February 14th…the day where millions of people spend millions of dollars showing their love and affection to their companion/significant other……for many people, usually women, this is their favorite holiday…..the Webster’s dictionary states that Valentine’s Day I “a day for the exchange of tokens of affection”…..so today I give to you…..MY BLOG!!.......lol……this is about as affectionate that I can get on a day like this!!......how are you all doing today??......I hope all is well and that your loved ones gave you everything your heart desired……..for me, its just an average day……a day to give thanks simply for being alive……my Valentine is God…..to whom my love flows unconditionally….no gift I purchase could equate to all the good he has done for me…..
Now most of you know the surface story as to why I don’t like Valentine’s Day…or any holiday for that matter……and if you don’t know, make sure you check out the broadcast of Allure Radio with me and Ms. Nique Nique at allureradio.com……..but the reasons are even deeper than that…..I once said in a blog, you cant love someone unless you love yourself….now, while some may think that giving presents or showing someone you care for them is the purpose of the day, I ask, is it really?......see, for the last few years, I have been in this re-building mode within my soul…..not here to say I don’t love myself, but there have been times where I questioned it…my lifestyle was wild, I was unconscious to the things I was doing and the consequences of said actions…..reckless you can say…my mentally was of that “I don’t give an f” attitude…..I was used to doing things my way, my pace, my style and I accepted that I would never change…..well, its funny how time brings about change and the older I have gotten and the more God has dealt with me, the more I realized that my life was stuck in neutral……and it was my fault……
I am just now opening myself back up to love….yeah, I have done a great job of liking things-music, women, clubs, hobbies, Jayla, and myself included….but I had to ask myself, when was the last time I love something other than my daughter o entertaining…..when was the last time I told myself how much I loved me?....you know when we are in a relationship and the feeling begins to dissipate, we find reasons to not be around that person….we have a shorter fuse…..we pick arguments…and we are not as receptive to their love as in the past…..what do you do when u fall out of love with yourself?....you have no where to run…you cant have private time, or not call yourself for days….you have to deal with it and try to make those changes while continuing to be around yourself….sounds funny? Maybe….the truth is, more people face this issue than we realize and it’s a deficiency many of us don’t have an answer for…..I realized that it truly did start with the man in the mirror…….
So now, I am more focused on loving me…..not beating myself up about tough decisions...I understand the hand I was dealt and instead of dreading it and throwing my cards back in, I play with what I have, hoping to achieve a win…..a lot of things have made me who I am…..I remember a time in my life where I never lost at anything…..now I look at many things as a lost…just because they don’t grant me the things I would hope to gain, does not mean the lessons and the prize is less valuable….life is what you make it….love is the benefit of living a positive life…not love from others; but love from yourself…..nothing in life can take that away as long as you know who you are and are not afraid to hide from this fact……so today, I give myself a Valentine’s present: happiness…….
I think this will be the last blog I send out via email…..I love writing it sending it is becoming a small hassle….and who reads em anyway??...if you are that interested, I have a site to look them up on……not trying to be mean at all….just efficient….especially here at work…..so if you want to read up on what’s going on you can always check out www.spaceshipohayses.blogspot.com ……..until next time!!!
I almost forgot!!....THANK YOU ALL!! I HAVE FINALLY REACHED 1,000 HITS ON THE BLOG SITE!! WHOO-HOO!!....NEXT STOP, 5,000 VIEWS!!
Love yall!!!!
Church!!!
Monday, February 14, 2011
Thursday, February 10, 2011
TAKING ONE FOR THE TEAM..BUT I'M THE ONLY ONE PLAYING!!
Greeting to all my friends and socialites!!....hope you are having a great week so far and all things are looking bright and beautiful for you!!....wow, I had such an outstanding night last night…..I think one of the things that helps me on this journey to superstardom is the acknowledgment of revelations in my life…..on the surface, I had a horrible night….but once I take myself and my selfishness out of the equation, things become more clear…it is these things, that make my life worth wild…..lessons learned are rarely easy to fathom…..easy to digest…..or easy to anticipate….they are, however, helpful in obtain wisdom, patience, and an appreciation for others and their craft…..
First things first…..just found out the Beast of the Streets competition scheduled for this Friday has been rescheduled....until February 25th….not a big deal right?!...well, that is the weekend I am going home to Flint…..so I am kinda of bummed about it…even more so because before they changed the date, they didn’t ask me if it was ok…I am not sure if they assumed I would be fine with the move, were only looking out for their best interest, were too busy to confirm with me, or just a little bit of all three…..if anyone wants to sign up though, you can still get me the funds and registration information….I pray everyone does an awesome job and that they can win the $500!!......
Soo….last night I went to the Prophet Bar off Elm Street…..I receive emails about this event all the time but never took the time to check it out…….they have a live band there and they hold an open mic….not like the open mics I am used to hosting, but the one where the band plays certain songs and you can get up there and rock out….most of the artist there are singers....as a matter of fact, I was the only MC that got on stage….but I can tell you with all my heart and soul, it was an amazing evening….now I got to the club about 10…..they were about 4 people in there….no biggie….im used to going places early cause I like to leave early…..well when the band started playing, they allowed me to jump on stage and rock for a minute….now, not being one that likes to wear out my welcome, I didn’t stay up there long….just long enough to give them a skeet taste of what I had to offer…..well time went by and more people showed up….the guy that was announcing the list seemed to over looking me…..singer, after singer, after singer went on stage and rocked the crowd….BUT I HAD BEEN THERE SINCE TEN?!!...why were they all going on before me……my battery on my phone was dead and I had already made quota drinking Heinekens…..performing and sleep were the last two things on my agenda I had yet to accomplish…..each time I got ready to leave, I was told to stay….ugh, decisions, decisions…….I kept telling myself, “if they don’t call me next, im leaving”…but I never left…even took a powernap until I heard on the mic my name…so I got up…..mustered up all the strength in my soul and performed like I was the featured act….the crowd responded well….and then there was one person that couldn’t take her eyes off me…..
As I got off stage ready to make a B Line for the entrance, said lady stopped me and told me I was awesome….she asked if I had a card…..I gave her one out of my wallet and proceeded to at least listen to the next act for a few seconds…I hate when people leave right after they perform so I try to live by that creed myself….so as I get ready to leave I walk past the lady again and ask for her name…..she told me previously, but honestly, I wasn’t paying too much attention…she asked me to look it up so I did…..and WOW!!!....she has credentials longer than my……..hopefully, we will be able to chop it up and possibly this could be the breakthrough I have been praying God for….its so crazy how God continued to stop me from leaving as much as my body was telling me to go…..and even though it was only about 20 people in the club, it only takes one to pay attention to your talents and give you that inspiration to keep it up……
So I say to all my people that are trying to make a better life for themselves...never give up....never look at what is…..continue to know what God can do and how he can feed a village with bread and fish……I know I have been guilty of looking at my surroundings and thinking that there are not enough people in a place for it to be worth it….or that everyone may not like my brand of music…..but most trees grow from one seed….and that tree can have a everlasting effect on its environment……if you believe in yourself, I can guarantee you someone else will eventually believe in you as well……
Love yall!!!
Church!!
First things first…..just found out the Beast of the Streets competition scheduled for this Friday has been rescheduled....until February 25th….not a big deal right?!...well, that is the weekend I am going home to Flint…..so I am kinda of bummed about it…even more so because before they changed the date, they didn’t ask me if it was ok…I am not sure if they assumed I would be fine with the move, were only looking out for their best interest, were too busy to confirm with me, or just a little bit of all three…..if anyone wants to sign up though, you can still get me the funds and registration information….I pray everyone does an awesome job and that they can win the $500!!......
Soo….last night I went to the Prophet Bar off Elm Street…..I receive emails about this event all the time but never took the time to check it out…….they have a live band there and they hold an open mic….not like the open mics I am used to hosting, but the one where the band plays certain songs and you can get up there and rock out….most of the artist there are singers....as a matter of fact, I was the only MC that got on stage….but I can tell you with all my heart and soul, it was an amazing evening….now I got to the club about 10…..they were about 4 people in there….no biggie….im used to going places early cause I like to leave early…..well when the band started playing, they allowed me to jump on stage and rock for a minute….now, not being one that likes to wear out my welcome, I didn’t stay up there long….just long enough to give them a skeet taste of what I had to offer…..well time went by and more people showed up….the guy that was announcing the list seemed to over looking me…..singer, after singer, after singer went on stage and rocked the crowd….BUT I HAD BEEN THERE SINCE TEN?!!...why were they all going on before me……my battery on my phone was dead and I had already made quota drinking Heinekens…..performing and sleep were the last two things on my agenda I had yet to accomplish…..each time I got ready to leave, I was told to stay….ugh, decisions, decisions…….I kept telling myself, “if they don’t call me next, im leaving”…but I never left…even took a powernap until I heard on the mic my name…so I got up…..mustered up all the strength in my soul and performed like I was the featured act….the crowd responded well….and then there was one person that couldn’t take her eyes off me…..
As I got off stage ready to make a B Line for the entrance, said lady stopped me and told me I was awesome….she asked if I had a card…..I gave her one out of my wallet and proceeded to at least listen to the next act for a few seconds…I hate when people leave right after they perform so I try to live by that creed myself….so as I get ready to leave I walk past the lady again and ask for her name…..she told me previously, but honestly, I wasn’t paying too much attention…she asked me to look it up so I did…..and WOW!!!....she has credentials longer than my……..hopefully, we will be able to chop it up and possibly this could be the breakthrough I have been praying God for….its so crazy how God continued to stop me from leaving as much as my body was telling me to go…..and even though it was only about 20 people in the club, it only takes one to pay attention to your talents and give you that inspiration to keep it up……
So I say to all my people that are trying to make a better life for themselves...never give up....never look at what is…..continue to know what God can do and how he can feed a village with bread and fish……I know I have been guilty of looking at my surroundings and thinking that there are not enough people in a place for it to be worth it….or that everyone may not like my brand of music…..but most trees grow from one seed….and that tree can have a everlasting effect on its environment……if you believe in yourself, I can guarantee you someone else will eventually believe in you as well……
Love yall!!!
Church!!
Monday, February 7, 2011
WAITING TO INHALE....SHOTGUN!!
Happy Monday beautiful people!!.....I hope I come before you in good spirits and in great condition….and for my friends here in Dallas, I pray you had a safe and exciting Super Bowl week….man, the weather was crazy wasn’t it?......felt like I was back at home in Michigan again…..but we made it through and hopefully, you didn’t spend all your income tax check trying to see your favorite famous person for about 10 minutes….I sure didn’t…….got some things coming up so I am going to update you on all the things I am doing so that you can hopefully clear your schedule to party with me…..
But of course…..My official birthday bash is tentatively scheduled for march 12th….the location right now is kinda up in the air but I think I have pinpointed that as well….Spaceship will be turning the big 31…(no, I cant believe it either; God has been so good to me!!)……so plan to be at this gala event…if there is anyone that would like to help with organizing this gala event, let me know…..I think I know everything I want to do at this party....such as not hosting…..a comedic roast, artist performing…and yes that does include me…..at first, I wasn’t really feeling a party this year, but what the hell!!.......s/n: someone told me yesterday, “you only turn 31 once?”…aint that with any birthday?.....things like that have no bearing on any decisions I make……..
I also think I found a location to start back with my open mic nights…..but of course they will be a little different…so I am attempting to figure out if this is the direction I want to go…..I love hosting and I met a lot of great people/artist along the way….time to get back on this grind and make everything a success……
This Friday, I will be hosting the “Beast of the Streets” competition at TI Blvd……grand prize is $500 and 3 hours worth of studio time to record music…..if you still want to register, get with me IMMEDIATELY….registration costs is $25 for an individual artist and $50 for a group of 2-6……don’t really think there are groups with more than that in them, so come on out and win you some money….if you are that hot….#imjustsaying…….
Also, next Tuesday….February 15th, I will be performing at the “Are You the Next Top Artist” Showcase at the Boiler Room down in Deep Ellum….I definitely encourage everyone to come out and support me on this venture …got a few surprises lined up so I am looking forward to showing them that I don’t have next…I GOTS NOW!!......
Something that bothers me….open toe boots……what’s the purpose?...boots are to warm your feet…..but hey, I’m not a woman…….
Congrats to the Green Bay Packers on winning the Super Bowl last night….I didn’t get a chance to watch the game….I have my online radio show each and every Sunday…It’s Spaceship’s Incredible Sunday Showdown on www.spindatmusic.com ……I am on the hip hop/r&b station…..from 6-10 CENTRAL STANDARD TIME…..so now you cant say you cant hear me because internet radio goes along way!!......I truly love doing radio and you all can get in the video chat room, call in to our radio line, or email me……all it takes is a little bit of time and if you are at home, I do encourage to check it out……
What was up with Christina Aguilera last night??.....did she butcher the National Anthem or what.....just my opinion but if you are that famous, shouldn’t you have that kind of thing rehearsed and ready to go??....unless you were subdued by a monumentous amount of crack cocaine before you got on stage…..it was almost as bad as Carl Lewis http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HJLvCM4j2mg&feature=player_embedded …please check that out!!
Make sure you follow me on twitter: @spaceshipo…….I’m just about as random there as those that know me in my personal life…..and please, have others follow me as well…..not into begging folks anymore….people will be people….and my attitude is changing in regards to being upset about those that hang on or bandwagon jump at the last minute…I understand the life God gives me and the people that will doubt me…I’m just going to continue doing my thing and pray that it pays off according to His will……
I love yall….I really do….just when I feel like giving up, you guys continue to push me to a higher ground…you truly lift me up when you may not know it…all the support, the love, the comments, the criticism, the jokes….all of those things help me prosper into being the best entertainer in the world……to the few of you that don’t see it….its cool……you will……
And lastly, I talked to DJ Lady Ja-Roq…she is well and wants you all to know that she loves you and she misses you….and no matter what some people have said, our bond will never break…….when she returns I beg that yall are ready…she will be new, improved, and even more incredible that Spaceship…well, not THAT incredible but you get he point…..
Well, ima get back to work before massa comes over here lurking over my shoulder…….
Shout outs to my girl Vera…happy birthday love…and to Nina……thank you for continuing to believe in me and for giving me avenues to continue my craft…….
Love Yall!!!!
Church!!!!
But of course…..My official birthday bash is tentatively scheduled for march 12th….the location right now is kinda up in the air but I think I have pinpointed that as well….Spaceship will be turning the big 31…(no, I cant believe it either; God has been so good to me!!)……so plan to be at this gala event…if there is anyone that would like to help with organizing this gala event, let me know…..I think I know everything I want to do at this party....such as not hosting…..a comedic roast, artist performing…and yes that does include me…..at first, I wasn’t really feeling a party this year, but what the hell!!.......s/n: someone told me yesterday, “you only turn 31 once?”…aint that with any birthday?.....things like that have no bearing on any decisions I make……..
I also think I found a location to start back with my open mic nights…..but of course they will be a little different…so I am attempting to figure out if this is the direction I want to go…..I love hosting and I met a lot of great people/artist along the way….time to get back on this grind and make everything a success……
This Friday, I will be hosting the “Beast of the Streets” competition at TI Blvd……grand prize is $500 and 3 hours worth of studio time to record music…..if you still want to register, get with me IMMEDIATELY….registration costs is $25 for an individual artist and $50 for a group of 2-6……don’t really think there are groups with more than that in them, so come on out and win you some money….if you are that hot….#imjustsaying…….
Also, next Tuesday….February 15th, I will be performing at the “Are You the Next Top Artist” Showcase at the Boiler Room down in Deep Ellum….I definitely encourage everyone to come out and support me on this venture …got a few surprises lined up so I am looking forward to showing them that I don’t have next…I GOTS NOW!!......
Something that bothers me….open toe boots……what’s the purpose?...boots are to warm your feet…..but hey, I’m not a woman…….
Congrats to the Green Bay Packers on winning the Super Bowl last night….I didn’t get a chance to watch the game….I have my online radio show each and every Sunday…It’s Spaceship’s Incredible Sunday Showdown on www.spindatmusic.com ……I am on the hip hop/r&b station…..from 6-10 CENTRAL STANDARD TIME…..so now you cant say you cant hear me because internet radio goes along way!!......I truly love doing radio and you all can get in the video chat room, call in to our radio line, or email me……all it takes is a little bit of time and if you are at home, I do encourage to check it out……
What was up with Christina Aguilera last night??.....did she butcher the National Anthem or what.....just my opinion but if you are that famous, shouldn’t you have that kind of thing rehearsed and ready to go??....unless you were subdued by a monumentous amount of crack cocaine before you got on stage…..it was almost as bad as Carl Lewis http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HJLvCM4j2mg&feature=player_embedded …please check that out!!
Make sure you follow me on twitter: @spaceshipo…….I’m just about as random there as those that know me in my personal life…..and please, have others follow me as well…..not into begging folks anymore….people will be people….and my attitude is changing in regards to being upset about those that hang on or bandwagon jump at the last minute…I understand the life God gives me and the people that will doubt me…I’m just going to continue doing my thing and pray that it pays off according to His will……
I love yall….I really do….just when I feel like giving up, you guys continue to push me to a higher ground…you truly lift me up when you may not know it…all the support, the love, the comments, the criticism, the jokes….all of those things help me prosper into being the best entertainer in the world……to the few of you that don’t see it….its cool……you will……
And lastly, I talked to DJ Lady Ja-Roq…she is well and wants you all to know that she loves you and she misses you….and no matter what some people have said, our bond will never break…….when she returns I beg that yall are ready…she will be new, improved, and even more incredible that Spaceship…well, not THAT incredible but you get he point…..
Well, ima get back to work before massa comes over here lurking over my shoulder…….
Shout outs to my girl Vera…happy birthday love…and to Nina……thank you for continuing to believe in me and for giving me avenues to continue my craft…….
Love Yall!!!!
Church!!!!
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
CAN I USE YOUR LUNCH CARD??
Could this be?...am I seriously be blogging two days in a row?...say it aint so…yes it is so!!...how are you all doing this afternoon…man, I can remember looking forward to writing like this everyday….seems so long ago…I don’t even know if I have written my 400th blog yet….let me look…..363 done…I have some major work to do!!...how are you all doing today?....I am super blessed…man, it feels good to be in a positive mode…not letting anything bother me…almost did today though....Lord, forgive me…I had to catch myself…..learning that picking your battles is such an important task in life….
I remember when I lost my wallet…my ex wife and I had finished having dinner and from the restaurant to the store, somehow, I lost it….I was frustrated…the next day, I had to go to the social security office to get a new card…..when I walked in, it was packed….and it was early….I had to go to work so I couldn’t stay too long…actually I was there for about an hour and a half and after that, my patience wore thin and I left….the next two days I returned with the same obstacle…..line long as Texas, and I didn’t want to wait…..eventually, I had to take off a half of day from work so I could be seen…I had to get my new social security card…..
Sometimes our impatience allows us to miss our blessings….Monday, a good friend of mine called and I was telling him about my desire to stop making music…his reply?...”stay in line long enough, you will get to the window”……and that is a very true statement....it may not be our at a particular moment so we must wait….we must continue to walk in the faith that eventually, it will be our turn to get our needs and wishes granted…sometimes, I see people get jealous of others receiving blessings, wishing and praying it was them….what we don’t know is how faithful they were doing that process….the adversity they faced during their wait,…and the optimism they maintained knowing it shall be done…..lets not be discouraged by what we don’t see knowing and believing what will be……
This blog is dedicated to myself……my mind is fluctuating right now, moving through all facets of my life…my intent is always good…..but there are days where I am weary….they are times when giving up seems easier….to get out of the line of blessings because I have something else to do…..but I cant do it along….and after it is all said and done all I can do is stand…..and wait patiently….with love and anticipation that the request I have asked for will be granted….my journey cant be over….I have yet to reach my window of prosperity….and for that reason alone, I know that I have great things in store for me……..and remember....He has enough behind his counter for everyone….once he serves one person, he’s not done…you will never be shortchanged from your blessings!!
Not gonna take up too much time……gonna get out of here shortly……just wanted to get in the habit of blogging again…….
Love yall!!!!
Church!!
I remember when I lost my wallet…my ex wife and I had finished having dinner and from the restaurant to the store, somehow, I lost it….I was frustrated…the next day, I had to go to the social security office to get a new card…..when I walked in, it was packed….and it was early….I had to go to work so I couldn’t stay too long…actually I was there for about an hour and a half and after that, my patience wore thin and I left….the next two days I returned with the same obstacle…..line long as Texas, and I didn’t want to wait…..eventually, I had to take off a half of day from work so I could be seen…I had to get my new social security card…..
Sometimes our impatience allows us to miss our blessings….Monday, a good friend of mine called and I was telling him about my desire to stop making music…his reply?...”stay in line long enough, you will get to the window”……and that is a very true statement....it may not be our at a particular moment so we must wait….we must continue to walk in the faith that eventually, it will be our turn to get our needs and wishes granted…sometimes, I see people get jealous of others receiving blessings, wishing and praying it was them….what we don’t know is how faithful they were doing that process….the adversity they faced during their wait,…and the optimism they maintained knowing it shall be done…..lets not be discouraged by what we don’t see knowing and believing what will be……
This blog is dedicated to myself……my mind is fluctuating right now, moving through all facets of my life…my intent is always good…..but there are days where I am weary….they are times when giving up seems easier….to get out of the line of blessings because I have something else to do…..but I cant do it along….and after it is all said and done all I can do is stand…..and wait patiently….with love and anticipation that the request I have asked for will be granted….my journey cant be over….I have yet to reach my window of prosperity….and for that reason alone, I know that I have great things in store for me……..and remember....He has enough behind his counter for everyone….once he serves one person, he’s not done…you will never be shortchanged from your blessings!!
Not gonna take up too much time……gonna get out of here shortly……just wanted to get in the habit of blogging again…….
Love yall!!!!
Church!!
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
EDIBLE WORDS, NO CHICKEN SOUP!!
Guess whose back in the motherlovin house…with a fat blog for your motherlovin mouth!!....lol….what’s good my people….happy new year, merry xmas and all that good stuff…to my new friends, I welcome you…..wow, it has been a minute since I wrote you all....and so much going on…..but I can say, I have been totally blessed since the last time we conversed…..don’t know where to start and of course, I never know where I will end….gonna try not to make this too long so I can get out of work as soon as I am done….
Last we spoke, I was considering retirement from the entertainment industry….it has been a very difficult road that I was not sure I could stay on…my decision is still pending, but only in the realm of making music…..I love what I do within the industry, I just don’t know if making music is one of them….it is so political here in Dallas….my grandfather used to tell me, its not what you know, its who you know...and boy was he right….and to think of all the people I have come across down here, its still like pulling teeth to get them to listen to a song, or read a blog, or just give a person an opportunity…and its not just me….I have other ventures that compensate my need for attention….what about these other artist??....there grind and music may be even better than mine, but since they are not in the friend loop, they get overlooked....and its sad…..so I am thinking about managing….helping others get the exposure they so rightfully deserve….and it may not be in Dallas where that recognition is realized….dreams are bigger that OCT……and that’s not October…..
Well I have my own radio show now….every Sunday from 6-10pm CENTRAL STANDARD TIME, you can check me out on www.spindatmusic.com on the hip hop/r&b station....my show is called Spaceship’s Incredible Sunday Showdown…..i’m only three weeks in, but it has been so fun…something I look forward to everyweek….you can go online and listen for yourself…..because of the way I feel about the industry, I am giving artist opportunies ot get there music played on air, maybe come down for an interview, and be a featured guest….that is, if your music is hot…..its exciting to me and I absolutely love it....make sure you check it out……
Got a lot of shows coming up in the next few weeks…..I may be sending out flyers for those coming up so I hope you can come out a few times and check me out….support is definitely needed…..
For a minute there, I was depressed….yes, even Spaceship has his moments….I questioned my reason for doing what I do….like I said, as great as many of you believe I am....and I thank you for it, the love and respect of the Dallas industry was not there…..financial problems, relationship issues, tired of my job…it all bunched in at one moment….you know how older folks say that God wont put more on you than you can bare?.....I learned that I can bare a lot….in my mind, I wanted to break down….but my body and my mind didn’t…..I went to church on New Years Eve….yep, no parties, no chilling at the crib, no “cuddling”……and I am so happy I did….I laid my burdens down….and honestly, I don’t know the last time I did that….we say we believe in God and his powers but how many times have we just said, “you know what God, here. Here are my trials and tribulations and lets see you handle them!”…..and you know what, he did…..I was asked the other day what has been the biggest difference between this year and last year…..and you know what, its my thinking…sometimes we can think ourselves into depression….we can make situations and circumstances so big in our mind that we never worry about the solution….I was too busy giving myself a pity party…and it showed at work, talking to women, with my daughter’s mom, even my music….not much has changed as far as my situations….my thinking has altered though….I am no longer worried about the problem, yet searching for the solution…..instead of holding on to past hurts and suppressions, I have let them go….I have lived with a pride issue….worried that I would looked down upon for changing my beliefs……I can no longer continue to hold on to such things….
2011 will be a great year for everyone if you believe it…..everyone has their own story….and we determine what is written on the pages of our lives….why don’t we deserve a happy ending?...each one of have been the symbol of despair at one point in our life…but if we dot believe that God can do all things, who do we believe can?....so let go and let God…I have and I feel better, I think better, and I act better…..to those I have offended and hurt due to my actions of 2011, I am deeply apologetic…..sometimes I failed to realize the impact I had on one’s life…..my intent is never to hurt; it is of love….my “resolution” is to be better each day and focus only on the positives…..
Well, I am out of here….remember if you need a hot host, MC, performer, speaker, or writer, you know who to call…and follow me on twitter@spaceshipo
Love yall dearly!!
Church!!!
Last we spoke, I was considering retirement from the entertainment industry….it has been a very difficult road that I was not sure I could stay on…my decision is still pending, but only in the realm of making music…..I love what I do within the industry, I just don’t know if making music is one of them….it is so political here in Dallas….my grandfather used to tell me, its not what you know, its who you know...and boy was he right….and to think of all the people I have come across down here, its still like pulling teeth to get them to listen to a song, or read a blog, or just give a person an opportunity…and its not just me….I have other ventures that compensate my need for attention….what about these other artist??....there grind and music may be even better than mine, but since they are not in the friend loop, they get overlooked....and its sad…..so I am thinking about managing….helping others get the exposure they so rightfully deserve….and it may not be in Dallas where that recognition is realized….dreams are bigger that OCT……and that’s not October…..
Well I have my own radio show now….every Sunday from 6-10pm CENTRAL STANDARD TIME, you can check me out on www.spindatmusic.com on the hip hop/r&b station....my show is called Spaceship’s Incredible Sunday Showdown…..i’m only three weeks in, but it has been so fun…something I look forward to everyweek….you can go online and listen for yourself…..because of the way I feel about the industry, I am giving artist opportunies ot get there music played on air, maybe come down for an interview, and be a featured guest….that is, if your music is hot…..its exciting to me and I absolutely love it....make sure you check it out……
Got a lot of shows coming up in the next few weeks…..I may be sending out flyers for those coming up so I hope you can come out a few times and check me out….support is definitely needed…..
For a minute there, I was depressed….yes, even Spaceship has his moments….I questioned my reason for doing what I do….like I said, as great as many of you believe I am....and I thank you for it, the love and respect of the Dallas industry was not there…..financial problems, relationship issues, tired of my job…it all bunched in at one moment….you know how older folks say that God wont put more on you than you can bare?.....I learned that I can bare a lot….in my mind, I wanted to break down….but my body and my mind didn’t…..I went to church on New Years Eve….yep, no parties, no chilling at the crib, no “cuddling”……and I am so happy I did….I laid my burdens down….and honestly, I don’t know the last time I did that….we say we believe in God and his powers but how many times have we just said, “you know what God, here. Here are my trials and tribulations and lets see you handle them!”…..and you know what, he did…..I was asked the other day what has been the biggest difference between this year and last year…..and you know what, its my thinking…sometimes we can think ourselves into depression….we can make situations and circumstances so big in our mind that we never worry about the solution….I was too busy giving myself a pity party…and it showed at work, talking to women, with my daughter’s mom, even my music….not much has changed as far as my situations….my thinking has altered though….I am no longer worried about the problem, yet searching for the solution…..instead of holding on to past hurts and suppressions, I have let them go….I have lived with a pride issue….worried that I would looked down upon for changing my beliefs……I can no longer continue to hold on to such things….
2011 will be a great year for everyone if you believe it…..everyone has their own story….and we determine what is written on the pages of our lives….why don’t we deserve a happy ending?...each one of have been the symbol of despair at one point in our life…but if we dot believe that God can do all things, who do we believe can?....so let go and let God…I have and I feel better, I think better, and I act better…..to those I have offended and hurt due to my actions of 2011, I am deeply apologetic…..sometimes I failed to realize the impact I had on one’s life…..my intent is never to hurt; it is of love….my “resolution” is to be better each day and focus only on the positives…..
Well, I am out of here….remember if you need a hot host, MC, performer, speaker, or writer, you know who to call…and follow me on twitter@spaceshipo
Love yall dearly!!
Church!!!
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
MY NEW YEAR REVELATION!!!
Tis the season!!.....hola folks…I hope that this holiday has brought you all much cheer……2011 is quickly approaching and while many have resolutions that they hope not to break within the first week, I’m going to simply work on making each day of my life better than the last…..Christmas was Christmas of course, and now its time to look forward to another calendar year of life…..I will make an honest attempt next year, to get back on these blogs like I used to…its hard when your life is so boring now….but I do miss you guys….and when I do blog, I usually get such great feedback!!........
***BREAKING NEWS!!!!*** JUST GOT A CALL CONFIRMING HOSTING AND PERFORMING AT A CONCERT FOR SUPER BOWL!!!......GOD IS SO GOOD TO ME!!.......
Hopefully, I can get the band to play if applicable……this is very exciting news to me….I pray everything goes well in this endeavor and a lot of you can come out and see me rock the show…..more details to come!!........
Its crazy how I sit here so many days contemplating retirement……even at the young age of 30, God has blessed me to do so many things…..some successful, while others were learning experiences…..I have tried hard to hold on to the fact that I am touching someone’s life and the things I do are not in vain……there are days when my conviction is weak…..times when I feel the fight is doing more harm than good on my spiritual, emotional, and professional journeys…then there is that subtle reality check……..
Today is Mr. John Rhymes’ birthday…..this is the man that I owe my life to….as a mentor, he was the first adult I can remember that loved me in spite of……even when I was constantly getting kicked out of school, he didn’t scold me like most…..but don’t take that as soft….he just forced me to think about more than the streets…..and I have never been as defiant as more young men in the hood…my grandmother, regardless of our relationship, did not allow me to buck up against her or call her out her name…….I simply left home thinking I could make it by myself…..well, I always had Mr. Rhymes in my corner……
I called him today to wish him happy birthday…I haven’t talked to him in a year and after about the 2nd month of no communication, I felt so guilty, I still didn’t call for fear of hearing disappointment in his voice…yet, when I heard from him today, he sounded excited like it was him that owed me something…all the trepidation was instantly gone…..we talked about what he has been up to and lately, he told me, he has been substituting at an alternative school…now, Mr. Rhymes is retired….he worked for the school system in Flint for a long time…..things happen and he ended up in a classroom…..the point of it all is, the kids and teachers appreciate him…..for everything he has done, he is still touching lives…..his glass half full mentality is infectious even 13 years later after I graduated high school…..and you could hear how humble he was in his voice……..
I don’t know how much longer I have in this industry…..as I mentioned, there are a lot of times that I feel its time to stop…..become regular……in these past few months where shows and opportunities have lessened, I have enjoyed it……but I have gotten really lazy and lax…I still go out, network, make music, and things of that sort…but not like I used to…..and not being a blessing to people bothers me…..its very hard for me to be unimportant…..I strive on making change….I want to make changes in the world……I pride myself on being the best person I can for as many people as I can….and when I am neutral, I have a hermit mentality…I realized, that until that final date, I will do my best to be my best…..
This is my resolution, of sorts…….to never stop being a blessing…to never get too weary to help others….to let my selfishness and bitterness die and the presence of the Lord shine in all my endeavors…..I will not stop, I can not stop….at this moment in my life I feel like a car getting a new engine….no, the old one was not completely dead, but before that happens, my mechanic will place a new engine inside me…..if he does not complete the work, the car cant move…..it has absolutely no value….so I have to get fixed so that I can run smoother…..and help people travel from one place in their lives to the next….after all, I am Spaceship Ohayses!!.......
Well I’m going to get out of here…once again, HAPPY BIRTHDAY MR. RHYMES….I love you and I thank you for all that you have done for me….I know without you in my life, I would not be where I am……God Bless you my friend…..
Church!!!
***BREAKING NEWS!!!!*** JUST GOT A CALL CONFIRMING HOSTING AND PERFORMING AT A CONCERT FOR SUPER BOWL!!!......GOD IS SO GOOD TO ME!!.......
Hopefully, I can get the band to play if applicable……this is very exciting news to me….I pray everything goes well in this endeavor and a lot of you can come out and see me rock the show…..more details to come!!........
Its crazy how I sit here so many days contemplating retirement……even at the young age of 30, God has blessed me to do so many things…..some successful, while others were learning experiences…..I have tried hard to hold on to the fact that I am touching someone’s life and the things I do are not in vain……there are days when my conviction is weak…..times when I feel the fight is doing more harm than good on my spiritual, emotional, and professional journeys…then there is that subtle reality check……..
Today is Mr. John Rhymes’ birthday…..this is the man that I owe my life to….as a mentor, he was the first adult I can remember that loved me in spite of……even when I was constantly getting kicked out of school, he didn’t scold me like most…..but don’t take that as soft….he just forced me to think about more than the streets…..and I have never been as defiant as more young men in the hood…my grandmother, regardless of our relationship, did not allow me to buck up against her or call her out her name…….I simply left home thinking I could make it by myself…..well, I always had Mr. Rhymes in my corner……
I called him today to wish him happy birthday…I haven’t talked to him in a year and after about the 2nd month of no communication, I felt so guilty, I still didn’t call for fear of hearing disappointment in his voice…yet, when I heard from him today, he sounded excited like it was him that owed me something…all the trepidation was instantly gone…..we talked about what he has been up to and lately, he told me, he has been substituting at an alternative school…now, Mr. Rhymes is retired….he worked for the school system in Flint for a long time…..things happen and he ended up in a classroom…..the point of it all is, the kids and teachers appreciate him…..for everything he has done, he is still touching lives…..his glass half full mentality is infectious even 13 years later after I graduated high school…..and you could hear how humble he was in his voice……..
I don’t know how much longer I have in this industry…..as I mentioned, there are a lot of times that I feel its time to stop…..become regular……in these past few months where shows and opportunities have lessened, I have enjoyed it……but I have gotten really lazy and lax…I still go out, network, make music, and things of that sort…but not like I used to…..and not being a blessing to people bothers me…..its very hard for me to be unimportant…..I strive on making change….I want to make changes in the world……I pride myself on being the best person I can for as many people as I can….and when I am neutral, I have a hermit mentality…I realized, that until that final date, I will do my best to be my best…..
This is my resolution, of sorts…….to never stop being a blessing…to never get too weary to help others….to let my selfishness and bitterness die and the presence of the Lord shine in all my endeavors…..I will not stop, I can not stop….at this moment in my life I feel like a car getting a new engine….no, the old one was not completely dead, but before that happens, my mechanic will place a new engine inside me…..if he does not complete the work, the car cant move…..it has absolutely no value….so I have to get fixed so that I can run smoother…..and help people travel from one place in their lives to the next….after all, I am Spaceship Ohayses!!.......
Well I’m going to get out of here…once again, HAPPY BIRTHDAY MR. RHYMES….I love you and I thank you for all that you have done for me….I know without you in my life, I would not be where I am……God Bless you my friend…..
Church!!!
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
SAM'S CLUB PORTION OF FATE.....
Its 11:29…..I got me a mocha frappe in my hand…and I decided to write…..how are you all doing?.....I am good…very good right now……to those that are reading for the first time, welcome….to those that have rode with me on this journey for nearly two years, hello……..realistically, I don’t have a clue what to talk about tonight……but I will shortly…..motivation to the left of me……I guess the sole purpose of this blog is to let you all know I am alright…..God has been good to me….and I am anticipating great things in 2011……..dang, 11 years after the world was gonna end?!..........that’s a long time……
Just performed at Kwanzaa Fest this past Saturday…..it was one of the larger crowds, I have had the privilege of performing in front of…..I enjoyed every minute of it…..in my mind, it was a big time venue…..it was a chance to meet new people, interact with local favorites and legends, and get some exposure on a bigger Dallas level…..it helped me to realize that maybe I’m not done yet…..maybe I can get the consumers to respect and want my music…..performances have been so sporadic the past six months, it has been very hard to gauge my audience……but I’m working on it…….
Got a show Christmas Eve……I know that’s a busy time for a lot of people…but if you get the chance, come on out…..it’s at TI Blvd……very special guest will be in the building….I will be hosting as well as performing…..its only 5 bucks…..I think…I will get you details in the upcoming days……
I have finally decided that Act A Fool will be my first single from the album…..I know what you thinking….the album has been out over a year and you just decided on your lead single…..yep…..those are the breaks when It comes to music…..on a tangent, I have learned so much about the business side of this game in the last year, while possibly performing the least in over 3 years……you truly got to have your ducks in a row…..its hard releasing an album when you don’t have one precise song that people can identify you with……yeah, some folks know some songs….I need to get as many people as possible to know this one song……so, this is what we are doing…..
IF YOU ARE READING THIS...NO MATTER WHERE YOU ARE….CITY, STATE, COUNTRY……YOU CAN TEXT SPACESHIP OHAYSES “ACT A FOOL” TO 51045 and 3145….it will take you less than a minute to do…..and if you want to hear the song, google me…or go to www.reverbnation.com/spaceshipohayses ....as a matter in fact, I encourage you to…..
I think that is part of the issue I fight within my spirit……not knowing if you know….it’s crazy how we support the things we want….and the truth is, without fans, I am nothing….but have u taken the time to check out the music….seriously?.....we listen to Short Bus Shorty….and Antoine Dodson…..and anything else deemed hilarious…..I, on the other hand, can’t get people I personally know to simply check something out and tell others…..not getting into a pity party here either…its facts….some days I wonder if I am just conjuring up my greatness in music…..and then I have people tell me how they like my music…..but who do they tell…the buck stops with them….I have been at clubs where people come up to me and want a particular song played…..are there people out there asking the DJ does he have Spaceship Ohayses??....am I simply taken for granted because I am not a big name now?.....how many times has my CD been played in people’s vehicles, homes, events?......this is the realistic stance I have to take concerning my artistry……
I have contemplated retiring on many occasions…sometimes, it’s just not worth it……there are plenty days where the risk outweighs the reward simply because I look at what is…..my grandfather taught me never to be a beggar, but am I doing enough?......am I convincing enough to have you take a chance on me?......or am I fighting a fight I can’t win?......is the truth, that I am not as great as I think or has my time passed me by?......I can only make so many sacrifices for my daughter until I realize I have nothing left to give to this industry…….
I look at some of the relationships I have made over this time frame and while some people say they want to be within my circle….in whatever facet…how can I accept that statement knowing you only want to be friends with the man behind Spaceship Ohayses……it’s a package deal here folks…..and no matter who you are, why would u associate yourself with people who don’t support your dream?....I have enough facebook friends..probably too many…..had enough females that just wanted to cut….here, buy a ringtone or something……it baffles me how some just wanna lay and wait to see if I will sink or swim….you mean to tell me you know me but don’t even know a title of one of my songs?...that’s impossible to fathom simply because everyone knows this is my life……
I do think about how many people will come around when God does bless me…….I pray my attitude changes by then….
I think about my mom and other members of my family that will finally forgive me for past sins…..
And to the ladies that didn’t believe in me……or didn’t want to because Lil Wayne is their favorite rapper…….
Sorry folks……some people can tell you that they don’t care what others think about them…but as an entertainer, I do……if you don’t like my brand of entertainment, what am I doing it for?......if you don’t feel the urge to use the simplest for of advertisement; word of mouth, what does that really say about your position on my craft……every ball player doesn’t make it to the NBA….and some of them have been pretty good…..so sooner or later, I may have to accept my fate……I won’t feel defeated…I have tried my hardest to bring to you something good….something different…..something timeless……and all I can do is try…..I have experienced great things along my journey in music……and loved every minute of it…….but the facts remain….if no one is asking for my music, why should a DJ play it?.......if no one is trying to buy it, why should anyone sell it?.......and if no one is listening to it, why should I record it?.........
Love yall!!!!
Church!!!!
Just performed at Kwanzaa Fest this past Saturday…..it was one of the larger crowds, I have had the privilege of performing in front of…..I enjoyed every minute of it…..in my mind, it was a big time venue…..it was a chance to meet new people, interact with local favorites and legends, and get some exposure on a bigger Dallas level…..it helped me to realize that maybe I’m not done yet…..maybe I can get the consumers to respect and want my music…..performances have been so sporadic the past six months, it has been very hard to gauge my audience……but I’m working on it…….
Got a show Christmas Eve……I know that’s a busy time for a lot of people…but if you get the chance, come on out…..it’s at TI Blvd……very special guest will be in the building….I will be hosting as well as performing…..its only 5 bucks…..I think…I will get you details in the upcoming days……
I have finally decided that Act A Fool will be my first single from the album…..I know what you thinking….the album has been out over a year and you just decided on your lead single…..yep…..those are the breaks when It comes to music…..on a tangent, I have learned so much about the business side of this game in the last year, while possibly performing the least in over 3 years……you truly got to have your ducks in a row…..its hard releasing an album when you don’t have one precise song that people can identify you with……yeah, some folks know some songs….I need to get as many people as possible to know this one song……so, this is what we are doing…..
IF YOU ARE READING THIS...NO MATTER WHERE YOU ARE….CITY, STATE, COUNTRY……YOU CAN TEXT SPACESHIP OHAYSES “ACT A FOOL” TO 51045 and 3145….it will take you less than a minute to do…..and if you want to hear the song, google me…or go to www.reverbnation.com/spaceshipohayses ....as a matter in fact, I encourage you to…..
I think that is part of the issue I fight within my spirit……not knowing if you know….it’s crazy how we support the things we want….and the truth is, without fans, I am nothing….but have u taken the time to check out the music….seriously?.....we listen to Short Bus Shorty….and Antoine Dodson…..and anything else deemed hilarious…..I, on the other hand, can’t get people I personally know to simply check something out and tell others…..not getting into a pity party here either…its facts….some days I wonder if I am just conjuring up my greatness in music…..and then I have people tell me how they like my music…..but who do they tell…the buck stops with them….I have been at clubs where people come up to me and want a particular song played…..are there people out there asking the DJ does he have Spaceship Ohayses??....am I simply taken for granted because I am not a big name now?.....how many times has my CD been played in people’s vehicles, homes, events?......this is the realistic stance I have to take concerning my artistry……
I have contemplated retiring on many occasions…sometimes, it’s just not worth it……there are plenty days where the risk outweighs the reward simply because I look at what is…..my grandfather taught me never to be a beggar, but am I doing enough?......am I convincing enough to have you take a chance on me?......or am I fighting a fight I can’t win?......is the truth, that I am not as great as I think or has my time passed me by?......I can only make so many sacrifices for my daughter until I realize I have nothing left to give to this industry…….
I look at some of the relationships I have made over this time frame and while some people say they want to be within my circle….in whatever facet…how can I accept that statement knowing you only want to be friends with the man behind Spaceship Ohayses……it’s a package deal here folks…..and no matter who you are, why would u associate yourself with people who don’t support your dream?....I have enough facebook friends..probably too many…..had enough females that just wanted to cut….here, buy a ringtone or something……it baffles me how some just wanna lay and wait to see if I will sink or swim….you mean to tell me you know me but don’t even know a title of one of my songs?...that’s impossible to fathom simply because everyone knows this is my life……
I do think about how many people will come around when God does bless me…….I pray my attitude changes by then….
I think about my mom and other members of my family that will finally forgive me for past sins…..
And to the ladies that didn’t believe in me……or didn’t want to because Lil Wayne is their favorite rapper…….
Sorry folks……some people can tell you that they don’t care what others think about them…but as an entertainer, I do……if you don’t like my brand of entertainment, what am I doing it for?......if you don’t feel the urge to use the simplest for of advertisement; word of mouth, what does that really say about your position on my craft……every ball player doesn’t make it to the NBA….and some of them have been pretty good…..so sooner or later, I may have to accept my fate……I won’t feel defeated…I have tried my hardest to bring to you something good….something different…..something timeless……and all I can do is try…..I have experienced great things along my journey in music……and loved every minute of it…….but the facts remain….if no one is asking for my music, why should a DJ play it?.......if no one is trying to buy it, why should anyone sell it?.......and if no one is listening to it, why should I record it?.........
Love yall!!!!
Church!!!!
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