….like I didn’t know that……
So how have you all been?........I wanted to write……but the doctor told me that I needed to stay away from work for a few days…..and so that’s what I did…….it wasn’t fun…boring actually….but my health is very important to me…….or at least now it is……
So hopefully im back for a few…….I say that knowing that the possibility of that happening is not that great……but I will try…my mom called me today……..
And you know when she calls, its not so that she can tell me she loves me……..it was about my grandmother……..apparently last night, she had two cardiac arrest and now her kidneys and liver are shutting off……I didn’t even know you could get arrested twice in one night…….but getting this call on my first day back to work was not something I needed…..or wanted for that matter…….my mom is telling me I need to get back home……now what frustrates me is the fact that sometimes, my family tries to spare my feelings…when my grandfather passed, I had a feeling before it happened…..like the night before……and then my mom called and told me to have a brown suit…….she said he wasn’t dead yet when I asked…..but at 2 the next morning, they called and told me he was called home……..I will be pissed if this is the case now…….
At the same time, I know God is good and if its His Will to want to re-unite my grandparents, so be it……he knows all anyway….and he knows how to help me cope with it…….
But I will say this……I will not be a happy camper for a minute….why is it that our first emotion after a death is usually anger??........im not mad at my grandmother……cant be mad at my Creator……..its not like I have any regrets…..except for not making it famous sooner……..but I know my attitude…and I already feel it coming on……..not going to do a tribute blog today…….God is just and he may just be getting my attention for something bigger he has in store……….
But I do have something to say about my music…..thank you all that have supported this Essential Entertainment movement……..I know I have been slacking but keep listening (www.jango.com) ..........keep reading (www.spaceshipohayses.blogspot.com) ………and keep watching (www.youtube.com/spaceshipohayses) ……….word of mouth is important in this industry and whether you like me or not, tell someone else about me and let them be the judge…….things are moving in a positive direction and its because of each and everyone of you………
But I wonder…….why don’t we celebrate each other???.......why don’t we push our peers and comrades towards greatness………last night, I went to Rack Daddy’s in Oak Cliff…….yes, ya boy was in the Cliff!!!!......and even though I didn’t perform, I still felt a sense of accomplishment because the people that I was there to see perform did outstanding……..and I was in the midst of these great artist…….its not always about me…….its about my team……my Essential Entertainment family…….
THIS TUESDAY IS OUR $250 FINALS AT MURPHYS PLACE!!!!......AND I AM IN NEED OF SOME TOP NOTCH JUDGES!!!.......DJs, PROMOTERS, ARTIST, ANYONE IN THE MUSIC INDUSTRY GET AT ME…4 SLOTS REMAINING!!!.......IT GOES DOWN THIS TUESDAY!!!!......9410 WALNUT STREET IN NORTH DALLAS….DOORS OPEN AT 9…….SHOW STARTS AT TEN…..WE WILL ALSO BE CELEBRATING THE TWO YEAR ANNIVERSARY OF DJ LADY JA-ROQ’S OPEN MIC SHOWCASE!!!!...BRING YA ANUS!!!...YOU HELP START THIS MOVEMENT…HELP US CONTINUE TO GROW DALLAS HIP HOP………
ALSO DECEMBER 11TH, I WILL BE LIVE IN CONCERT AT THE INDEPENDENT ARTIST CONCERT PARTY……..IT WILL BE HELD AT THE T.I VENUE IN NORTH DALLAS……13416 FLOYD CIRCLE DALLAS TX 75234……..LIVE IN CONCERT WILL BE CHAMP, DEONTE, CAP ACE, LIL TEX, AND OF COURSE YA BOY, SPACESHIP OHAYSES THE INCREDIBLE…….DOORS OPEN AT 9:30….THE SHOW STARTS AT 11!!!.........ADMISSION IS $5 BEFORE 10:30……I WOULD LOVE TO SEE EVERYONE THERE AS WELL!!!!!...........
Okay, enough of me…….its almost that time to get out of here……..but y9ou know what I have been missing….and admit it, you have too……it is Rika’s Quote of the Day……..
“Faith isn’t faith until it’s all you have to hold on to.”
Sometimes, I know these things are for me….right now my faith is being tested…..at different points, our faith is always tested…let’s continue to push towards the high mark and believe that our storm is only temporary……….
Shouts out to everybody that has been holding my down during my hiatus……..I want to give a special shout out to those that say they don’t know what’s going on, even though I put a lot of my business in these blogs………some people have the greatest excuses!!!.......
Love yall!!!!
Church!!
So how have you all been?........I wanted to write……but the doctor told me that I needed to stay away from work for a few days…..and so that’s what I did…….it wasn’t fun…boring actually….but my health is very important to me…….or at least now it is……
So hopefully im back for a few…….I say that knowing that the possibility of that happening is not that great……but I will try…my mom called me today……..
And you know when she calls, its not so that she can tell me she loves me……..it was about my grandmother……..apparently last night, she had two cardiac arrest and now her kidneys and liver are shutting off……I didn’t even know you could get arrested twice in one night…….but getting this call on my first day back to work was not something I needed…..or wanted for that matter…….my mom is telling me I need to get back home……now what frustrates me is the fact that sometimes, my family tries to spare my feelings…when my grandfather passed, I had a feeling before it happened…..like the night before……and then my mom called and told me to have a brown suit…….she said he wasn’t dead yet when I asked…..but at 2 the next morning, they called and told me he was called home……..I will be pissed if this is the case now…….
At the same time, I know God is good and if its His Will to want to re-unite my grandparents, so be it……he knows all anyway….and he knows how to help me cope with it…….
But I will say this……I will not be a happy camper for a minute….why is it that our first emotion after a death is usually anger??........im not mad at my grandmother……cant be mad at my Creator……..its not like I have any regrets…..except for not making it famous sooner……..but I know my attitude…and I already feel it coming on……..not going to do a tribute blog today…….God is just and he may just be getting my attention for something bigger he has in store……….
But I do have something to say about my music…..thank you all that have supported this Essential Entertainment movement……..I know I have been slacking but keep listening (www.jango.com) ..........keep reading (www.spaceshipohayses.blogspot.com) ………and keep watching (www.youtube.com/spaceshipohayses) ……….word of mouth is important in this industry and whether you like me or not, tell someone else about me and let them be the judge…….things are moving in a positive direction and its because of each and everyone of you………
But I wonder…….why don’t we celebrate each other???.......why don’t we push our peers and comrades towards greatness………last night, I went to Rack Daddy’s in Oak Cliff…….yes, ya boy was in the Cliff!!!!......and even though I didn’t perform, I still felt a sense of accomplishment because the people that I was there to see perform did outstanding……..and I was in the midst of these great artist…….its not always about me…….its about my team……my Essential Entertainment family…….
THIS TUESDAY IS OUR $250 FINALS AT MURPHYS PLACE!!!!......AND I AM IN NEED OF SOME TOP NOTCH JUDGES!!!.......DJs, PROMOTERS, ARTIST, ANYONE IN THE MUSIC INDUSTRY GET AT ME…4 SLOTS REMAINING!!!.......IT GOES DOWN THIS TUESDAY!!!!......9410 WALNUT STREET IN NORTH DALLAS….DOORS OPEN AT 9…….SHOW STARTS AT TEN…..WE WILL ALSO BE CELEBRATING THE TWO YEAR ANNIVERSARY OF DJ LADY JA-ROQ’S OPEN MIC SHOWCASE!!!!...BRING YA ANUS!!!...YOU HELP START THIS MOVEMENT…HELP US CONTINUE TO GROW DALLAS HIP HOP………
ALSO DECEMBER 11TH, I WILL BE LIVE IN CONCERT AT THE INDEPENDENT ARTIST CONCERT PARTY……..IT WILL BE HELD AT THE T.I VENUE IN NORTH DALLAS……13416 FLOYD CIRCLE DALLAS TX 75234……..LIVE IN CONCERT WILL BE CHAMP, DEONTE, CAP ACE, LIL TEX, AND OF COURSE YA BOY, SPACESHIP OHAYSES THE INCREDIBLE…….DOORS OPEN AT 9:30….THE SHOW STARTS AT 11!!!.........ADMISSION IS $5 BEFORE 10:30……I WOULD LOVE TO SEE EVERYONE THERE AS WELL!!!!!...........
Okay, enough of me…….its almost that time to get out of here……..but y9ou know what I have been missing….and admit it, you have too……it is Rika’s Quote of the Day……..
“Faith isn’t faith until it’s all you have to hold on to.”
Sometimes, I know these things are for me….right now my faith is being tested…..at different points, our faith is always tested…let’s continue to push towards the high mark and believe that our storm is only temporary……….
Shouts out to everybody that has been holding my down during my hiatus……..I want to give a special shout out to those that say they don’t know what’s going on, even though I put a lot of my business in these blogs………some people have the greatest excuses!!!.......
Love yall!!!!
Church!!
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