Years are fast. I never imagined that the last blog I would
write would be my last for almost a year.
The world has changed tremendously for me, and I will do my best to itemize
this adventure without pissing off too many people. The question I have though
is, “should it matter who I piss off?” In the year I have been gone, I have had
a journey that only I was allowed to take. True, there have been many guardians
by my side, but the walk has been a singular one. Last December is such a
distant memory and yet, as 2013 approaches, I am excited about the things I
have coming in store. I missed y'all tremendously. There were a few times when I attempted to
write. I think the day I got fired from my job, the day Operation Hip Hop
dropped, and yesterday, the 3 year anniversary of my grandma passing. For some reason, I deferred on those dates
and chose today. I do apologize for my procrastination. It was intentional.
Well, for those that don’t know, I’m a full blown
entertainer. Got fired from my job in March; a week before my birthday. And I
was honestly relieved. I had asked God to take me from that situation but to
make sure I could maintain my financial responsibilities. He has done that and
much more. Just based on this year, my
lifelong resolution is to do right by him forever. I literally saw what he can do if you
believe. And believing sometimes can be the hardest thing. Especially to
believe in someone we can easily forget about. I think we tend to think we do
all of this alone. Promotions, kids, dating, advancements in life- we are not
that powerful. We dictate the paths we take, but those paths are only given to
us by God. For the first time in my life, I feel I am finally taking the right
paths.
Sometimes it’s the simplest things that can change one’s
fortunes. For me, it was my thinking. My actions were cool, but I lived with
much doubt. Doubt in myself, doubt in my dreams, doubt in my ability to be
great. I even think there was a fear to succeed. If I do make it, what next?? I
had every excuse not to move to the next level. I didn’t want to charge people
that have looked out for me, I was loyal to those that helped me get to where I
was, and I don’t want to leave my kids. To me, these were valid points. So why
am I doing this if I’m never going to expand my vision?? I can’t be a local
joker; I have to succeed. When I looked
at all the investments I have made for this career, I can’t give up now. Once
that thought began to process in my brain and the wheels started turning, I
began to walk into that destiny. More doors were opening, not because of hook
up factors, but because I EARNED them. My focus lessened on the struggle and
more on the journey. We look at the circumstance too much in our lives. There
are a lot of people living close to that poverty line; it’s simply your outlook
and if you will let your circumstance determine your happiness.
Faith with works is dead. You can talk all day about what you
gonna do, but what are you really doing?? Are you really putting in the time
and effort into your dream? As an artist and a host, I see both sides of the
spectrum. Its funny how I hear these cats talk about grinding and hustling but
I rarely see you out in the streets. Posting videos and YouTube links on
facebook don’t count. And yes, we all have lives and things to do. If that’s the
case, STOP RAPPING!.....you are making a mockery of the industry and wasting
time for others that really love this.
There were many things people in the industry told me but until I took a
grasp of those things, I would never succeed. You have to invest in yourself,
you have to create a buzz for yourself, and the music is only part of the
business. The more you sew, the more you will reap. It is in your investment into
yourself that the benefits will come. How do you gain interest on money if you
never put anything in the bank?
So this is what is on my mind now. Greatness. Working and
focusing on being the best person I can be and doing it honestly with respect
to all those I am involved with. I want to extend a thank you for those that have
stood by me this past year. I know I have a handful to work with lol. I’m
getting there. You all will be hearing from me again very soon.
Love Yall!!!!
Church!!
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