Howdy folks!!......how are you all doing today…..yes I know…I didn’t even attempt to do the video blog…….I was being lazy this weekend…well sort of…….how are you all doing today?.......did you even miss me a little??.......I didn’t think so…….its cool…..I missed yall!!!!!.......and I couldn’t wait to write…but seeing that I am at work a little longer, I decided to try to wait to write so that when I am finish, work is almost over for me/………I pray you all had a safe weekend……..I didn’t do much…..kicked it with Jayla and opened some doors………
So the ball is rolling….the plan is coming to fruition…very shortly folks, my comedy spectacular will be in effect…..this will not be for the faint at heart……this is something that I am looking forward to doing on a monthly basis…I have a meeting tonight with a club owner….pray for me…..I can admit I was in a rut for a split second…..not knowing what I was going to do next…but now I have a few ideas…..actually, a bunch of ideas…..I have been working for other people for so long, its become a habit……even when it comes to hosting……now I know I need to get my own night……do my own thing….and see if I can sink or swim……I love hosting and performing but the money is not what that is right now….and reality is, I need to get my worth…….so now, is the time…..either you sink or swim with Essential Entertainment……..
Am I bitter?....not in the least…but I have caught myself worrying about you all not coming to shows or if you are reading the blog……if you are too busy looking at the fly on the windshield, you will miss the traffic in front of you…….so I have to focus on my destination…….an I hope you guys continue this journey and come out and support……the music is still bumping….the ringtones are out…….the shows are everywhere…….all you need to do is take that chance to give your eyes and ears some much needed release from the norm……………
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOHHHHHH!!!....why did I watch some of that “to catch a predator” series last night…….it was so sad…..now I know there is an answer for this question, but why would a grown ass man take, condoms, liquor, rope, duct tape, and an overnight bag to a 12 year old girls house??.........like seriously…what’s sexy about a 12 year old…….what is in their mind to want a girl that young……..and if I come to your house…wait…nevermind…I’m not coming to your house…..for NO REASON WHATSOEVER……….I don’t think I have anything in common with a 12 year old boy besides we both pee the same way…….I hope……..so ridiculous………
And why don’t we ever see women preying on young boys…..don’t get it twisted…its out there……..I don’t think we look at it in the same light as the other way around……but its some nasty grown women out here…best believe that……..
I haven’t talked about this subject much this year so I will touch on it very briefly……THE LOS ANGELES LAKERS WILL WIN THE NBA CHAMPIONSHIP AGAIN THIS YEAR!!!!!........don’t think because they aren’t playing their best, that means they are doomed……they are resting themselves……..the Mavs don’t have a chance…..LeBron is not what that is………and the rest of the field…..jokes…..mark my words people……Kobe is not done yet……but the NBA season has been looking good…a lot of surprises and great players stepped up this year………
I NEED EVERYONE’S ATTENTION!!!!!!.......DJ LADY JA-ROQ’S OPEN MIC SHOWCASE HAS MOVED TO WEDNESDAYS!!!.......COME ON OUT TO ROLLS ROYCE OFF 635 AND SKILLMAN AND SHOW US WHAT YOU HAVE!!!!.......WE ARE STILL GIVING AWAY $250…..AND NOW, WE ARE ALSO LETTING YOU HAVE YOUR OWN 15 MINUTES SHOWCASE SLOT…..FOR DETAILS, YOU HAVE TO BE THERE……DOORS OPEN AT 10!!............DONT BE LATE KNUCKLEHEADS!!!!!!..........
ALSO, THIS SATURDAY, SPACESHIP OHAYSES WILL BE LIVE IN CONCERT!!!......”WHAT SHOULD BE ON THE RADIO PART 2” WILL BE TAKING PLACE AT ROB’S BILLIARDS AND SPORTS BAR IN FT WORTH, TX……..13930 TRINITY BAR IS THE ADDRESS……….DOORS OPEN AT 9, SHOW STARTS AT 10…….IT WILL BE PACKED WITH SOME OF THE BEST ARTIST AROUND!!!.....IF YOU DON’T KNOW, YOU NEED TO BE THERE IN PERSON…COST IS $5 ALL NIGHT LONG!!!!....$5, CMON YOU DON’T HAVE IT??..........TRUST YOU WILL TOTALLY ENJOY YOURSELF…….
FYI: I put the address on here….don’t ask me for directions……google them!!!........it is not that hard….and I am not trying to be funny…..but it so much easier that way…..cause I don’t know where it is……and I don’t know when I am performing either!!!!......get there at 9, have some drinks with me, and enjoy the concert!!!!..........
Well, its not time to go yet…….but I think I have written enough…….I think……oh yeah…had some “talks” today with different people….I want yall to know I love you and everything is going to be okay……..don’t worry about so-called friends, especially if they cant build you up…why are we so pessimistic??........I do wonder……..how many times have we truly gotten good advice from someone……does that mean they are hating?.....I’m just asking……….
I love this quote for the day……and here it is for you…….Rika’s Quote for the Day………….
“Don’t let a little dispute injure a great friendship”
Pride is a mother….and sometimes……I have learned…nobody is right…..and nobody has to be………love covers a multitude of things……..if we let it……..
I have another quote my girl Alsace sent me as well…………….
“I can have peace of mind when I forgive rather than judge”
Stop worrying folks about how somebody did you and for the rest of your days, you are examining their character….get over it and move on…….life is more important than us wasting our time worrying about something inconsequential……….
Shouts outs to my girl Tamisa……she is starting her own Fortune 500 company and needs our support….now I am not racist…but I do believe in helping our own…we can go out and spend hundreds on “name brand” fashions, why not where someone that we know and can relate to…her company is called J’Niche Fashions…….the least you can do is check it out…….and I know her drive and passion…and I am here to endorse her…so if you would like to learn more about what she is doing, feel free to hit her up at: tamisa@jniche.net ………..in unity, there is strength…………
Whew!!....promise I’m done……….
Love yall!!!
Church!!!
Monday, April 12, 2010
Friday, April 9, 2010
MY EMOTIONS NEED TO GET THE SURGERY!!!
Happy Friday to you all…..how is your day going??.......I’m still in one of those moods….well, not really…had Chinese for lunch and I’m still full….cant barely move…….that’s what I get for being on this one-a-day diet……..I will try to eat tonight….doubt it but I will try…..I’m excited it’s the weekend….I have a lot of things to do and a lot of contemplating this weekend……and of course Jayla will be over so I hope to make enough time to do something fun with her……I hope you all are safe and have fun this weekend…..it seems like its going to be a beautiful weekend…then again, this is Texas…it may end up snowing!!!.........
I would like to say thank you to those that responded to my blog yesterday……now I do not want to be misunderstood……that was not a sob story….it is a realization of who I am….a release…..we all have flaws and I think by now, I should know what mine are……I understand the inner battle going on in my soul between good and evil…..and yes it is hard….sometimes I ask myself why is so hard…..but the answer is clear…..God has a mighty calling on my life……(yes Courtney, I do know!!)……..my destiny, although not totally revealed to me yet, is very powerful……..I know that I am still in training……but you only train for so long…..I don’t want to be put into the cross fire without all me necessary weapons……..
To those that shows support and love…thank you……even the butthole in me loves you!!!...it is you all that keep me focused…….sometimes, I do feel alone…I am human……and when it boils down to it, the only person I truly feel I have in my life is Jayla….but God has given me so many more friends than I could imagine…..and when I think about the greatness of all of you, I realized that I am in good favor with Him……..
I need a vacation……I really need a vacation……even though I went home for my granny’s funeral, it was a vacation…..I was there with things on my mind…….I was told when I came back from Michigan, I was a different person…uh yah!!.......my life had completely changed……even when my grandfather was alive, he was not the person I talked to about my maturity….he was not the one that would give it to me straight……he was not the one that would tell me his feeling from his inclinations…..it was my grandmother……and without her, there is a major void in my life……they were my parents and until you lose BOTH of your parents, I don’t think someone would know how I feel….even yesterday, I felt my grandmother rubbing my back, telling me it would be okay……..I look up and I see her smiling…she is on my phone…..a reminder to watch my mouth…she is listening!!!.............
So the other day I watched, “Why Should I Get Married Too?”…….please don’t ask why….I was sincerely bored at home so I decided to turn it on as I fell asleep……but I didn’t……watched the whole thing…..and my honest opinion of the movie…..it was a pretty good movie….except for the end……now before I discuss what happened, is there anyone that has not seen the movie???.......oh okay….I don’t see any hands…good……the movie showed me exactly what I thought all along…..women are CRAZY!!!!.......stop blaming someone because of what you THINK……..never put a man’s shortcomings in his face……its not a pride thing, it’s a man thing…….the same way you don’t want us to call you fat AFTER you ask us do we think you fat……don’t remind a man of where he is failing…and especially seek help in your ex…idiot!!!!.......and don’t think we don’t pay attention to you…..we know more than you give us credit for….the only difference is, we watch, you guys say…or beat around the bush to it……..once we get fed up, we are going to ask…please believe that……..but yes it was a good movie……I recommend no man watch this movie……..
And last night I watched Law-Abiding Citizen……very good…now this is a movie I am going to watch again….I wasn’t paying attention all the way through……but what I did see, it was awesome……I am just wondering why they couldn’t do anything once he killed the dude with the steak bone…….there isn’t an automatic death penalty for something like that??........
I think when I get home I am going to get wrinkled…..ima soak in the tub and watch Hot Tub Time Machine…..I started watching that but of course, I fell asleep……so I will be watching that…….maybe…….once wrestling is over…….if not, there is always tomorrow….and no, this is not going to become a ritual…….but it is cheaper than going to the movies……….
Make sure you become a follower: www.spaceshipohayses.blogspot.com
And now….Rika’s Quote of the Day……………….
“If everyone thought alike, then no one would have to do much thinking-be creative”
I’m truly thinking about doing a video blog this weekend……when? Where?.....I have no clue….but look out for it…….you may see it on www.youtube.com/spaceshipohayses .......I’m just saying............
Well I am about to get out of here…..shout outs to my girl Krystal Shanti…….after all these years and you still stand beside me….the true character of a person is defined by how they feel about you through adversity……thank you for always lifting me up……love you!!!!.........
Love yall!!!!!!
Church!!!!
I would like to say thank you to those that responded to my blog yesterday……now I do not want to be misunderstood……that was not a sob story….it is a realization of who I am….a release…..we all have flaws and I think by now, I should know what mine are……I understand the inner battle going on in my soul between good and evil…..and yes it is hard….sometimes I ask myself why is so hard…..but the answer is clear…..God has a mighty calling on my life……(yes Courtney, I do know!!)……..my destiny, although not totally revealed to me yet, is very powerful……..I know that I am still in training……but you only train for so long…..I don’t want to be put into the cross fire without all me necessary weapons……..
To those that shows support and love…thank you……even the butthole in me loves you!!!...it is you all that keep me focused…….sometimes, I do feel alone…I am human……and when it boils down to it, the only person I truly feel I have in my life is Jayla….but God has given me so many more friends than I could imagine…..and when I think about the greatness of all of you, I realized that I am in good favor with Him……..
I need a vacation……I really need a vacation……even though I went home for my granny’s funeral, it was a vacation…..I was there with things on my mind…….I was told when I came back from Michigan, I was a different person…uh yah!!.......my life had completely changed……even when my grandfather was alive, he was not the person I talked to about my maturity….he was not the one that would give it to me straight……he was not the one that would tell me his feeling from his inclinations…..it was my grandmother……and without her, there is a major void in my life……they were my parents and until you lose BOTH of your parents, I don’t think someone would know how I feel….even yesterday, I felt my grandmother rubbing my back, telling me it would be okay……..I look up and I see her smiling…she is on my phone…..a reminder to watch my mouth…she is listening!!!.............
So the other day I watched, “Why Should I Get Married Too?”…….please don’t ask why….I was sincerely bored at home so I decided to turn it on as I fell asleep……but I didn’t……watched the whole thing…..and my honest opinion of the movie…..it was a pretty good movie….except for the end……now before I discuss what happened, is there anyone that has not seen the movie???.......oh okay….I don’t see any hands…good……the movie showed me exactly what I thought all along…..women are CRAZY!!!!.......stop blaming someone because of what you THINK……..never put a man’s shortcomings in his face……its not a pride thing, it’s a man thing…….the same way you don’t want us to call you fat AFTER you ask us do we think you fat……don’t remind a man of where he is failing…and especially seek help in your ex…idiot!!!!.......and don’t think we don’t pay attention to you…..we know more than you give us credit for….the only difference is, we watch, you guys say…or beat around the bush to it……..once we get fed up, we are going to ask…please believe that……..but yes it was a good movie……I recommend no man watch this movie……..
And last night I watched Law-Abiding Citizen……very good…now this is a movie I am going to watch again….I wasn’t paying attention all the way through……but what I did see, it was awesome……I am just wondering why they couldn’t do anything once he killed the dude with the steak bone…….there isn’t an automatic death penalty for something like that??........
I think when I get home I am going to get wrinkled…..ima soak in the tub and watch Hot Tub Time Machine…..I started watching that but of course, I fell asleep……so I will be watching that…….maybe…….once wrestling is over…….if not, there is always tomorrow….and no, this is not going to become a ritual…….but it is cheaper than going to the movies……….
Make sure you become a follower: www.spaceshipohayses.blogspot.com
And now….Rika’s Quote of the Day……………….
“If everyone thought alike, then no one would have to do much thinking-be creative”
I’m truly thinking about doing a video blog this weekend……when? Where?.....I have no clue….but look out for it…….you may see it on www.youtube.com/spaceshipohayses .......I’m just saying............
Well I am about to get out of here…..shout outs to my girl Krystal Shanti…….after all these years and you still stand beside me….the true character of a person is defined by how they feel about you through adversity……thank you for always lifting me up……love you!!!!.........
Love yall!!!!!!
Church!!!!
Thursday, April 8, 2010
WHY DID I GET DIVORCED??
When I was 12 years old, I remember being outside playing in the garden at my grandmother’s house…….on one of her roses, appeared a ladybug………I was absolutely terrified of ladybugs………..but for some reason, this particular, I was not running from……..there was this pepper jelly jar that stayed in the garage…..never had anything in it, it simply tanned when we opened the garage door…….I grabbed this jar and proceeded to guide that ladybug into that jar…….my grandmother called………I hurried and closed the jar and placed in it the garage………..I ran back to help my grandmother pull some weeds and went about my day…………………
That ladybug never took another fresh breath of air……….sometimes we have to let things breathe……sometime we have to let things out………you can’t keep putting air in a tire……….a lot of my writings have been compromised…….a lot of my writings have been tainted…….as “mean” as I can be perceived at times, I truly consider the feelings of all parties…….I know, to keep interest, I can’t simply write about my upcoming shows…..hell, most of you don’t come anyway……….I have to write about my heart, my soul, and my mind…..and even when I do this, I still end up misinterpreted and possibly mistaken for taking shots……..I will state now, this blog is not intended for that purpose…………
I know I am an ass……a big one….I know that sometimes I say too much or too little………sometimes I only give my story……and I am wrong for that……”OH!!!!! SPACESHIP DUN GOT CHECKED??!!!!”””……..NO….Spaceship been thinking………..I have been very selfish……..I have restrained myself from completely loving others because of some fear………I want to get this straight first…….this is not just about my blog from yesterday……..but reading my words…sleeping and praying on it, it made the picture bigger…..it’s about Stephanie, Jayla, my momma, my family, and to those of you I call friend…….in 30 years, people have loved me because of my attitude……I have not changed………I have continued to be the funny, blunt, asshole that everyone can count on for something spontaneous and mouth dropping……….I have been known to struggle, to be a prick, to be stern, hard-headed, and stubborn………I always want people to care about me, even as I scream it more…….and there are those of you that do care……….but the question I ask myself is, how long will I hold this grudge………….
As I think about the events of the previous year, and the things I wrote just yesterday, I was wrong……….now, understand that what was written will not be labeled an aberration…..what I am saying is, I need to stop looking at things so negative once they are completed………..why must I look for infinite completion…….this young lady in question, while doing things NOW that I can look on as bad, never gave me an inclination while we were in business that she did not have Essential Entertainment’s best interest in mind…….I stand behind this………she was at one point exceptional at her job and I would not have traded her for a pot of shillings…………..
This blog is not meant to refute my writing of yesterday…….this is my microscope………..
I fear relationships………..I fear allowing someone so close that they know all of me………I do not know why this is……I love you guys…everyone that has had a breath of my body in conversation, God knows I do…….I never intend to hurt and disappoint so many people…….I know a lot of times, a question that we have about me is “Why?”………this is not just a question that I have in physical or emotional relationships……I fear having a relationship with anyone……I have tried…….too many times, I have been shown examples of wanting people to change……but how much have I changed……..this morning I woke up feeling like Janet Jackson in “Why Did I Get Married Too”………I’m the one that is supposed to have all the answers……..today, I have the questions…………
What do I do?.......how do I go about changing the grave danger to my soul?.........I’m 30 now…..I should have got it by now…….why can’t I allow God to give me all that he has for me for fear that I will lose it all?........yeah, I’m a victim of it…….scared of success….I must be…..it’s right there and I won’t grab it……….is the struggle better than the reward in my mind??.............I’ve met HT, I have a beautiful daughter, I work with the hottest acts in the DFW, I am the hottest MC in the business and yet, I’m waiting on something………right now is not the time to spare my feelings…I am becoming a failure……NO, I MA NOT A FAILURE…..BY RECOGNIZING IT NOW, I CAN STOP IT….AND I WILL!!...........
To get what you want, you have to do what you have never done…………
It’s going to be difficult………nothing earned is ever really easy…..but I need to fight……..right now I am in the ring but I’m not throwing any punches……..it’s do or die right now……..I can’t get knocked out………
This is the point in my life where I have to show my character…talking about it is not going to get the job done…….if I say I am a man, I will have to live and make decisions as a man…….I cannot allow my ignorance and selfishness to hinder my growth…….and I vow to not take you all for granted…………….
Not you mom…whom I love dearly……..the person I know gave me life………I LOVE YOU
To Stephanie……the one person that loves me so much that she hates me…….your words hit deep……..I honestly think there is nothing in the world that I could do in my mind to repay you for everything……….I LOVE YOU
To Jayla…….the ONE person I live for…….if it wasn’t for God giving me you, I don’t know where I would be…..for stabilizing my mind…I promise to be a good father to you…..and I have to live as your role model…..I LOVE YOU……
To everyone I have been shallow to…..I sincerely apologize………some of you may say I have never been mean, but if there has been times where I could have been there and I wasn’t, then I was mean….because you have been there for me…..and up until this point, I expected you to be there for me……..because you have been………I will never take your kindness, your words, your jokes, and your support for happenstance…….
And to her……this is my blog….and I vent……but some things should not be aired……and I was wrong……take care of yourself…..continue to be great……….and if God chooses our paths to cross, I pray many questions have been answered by then……..
LOVE YALL!!!!!!!
CHURCH!!!
That ladybug never took another fresh breath of air……….sometimes we have to let things breathe……sometime we have to let things out………you can’t keep putting air in a tire……….a lot of my writings have been compromised…….a lot of my writings have been tainted…….as “mean” as I can be perceived at times, I truly consider the feelings of all parties…….I know, to keep interest, I can’t simply write about my upcoming shows…..hell, most of you don’t come anyway……….I have to write about my heart, my soul, and my mind…..and even when I do this, I still end up misinterpreted and possibly mistaken for taking shots……..I will state now, this blog is not intended for that purpose…………
I know I am an ass……a big one….I know that sometimes I say too much or too little………sometimes I only give my story……and I am wrong for that……”OH!!!!! SPACESHIP DUN GOT CHECKED??!!!!”””……..NO….Spaceship been thinking………..I have been very selfish……..I have restrained myself from completely loving others because of some fear………I want to get this straight first…….this is not just about my blog from yesterday……..but reading my words…sleeping and praying on it, it made the picture bigger…..it’s about Stephanie, Jayla, my momma, my family, and to those of you I call friend…….in 30 years, people have loved me because of my attitude……I have not changed………I have continued to be the funny, blunt, asshole that everyone can count on for something spontaneous and mouth dropping……….I have been known to struggle, to be a prick, to be stern, hard-headed, and stubborn………I always want people to care about me, even as I scream it more…….and there are those of you that do care……….but the question I ask myself is, how long will I hold this grudge………….
As I think about the events of the previous year, and the things I wrote just yesterday, I was wrong……….now, understand that what was written will not be labeled an aberration…..what I am saying is, I need to stop looking at things so negative once they are completed………..why must I look for infinite completion…….this young lady in question, while doing things NOW that I can look on as bad, never gave me an inclination while we were in business that she did not have Essential Entertainment’s best interest in mind…….I stand behind this………she was at one point exceptional at her job and I would not have traded her for a pot of shillings…………..
This blog is not meant to refute my writing of yesterday…….this is my microscope………..
I fear relationships………..I fear allowing someone so close that they know all of me………I do not know why this is……I love you guys…everyone that has had a breath of my body in conversation, God knows I do…….I never intend to hurt and disappoint so many people…….I know a lot of times, a question that we have about me is “Why?”………this is not just a question that I have in physical or emotional relationships……I fear having a relationship with anyone……I have tried…….too many times, I have been shown examples of wanting people to change……but how much have I changed……..this morning I woke up feeling like Janet Jackson in “Why Did I Get Married Too”………I’m the one that is supposed to have all the answers……..today, I have the questions…………
What do I do?.......how do I go about changing the grave danger to my soul?.........I’m 30 now…..I should have got it by now…….why can’t I allow God to give me all that he has for me for fear that I will lose it all?........yeah, I’m a victim of it…….scared of success….I must be…..it’s right there and I won’t grab it……….is the struggle better than the reward in my mind??.............I’ve met HT, I have a beautiful daughter, I work with the hottest acts in the DFW, I am the hottest MC in the business and yet, I’m waiting on something………right now is not the time to spare my feelings…I am becoming a failure……NO, I MA NOT A FAILURE…..BY RECOGNIZING IT NOW, I CAN STOP IT….AND I WILL!!...........
To get what you want, you have to do what you have never done…………
It’s going to be difficult………nothing earned is ever really easy…..but I need to fight……..right now I am in the ring but I’m not throwing any punches……..it’s do or die right now……..I can’t get knocked out………
This is the point in my life where I have to show my character…talking about it is not going to get the job done…….if I say I am a man, I will have to live and make decisions as a man…….I cannot allow my ignorance and selfishness to hinder my growth…….and I vow to not take you all for granted…………….
Not you mom…whom I love dearly……..the person I know gave me life………I LOVE YOU
To Stephanie……the one person that loves me so much that she hates me…….your words hit deep……..I honestly think there is nothing in the world that I could do in my mind to repay you for everything……….I LOVE YOU
To Jayla…….the ONE person I live for…….if it wasn’t for God giving me you, I don’t know where I would be…..for stabilizing my mind…I promise to be a good father to you…..and I have to live as your role model…..I LOVE YOU……
To everyone I have been shallow to…..I sincerely apologize………some of you may say I have never been mean, but if there has been times where I could have been there and I wasn’t, then I was mean….because you have been there for me…..and up until this point, I expected you to be there for me……..because you have been………I will never take your kindness, your words, your jokes, and your support for happenstance…….
And to her……this is my blog….and I vent……but some things should not be aired……and I was wrong……take care of yourself…..continue to be great……….and if God chooses our paths to cross, I pray many questions have been answered by then……..
LOVE YALL!!!!!!!
CHURCH!!!
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
A HARD HEAD MAKES A SOFT...............
Lol…where do I begin…..I guess I will start off by saying this: this blog may not end up being for the week at heart…..I was truly focused on trying to conjure up something to write about……but, I am human…..and I do have emotions and feelings…..no matter what some of you may think……so, just like anything else that presses my brain, I have to vent……that’s what this thing is for right??.......so if you think I am talking about you in this edition, I probably am…….I can only contain myself for so long you know……
But first, how are you all doing?.......I forgot to tell you all I bought a lottery ticket yesterday……44 million dollars….might as well…..or did I tell yall??......don’t know…….
I’m a liar……or at least I think I am…..I say that because I have lied before….and probably will lie again……I don’t think I am one of those compulsive liars…….you know somebody that lies for no good reason……but I’m a liar none the less…….before you go and judge me, at least I am brave enough to admit it……it took a long time to get there…..and yes, I know it doesn’t make me better than the next person, but don’t you simply hate people that lie for no reason????........over the past 24 hours, I have that there are two distinct type of liars……..one is those that lie to other people…….the second is those that lie to themselves…….I have known a person for over a year and just realized she was on the Jay-Z, R. Kelly album…….yes, she is the best of both worlds………..
Well what do you mean Spaceship??......I will explain……..first, she has been lying to herself……..to truly understand this dilemma, I have to give you a tad bit more information than I normally do….and trust, I don’t like to do that…….she was part of the Essential Entertainment family…….she was someone I could call on and I was sure she had the best interest of the company in mind……egg on my face……looking back now, she became part of this dynasty for one reason: to get close to me……..and I still didn’t mind…to a certain extent……..she worked hard and I felt I could trust her with my life…….to her, though, the things I did and the amenities she received was an offering for a relationship……I ignored it…..but my heart wont let me totally bust her out……maybe after a while, these feeling would disappear……LMAO………
Through events, I saw for myself that this was becoming more than a business venture for her; it was becoming a relationship…….I was told by many people that this was indeed true……but how many times do we not want to see, hear, feel or taste the truth?........c’mon…raise your hands…..I’m single and in my mind, I stayed that way….in her mind, I was hers……..but that’s not the bad part…..the more a relationship played in her mind, the less work was getting done……..now we are starting to see frustrations on my part………
Now this is the lying to herself part…….kind of like the white woman on Obsession….yeah I went there…..the lying to me part??........let me count the ways……..
Talk is cheap….if you say you are going to do something, DO IT!!.......yet, at the end of the day, the progression of Essential Entertainment was being put in jeopardy over emotions………I knew the union was doomed once we discussed the origination of Essential Entertainment…this baby had the nerve to tell me it was “ours”….ours??.....hold on….meaning we…..usses…….together……..as one….she made that up….and the dissension began………from then on, I saw the lack of work ethic, the spending more time partying and lolly gagging than working, and the focus was not on the company…..hmmmmm…..not a good look……so I figured, some time needed to be spent refocusing…….I even gave her a month to get things on her end together!!.......
Instead of getting it together, things fell miserably apart……….
So recently I decided I had to remove her from the company…..it was a hard decision……and honestly not one I wanted to make…..everyone in my circle thought it was a move that should have been done way sooner……..but you don’t find people that believe in your dream everyday….and she did…….but somewhere things change…….was it my fault?....yes……im too nice………
Now even with her leaving the company, we remained friends…..until a few days ago……now, I had already known that she was going through my things……checking my emails, phones, suspecting people of being intimate with me……I didn’t entertain it…hell, she wasn’t my girl……she can look all she wants…….but it was confirmed by a conversation I had with a very important person in my life……..and this is when the straw made the camel need a chiropractor……but wait!! there’s more!!!...........she did some shady things concerning another one of my friends and that’s when I knew the outcome……now the sad part about it is…….WE PROBABLY WONT EVER GET THE TRUE STORY!!!.........instead of simply telling the truth, she lied……and had to tell another lie to cover that one…and another and another and another……energizer bunny lies………..and finally, she brought up how I talked to other chicks and the things I was doing……
OKAY! HOLD THE F UP!!....YOU AINT MY GIRL!!!!!!....AUGHHHHHH!!! NOW THE TRUTH COMES OUT!!!........YOU ARE SCORNED!!!!!!!!.........
And she failed to see the reason for my disgust had anything to do with us per se……..learn not to be a liar and be accountable for your actions……isn’t that the key to maturity??..............
So now, she is history…….and a new chapter is my life begins……..
TONIGHT**TONIGHT**TONIGHT**TONIGHT**……….DJ LADY JA-ROQ’S OPEN MIC SHOWCASE HAS MOVED TO WEDNESDAYS!!!.......COME ON OUT TO ROLLS ROYCE OFF 635 AND SKILLMAN AND SHOW US WHAT YOU HAVE!!!!.......WE ARE STILL GIVING AWAY $250…..AND NOW, WE ARE ALSO LETTING YOU HAVE YOUR OWN 15 MINUTES SHOWCASE SLOT…..FOR DETAILS, YOU HAVE TO BE THERE……DOORS OPEN AT 10!!............DONT BE LATE KNUCKLEHEADS!!!!!!..........
What a blog…….sorry if I bored you….I still aint done with the story….but the major characters know their role……so let me go…here is…….Rika’s Quote for the Day………
“Talk slowly but think quickly”…………….
I had no clue…….this is so ideal!!!!..........you have two ears and one mouth…..do you know why?....to hear twice as mush as you speak……..
Im out…hope to see you all tonight…..shout outs to her………so long…farewell…..avida says goodnight!!!........you know its tough knowing someone wants to be with you and you don’t feel the same……..especially when you do care about that person…….all fairytales have a happy ending…for someone……….
Love yall!!!!!
Church!!!!
But first, how are you all doing?.......I forgot to tell you all I bought a lottery ticket yesterday……44 million dollars….might as well…..or did I tell yall??......don’t know…….
I’m a liar……or at least I think I am…..I say that because I have lied before….and probably will lie again……I don’t think I am one of those compulsive liars…….you know somebody that lies for no good reason……but I’m a liar none the less…….before you go and judge me, at least I am brave enough to admit it……it took a long time to get there…..and yes, I know it doesn’t make me better than the next person, but don’t you simply hate people that lie for no reason????........over the past 24 hours, I have that there are two distinct type of liars……..one is those that lie to other people…….the second is those that lie to themselves…….I have known a person for over a year and just realized she was on the Jay-Z, R. Kelly album…….yes, she is the best of both worlds………..
Well what do you mean Spaceship??......I will explain……..first, she has been lying to herself……..to truly understand this dilemma, I have to give you a tad bit more information than I normally do….and trust, I don’t like to do that…….she was part of the Essential Entertainment family…….she was someone I could call on and I was sure she had the best interest of the company in mind……egg on my face……looking back now, she became part of this dynasty for one reason: to get close to me……..and I still didn’t mind…to a certain extent……..she worked hard and I felt I could trust her with my life…….to her, though, the things I did and the amenities she received was an offering for a relationship……I ignored it…..but my heart wont let me totally bust her out……maybe after a while, these feeling would disappear……LMAO………
Through events, I saw for myself that this was becoming more than a business venture for her; it was becoming a relationship…….I was told by many people that this was indeed true……but how many times do we not want to see, hear, feel or taste the truth?........c’mon…raise your hands…..I’m single and in my mind, I stayed that way….in her mind, I was hers……..but that’s not the bad part…..the more a relationship played in her mind, the less work was getting done……..now we are starting to see frustrations on my part………
Now this is the lying to herself part…….kind of like the white woman on Obsession….yeah I went there…..the lying to me part??........let me count the ways……..
Talk is cheap….if you say you are going to do something, DO IT!!.......yet, at the end of the day, the progression of Essential Entertainment was being put in jeopardy over emotions………I knew the union was doomed once we discussed the origination of Essential Entertainment…this baby had the nerve to tell me it was “ours”….ours??.....hold on….meaning we…..usses…….together……..as one….she made that up….and the dissension began………from then on, I saw the lack of work ethic, the spending more time partying and lolly gagging than working, and the focus was not on the company…..hmmmmm…..not a good look……so I figured, some time needed to be spent refocusing…….I even gave her a month to get things on her end together!!.......
Instead of getting it together, things fell miserably apart……….
So recently I decided I had to remove her from the company…..it was a hard decision……and honestly not one I wanted to make…..everyone in my circle thought it was a move that should have been done way sooner……..but you don’t find people that believe in your dream everyday….and she did…….but somewhere things change…….was it my fault?....yes……im too nice………
Now even with her leaving the company, we remained friends…..until a few days ago……now, I had already known that she was going through my things……checking my emails, phones, suspecting people of being intimate with me……I didn’t entertain it…hell, she wasn’t my girl……she can look all she wants…….but it was confirmed by a conversation I had with a very important person in my life……..and this is when the straw made the camel need a chiropractor……but wait!! there’s more!!!...........she did some shady things concerning another one of my friends and that’s when I knew the outcome……now the sad part about it is…….WE PROBABLY WONT EVER GET THE TRUE STORY!!!.........instead of simply telling the truth, she lied……and had to tell another lie to cover that one…and another and another and another……energizer bunny lies………..and finally, she brought up how I talked to other chicks and the things I was doing……
OKAY! HOLD THE F UP!!....YOU AINT MY GIRL!!!!!!....AUGHHHHHH!!! NOW THE TRUTH COMES OUT!!!........YOU ARE SCORNED!!!!!!!!.........
And she failed to see the reason for my disgust had anything to do with us per se……..learn not to be a liar and be accountable for your actions……isn’t that the key to maturity??..............
So now, she is history…….and a new chapter is my life begins……..
TONIGHT**TONIGHT**TONIGHT**TONIGHT**……….DJ LADY JA-ROQ’S OPEN MIC SHOWCASE HAS MOVED TO WEDNESDAYS!!!.......COME ON OUT TO ROLLS ROYCE OFF 635 AND SKILLMAN AND SHOW US WHAT YOU HAVE!!!!.......WE ARE STILL GIVING AWAY $250…..AND NOW, WE ARE ALSO LETTING YOU HAVE YOUR OWN 15 MINUTES SHOWCASE SLOT…..FOR DETAILS, YOU HAVE TO BE THERE……DOORS OPEN AT 10!!............DONT BE LATE KNUCKLEHEADS!!!!!!..........
What a blog…….sorry if I bored you….I still aint done with the story….but the major characters know their role……so let me go…here is…….Rika’s Quote for the Day………
“Talk slowly but think quickly”…………….
I had no clue…….this is so ideal!!!!..........you have two ears and one mouth…..do you know why?....to hear twice as mush as you speak……..
Im out…hope to see you all tonight…..shout outs to her………so long…farewell…..avida says goodnight!!!........you know its tough knowing someone wants to be with you and you don’t feel the same……..especially when you do care about that person…….all fairytales have a happy ending…for someone……….
Love yall!!!!!
Church!!!!
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
I USED 27 PIECES TO BUY ME A DOOBIE!!!
I promise…..these customers come up with the worse excuses……and even worse lies!!!......and somehow, I am supposed to feel sorry for them…..not saying I’m heartless……I just don’t see how you have a business and cant afford your car note(s)……and then on top of that, you in an Escalade…..something wrong with that picture don’t cha think…..and the worse businesses?....you guessed it…….churches….and I don’t mean the chicken joint………its going to take one repo on a Sunday to get them folks straight………how are you all doing today?.......I’m good……tired but that’s because I’m sleepy…kinda liking this new schedule……until the afternoon when everyone besides me leave………but at least I’m not late…….so far that is…..coming in at 9 though, I should not have too many excuses……..
Not much to talk about today…..but don’t I say that everyday??..............
Why does it seem that the older we get, the nosier we get as well??.........I know there are a few people that defy that curve, but golly!!!....everytime I say something at work, I’m hearing a “what you say?” or a “huh?”….I was not talking to you!!!!......that is one of my pet peeves…….and because you are older than me does not mean I wont tell you about yourself…..got a woman that sits by me now that wont even speak anymore…..good!!.......so now she can’t assume I was talking to her!!!!...........
Today at work , I was looking on line at some maps of locations…..for some reason, I decided to look at my granny’s house……and yes, I had a mental breakdown…….I don’t know if it was forced, but it hit me a little harder than usual…….every moment I think about it, I realize a little more that my parents are gone……yes my mother and father are both still alive, but the two people that raised me are not here……I couldn’t even call grandma when I was in jail so she could reject my call!!!!...........
I have a question…and I hope you all are reading this……do you guys support me?........have you listen to the music?....saw the videos?.........have you taken time to pass the blogs to someone that may like to read them (even if you don’t)?........I ask because I really want you all to be a part of this movement……yes, I know you say you are, but let’s be real…if some of you saw me on TV tomorrow, I probably would get a lot more responses and hear about how we have been cool and I’m your boy and all…….but you haven’t been on iTunes….rhapsody……have you been to the facebook?......or how about www.reverbnation.com/spaceshipohayses to hear the album….I don’t say this to vent……I’m speaking realistically……just don’t tell me you support me…actions speak louder than words…we spend a lot of time by computers…… go check out www.youtube.com/spaceshipohayses ......... you are not harming yourself by spending a few minutes to see what all the buzz about….. I guess if I made a game on facebook, I could get your attention then……..
I cant believe I am saying this……congrats to the Duke Blue Devils for being this year’s college national basketball champions…they beat a determined Butler team and it was a really good game……..most people didn’t think Butler would get as far as they did…….it just shows what believing in yourself can do……you don’t have to wait on anybody to gain trust in your abilities…it starts within…..let your little light shine……….
I was told today that I should put Jayla in some Spanish classes……at first, I was like why…then I thought about it…I took Spanish from my 8th grade year in school all the way up to my college days……and I learned how to say hola…….the teacher was teaching it but I didn’t believe I would ever need to know Spanish……I grew up in the hood….lived around hood folks…..and then went to a HBCU…..never thought I would be moving to Texico…….now im paranoid around Hispanics……if you are not talking about me, why cant you speak English…….and why do you keep looking at me!!!........so I am definitely going to consider not only taking her, but trying to sit down for a couple of lessons……….
Well I found out two more of my home girls got that box yesterday….after I blogged…not gonna go into details but I am not happy about it….I mean for them…..I wont be a martyr or anything…just sad to see someone lose their job………
I NEED EVERYONE’S ATTENTION!!!!!!.......DJ LADY JA-ROQ’S OPEN MIC SHOWCASE HAS MOVED TO WEDNESDAYS!!!.......COME ON OUT TO ROLLS ROYCE OFF 635 AND SKILLMAN AND SHOW US WHAT YOU HAVE!!!!.......WE ARE STILL GIVING AWAY $250…..AND NOW, WE ARE ALSO LETTING YOU HAVE YOUR OWN 15 MINUTES SHOWCASE SLOT…..FOR DETAILS, YOU HAVE TO BE THERE……DOORS OPEN AT 10!!............DONT BE LATE KNUCKLEHEADS!!!!!!..........
I actually had someone call me today asking me to host their show on Wednesdays……told him I couldn’t do it…..and it was a tough decision especially with the money he was offering….but the grass isn’t always greener on the other side….loyalty has to count for something doesn’t it?..........or maybe that is my problem………
Well I am about to jump out of here and try to work…..doubt I do but I am going to make a conscience effort…..need that bonus check more than ever now……
So here is ladies, gentleman and the rest of you…..Rika’s Quote of the Day……………….
“Never laugh at anyone’s dream. People that don’t have dreams don’t have much.”
In this world, why would we rather see someone fail?.......it’s hard to have a circle of nothing but encouragers…….not we live in doubt and despair and controversy……..
Well I am going to get out of here……shout outs to Tiger Woods…….he made a mistake…..get over it…..and no he does not have to tell us anything that happened…..he is taking his beating like a man and its frustrating those that want to know more……stop wondering…….some people say its goes with the territory…no it doesn’t………some of us have skeletons begging and knocking to get out of the closet……..let the man be and good luck at the Masters this week………..
Love yall!!!!
Church!!!
Not much to talk about today…..but don’t I say that everyday??..............
Why does it seem that the older we get, the nosier we get as well??.........I know there are a few people that defy that curve, but golly!!!....everytime I say something at work, I’m hearing a “what you say?” or a “huh?”….I was not talking to you!!!!......that is one of my pet peeves…….and because you are older than me does not mean I wont tell you about yourself…..got a woman that sits by me now that wont even speak anymore…..good!!.......so now she can’t assume I was talking to her!!!!...........
Today at work , I was looking on line at some maps of locations…..for some reason, I decided to look at my granny’s house……and yes, I had a mental breakdown…….I don’t know if it was forced, but it hit me a little harder than usual…….every moment I think about it, I realize a little more that my parents are gone……yes my mother and father are both still alive, but the two people that raised me are not here……I couldn’t even call grandma when I was in jail so she could reject my call!!!!...........
I have a question…and I hope you all are reading this……do you guys support me?........have you listen to the music?....saw the videos?.........have you taken time to pass the blogs to someone that may like to read them (even if you don’t)?........I ask because I really want you all to be a part of this movement……yes, I know you say you are, but let’s be real…if some of you saw me on TV tomorrow, I probably would get a lot more responses and hear about how we have been cool and I’m your boy and all…….but you haven’t been on iTunes….rhapsody……have you been to the facebook?......or how about www.reverbnation.com/spaceshipohayses to hear the album….I don’t say this to vent……I’m speaking realistically……just don’t tell me you support me…actions speak louder than words…we spend a lot of time by computers…… go check out www.youtube.com/spaceshipohayses ......... you are not harming yourself by spending a few minutes to see what all the buzz about….. I guess if I made a game on facebook, I could get your attention then……..
I cant believe I am saying this……congrats to the Duke Blue Devils for being this year’s college national basketball champions…they beat a determined Butler team and it was a really good game……..most people didn’t think Butler would get as far as they did…….it just shows what believing in yourself can do……you don’t have to wait on anybody to gain trust in your abilities…it starts within…..let your little light shine……….
I was told today that I should put Jayla in some Spanish classes……at first, I was like why…then I thought about it…I took Spanish from my 8th grade year in school all the way up to my college days……and I learned how to say hola…….the teacher was teaching it but I didn’t believe I would ever need to know Spanish……I grew up in the hood….lived around hood folks…..and then went to a HBCU…..never thought I would be moving to Texico…….now im paranoid around Hispanics……if you are not talking about me, why cant you speak English…….and why do you keep looking at me!!!........so I am definitely going to consider not only taking her, but trying to sit down for a couple of lessons……….
Well I found out two more of my home girls got that box yesterday….after I blogged…not gonna go into details but I am not happy about it….I mean for them…..I wont be a martyr or anything…just sad to see someone lose their job………
I NEED EVERYONE’S ATTENTION!!!!!!.......DJ LADY JA-ROQ’S OPEN MIC SHOWCASE HAS MOVED TO WEDNESDAYS!!!.......COME ON OUT TO ROLLS ROYCE OFF 635 AND SKILLMAN AND SHOW US WHAT YOU HAVE!!!!.......WE ARE STILL GIVING AWAY $250…..AND NOW, WE ARE ALSO LETTING YOU HAVE YOUR OWN 15 MINUTES SHOWCASE SLOT…..FOR DETAILS, YOU HAVE TO BE THERE……DOORS OPEN AT 10!!............DONT BE LATE KNUCKLEHEADS!!!!!!..........
I actually had someone call me today asking me to host their show on Wednesdays……told him I couldn’t do it…..and it was a tough decision especially with the money he was offering….but the grass isn’t always greener on the other side….loyalty has to count for something doesn’t it?..........or maybe that is my problem………
Well I am about to jump out of here and try to work…..doubt I do but I am going to make a conscience effort…..need that bonus check more than ever now……
So here is ladies, gentleman and the rest of you…..Rika’s Quote of the Day……………….
“Never laugh at anyone’s dream. People that don’t have dreams don’t have much.”
In this world, why would we rather see someone fail?.......it’s hard to have a circle of nothing but encouragers…….not we live in doubt and despair and controversy……..
Well I am going to get out of here……shout outs to Tiger Woods…….he made a mistake…..get over it…..and no he does not have to tell us anything that happened…..he is taking his beating like a man and its frustrating those that want to know more……stop wondering…….some people say its goes with the territory…no it doesn’t………some of us have skeletons begging and knocking to get out of the closet……..let the man be and good luck at the Masters this week………..
Love yall!!!!
Church!!!
Monday, April 5, 2010
IF LOVING ME IS WRONG, I DONT WANNA BE RIGHT!!
Wow!!...is it Monday already???.......how are you all doing?.......I know some of you may not have noticed…..but your boy been gone for a few days…….and as you read this morning….or today…..or you may not know……there was a reason behind it…..maybe even a bigger reason than even I can see right now……but it does get frustrating…..something in my life I am not doing right……and before I play the blame game towards anyone else, I have to look at that man in the mirror and see what I can do to be as incredible as I say I am……and I will…as a matter of fact…I am…..but I cant stop because the answers haven’t been revealed……I have to look deeper…….
Well today was the first day of my new schedule at work…..now I come in at 9……..its kind of cool because I can sleep in…but then when people leave at four, im jealous……I want to go home too…..guess its not my cake and I cant eat it right now……while I was away on “vacation”, they switched our accounts up…..I went from having the majority of my accounts in Georgia and Florida to now having the majority of my accounts in California…..and they are 3 hours behind us…no reason for me to come into work and be unproductive……….
This job is wearing me down though…..of course, its not hard…..my co-workers are pretty cool for the most part…….and I provide pretty good results…..but my drive is diminishing……..when I first started this job, I figured it was just that….a job……..I knew beyond a shadow of a doubt that Essential Entertainment would be off and running by now and I would have my own office where I could work when I wanted to and make my own schedule…..2 years later, that has not happened……..once again, I have to do some soul searching and realize it is something I have done that has caused my escalation to flatline……no, I am not out the game yet…but it’s close to the 4th quarter……..and I don’t want any buzzer beaters………I have realized that this next month of my life is very important…….its my make it or break it season………
I have got away from my morals and standards…..I have let too many people dictate my emotions…….maybe it was my fear of being “Countrytime” or “Hustle Man”…….those were two heartless characters in my past…….sometimes I think I hold a hint of fear in my heart…..am I ready for that next level?.........have I been allowing pleasure to come before business?........a lot of you know how hard I work…and at the same time, I find myself having to focus on things that don’t matter….and people that don’t matter as well….because if they were of any importance to me, they would understand that being 30 with a dream is a tough task……..my shelf life is dwindling……
Today, as I was leaving the bank, I decided to do something I didn’t think I would consider right now…..I went into a school and asked if they were hiring…….some of you may know, I used to teach high school English……I stopped teaching to pursue my music……I knew it would be hard…especially with taking a pay cut and all…….though I assumed that by the time I returned to the teaching realm, it would be under different circumstances…….so you may be asking why don’t I return…I have holidays and summers off………true, but when there is teaching to be done, I cant take a mental break…….the generation that is in these school systems need more than a paper pusher teaching them…..and yes I have a passion for it…….what happens when I am out too long performing….or when I am offered a show out of town in the middle of the work week?.........its a lot harder to take off time when you have so many dedicated to your cause……..and you don’t want a substitute to come in and destroy all you have worked for……..decision, decisions………
Oops!!....looks like somebody got a box today!!!......tsks, tsks…………….
Before I jump into my usual tangent, people…….DONT GET YOUR BUTT ARRESTED!!........its not fun…there is nothing enjoyable about the judicial system no matter how much we watch Tru TV, CSI, or any like show for that matter…….handle your business……and even after that, follow up…..my ignorance allowed for a situation not needed…….im truly disgusted with myself for even getting this deep in mud……..
But while I was there, I made some choices…….and you will soon see them…….and if you are not part of these choices, ask yourself: how much of my life did you really have a part of……some people are so unnecessary in our path towards greatness……..and yet, we allow them to hang around for fear of being lonely…..yes, it is true……..we hoard our emotions for human fear….God will never leave us nor forsake us and we must remember this even when it comes to personal relationships we have built………
Well I am about to work my last hour and then get the heck up out of here………
So without further ado……….Rika’s Quote of the Day………………………..
“Don’t judge people by their relatives”
Aint that the truth…..and don’t judge a man by his relationship with his momma…….that’s my personal quote…you get the picture………
How is this for irony though…..I went to jail on my mother’s birthday…….ROTFLMAO!!!!..........................
A special shout out goes to everyone that helped me get out my funky situation…….it was through your hard work and diligence that I was able to get out of those confines…….you didn’t have to……you could have worried more about yourself than me…..and those are the people I need to have around me……..the ones that I don’t have to question if they care……I will admit, I was scared……scared of losing my job, my house, my car, and a lot of my future…..you all, made sure that my sanity stayed in tact…nothing I can do can repay the care you had for me……thank you and God bless all of you…………
Love yall!!!!
Church!!!!
Well today was the first day of my new schedule at work…..now I come in at 9……..its kind of cool because I can sleep in…but then when people leave at four, im jealous……I want to go home too…..guess its not my cake and I cant eat it right now……while I was away on “vacation”, they switched our accounts up…..I went from having the majority of my accounts in Georgia and Florida to now having the majority of my accounts in California…..and they are 3 hours behind us…no reason for me to come into work and be unproductive……….
This job is wearing me down though…..of course, its not hard…..my co-workers are pretty cool for the most part…….and I provide pretty good results…..but my drive is diminishing……..when I first started this job, I figured it was just that….a job……..I knew beyond a shadow of a doubt that Essential Entertainment would be off and running by now and I would have my own office where I could work when I wanted to and make my own schedule…..2 years later, that has not happened……..once again, I have to do some soul searching and realize it is something I have done that has caused my escalation to flatline……no, I am not out the game yet…but it’s close to the 4th quarter……..and I don’t want any buzzer beaters………I have realized that this next month of my life is very important…….its my make it or break it season………
I have got away from my morals and standards…..I have let too many people dictate my emotions…….maybe it was my fear of being “Countrytime” or “Hustle Man”…….those were two heartless characters in my past…….sometimes I think I hold a hint of fear in my heart…..am I ready for that next level?.........have I been allowing pleasure to come before business?........a lot of you know how hard I work…and at the same time, I find myself having to focus on things that don’t matter….and people that don’t matter as well….because if they were of any importance to me, they would understand that being 30 with a dream is a tough task……..my shelf life is dwindling……
Today, as I was leaving the bank, I decided to do something I didn’t think I would consider right now…..I went into a school and asked if they were hiring…….some of you may know, I used to teach high school English……I stopped teaching to pursue my music……I knew it would be hard…especially with taking a pay cut and all…….though I assumed that by the time I returned to the teaching realm, it would be under different circumstances…….so you may be asking why don’t I return…I have holidays and summers off………true, but when there is teaching to be done, I cant take a mental break…….the generation that is in these school systems need more than a paper pusher teaching them…..and yes I have a passion for it…….what happens when I am out too long performing….or when I am offered a show out of town in the middle of the work week?.........its a lot harder to take off time when you have so many dedicated to your cause……..and you don’t want a substitute to come in and destroy all you have worked for……..decision, decisions………
Oops!!....looks like somebody got a box today!!!......tsks, tsks…………….
Before I jump into my usual tangent, people…….DONT GET YOUR BUTT ARRESTED!!........its not fun…there is nothing enjoyable about the judicial system no matter how much we watch Tru TV, CSI, or any like show for that matter…….handle your business……and even after that, follow up…..my ignorance allowed for a situation not needed…….im truly disgusted with myself for even getting this deep in mud……..
But while I was there, I made some choices…….and you will soon see them…….and if you are not part of these choices, ask yourself: how much of my life did you really have a part of……some people are so unnecessary in our path towards greatness……..and yet, we allow them to hang around for fear of being lonely…..yes, it is true……..we hoard our emotions for human fear….God will never leave us nor forsake us and we must remember this even when it comes to personal relationships we have built………
Well I am about to work my last hour and then get the heck up out of here………
So without further ado……….Rika’s Quote of the Day………………………..
“Don’t judge people by their relatives”
Aint that the truth…..and don’t judge a man by his relationship with his momma…….that’s my personal quote…you get the picture………
How is this for irony though…..I went to jail on my mother’s birthday…….ROTFLMAO!!!!..........................
A special shout out goes to everyone that helped me get out my funky situation…….it was through your hard work and diligence that I was able to get out of those confines…….you didn’t have to……you could have worried more about yourself than me…..and those are the people I need to have around me……..the ones that I don’t have to question if they care……I will admit, I was scared……scared of losing my job, my house, my car, and a lot of my future…..you all, made sure that my sanity stayed in tact…nothing I can do can repay the care you had for me……thank you and God bless all of you…………
Love yall!!!!
Church!!!!
Sunday, April 4, 2010
THE RESURRECTION (GUILTY TIL PROVEN INNOCENT)
4:00 pm March 30th: Spaceship Ohayses leaves work…….he plans on going to holla at a producer and finish a couple of songs he has been working on……but first, he goes home to prepare for dinner……on tonight’s menu is spaghetti…………
4:30 pm: Spaceship begins to cook…….he is in a good mood………he is going to pick up a dining room table later and he hasn’t cooked in a while……..the week is been going good so far…..work has been work but he is focused on busting his butt and making sure he bonuses for the month……..
5:00pm: calls up a friend and asked them if they want some food…..they agree and Spaceship finishes up his meal……he also has some CDs to sell…….by this time, he receives a phone call….the owner of the dining room table is not home yet…….he still decides to travel that way, of course with the knowledge that he will be dropping some food off…………….
6:15pm: Spaceship turns the food off and drives to Carrollton to drop off some dinner……he realizes he will be crunched for time trying to get the table so he decides to pick it up in the morning……..he goes home to eat, get dressed and prepare to go to the studio for some recording…………..
7:30pm: Spaceship calls the producer and he is informed he is still at the barber shop……..Spaceship tells the producer he is in route and they both agree to call a third party, who is also supposed to be on a track with Spaceship……………..
8:00pm: Spaceship stops at the liquor store….for some reason, he doesn’t feel motivated by only Heinekens…….he decides to pick up two shots of vodka…..nothing big…..while in the liquor store he is making jokes with one of the cashiers…..they inform him they are the sister of Big E…….a well known producer in the Metroplex area………they converse and she asked to hear some of his music……..they go outside and he plays her “ I am Ohayses” and “87”………she instantly gets on the phone to tell her brother of this artist……………..
8:15pm: Spaceship receives a call from K-Notch, Big E’s manager……..over the next thirty minutes, they talk about their mutual vision and some business opportunities……….a positive conversation that enables Spaceship to increase his networks and gives him the chance to prove to a producer with more clout than he has typically dealt with that he has what it takes to make it in the music industry………as they complete the call, Spaceship pulls up to a hotel in Addison……he backs his truck in and finishes his phone call………………
8:32pm: Spaceship calls the producer to see where he is…….he tells him he is at the Shell station up the street and he shall return shortly…………..
8:33pm: Addison police drive by Spaceship’s truck….their eyes lock…………………..
8:33pm: Spaceship decides to get out of his vehicle and go into the hotel……the look on the police officer’s face was not welcoming……………..
8:34pm: the police officer makes a U-Turn……..he drives up to Spaceship and asked what he is doing……..Spaceship tells him he is going into the hotel and asked what he is being stopped for……..the officer tells him he looks suspicious……..the officer asked for ID……Spaceship gives him his license……….
8:40pm: a second police car pulls up………………
8:45pm: the police officer tells Spaceship he has a warrant out of Hunt County for a motion to revoke probation…….as much as Spaceship protested this announcement, he is told he would have to take it up with the judge in that county……….he is arrested and placed inside a police unit………..
8:47pm: the police open the car door and goes in Spaceship’s pocket….he tells him, his vehicle is going to get impounded and that they have to check the vehicle now………they find contraband……..
9:00pm: Spaceship Ohayses is booked at Addison police station……………..
To finish the story, while I am getting booked, I am told that I also have traffic tickets in Lewisville……..I am told that I will be transferred until everything is taken care of…..the problem for me??....... I DIDN’T HAVE A DAMN WARRANT IN HUNT COUNTY…………but it’s hard to prove your innocence behind bars……….I am sent to Lew Sterrett………I had some very understanding people fighting for me on the outside………eventually, they got in touch with my lawyer in Hunt County that confirmed I should not have had that to pull up on my record…….he says he is going to get the judge to sign something for my release…………..
The traffic tickets were paid Thursday morning………by 5 o’clock, I was ready for my release…….bond was posted and the letter had been sent……..QUESTION: why the hell are they still using tele-type????........that is so the 50s………I guess a reason for them to be slow…….I was sent to population Thursday morning and by 4, they had came to let me go……..but while I was waiting in the release tank, I was told that my tickets weren’t paid………except for the one in Addison…….but it was a package deal…….how could I bond for one and not the rest??.......sounds foolish to me…………then I was told they did not receive the paperwork from Hunt County…………what the heck is going on?????............
So Stephanie finally comes down to see what the issue is…of course, being in a holding cell, they weren’t trying to listen to me…….and I could tell I was aggravating them by continually asking for answers…….and they couldn’t give me any…….and I was frustrating them by knowing this……….come to find out, the papers had been sent to them 3 times!!!!....someone, somewhere failed to look for it…………their response?............ “oh”…………seriously……………
Okay so let me get this straight……..I went to jail……..got a possession charge………and I had to pay on three tickets….stayed in jail for a warrant I did not have……..which was the reason I went to jail………had to get my truck out the impound………..for having a county charge….which I didn’t have……..but since it said I did, I got my car searched……missed days of work…that my boss wouldn’t let me make up……….can’t pay rent…….because I had to pay to get out of jail……….just because I was a black man parked in a hotel parking lot…………….
…..and I am supposed to expect someone to believe me??................
HAPPY EASTER EVERYBODY!!!!!....................
4:30 pm: Spaceship begins to cook…….he is in a good mood………he is going to pick up a dining room table later and he hasn’t cooked in a while……..the week is been going good so far…..work has been work but he is focused on busting his butt and making sure he bonuses for the month……..
5:00pm: calls up a friend and asked them if they want some food…..they agree and Spaceship finishes up his meal……he also has some CDs to sell…….by this time, he receives a phone call….the owner of the dining room table is not home yet…….he still decides to travel that way, of course with the knowledge that he will be dropping some food off…………….
6:15pm: Spaceship turns the food off and drives to Carrollton to drop off some dinner……he realizes he will be crunched for time trying to get the table so he decides to pick it up in the morning……..he goes home to eat, get dressed and prepare to go to the studio for some recording…………..
7:30pm: Spaceship calls the producer and he is informed he is still at the barber shop……..Spaceship tells the producer he is in route and they both agree to call a third party, who is also supposed to be on a track with Spaceship……………..
8:00pm: Spaceship stops at the liquor store….for some reason, he doesn’t feel motivated by only Heinekens…….he decides to pick up two shots of vodka…..nothing big…..while in the liquor store he is making jokes with one of the cashiers…..they inform him they are the sister of Big E…….a well known producer in the Metroplex area………they converse and she asked to hear some of his music……..they go outside and he plays her “ I am Ohayses” and “87”………she instantly gets on the phone to tell her brother of this artist……………..
8:15pm: Spaceship receives a call from K-Notch, Big E’s manager……..over the next thirty minutes, they talk about their mutual vision and some business opportunities……….a positive conversation that enables Spaceship to increase his networks and gives him the chance to prove to a producer with more clout than he has typically dealt with that he has what it takes to make it in the music industry………as they complete the call, Spaceship pulls up to a hotel in Addison……he backs his truck in and finishes his phone call………………
8:32pm: Spaceship calls the producer to see where he is…….he tells him he is at the Shell station up the street and he shall return shortly…………..
8:33pm: Addison police drive by Spaceship’s truck….their eyes lock…………………..
8:33pm: Spaceship decides to get out of his vehicle and go into the hotel……the look on the police officer’s face was not welcoming……………..
8:34pm: the police officer makes a U-Turn……..he drives up to Spaceship and asked what he is doing……..Spaceship tells him he is going into the hotel and asked what he is being stopped for……..the officer tells him he looks suspicious……..the officer asked for ID……Spaceship gives him his license……….
8:40pm: a second police car pulls up………………
8:45pm: the police officer tells Spaceship he has a warrant out of Hunt County for a motion to revoke probation…….as much as Spaceship protested this announcement, he is told he would have to take it up with the judge in that county……….he is arrested and placed inside a police unit………..
8:47pm: the police open the car door and goes in Spaceship’s pocket….he tells him, his vehicle is going to get impounded and that they have to check the vehicle now………they find contraband……..
9:00pm: Spaceship Ohayses is booked at Addison police station……………..
To finish the story, while I am getting booked, I am told that I also have traffic tickets in Lewisville……..I am told that I will be transferred until everything is taken care of…..the problem for me??....... I DIDN’T HAVE A DAMN WARRANT IN HUNT COUNTY…………but it’s hard to prove your innocence behind bars……….I am sent to Lew Sterrett………I had some very understanding people fighting for me on the outside………eventually, they got in touch with my lawyer in Hunt County that confirmed I should not have had that to pull up on my record…….he says he is going to get the judge to sign something for my release…………..
The traffic tickets were paid Thursday morning………by 5 o’clock, I was ready for my release…….bond was posted and the letter had been sent……..QUESTION: why the hell are they still using tele-type????........that is so the 50s………I guess a reason for them to be slow…….I was sent to population Thursday morning and by 4, they had came to let me go……..but while I was waiting in the release tank, I was told that my tickets weren’t paid………except for the one in Addison…….but it was a package deal…….how could I bond for one and not the rest??.......sounds foolish to me…………then I was told they did not receive the paperwork from Hunt County…………what the heck is going on?????............
So Stephanie finally comes down to see what the issue is…of course, being in a holding cell, they weren’t trying to listen to me…….and I could tell I was aggravating them by continually asking for answers…….and they couldn’t give me any…….and I was frustrating them by knowing this……….come to find out, the papers had been sent to them 3 times!!!!....someone, somewhere failed to look for it…………their response?............ “oh”…………seriously……………
Okay so let me get this straight……..I went to jail……..got a possession charge………and I had to pay on three tickets….stayed in jail for a warrant I did not have……..which was the reason I went to jail………had to get my truck out the impound………..for having a county charge….which I didn’t have……..but since it said I did, I got my car searched……missed days of work…that my boss wouldn’t let me make up……….can’t pay rent…….because I had to pay to get out of jail……….just because I was a black man parked in a hotel parking lot…………….
…..and I am supposed to expect someone to believe me??................
HAPPY EASTER EVERYBODY!!!!!....................
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