Guess whose back in the motherlovin house…with a fat blog for your motherlovin mouth!!....lol….what’s good my people….happy new year, merry xmas and all that good stuff…to my new friends, I welcome you…..wow, it has been a minute since I wrote you all....and so much going on…..but I can say, I have been totally blessed since the last time we conversed…..don’t know where to start and of course, I never know where I will end….gonna try not to make this too long so I can get out of work as soon as I am done….
Last we spoke, I was considering retirement from the entertainment industry….it has been a very difficult road that I was not sure I could stay on…my decision is still pending, but only in the realm of making music…..I love what I do within the industry, I just don’t know if making music is one of them….it is so political here in Dallas….my grandfather used to tell me, its not what you know, its who you know...and boy was he right….and to think of all the people I have come across down here, its still like pulling teeth to get them to listen to a song, or read a blog, or just give a person an opportunity…and its not just me….I have other ventures that compensate my need for attention….what about these other artist??....there grind and music may be even better than mine, but since they are not in the friend loop, they get overlooked....and its sad…..so I am thinking about managing….helping others get the exposure they so rightfully deserve….and it may not be in Dallas where that recognition is realized….dreams are bigger that OCT……and that’s not October…..
Well I have my own radio show now….every Sunday from 6-10pm CENTRAL STANDARD TIME, you can check me out on www.spindatmusic.com on the hip hop/r&b station....my show is called Spaceship’s Incredible Sunday Showdown…..i’m only three weeks in, but it has been so fun…something I look forward to everyweek….you can go online and listen for yourself…..because of the way I feel about the industry, I am giving artist opportunies ot get there music played on air, maybe come down for an interview, and be a featured guest….that is, if your music is hot…..its exciting to me and I absolutely love it....make sure you check it out……
Got a lot of shows coming up in the next few weeks…..I may be sending out flyers for those coming up so I hope you can come out a few times and check me out….support is definitely needed…..
For a minute there, I was depressed….yes, even Spaceship has his moments….I questioned my reason for doing what I do….like I said, as great as many of you believe I am....and I thank you for it, the love and respect of the Dallas industry was not there…..financial problems, relationship issues, tired of my job…it all bunched in at one moment….you know how older folks say that God wont put more on you than you can bare?.....I learned that I can bare a lot….in my mind, I wanted to break down….but my body and my mind didn’t…..I went to church on New Years Eve….yep, no parties, no chilling at the crib, no “cuddling”……and I am so happy I did….I laid my burdens down….and honestly, I don’t know the last time I did that….we say we believe in God and his powers but how many times have we just said, “you know what God, here. Here are my trials and tribulations and lets see you handle them!”…..and you know what, he did…..I was asked the other day what has been the biggest difference between this year and last year…..and you know what, its my thinking…sometimes we can think ourselves into depression….we can make situations and circumstances so big in our mind that we never worry about the solution….I was too busy giving myself a pity party…and it showed at work, talking to women, with my daughter’s mom, even my music….not much has changed as far as my situations….my thinking has altered though….I am no longer worried about the problem, yet searching for the solution…..instead of holding on to past hurts and suppressions, I have let them go….I have lived with a pride issue….worried that I would looked down upon for changing my beliefs……I can no longer continue to hold on to such things….
2011 will be a great year for everyone if you believe it…..everyone has their own story….and we determine what is written on the pages of our lives….why don’t we deserve a happy ending?...each one of have been the symbol of despair at one point in our life…but if we dot believe that God can do all things, who do we believe can?....so let go and let God…I have and I feel better, I think better, and I act better…..to those I have offended and hurt due to my actions of 2011, I am deeply apologetic…..sometimes I failed to realize the impact I had on one’s life…..my intent is never to hurt; it is of love….my “resolution” is to be better each day and focus only on the positives…..
Well, I am out of here….remember if you need a hot host, MC, performer, speaker, or writer, you know who to call…and follow me on twitter@spaceshipo
Love yall dearly!!
Church!!!
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