What’s good great people?.....yeah, I’m writing again…on a Sunday no less…..but I have time and I miss being able to vent to you all and this seemed like as good of time as any…..lots of things going on for me….and in the world…..and I appreciate those of you that are actually standing by me through thick and thin……so shall I proceed?.......
I’ve been thinking about giving it all up……yea, I said it……..and I don’t feel like I’m quitting……for most of you that know me, understand I am a pretty factual person…..one of my flaws may be that I don’t go off emotion too many times…..as I have taken this journey as an entertainer, I have always proclaimed that there are two jobs that you need to have people supporting you….and those are the President and an entertainer…..I have achieved many successes and have done things I would have never dreamed of……the fact remains though, I’m still not “on”…..yea, I do a lot of things in Dallas……name is recognized….but let’s not trip….im not on any magazine covers or at any awards shows……and yes, it does bother me………I was hoping this talent would allow me never to have my kids struggling like I did growing up……to not have to live check to check……but something is missing…….is it me?.........
I ask myself that a lot because my popularity is limited….i mean, people fucks with me and say they like me…in the end……my numbers don’t show it……I can post about fucking a chick on Facebook and get 20 comments but when I ask someone to check out my music, I can’t even get a like…….and I wonder if I have pigeon holed myself into this situation……being a sexual creature has its advantages…..but what happens when you realize, that’s all someone wants you for?.......that the other piece of you is nothingness to them……I try to be a man of great substance, yet, many people don’t know this side of me……and it’s not like I don’t show it……they just don’t pay attention…..so why am I holding on to the hope that they will support me without ulterior motives??.........
I wish people could see that I mean more good than harm…..my “realness” and being blunt is only a defense to me having to be strong…..i was taught the quickest way to a point is a straight line, so I continue to let my mouth and my brain meet at the same time……when I say how I feel , my intentions are not to hurt….but if someone is going to be hurt in this situation, why must it be me for saying what I feel?......is this scaring people off…..is my tactless nature pushing people who would otherwise be there for me away….have I been too blind to see it?......i ask myself often, “what happened to my great friend?......was it a façade…or was I so selfish that I didn’t recognize the signs of my transgressions?......
Or am I not that hot?......maybe I am looking in the wrong direction……sometimes, we have to understand when our time has passed and we must cope with this reality……I love what I do…there is not many things that bring me joy as entertaining…….but if I cannot bring the masses to see me, I can stick to writing a bunch of posts on Facebook and leave it at that…..many times, I am asked by artist what can they do to become better…it’s a little more difficult when you don’t have the answers for yourself…..
So I am contemplating……I love you guys tremendously…..and I am grateful to have had this hour to dance……maybe, I can get one more dance before the clock strikes 12…….
Now with that said…....IT GOES DOWN EACH AND EVERY MONDAY FOR GAME NIGHT AT HEROES!!! 7402 GREENVILLE AVE, ITS HAPPY HOUR AND FRE TIL 9!!!...$.50 WINGS, $2 DRINKS, AND GAMES!! SPADES, DOMINOES, UNO, MONOPOLY, AND MANY MORE!!....HOSTED BY SPACESHIP OHAYSES AND DJ LADY JA-ROQ, THIS IS YOUR MONDAY NIGHT CHILL SPOT!!.........COME ON OUT AND KICK IT WITH ME JUST ONE TIME I SAY…..YOU WILL BE HOOKED!!........
MAKE SURE YOU LIKE THE FAN PAGE ON FACEBOOK….HAVING GIVEAWAYS, FREE TICKETS, AND MANY OTHER PRIZES….AND I THOUGHT YOU LIKED ME?!!
Love yall!!!
Church!!
I’ve been thinking about giving it all up……yea, I said it……..and I don’t feel like I’m quitting……for most of you that know me, understand I am a pretty factual person…..one of my flaws may be that I don’t go off emotion too many times…..as I have taken this journey as an entertainer, I have always proclaimed that there are two jobs that you need to have people supporting you….and those are the President and an entertainer…..I have achieved many successes and have done things I would have never dreamed of……the fact remains though, I’m still not “on”…..yea, I do a lot of things in Dallas……name is recognized….but let’s not trip….im not on any magazine covers or at any awards shows……and yes, it does bother me………I was hoping this talent would allow me never to have my kids struggling like I did growing up……to not have to live check to check……but something is missing…….is it me?.........
I ask myself that a lot because my popularity is limited….i mean, people fucks with me and say they like me…in the end……my numbers don’t show it……I can post about fucking a chick on Facebook and get 20 comments but when I ask someone to check out my music, I can’t even get a like…….and I wonder if I have pigeon holed myself into this situation……being a sexual creature has its advantages…..but what happens when you realize, that’s all someone wants you for?.......that the other piece of you is nothingness to them……I try to be a man of great substance, yet, many people don’t know this side of me……and it’s not like I don’t show it……they just don’t pay attention…..so why am I holding on to the hope that they will support me without ulterior motives??.........
I wish people could see that I mean more good than harm…..my “realness” and being blunt is only a defense to me having to be strong…..i was taught the quickest way to a point is a straight line, so I continue to let my mouth and my brain meet at the same time……when I say how I feel , my intentions are not to hurt….but if someone is going to be hurt in this situation, why must it be me for saying what I feel?......is this scaring people off…..is my tactless nature pushing people who would otherwise be there for me away….have I been too blind to see it?......i ask myself often, “what happened to my great friend?......was it a façade…or was I so selfish that I didn’t recognize the signs of my transgressions?......
Or am I not that hot?......maybe I am looking in the wrong direction……sometimes, we have to understand when our time has passed and we must cope with this reality……I love what I do…there is not many things that bring me joy as entertaining…….but if I cannot bring the masses to see me, I can stick to writing a bunch of posts on Facebook and leave it at that…..many times, I am asked by artist what can they do to become better…it’s a little more difficult when you don’t have the answers for yourself…..
So I am contemplating……I love you guys tremendously…..and I am grateful to have had this hour to dance……maybe, I can get one more dance before the clock strikes 12…….
Now with that said…....IT GOES DOWN EACH AND EVERY MONDAY FOR GAME NIGHT AT HEROES!!! 7402 GREENVILLE AVE, ITS HAPPY HOUR AND FRE TIL 9!!!...$.50 WINGS, $2 DRINKS, AND GAMES!! SPADES, DOMINOES, UNO, MONOPOLY, AND MANY MORE!!....HOSTED BY SPACESHIP OHAYSES AND DJ LADY JA-ROQ, THIS IS YOUR MONDAY NIGHT CHILL SPOT!!.........COME ON OUT AND KICK IT WITH ME JUST ONE TIME I SAY…..YOU WILL BE HOOKED!!........
MAKE SURE YOU LIKE THE FAN PAGE ON FACEBOOK….HAVING GIVEAWAYS, FREE TICKETS, AND MANY OTHER PRIZES….AND I THOUGHT YOU LIKED ME?!!
Love yall!!!
Church!!
