Sunday, November 20, 2011

THE END OF THE BEGINNING OF THE END.....



Anybody home? HELLLLO!!! Wow, my homie told me today I needed to write a blog. I was like, your right. So here I am for your reading pleasure. Kinda feels weird actually writing again. I really don’t know why I don’t write more. I’m on the internet a lot. But it seems my mind is focused on other things, rather its music or playing Slotomania and Cityville. I’m not on the ellipses anymore. I wrote a wrestling blog and the critics ate me alive. And so I agreed with them. It feels different writing like this but I guess it’s something I will have to get used to. Also, this will make my sentences receive a spell check and I can properly write you guys and grammatically correct blog.

The thing that won’t change will be my honesty. Over these past few months, if you have been watching the Incredible Radio Show on Ustream: (http://www.ustream.tv/channel/the-incredible-radio-show) you will know that I have been going through a lot. God has truly been defining himself in my life. I still have many hang ups, many inconsistencies, and many mistakes in my life. I have found a sense of peace, going to church more, and worshipping him. I think that was a problem I had. Even when I did go to church I wouldn’t fellowship in His presence. I would clap and sing along, maybe even scream a Hallelujah at times, but never would allow myself to join in the mist of the Spirit. I’m doing that now. And I love it. With that, comes a place in my soul where I realize that as my life changes, some people will not accept that. Some people will not realize the things I say, while “hurting one’s feelings” is not intentional in their statements, yet a view of realism in this place we call Society. I see more and more of pandering of feelings and cater to other’s emotions that we forget the base principals that make us who we are. We tend to not vocalize our true positions on life with the thinking of “if we can’t say nothing nice, don’t say anything”. Well umm, I do have a voice. And it is not bound by anyone but Him. I think one problem our society has is that neighbors don’t whoop kids anymore. It not only takes a village to raise a child, it takes a village to make a real MAN/WOMAN. We tend to try to let things slide too much. And I’m not talking about drama. I’m not discussing a co-worker you despise. I’m talking about life changing things, character and moral flaws, dishonesty and selfishness. Excuse me now if I continue to strike a nerve.

As you may be able to tell, I’m high right now. But that’s a good thing. I tend to open my mind more. Now I know some of you may not agree with that, and I do understand, this is my personal feelings.

Been doing a lot of shows lately. Yes, God has been good. As I venture closer to His word, I am starting to see things from a whole different perspective in this entertainment industry. I used to spend a lot of time mad and introverted when it came to this game. I respected a lot of people but I kept a lot of things to myself. It’s funny because when I think back, a lot of people thought I said things about them or was shooting slugs when that wasn’t even the case. I write a lot of things off the cuff; I really am crazy like that but people don’t believe me. There is no method to my madness. I feel this is the reason I didn’t hang with other artist too much, why I tried to show love without exposing too much off myself, and not panning out with artists or producers. Now, I’m happier. I see things clearer than I did before. The animosity that may be in someone else’s heart I no longer can feel. You can’t feel tension if it has nothing to retract to. Lightning doesn’t start from outta nowhere. If I have a problem with something or someone, I can now say it with loving-kindness. There is no hostility; only truth. I love all the people grinding and really trying to make it. While I may not love, or for that matter like, their music, I do appreciate the grind because I do it too. Everyone will not love my music. If they did, I would be on by now. Had a show on the 13th of November that was bananas!! Was at Kitty’s Place with DJ Lady JA-Roq on last Tuesday. Had a show at Rack Daddy’s on Friday that turned out to not be a show because of a janky promoter. If you wanna find out what I’m talking about, go to the Facebook. This is not the place to repeat myself. Tonight, I will be at Emerald City in South Dallas so if you don’t have anything to do, ya boy Spaceship Ohayses, the Incredible will be in the building. On next Friday, November 25th, I will be performing comedy at Club Arnetic for the Artist Explosion Tour. So if you get a chance, come check me out!!......

Well, I just remembered I promise my home girl I would call her when I got out of church. So I love yall, I miss yall, keep my in your prayers.

Love yall!

Church…………………………...(I can do it here!)

Sunday, September 25, 2011

I DONT SEE NOTHING WRONG!!!

What’s good great people?.....yeah, I’m writing again…on a Sunday no less…..but I have time and I miss being able to vent to you all and this seemed like as good of time as any…..lots of things going on for me….and in the world…..and I appreciate those of you that are actually standing by me through thick and thin……so shall I proceed?.......
I’ve been thinking about giving it all up……yea, I said it……..and I don’t feel like I’m quitting……for most of you that know me, understand I am a pretty factual person…..one of my flaws may be that I don’t go off emotion too many times…..as I have taken this journey as an entertainer, I have always proclaimed that there are two jobs that you need to have people supporting you….and those are the President and an entertainer…..I have achieved many successes and have done things I would have never dreamed of……the fact remains though, I’m still not “on”…..yea, I do a lot of things in Dallas……name is recognized….but let’s not trip….im not on any magazine covers or at any awards shows……and yes, it does bother me………I was hoping this talent would allow me never to have my kids struggling like I did growing up……to not have to live check to check……but something is missing…….is it me?.........
I ask myself that a lot because my popularity is limited….i mean, people fucks with me and say they like me…in the end……my numbers don’t show it……I can post about fucking a chick on Facebook and get 20 comments but when I ask someone to check out my music, I can’t even get a like…….and I wonder if I have pigeon holed myself into this situation……being a sexual creature has its advantages…..but what happens when you realize, that’s all someone wants you for?.......that the other piece of you is nothingness to them……I try to be a man of great substance, yet, many people don’t know this side of me……and it’s not like I don’t show it……they just don’t pay attention…..so why am I holding on to the hope that they will support me without ulterior motives??.........
I wish people could see that I mean more good than harm…..my “realness” and being blunt is only a defense to me having to be strong…..i was taught the quickest way to a point is a straight line, so I continue to let my mouth and my brain meet at the same time……when I say how I feel , my intentions are not to hurt….but if someone is going to be hurt in this situation, why must it be me for saying what I feel?......is this scaring people off…..is my tactless nature pushing people who would otherwise be there for me away….have I been too blind to see it?......i ask myself often, “what happened to my great friend?......was it a façade…or was I so selfish that I didn’t recognize the signs of my transgressions?......
Or am I not that hot?......maybe I am looking in the wrong direction……sometimes, we have to understand when our time has passed and we must cope with this reality……I love what I do…there is not many things that bring me joy as entertaining…….but if I cannot bring the masses to see me, I can stick to writing a bunch of posts on Facebook and leave it at that…..many times, I am asked by artist what can they do to become better…it’s a little more difficult when you don’t have the answers for yourself…..
So I am contemplating……I love you guys tremendously…..and I am grateful to have had this hour to dance……maybe, I can get one more dance before the clock strikes 12…….
Now with that said…....IT GOES DOWN EACH AND EVERY MONDAY FOR GAME NIGHT AT HEROES!!! 7402 GREENVILLE AVE, ITS HAPPY HOUR AND FRE TIL 9!!!...$.50 WINGS, $2 DRINKS, AND GAMES!! SPADES, DOMINOES, UNO, MONOPOLY, AND MANY MORE!!....HOSTED BY SPACESHIP OHAYSES AND DJ LADY JA-ROQ, THIS IS YOUR MONDAY NIGHT CHILL SPOT!!.........COME ON OUT AND KICK IT WITH ME JUST ONE TIME I SAY…..YOU WILL BE HOOKED!!........
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Love yall!!!

Church!!

Sunday, August 28, 2011

OOPS I DID IT AGAIN....AND AGAIN...AND AGAIN!!!

Its funny how time flies…..and I aint even having fun….well, kinda sorta!!.....HOW IS EVERYBODY DOING TODAY?!........i know I know…I miss you guys too!!......and for those that may be reading this for the first time…..and yes I am asking myself why is that……this is the Wise Words of Spaceship…….so many things to talk about….ima try not to get too personal, but hey, it is what it is you know…….the only way I know how to do things is by touching your soul………

BTW, have u checked out The Incredible radio show on Ustream yet?.......umm, what are you waiting for….all you have to do is click here: http://www.ustream.tv/channel/the-incredible-radio-show and you too will be wondering what is going on in my head…..i know a lot of you will be hearing about the show for the first time, but I promise you, it’s must see TV…..working on getting an actual late night talk show based off it…pray for me………

SEPT 12TH…….i will be starting a game night at Heroes Lounge…..doors open at 4……we will be watching the Monday Night Football game and you will be able to play your favorite games such as spades, dominoes, Monopoly, Connect 4,maybe even Twister!!........come on out and kick it with ya boy for the football season!!......drink specials, wing deals, and great music……this event will also be DJ’d by the one and only DJ Lady Ja-Roq!!.........

Speaking of which……she’s bacccccckk!!....DJ Lady Ja-Roq is back to open mic ways live and in effect Tuesdays at Charlie’s off Mockingbird and 35……just go the opposite way of 183 from 35 and you will see it on the right hand side….all artist, fans, supporters, poets, and singers……yall know how Ja-Roq does so go on out there and support her…….

Now I know you may be thinking?....but Ship?.......aren’t you the host…….nope!!...my homie Christy B is the host and she is exceptional……for some reason, some folks don’t like me….but I’m comfortable with that…….i will always love my DJ………..

I have my fan page open for business on Facebook.…go to the Spaceship Ohayses page that has a picture of Ja-Roq and I…..i will be posting most of my events there…..pictures, videos, updates……and if I have weeks opening…..a lot of new things are on the horizon….im excited……and I gots ta be more focused!!.....

Have you ever reached your bottom?....i mean, like really to the point where you felt you had nowhere to turn?.....well I did…..and then something funny happened….i started not to care….and it wasn’t insomuch about not caring about life……but just caring about the circumstance and looking for a result…..for a minute, I was stuck in a rut of the worse kind….a mental rut…..i felt I could do no right…..it consumed me how I would try to do the right thing and end up doing the wrong thing……I felt like a loser and I felt like a quitter….on the surface, I was going everywhere, always smiling, always joking or cracking on someone….but when I got home, I cried….i ask the Lord for answers and told him I would do whatever it took to be right…I am just so tired of struggling……..
There are times when I think he doesn’t hear me……or maybe he’s just tired of answering my idle praise….i once told a family member, “I don’t think he hears me. He never talks back.”…….this is a time when I know he heard me….the funny thing is, I think God puts our prayers in order……even if we pray and ask God for favor, he has billions more asking at the same time….i wonder if he does them in alphabetical order……the most important thing he has given me is a sound mind…..most people think Spaceship Ohayses is crazy; but lately, I truly had been feeling that way…..some of my obstacles are still here….i am far from being comfortable in my life……I am, however, sure that God has brought me to this point for a reason….and I have bent but not yet been broken……I know sometimes we may feel like hope is lost…..i think that’s human nature…..if we look back on our life, we can see that through all situations, we have overcome them and are still living……we made it this far……so what makes us think that the problem we are facing right now or the one in the unforeseeable future with impede us….we must believe and we must have a peace about ourselves…when we panic, we have a tendency to not look at things clearly and in the more optimistic way…..we are overcomers…….
BIG SHOUT OUT TO THE NEWEST MEMBER OF THE ESSENTIAL ENTERTAINMENT/ FRONTLINE ENTERTAINMENT FAMILY TLi da Ripper…..i will be doing a feature on him soon so yall can get acclimated with the newest member of Essential Entertainment……..

Okay, I think I’m done…anything else??.......nope!!


Love Yall!!!!!


Church!!!!

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

DONT TALK, JUST LISTEN (XXX)

Soooo….I’m here…how are you all doing today?....or this evening…..crazy what makes me blog…..I’ve missed yall…seriously……been working on this album and working on getting my strength and wits back……Happy Belated Mother’s Day to all the mothers….I thought I was gonna blog on Sunday but my day started late and then I have many errands to run…..and to all my Laker haters….SHUT UP!!!...yes I am a realist so I know they quit on each other…I know the Mavericks outplayed them the whole series…..but WE STILL HAVE MORE RINGS THAN YOU!!!..........lol….I know the backlash is coming but who cares…you still have not won a ring…….the album is going great yall…..got a few songs written and recorded…but I want to make sure my sound is right…I want this album/mixtape to be complete..got a lot of great things coming up….and I want you all to continue to pray for me and support in all ways possible….
If you are reading this, then you know how to contact me……so I had to say this..this Saturday, I will be performing live at 2826 Arnetic on Main Street in Deep Ellum…..it is a birthday party and I will be performing with the band One Nite Stand…..now some of you have heard me rock out with a band but if you have not, you should definitely come out and check us out……if you have any questions, CONTACT ME!!....don’t just not come because you say you didn’t know…..lame ass excuses…….
I was talking to a friend tonight and this is the origin of why I am writing……we were talking about how people dance in Dallas…..now don’t get me wrong, I don’t like the type of dances here…or rather, they are quite hilarious….but this is not what I come here to discuss……I come to talk about sex……yep, this a grown up blog……..so if you don’t want to take that journey…stop reading here………
Wait for it……………

Wait for it……………..

Wait for it……………
Okay Cool…..Shall I Proceed?
See, the problem down here……they don’t play slow music in the club…..that’s why folks don’t know how to have sex….see when I was growing up and we went out…..club, party, house party, anything, they would play the same routine….new shit at first……..the shit on the radio…….then the music that’s gonna get the women on the floor (line dancing, bounce/boy music)……..some more new shit…then some slow jam…….POW!!!......this is when the men get to practice with the body….Bump And Grind, T-Shirt and Panties, They Don’t Know….man, we used to get it in……nowadays, the dudes and the females don’t dance with each other…they dance in their clicks……what the fuck is that shit?...dude, get on it….but NOOOOOO!!!!...now, we grinding all night and then when we get the woman in the bed we think that’s how she want it…..sorry partna, not at all…….men, don’t know how to get deep in the pus anymore…….we too busy trying to bust that pussy open and tear the pussy up………idiots……
And to my sisters……yall cant do have the shit in the bed that you do in the club…..women used to grind and dance with the fellas to see what he working wit on the sly……so don’t get mad cause you thought his belt buckle was his dick…….you wanna do splits and dance all up on your bff and then expect a man to find you attractive in the club…..and why do you have your shoes off in the club again?......women in the club used to be sexy….now they too busy screaming how they an independent bitch……but I can’t call you that right?..........
The club used to be practice….that was how you found a groove with a person…music period….I wonder if that’s why old people slow dance in their living room or even at clubs….they keeping their rhythm together…we just not on game……we miserable with compatibility issues but all it takes is a simple test…..slow dance with them…that will tell you a lot………..


LOVE YALL!!!!!


CHURCH!!!!

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

YOU ONLY HAVE ONE CHANCE TO LIVE TWICE......

Greetings to all my people on today!!...it is Tuesday and I have come to give you another edition of Wise Words of Spaceship……man, my head is full of things right now……these are the days that are hard for me…..I’m learning that I am a little more emotional than what I appear…but oh well…..I guess its part of life…..before I get into my message for today I do have some things to get off my chest……

Now, I say this in love and kindness……I DO NOT LIVE FOR ANYONE BUT MY GRANDPARENTS AND MY DAUGHTER!!!........I say that because recently I have been tinkering around on my facebook and I went back into “case study mode”…that’s when I do or say something to get a reaction…..well, lately, I have been getting a few messages questioning some of the things I said……this is my life….if things happen, so be it……I found myself living to make other people happy from 2003-2009….in the end, I was the one full of heartache and pain……I love you guys with all my sincerity, but I refuse to stop or alter my life to make someone else happy……I remember when I had my album release party, people were telling me not to let some artist perform….when I had my bday party, folks got upset about me not having them perform….when I kick it with someone, I am offered suggestions on how to handle that person…..and that ish is draining….and petty…..so from this day forward, you have been warned……because of my life as an entertainer, I understand how important it is to try to keep people happy and supportive of your goals….right now, I’m in a “dgaf” attitude…..so if you think this message pertains to you…..STOP IT…next time, I may just put you on blast!!......

Friday, I was out of town and received a phone call from a co-worker…..it was a call of the worse kind….another one of our buddies son was killed…..now the father is someone we look up to here and he was pretty crushed about the ordeal…I mean, why wouldn’t he be?.....his only son…shot down for stupid purposes……it was a very hard pill for him to swallow…..as I talked to my friend, I begin to reminisce about my grandparents and the pain I suffered with their passing…..I had to ask myself, “if now isn’t a good time to love, when is?”……I’m getting older and as time pass, I think even I begun to take that word for granted…yes, I have my Jayla….and some days that’s all I need…but even I am guilty of not thinking about her everyday…..maybe its due to not seeing her everyday……and for me at times, out of site, out of mind……but as I talked to him, its more than just my daughter I am concerned about……its everything…….yes, I do want to get married again…yes I do want to have more kids…yes I want my music and entertainment to take off…….I want to feel loved and I want to reciprocate that feeling…..at the age of 31, I am just now being able to distinguish when someone loves me…….it may sound funny, but it’s the truth……working in the realm of entertainment, love is not something that is prevalent; this business consist of a lot of snake, evils, and people that want to use you to enhance themselves……its easy to fall into that trap and either you become one that does those things or you become so numb to people’s words that even outside of it, you doubt genuine behavior….think about a prosecutor or an investigator…..they spend a large amount of time interrogating people looking for they truth….how hard do u think it is when they have a child that they think is lying to them or even a loved one??........we may think its not true, but look at how we act when we ask our kids did they do something.....and we know they lying…..we will bust a vein with intensity…….especially when we know we are right…….
So I have to figure this out……for me….not anyone else but myself…..now I am not in a place of unhappiness….just in a place where I need clarity…..is there someone that has my attention…yes……is there someone I know is good for me….indeed……are their people that I don’t take the time to show how much I love them….yes indeed…..and we must be mindful that tomorrow is not promised to any of us…..no matter how upset my grandmother used to be at us, we never went to bed angry….there are so many times where we will get mad at our friends and wont speak……but you never know if that is the last time you will see them or even speak to them…….to love someone is not mandatory…but to love in general is…we spend way too much time being mad for nothing…for things that wont matter within a week……for reasons we soon forget……and for situations that can be changed……I’m not asking for you to love me….love yourself first…I promise it will shine brighter than the biggest son……lets not continue to focus on why things aren’t…in this day and time, we need to focus on what is………and that is love……because regardless of who we are, someone loves you for just being you……….

Well I am about to get out of here……don’t really have anymore work to do but I think I have rambled enough…..continue to support Spaceship’s Incredible Sunday Showdown on www.spindatmusic.com each Sunday from 6-10cst…all you have to do is go to the website, click on the station that says hip hop/r&b and hit video chat…its an online station so no matter where you are at, you can tune in!!........

The new album, “Operation: Hip Hop” is coming this summer #TEAMOHAYSES



Love yall!!!!!


Church!!!

Monday, April 4, 2011

LIKE ROCKS THROUGH AN HOURGLASS.....

Happy Monday to you all!!.....I hope I come to u in peace and bliss…..sorry I have been away for a few days….am trying my best not to be….but I was a little under the weather last week…..I definitely wanted to write a blog March 26th, but I was unable to……that day marked the 2 year anniversary of Wise Words of Spaceship……and it means a lot that you guys continue to support me, encourage me, and love me like you do…I am truly grateful and humbled by all of your support…..now, to year 3…..and I still ask that you tell other people about the blog….give them something to read…some encouragement even….my goal is to touch lives…to let you guys as well as others now, that we all have battles….and that we all can over come them…..

I’m going to boot camp with one of my co-workers on Wednesday…ima let that marinate for a minute……exactly my thoughts too…STOP LAUGHING AT ME!!......I promised her I would go and because of the way my body shut down on me last week, I know its more important than ever that I get in shape……I haven’t had a rigorous exercise in a long time…..I just don’t see myself wanting to die right now…..so I will go and work diligently on getting my body in shape…..ooh, if I get fine……I may have to have security!!.........

Something that disturbs me…..the other day I was conversing with someone and they said something that rubbed me the wrong way….when I brought it to their attention, they said they were just joking…..my question is: would they have said they were joking if I would not have voiced my displeasure on the topic??......I see this a lot…..hear it even more, especially at the workplace….we must be mindful of the things we say to people….now I do understand that you may be thinking. “Spaceship, you are one of the meanest people I know”…….and that is a correct statement……when I say something, I am very reasonable at letting you know if I am joking or not….I am not usually the one to say “j/k” or “j/p” after I see your displeasure at my comment….we are all human; and we all have emotions and feelings that make us react…some negative and some positive…the key to life is being real….always……we will never like everything everyone says……so don’t bite your tongue and don’t take back the things you said…..

My mixtape is in the works….it will be entitled “Operation: Hip Hop”……now, I am not too fond of making mixtapes but I think this is needed…..in the process of making myself a brand….or creating my brand……I feel my craft at being an MC is being lost…so, I have to do what only I know how…..create the hottest mixtape of 2011…..and I guarantee you it will be explosive…..I’m going to put my soul in this album……to me, hip hop is at war against rap music…and yes, rap does have its place….I love it at times..(I cant believe I just admitted that)…….it just wont have a place on this album….my prayer is that I may work with artist that will not only enhance this work, but elevate my craft……I love making music…it is, my first love in this entertainment realm….and I haven’t made an album since the passing of grandma….so this will be dedicated to her……time to turn up the energy and give the streets what they need!!.....

My girl Pasha just put an article out on me on their website…I would appreciate it if you all checked it out….go to www.theloungreport.info and leave a comment…..all it takes is a minute and I know you would be proud of ya boi!!.........don’t forget each and every Sunday, it’s Spaceship’s Incredible Sunday Showdown on www.spindatmusic.com on the hip hop/r&b station….all u have to do is click the link and hit “video chat room”….we are always fooling in their and I play all of your favorites young and old….it doesn’t matter what city you are in, what country you are visiting, or what you are watching on TV….from 6-10 cst, you can listen to me and get your party on the only way I know how….

Wrestlemania 27 is in the books and I didn’t get to watch it!!.....sucks but hey, I had to work…shout out to Edge and the Miz for winning their respective matches……

Well, now its time to say goodbye to all my fellow friends…..let me get up out of here…remember to support, love, encourage and uplift….its the only way we can stay in a positive mode…..

Love yall!!!!


Church!!

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

GREATER THAN LESS THAN MY ALL

Dear You:

Funny how times flies huh? I remember when we first met and you were the only person that talked to me in class. As I sat by myself at lunch, you came over and started a conversation with me. Going to school was more about seeing you than it was learning. People thought you were either a family member or we were in a relationship. Our friendship was based on neither. There were times when we got mad at each other, but nothing that had us at odds longer than a few minutes. We were fortunate enough to go to the same elementary, middle, and high school. We had even planned to go to college together. The older we got, the more I felt our destinies were tied to each other. There was never any pressure for us “to be together”; except of course by our other friends. I knew that you were apart of me and a person I could always count on.

When I got married, you were there for me. You helped me through all my times and never judged my significant other. I was able to confide in you and tell you how I was feeling without you giving me any grief. You became friends with them; helping them to pick out things for holidays, birthdays, and anniversaries. We double dated a few times and it was even more of a blessing that no jealousy was ever felt on anyone’s part. Once my marriage began to go downhill, you were the one that told me to stay and work it out. You were the one that told me that I may never find another person I was willing to spend the rest of my life with. And being a friend, I listened. Until I couldn’t take anymore. When I informed you of my decision to walk away, again, you didn’t judge me. You stayed by my side, never pressuring me to change my decision. You consoled me and stayed the loving loyal friend that I had known since elementary school.

And then we had sex. We promised each other never to change, and we lied. I can remember that day almost clearer than the day of my first child. Yes, it was a heat of the moment thing. And yes, it was very good, but my intent was never to hurt you or complicate our relationship. You are the one person I never had to worry about leaving my side or being in a complicated state with. I looked to you for my strength and my inspiration. And everything was the same. Because you knew I didn’t want a relationship with anyone else. I wanted to “do me”. Play the field and enjoy being single. My ex was my first and only up until the point when you and I became intimate. This was a new stage in my life and even after my divorce, you didn’t want me as more than what I had become: your best friend.

So tell me why now has all this changed? Yes, I have met a person of interest and yes, we are moving towards something magical. I would think you would be happy for me. Contrary to that belief, it seems like you are starting to spite me. Our conversations are shorter, you seem to have jealous intent when asking how we are doing, and you no longer come around like you used to. I am still here for you. I will never let you go from my side. I love you too much. The love I have for you is not the same love I hold in my heart for them. I don’t say this to be mean; just honest. It’s crazy how I never thought I would have to make a decision between you and someone else. I told you if they ever gave me that ultimatum, the decision would be easy. Now, you seem like the one giving the decision. My choice will not be as hard as you think. As much I do love you and want you in my life, I refuse to have my friendship threaten by your sensitivity to my happiness. I want you in my life. If you can’t be there, I know what I have to do although I may not want to do it.

I love you. Come back to me.


ME