Why do I have that Usher song OMG stuck in my head??....I don’t even know the words to the song but I think it’s on a commercial…..isn’t it??.......how are you all doing today?......me, I’m good…finally got a haircut……its weird how getting your head cut can make it lighter…I know I was rough and I started feeling that way as well…….its Friday, so I want you all to be safe tonight if you decide to go out……I’m pondering where imp going to end up tonight…..probably crystals….but hey you never know……
OOOH!!!....ladies…now you know how I feel about red toenails…..and although there is nothing that can compare to my distaste of that site, I have realized there is another thing that really messes with my nerves……DO NOT……WEAR SANDALS……IF YOUR HEELS ARE DARKER THAN YOU!!!......what’s up with this epidemic??......you know how lil kids have those wheels on their shoes and they can motor around??.......some of these women look like they have been doing that barefoot……imp not getting it…….imp not understanding why it is so imperative to show everybody how unkempt your feet are……newsflash…..sometimes pedicures don’t even work……try Vaseline and aluminum foil……..
I got an itch to record…haven’t had that in a while……I hope to record possibly one more album before I decide if I want to retire from performing…..I love performing….don’t get me wrong…..but for Essential Entertainment to continue to be a major force in the entertainment industry, we all have a certain position to play…..imp not so sure mine is making music anymore……or at least on the regular…..I am falling in love with putting together programs…..and of course hosting shows….as long as I am in the entertainment business, its fine by me……and with the great artist that we currently have in Essential Entertainment……Wyze, Derek What’s His Face, and DLP, I don’t need to be in the spotlight in a musical capacity…all the time…..in the meantime though…..I’m ready to drop my new album……either will be titled “Incredible’s Playground” or “Dessert For All”…….which one do you prefer……
Think I need to make a trip to see my old producer….yeah….THAT producer…don’t think he is going to be happy to see me…but it needs to be done…..that’s one of the hard things about being in this industry….allegiances form and die very quickly and often…..I’m hoping that there will be positive resolution….in all honesty, I’m tired of the bull….I’m tired of not being able to communicate with people like a man should…..it should not have taken me this long to make this move but I figured I could let thing pass and move on with my life….that’s not true…sometime we have to confront our obstacles and tribulations……running scared live you less options than standing up and being a man in any issue…….
How is it that Jayla knows to ask me to go to Chuck E Cheese on pay week…..ALL THE TIME!!...this isn’t just a one time thing…..she does this bi weekly…..she’s four…..is she learning the value of a dollar already?......or is she learning to keep up with her man’s money…..maybe I should ask Stephanie……..
I went off on a tangent earlier so I will finish my tangent line…..thinking about becoming a comedian…..yes me……not sure yet…..but I would like to try one stand up routine and see if I am any good…..maybe…….if all else fails, I can stand on the stage and make my nose flare up……..
Please pray for me…tomorrow is the open casting call for Oprah’s next talk show…yes I am going……I still need to do my audition tape…Stephanie and I made one about a week ago but it was denied more than likely because I put the pinky up…….but tomorrow, they will be in Plano…..my only problem is if I will make it in time for the auditions…I have to work in the morning and so I will be major pressed to get a chance…..there will probably be so many people there…..pray for me…..once I am on the website, I would love for everyone to vote for me and get everyone they know to vote for me as well….and if you are really good…..get everybody that they know to vote for me as well……how awesome would that be!!!.......
Well, I think I am about to get up out of here…whatever I decide to do tonight, I need a nap before that happens……want to give a special shout out to my homie Joyis…..you may not realize it…but today’s talk did me a world of good…..you are too awesome for your own realization and I thank you for caring so much about Essential Entertainment……if everyone was as authentic in your dedication, we would be on People Magazine in no time……your work and determination is always noticed…from the bottom of my heart…..THANKS!!!!.........
Love yall!!!!
Church!!!
Friday, June 11, 2010
Thursday, June 10, 2010
I THOUGHT THAT WAS RED KOOL-AID!!!
I have been sleepy ALL DAY!!!.....and I probably wont get any sleep tonight as well……but hey, that’s the life…..how are you all doing today?....one more day until the weekend……at least for most of us…I’m working all this weekend so I truly wont have time to rest…….unless I find time….Stephanie told me the other day, I am the only person she knows that takes power naps as soon as I get home from work….I figured…..either she doesn’t know many people……or she was just talking to hear herself speak……because I needs my naps…should have went home today for lunch!!!......
Now when I am sleepy, I have a tendency to ramble…..if you see that happening, stop me and bring it to my attention….oh yeah, you cant stop me…you are reading this!!......well, deal with it and respond back to me…….
I have a question…how many of you have listened to my music???......I’m just wondering…..if you haven’t, go on to iTunes or Amazon and check it out for yourself…..if you have the funds, pick up a song or two, or buy the whole album……I would greatly appreciate it……..
I’m starting a new series next Wednesday…….its going to be called “Why Wednesdays”…..but in order for it to be successful, I will need you all’s help……each Wednesday, I want to ask questions that we all think about starting with “Why”…..like, Why do women shaved all their eyebrows off and draw them on?.....or “Why do fat people order a lot of food and then get a Diet Coke?”…….hopefully, we can get some answers to these tough questions…..all I ask, if you have a “Why Wednesday” question is to email it to me……I want to have fun with this series……and if your question is inappropriate, understand it will not be posted up on here…….
For some reason today, I was thinking about my blow out a few weeks ago…….recalling the events is painful, but I had to put them in perspective……I saw that my tires were showing tread…they were wearing out…..but I……figuring that I have all the right answers decided to continue to drive my truck without any thought of the repercussions…..the tire was cool on the highway….there was no traffic and no foreseeable litter that could disrupt my trip……as soon as I felt the traffic coming on, I braced myself……I always have a sense of fear when I am in traffic because you never know what’s going on in the mind of the other drivers……..I soon saw something in the road……I tried to maneuver myself so I wouldn’t hit it…..an 18 wheeler was in the lane next to me…..he did nothing wrong…he stayed in his lane and continued to drive…I tried hard to get the driver’s attention so I could avoid the possible damage….it was too late…..BOOM!!....next thing I know I am on the side of the road, feel hopeless…….
Now the bad part of the story was what happened after……people were driving by, but no one was of assistance….I had someone come but they didn’t have the tools needed to change my flat…….I went to tire shops and the workers didn’t speak English…..I was stuck……the more I looked for help, the more time went by and I started t think I wouldn’t get any help…did I call roadside assistance…sure did…but they told me I needed to have my own tools…….
The reason I bring up this story is because in life, we have a tendency to see things getting worse and we ignore them…..we think we have it under control….the fact is, something’s are not in our control…….and even when they are, we must take the necessary steps to have the tools we need just in case something happens……whether it’s a relationship, family, finances, or even a hobby……..we can set ourselves up for failure by not thinking things through and being proactive…..and then, we get caught in the conundrum……we try to find anyone we can to help us……the harsh reality?........we need to be able to help ourselves first…..there may be people in our lives that can get us out of sticky circumstances, but its not for them…..there is a difference between a blessing and a crutch……we all can be blessings to one another but not a crutch……because of our misjudgments, we cant expect people to do things on our time……even God doesn’t do that, so why expect man……we know what we are getting ourselves into…..but our reluctance to understand consequences makes life harder than it should be….if you see tread on your tire, go change it……you can do more harm letting it go than good……..
Well, the Lakers play again tonight……dude at work just bet me $20 that the Celtics are going to win this series…..easiest money I have ever made in my life……lol……..but for all those that are still doubting, its cool…..go change your tire!!!..........
Also…..I want to say this not because I am hurt or scorned….its an observation and I know there are a lot of entrepreneurs on this list……DON’T LET ANYONE DOUBT YOUR DREAM!!.....some people can’t be your friend if they don’t support you……its life…we have to get over it!!.......as a good Christian man, I try my best to stay in the loop with people, even though I know they wish my downfall…and some just have heavy doubt…..its okay if you don’t associate with them!!.......they are not helping your progress anyway!!!....sure we will all have people that try to squeeze the joy out of us….as my granny used to say, “feed em with a long handle spoon”…….its amazing how some people don’t have anything to say to me until something bad happens or they are trying to get info on some drama……don’t address it…love those that love you back…and are not stalkers!!!!!!..............
Well I think I am done for the evening….I am going to try to work for the remaining time I am here…..please check out the music……..hit me up on facebook, twitter, anything you want…..once again, you have been warned……..
Shout outs to my girl Koi….she has an important job interview tomorrow and when two or more are in agreement, God hears our prayers…say a prayer for her tonight that she will get the blessing she rightfully deserves……and fathers…..don’t wait until next week to see your kids…that was just on my heart!!.........
Love yall!!!
Church!!!
Now when I am sleepy, I have a tendency to ramble…..if you see that happening, stop me and bring it to my attention….oh yeah, you cant stop me…you are reading this!!......well, deal with it and respond back to me…….
I have a question…how many of you have listened to my music???......I’m just wondering…..if you haven’t, go on to iTunes or Amazon and check it out for yourself…..if you have the funds, pick up a song or two, or buy the whole album……I would greatly appreciate it……..
I’m starting a new series next Wednesday…….its going to be called “Why Wednesdays”…..but in order for it to be successful, I will need you all’s help……each Wednesday, I want to ask questions that we all think about starting with “Why”…..like, Why do women shaved all their eyebrows off and draw them on?.....or “Why do fat people order a lot of food and then get a Diet Coke?”…….hopefully, we can get some answers to these tough questions…..all I ask, if you have a “Why Wednesday” question is to email it to me……I want to have fun with this series……and if your question is inappropriate, understand it will not be posted up on here…….
For some reason today, I was thinking about my blow out a few weeks ago…….recalling the events is painful, but I had to put them in perspective……I saw that my tires were showing tread…they were wearing out…..but I……figuring that I have all the right answers decided to continue to drive my truck without any thought of the repercussions…..the tire was cool on the highway….there was no traffic and no foreseeable litter that could disrupt my trip……as soon as I felt the traffic coming on, I braced myself……I always have a sense of fear when I am in traffic because you never know what’s going on in the mind of the other drivers……..I soon saw something in the road……I tried to maneuver myself so I wouldn’t hit it…..an 18 wheeler was in the lane next to me…..he did nothing wrong…he stayed in his lane and continued to drive…I tried hard to get the driver’s attention so I could avoid the possible damage….it was too late…..BOOM!!....next thing I know I am on the side of the road, feel hopeless…….
Now the bad part of the story was what happened after……people were driving by, but no one was of assistance….I had someone come but they didn’t have the tools needed to change my flat…….I went to tire shops and the workers didn’t speak English…..I was stuck……the more I looked for help, the more time went by and I started t think I wouldn’t get any help…did I call roadside assistance…sure did…but they told me I needed to have my own tools…….
The reason I bring up this story is because in life, we have a tendency to see things getting worse and we ignore them…..we think we have it under control….the fact is, something’s are not in our control…….and even when they are, we must take the necessary steps to have the tools we need just in case something happens……whether it’s a relationship, family, finances, or even a hobby……..we can set ourselves up for failure by not thinking things through and being proactive…..and then, we get caught in the conundrum……we try to find anyone we can to help us……the harsh reality?........we need to be able to help ourselves first…..there may be people in our lives that can get us out of sticky circumstances, but its not for them…..there is a difference between a blessing and a crutch……we all can be blessings to one another but not a crutch……because of our misjudgments, we cant expect people to do things on our time……even God doesn’t do that, so why expect man……we know what we are getting ourselves into…..but our reluctance to understand consequences makes life harder than it should be….if you see tread on your tire, go change it……you can do more harm letting it go than good……..
Well, the Lakers play again tonight……dude at work just bet me $20 that the Celtics are going to win this series…..easiest money I have ever made in my life……lol……..but for all those that are still doubting, its cool…..go change your tire!!!..........
Also…..I want to say this not because I am hurt or scorned….its an observation and I know there are a lot of entrepreneurs on this list……DON’T LET ANYONE DOUBT YOUR DREAM!!.....some people can’t be your friend if they don’t support you……its life…we have to get over it!!.......as a good Christian man, I try my best to stay in the loop with people, even though I know they wish my downfall…and some just have heavy doubt…..its okay if you don’t associate with them!!.......they are not helping your progress anyway!!!....sure we will all have people that try to squeeze the joy out of us….as my granny used to say, “feed em with a long handle spoon”…….its amazing how some people don’t have anything to say to me until something bad happens or they are trying to get info on some drama……don’t address it…love those that love you back…and are not stalkers!!!!!!..............
Well I think I am done for the evening….I am going to try to work for the remaining time I am here…..please check out the music……..hit me up on facebook, twitter, anything you want…..once again, you have been warned……..
Shout outs to my girl Koi….she has an important job interview tomorrow and when two or more are in agreement, God hears our prayers…say a prayer for her tonight that she will get the blessing she rightfully deserves……and fathers…..don’t wait until next week to see your kids…that was just on my heart!!.........
Love yall!!!
Church!!!
Wednesday, June 9, 2010
IT'S BETTER OUT THAN IN!!
Hmmmmm…feels like I haven’t written you guys in years!!!.....how are you all doing?.......im good….just figured out if today is Wednesday or Thursday……my days are getting quite blurry……just got out of a training course and my word!!...it’s amazing the things women say when they are not paying attention!!......it was a learning experience that I truly needed….got a few things to talk about……so let’s get to them shall we?........
So today I got stuck in some conversations about the controversial words Slim Thug had to say about black women and relationships…..now I don’t want to provoke any additional comments with my thoughts…..but its amazing how you can speak for ages and a woman will pick one thing and try to dissect that diluting the whole point of your message……if you missed it, he was discussing dating black women as opposed to other races and why that is…..now, I don’t agree with his points….I simply feel a larger issue was missed that should be addressed….instead of ridiculing and talking down on folks, why are we not into the building each other up?....why must we lose contentment for instance material success?........is love really important nowadays and does it actually cover a multitude of things??......our community needs a reality check and I think this may be the start……….
Of course I was being looked at as if I agreed with him……I was leaving home today at lunch and thought to myself, “what if he doesn’t even believe what he was saying?”……what if it was all for attention?.......is Slim Thug, by the response of his comments, really that ignorant, or just that smart?.....knowing me, I would have asked that question knowing that it totally didn’t affect me……but its something that bubbles under the surface of relationships that is never addressed…….who knows!!......
Speaking of Slim Thug, I was watching the Hip Hop Honors on VH-1 the other night…..noticed something odd….there was no artist from Dallas representing the South…..don’t even think there was one in the audience……and I wonder why?......not going to bash anyone, but its apparent, there is a lack of hip hop going on here…..and its frustrating….even if its not Spaceship Ohayses, I see too much talent on a day to day basis for it not to be on a national spectrum…….who do we give credit too for this handicap?......do we blame the artist for not pushing themselves out there enough…..do we blame the DJs for playing music that puts money in their pockets as opposed to new hot music that could create a legacy?.......do we blame the fans for not supporting local music?....and with Dallas being such a melting pot, what is local music anymore?.....is it that imperative to get someone from Oak Cliff on?........are local music heads that concerned that someone not from Dallas, that lives in Dallas would get on first and they still wont have credit?......its a disturbing thought……of all the major cities in America, Dallas does not have one artist they can claim to be a superstar…..and please don’t give me Erycka Badu…..you know what I am talking about…….
TONIGHT IS ROLLS ROYCE!!.....IT’S THE OPEN MIC SHOWCASE..STILL GIVING AWAY $250……LOCATED AT 9220 SKILLMAN STREET IN NORTH DALLAS!!...DOORS OPEN AT 9……SHOW STARTS AT 10…….DJ BIG KATT ON THE ONES AND TWOS WITH SPACESHIP OHAYSES AS YOUR HOST AND MASTER OF CEREMONIES…….BEEN A MINUTE, BUT STILL BLAZING HEAT!!!........COME ON OUT AND WATCH THE BEST OF THE BEST!!!........
The best of the best…..sounds like the Los Angeles Lakers…….so many people here at work thought that when they lost game two, it was a wrap for them…there was no way they were going to win in Boston…..LMAO at the egg on your face…understand this…I am not just a Kobe fan…I am a laker fan…and they have the best team in the league…yeah, the Celtics have had a good run in the playoffs but they were and average team at best this season….age will get to you…….and after playing 20 extra games this postseason, eventually they will break down…..do I think the series is over?......no not yet…I see Lakers in 6…did I say that with my original pick?........not sure…..but that’s what I see now!!!......
Thinking about publishing my book….I know you guys received another chapter yesterday….I’ve been reading it more an more lately……and I think I want to go ahead and try to release it again…..I think it’s a pretty good read…..what do u guys think?.....I would love for it to be turned into a movie……probably starting in July, I will work on getting the book released…….and then finish up on the second part of it…..
So let me give you a quote…haven’t talked to Rika in a minute so I don’t have nay new quotes…..at least from her……but I do have one I would love to share with you all……
“Remember the past, plan for the future, but live for today, because yesterday is gone and tomorrow may never come."
Shout outs to my girl Lauren……she is truly going through right now but God has his hands on her….tonight simply say a prayer…if you get this in the morning, again, say a prayer for her……she needs it al land I know miracles happen everyday……
Also, a shout out to the Cakelady, Chef Chaq…if anyone needs a cake done, I think you need to let me know…she is absolutely awesome at what she does and within reasonable prices…….don’t disappoint someone because its convenient for you…..if you want the best wedding, birthday, anniversary, or just because cake, Chef Chaq is what that is………
Any artist that would like to participate in the $500 Industry Idol Competition in Arlington should also get at me……last week, we had K104 in the building along with other celebs that may possibly make your career….its worth a try!!
Love yall!!!!!!
Church!!!!
So today I got stuck in some conversations about the controversial words Slim Thug had to say about black women and relationships…..now I don’t want to provoke any additional comments with my thoughts…..but its amazing how you can speak for ages and a woman will pick one thing and try to dissect that diluting the whole point of your message……if you missed it, he was discussing dating black women as opposed to other races and why that is…..now, I don’t agree with his points….I simply feel a larger issue was missed that should be addressed….instead of ridiculing and talking down on folks, why are we not into the building each other up?....why must we lose contentment for instance material success?........is love really important nowadays and does it actually cover a multitude of things??......our community needs a reality check and I think this may be the start……….
Of course I was being looked at as if I agreed with him……I was leaving home today at lunch and thought to myself, “what if he doesn’t even believe what he was saying?”……what if it was all for attention?.......is Slim Thug, by the response of his comments, really that ignorant, or just that smart?.....knowing me, I would have asked that question knowing that it totally didn’t affect me……but its something that bubbles under the surface of relationships that is never addressed…….who knows!!......
Speaking of Slim Thug, I was watching the Hip Hop Honors on VH-1 the other night…..noticed something odd….there was no artist from Dallas representing the South…..don’t even think there was one in the audience……and I wonder why?......not going to bash anyone, but its apparent, there is a lack of hip hop going on here…..and its frustrating….even if its not Spaceship Ohayses, I see too much talent on a day to day basis for it not to be on a national spectrum…….who do we give credit too for this handicap?......do we blame the artist for not pushing themselves out there enough…..do we blame the DJs for playing music that puts money in their pockets as opposed to new hot music that could create a legacy?.......do we blame the fans for not supporting local music?....and with Dallas being such a melting pot, what is local music anymore?.....is it that imperative to get someone from Oak Cliff on?........are local music heads that concerned that someone not from Dallas, that lives in Dallas would get on first and they still wont have credit?......its a disturbing thought……of all the major cities in America, Dallas does not have one artist they can claim to be a superstar…..and please don’t give me Erycka Badu…..you know what I am talking about…….
TONIGHT IS ROLLS ROYCE!!.....IT’S THE OPEN MIC SHOWCASE..STILL GIVING AWAY $250……LOCATED AT 9220 SKILLMAN STREET IN NORTH DALLAS!!...DOORS OPEN AT 9……SHOW STARTS AT 10…….DJ BIG KATT ON THE ONES AND TWOS WITH SPACESHIP OHAYSES AS YOUR HOST AND MASTER OF CEREMONIES…….BEEN A MINUTE, BUT STILL BLAZING HEAT!!!........COME ON OUT AND WATCH THE BEST OF THE BEST!!!........
The best of the best…..sounds like the Los Angeles Lakers…….so many people here at work thought that when they lost game two, it was a wrap for them…there was no way they were going to win in Boston…..LMAO at the egg on your face…understand this…I am not just a Kobe fan…I am a laker fan…and they have the best team in the league…yeah, the Celtics have had a good run in the playoffs but they were and average team at best this season….age will get to you…….and after playing 20 extra games this postseason, eventually they will break down…..do I think the series is over?......no not yet…I see Lakers in 6…did I say that with my original pick?........not sure…..but that’s what I see now!!!......
Thinking about publishing my book….I know you guys received another chapter yesterday….I’ve been reading it more an more lately……and I think I want to go ahead and try to release it again…..I think it’s a pretty good read…..what do u guys think?.....I would love for it to be turned into a movie……probably starting in July, I will work on getting the book released…….and then finish up on the second part of it…..
So let me give you a quote…haven’t talked to Rika in a minute so I don’t have nay new quotes…..at least from her……but I do have one I would love to share with you all……
“Remember the past, plan for the future, but live for today, because yesterday is gone and tomorrow may never come."
Shout outs to my girl Lauren……she is truly going through right now but God has his hands on her….tonight simply say a prayer…if you get this in the morning, again, say a prayer for her……she needs it al land I know miracles happen everyday……
Also, a shout out to the Cakelady, Chef Chaq…if anyone needs a cake done, I think you need to let me know…she is absolutely awesome at what she does and within reasonable prices…….don’t disappoint someone because its convenient for you…..if you want the best wedding, birthday, anniversary, or just because cake, Chef Chaq is what that is………
Any artist that would like to participate in the $500 Industry Idol Competition in Arlington should also get at me……last week, we had K104 in the building along with other celebs that may possibly make your career….its worth a try!!
Love yall!!!!!!
Church!!!!
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
REAL THUGS DONT GO TO COLLEGE: NO MORE PREVIEWS!
Chapter 3
Middle school was an extension of what was becoming of me in elementary school. I still did shit that got me in trouble, not caring about consequences because I knew I wouldn't get in trouble. Since Grandma worked and Granddad did all the errands, I became accustomed to when he woke up, ate breakfast, left, and when he would come home to wait on Grandma- all from the window of my neighbor Junebug.
Junebug was a 47-year-old crack head that was the victim of General Motors' first lay-offs. He's had the house he stays in since he was twenty. First person on the block with everything. He was like our role model; his shit was straight and he was cool. We could go over there for something to eat, see some pussy, or just chill out after school and homework. Grandma didn’t care if me or Harold went over there because his momma and my granny were best friends. They used to gamble with some of their friends from the block in playing Pokeno.
One day, I came home from school early (actually, I got kicked out for putting a girl's hair on fire) and went over to Junebug's house. I had to ride the bus home so I didn’t have a chance to smoke my afternoon Black and Mild. Instead of having to walk the block a couple of times, I decided to go over to Junebug's. He let us smoke. Not weed or anything, but Blacks and Squares were cool. I went over to Junebug's and his front door was open. This wasn’t like him; he felt like the way to a woman’s heart was your home. He kept his hit nice. Junebug would make you take your shoes off at the door. No way would he leave the door open for people to just walk up in his crib. Ain't nobody gonna think to take their shoes off. At least I didn't.
"Bug!"
"Bug!"
His lights were off. There was nothing going on in his crib. No tv, no cooking, nothing even upstairs. That's strange. He would even put on music when he was sleeping. I walk up the steps and see him sitting on his bed lighting something up.
"Bug! What's wrong with you?"
"I'm cool. Just in here chillin for a second."
"Whatcha smoking on? Isn't that cocaine?!"
"Nah. It's crack though. I know you don't know the difference since you're so young."
"I know the difference Bug."
"Well, crack ain't as bad as pure cocaine. That shit'll fry your brains. Plus, I only do this, this shit on occasions. Sometimes when shit starts getting to me, I hit one of these motherfuckas. Not that it changes anything, but I be fucked up."
"You must have got laid off too."
Junebug paused and sobered up questioning did I just have the audacity to question his life. There was one rule to Junebug: don't question his life. Here I was at one of his most vulnerable moments asking him something I assume personal to him and saying it like I meant to say it.
"How you know about the layoffs?"
"My granny was talking to my aunt about it."
"Oh."
"Plus we watched the news coverage in class on channel 66."
"Yeah, I got laid off. I'm cool though. 27 years in the shop is good time. I got the house paid for, my cars are paid for, and I've saved a little. Hell, I might even take a trip and leave you in charge of the house, you be
over here so much. Who knows? That shit was fucked up though, u'know? I never missed a day of work and was so close to retirement. I would have preferred the choice of retiring early than to just be let go. The shit was foul, somebody needs to do something about this."
Junebug was getting more upset the more he talked about it. Every time he stopped to think, he would turn his physical concentration on lighting this glass dick in his mouth. The more he talked, the more he smoked. This was the first time I had ever seen the development of somebody getting high.
AND HE WAS GETTING HIGH OFF CRACK!!
"So that's why you smoke crack?", I had to ask him again since he had refused to answer me the first time.
"It's not what you do, it's how you do it."
"Some things you shouldn't do Bug. My auntie smoked that shit and we ain't heard from her in a couple of years."
"I'm sensible with mine Clay. I appreciate you concern, but to answer you question, again, I don't do this all the time. And Ima really stop now since I don't have a job. Gotta save my pennies now. This will probably be the
last day I smoke this shit. Clay, will you do me a favor?"
DO HIM A FAVOR? WHATEVER HE WANTED ME TO DO, I DIDN'T WANT TO DO. YEAH, JUNEBUG'S MY MAN BUT HE'S ON CRACK RIGHT NOW.
"What's up Bug?"
"Will you go around to Mikey's house and pick up my medicine for me. He went to the store for me while I was at work and I forgot to go over there when I got off."
AND I SEE WHY!!
"Sure. I'll be right back."
"Wait. Here."
Junebug goes into his pocket and pulls out a crisp one hundred dollar bill. The only time I would ever hold a big face was when we went X-mas shopping with my grandma and she would let us pay for the gifts she was actually buying.
"And keep the rest for yourself."
That's some bullshit. Teasing me with the "keep the change" phrase. I would have rather went for free than to tip me three dollars like it was going to miraculously change my fortune.
"Aight. I'll be back in a minute."
Mikey was Junebug's cousin that lived around the corner. He was one of those fat cats that always got something to say because if he stopped to breathe, he would sound like he was snoring. He sold weed and I figured this is what Junebug wanted me to get from him. I had got some weed from Mikey in the past and it felt kind of cool being twelve years old getting weed from the dope man. I felt I had a little clout in the hood. I still didn't know too many people, but I knew some people that knew some people. So even if you didn't know me, I looked familiar to you. On my way to Mikey's, I decided to spend my three dollars on two faygos, an ice cream sandwich, and a pack of blacks. As I turned the corner on Page, Mikey was outside with a couple of his homeboys working on a car.
"Young Clay! Got kicked out again huh?", Mikey chuckles as if he doesn't need the answer; the proof is walking right up to him.
"Man this girl in class put her hair on my lighter while I was trying to fix it."
"That lil nigga nuts", I hear one of the guys say from the other side of the car. "You wild for that shit."
"Yeah, I'm out of school for five days. I might come
over here and chill out until my granddad leave if it's cool with you Mikey."
"Whenever dude. What's good? How's grandma?"
"She good. Oh, I came over here for some medicine for Bug."
"Why the hell he send you. Bug a dumb ass. Hold on for a minute youngster." Mikey hadn't ever tripped on me about getting some weed before. But then again, Junebug had never asked me to get him some weed: he just told me to. So these were the first two hints that what I was getting was not what I thought I was getting.
"Here Clay. He give you the money?"
I pulled out the hundred and gave it to Mikey with one last glance of despair. Maybe I should have kept it and tried to convince Bug that he didn't give it to me. As I waited for the change, I got nosey because Mikey kept recounting the change he was about to give to me but I noticed it had a twenty in it.
"Here ya go. TAKE THAT TO HIM QUICK."
I was in such awe that he just gave me 60 dollars back, that I didn’t realize that what he was giving me was not a sack of weed, it was two twenty dollar rocks. I put
it in my pocket, not looking (I never looked at the product in front of the dealer, I wanted the impression that I was cool wit it) and marched out the crib. Sixty dollars in my pocket and I ain't got shit to do with it. I felt like ballin' out. At three, I was at the mall, buying something. But first, I had to take Junebug his medicine, grab my Blacks and get a faygo.
Middle school was an extension of what was becoming of me in elementary school. I still did shit that got me in trouble, not caring about consequences because I knew I wouldn't get in trouble. Since Grandma worked and Granddad did all the errands, I became accustomed to when he woke up, ate breakfast, left, and when he would come home to wait on Grandma- all from the window of my neighbor Junebug.
Junebug was a 47-year-old crack head that was the victim of General Motors' first lay-offs. He's had the house he stays in since he was twenty. First person on the block with everything. He was like our role model; his shit was straight and he was cool. We could go over there for something to eat, see some pussy, or just chill out after school and homework. Grandma didn’t care if me or Harold went over there because his momma and my granny were best friends. They used to gamble with some of their friends from the block in playing Pokeno.
One day, I came home from school early (actually, I got kicked out for putting a girl's hair on fire) and went over to Junebug's house. I had to ride the bus home so I didn’t have a chance to smoke my afternoon Black and Mild. Instead of having to walk the block a couple of times, I decided to go over to Junebug's. He let us smoke. Not weed or anything, but Blacks and Squares were cool. I went over to Junebug's and his front door was open. This wasn’t like him; he felt like the way to a woman’s heart was your home. He kept his hit nice. Junebug would make you take your shoes off at the door. No way would he leave the door open for people to just walk up in his crib. Ain't nobody gonna think to take their shoes off. At least I didn't.
"Bug!"
"Bug!"
His lights were off. There was nothing going on in his crib. No tv, no cooking, nothing even upstairs. That's strange. He would even put on music when he was sleeping. I walk up the steps and see him sitting on his bed lighting something up.
"Bug! What's wrong with you?"
"I'm cool. Just in here chillin for a second."
"Whatcha smoking on? Isn't that cocaine?!"
"Nah. It's crack though. I know you don't know the difference since you're so young."
"I know the difference Bug."
"Well, crack ain't as bad as pure cocaine. That shit'll fry your brains. Plus, I only do this, this shit on occasions. Sometimes when shit starts getting to me, I hit one of these motherfuckas. Not that it changes anything, but I be fucked up."
"You must have got laid off too."
Junebug paused and sobered up questioning did I just have the audacity to question his life. There was one rule to Junebug: don't question his life. Here I was at one of his most vulnerable moments asking him something I assume personal to him and saying it like I meant to say it.
"How you know about the layoffs?"
"My granny was talking to my aunt about it."
"Oh."
"Plus we watched the news coverage in class on channel 66."
"Yeah, I got laid off. I'm cool though. 27 years in the shop is good time. I got the house paid for, my cars are paid for, and I've saved a little. Hell, I might even take a trip and leave you in charge of the house, you be
over here so much. Who knows? That shit was fucked up though, u'know? I never missed a day of work and was so close to retirement. I would have preferred the choice of retiring early than to just be let go. The shit was foul, somebody needs to do something about this."
Junebug was getting more upset the more he talked about it. Every time he stopped to think, he would turn his physical concentration on lighting this glass dick in his mouth. The more he talked, the more he smoked. This was the first time I had ever seen the development of somebody getting high.
AND HE WAS GETTING HIGH OFF CRACK!!
"So that's why you smoke crack?", I had to ask him again since he had refused to answer me the first time.
"It's not what you do, it's how you do it."
"Some things you shouldn't do Bug. My auntie smoked that shit and we ain't heard from her in a couple of years."
"I'm sensible with mine Clay. I appreciate you concern, but to answer you question, again, I don't do this all the time. And Ima really stop now since I don't have a job. Gotta save my pennies now. This will probably be the
last day I smoke this shit. Clay, will you do me a favor?"
DO HIM A FAVOR? WHATEVER HE WANTED ME TO DO, I DIDN'T WANT TO DO. YEAH, JUNEBUG'S MY MAN BUT HE'S ON CRACK RIGHT NOW.
"What's up Bug?"
"Will you go around to Mikey's house and pick up my medicine for me. He went to the store for me while I was at work and I forgot to go over there when I got off."
AND I SEE WHY!!
"Sure. I'll be right back."
"Wait. Here."
Junebug goes into his pocket and pulls out a crisp one hundred dollar bill. The only time I would ever hold a big face was when we went X-mas shopping with my grandma and she would let us pay for the gifts she was actually buying.
"And keep the rest for yourself."
That's some bullshit. Teasing me with the "keep the change" phrase. I would have rather went for free than to tip me three dollars like it was going to miraculously change my fortune.
"Aight. I'll be back in a minute."
Mikey was Junebug's cousin that lived around the corner. He was one of those fat cats that always got something to say because if he stopped to breathe, he would sound like he was snoring. He sold weed and I figured this is what Junebug wanted me to get from him. I had got some weed from Mikey in the past and it felt kind of cool being twelve years old getting weed from the dope man. I felt I had a little clout in the hood. I still didn't know too many people, but I knew some people that knew some people. So even if you didn't know me, I looked familiar to you. On my way to Mikey's, I decided to spend my three dollars on two faygos, an ice cream sandwich, and a pack of blacks. As I turned the corner on Page, Mikey was outside with a couple of his homeboys working on a car.
"Young Clay! Got kicked out again huh?", Mikey chuckles as if he doesn't need the answer; the proof is walking right up to him.
"Man this girl in class put her hair on my lighter while I was trying to fix it."
"That lil nigga nuts", I hear one of the guys say from the other side of the car. "You wild for that shit."
"Yeah, I'm out of school for five days. I might come
over here and chill out until my granddad leave if it's cool with you Mikey."
"Whenever dude. What's good? How's grandma?"
"She good. Oh, I came over here for some medicine for Bug."
"Why the hell he send you. Bug a dumb ass. Hold on for a minute youngster." Mikey hadn't ever tripped on me about getting some weed before. But then again, Junebug had never asked me to get him some weed: he just told me to. So these were the first two hints that what I was getting was not what I thought I was getting.
"Here Clay. He give you the money?"
I pulled out the hundred and gave it to Mikey with one last glance of despair. Maybe I should have kept it and tried to convince Bug that he didn't give it to me. As I waited for the change, I got nosey because Mikey kept recounting the change he was about to give to me but I noticed it had a twenty in it.
"Here ya go. TAKE THAT TO HIM QUICK."
I was in such awe that he just gave me 60 dollars back, that I didn’t realize that what he was giving me was not a sack of weed, it was two twenty dollar rocks. I put
it in my pocket, not looking (I never looked at the product in front of the dealer, I wanted the impression that I was cool wit it) and marched out the crib. Sixty dollars in my pocket and I ain't got shit to do with it. I felt like ballin' out. At three, I was at the mall, buying something. But first, I had to take Junebug his medicine, grab my Blacks and get a faygo.
Friday, June 4, 2010
DIFFERENT BOOK, SAME STORY........
Whew!!......it’s Friday!!....and I am so ready to go……I hope you all are having a great day and are ready for the weekend……I know I am……even though I have to work…..ugh!!....but I need it…and no matter what, I have to sacrifice……at least I can rest through the evenings…for now that is……got the Essential Entertainment picnic tomorrow…nothing big....just going to get together with the camp, fellowship and plan out some things for the rest of the year…..
My big thing is giving myself…as well as the company enough time to implement ideas….when I get a thought, I usually try to make it happen instantly…but I am learning that that is not the way to maximize profit and productivity…..I cant wear people out by trying to rush my ideas…or press them to make things happen….by giving more time to get things done, I think we could make sure every avenue is hit properly to create better opportunities for Essential Entertainment………
Last night I went to Rack Daddy’s to host their Industry Idol…..to all artist that want to get heard by people in the industry, on the radio, and making decisions….THIS IS WHERE YOU WANT TO BE!!!.......I realized something very important though……I need to make me a contract……the reason I say this is because I saw my craft not being taken seriously and it truly irked me……not by the promoters, but the DJ, his buddies and whoever else wanted the mic…..don’t want to toot my own horn, but as an MC, I need order…I don’t like a bunch of people on stage……a bunch of people trying to get on the microphone, and a bunch of people trying to give orders….it causes confusion…..with a contract, I can put my request on paper and if the promoter doesn’t want to adhere to the terms, I can walk away and not feel bad…and its not just for the Industry Idol…I have noticed this at a lot of my shows…..and I cant take it……so now I must continue to get my business game up…….
Heard my frat brother that got fired may not have gotten fired for what was originally thought to be the reason….rumor has it that it was sexual harassment……and so me being me……I asked the girl that people alleged said it…and when we talked, she had some valid points……if you listen closely around this building, probably 75-80% of the people here are guilty of sexual harassment…….now if we picking and choosing, I could see that…..but its really hard for me to believe that people are getting fired for that……this company should be empty if that was the case…hell I get harassed everyday ear hustling…these young ladies up here are worse than the guys…….but I guess we are still in a society where men cant be harassed by women…or at least taken seriously…….
Remember when you were young and they had these certain type of books?.......they were called “choose your own adventure?”…and depending on what page you turned, you had different scenarios and endings to the story…well I was talking to Mama C today and we discussed how we choose our own adventures in life…but with a twist……when things happen to us, sometimes, the story we tell ourselves dictate how we respond and how much added stress we add on……I will use myself as an example….over the past few months, I have had some financial strain….now I can say, “oh, just an unfortunate incident” or I can say, “this happened because of something I did in the past”…then I begin to feel bad about things I have done and unconsciously give my story a horrible ending….instead of lifting my head up and fighting out of the corner, I decided to take the punches simply believing they are justified…….no one is justified to struggle or go through pain or sorrow…….next time this happens to you, sit back and think wisely how you choose your own adventure…….
Trying to get out of here early…took a thirty minute lunch so I can go home and try to clean my house before I go out tonight…..got to re tape my audition for Oprah Winfrey…..she is holding a contest for someone to have a new show, so why not take the Wise Words of Spaceship to television??.....now once I do get this footage on the website, I am going to need each and everyone of you to vote…now is that hard for you to do?...some of you, yeah…because hating is in your blood…but I know some of you will support me and that’s all I can ask…….I so pray I win…who knows what God has in store for me……..
Well about to try to get out of here, so without further ado…….Rika’s Quote of the Day……….
“If you are stressed, you are probably making things more important than they really are.”
Hmmmmm.....dont know about that……I get stressed and the last time I checked, my stress comes from things that are important…but I guess I understand what she is saying……once we die, we will still have things in our inbox…another blog for another day…………
Shout out to my man TrulySpoken…..yesterday he not only celebrated his birthday, but also his one year anniversary……..so double congrats to you big homie…..love you and I pray God watches over you r family in all your endeavors……..
Speaking of June 3rd…….yesterday marked the 7 year anniversary of my first album, “Landed in the Hen House”……my how time flies………..
Love yall!!!!
Church!!!!
My big thing is giving myself…as well as the company enough time to implement ideas….when I get a thought, I usually try to make it happen instantly…but I am learning that that is not the way to maximize profit and productivity…..I cant wear people out by trying to rush my ideas…or press them to make things happen….by giving more time to get things done, I think we could make sure every avenue is hit properly to create better opportunities for Essential Entertainment………
Last night I went to Rack Daddy’s to host their Industry Idol…..to all artist that want to get heard by people in the industry, on the radio, and making decisions….THIS IS WHERE YOU WANT TO BE!!!.......I realized something very important though……I need to make me a contract……the reason I say this is because I saw my craft not being taken seriously and it truly irked me……not by the promoters, but the DJ, his buddies and whoever else wanted the mic…..don’t want to toot my own horn, but as an MC, I need order…I don’t like a bunch of people on stage……a bunch of people trying to get on the microphone, and a bunch of people trying to give orders….it causes confusion…..with a contract, I can put my request on paper and if the promoter doesn’t want to adhere to the terms, I can walk away and not feel bad…and its not just for the Industry Idol…I have noticed this at a lot of my shows…..and I cant take it……so now I must continue to get my business game up…….
Heard my frat brother that got fired may not have gotten fired for what was originally thought to be the reason….rumor has it that it was sexual harassment……and so me being me……I asked the girl that people alleged said it…and when we talked, she had some valid points……if you listen closely around this building, probably 75-80% of the people here are guilty of sexual harassment…….now if we picking and choosing, I could see that…..but its really hard for me to believe that people are getting fired for that……this company should be empty if that was the case…hell I get harassed everyday ear hustling…these young ladies up here are worse than the guys…….but I guess we are still in a society where men cant be harassed by women…or at least taken seriously…….
Remember when you were young and they had these certain type of books?.......they were called “choose your own adventure?”…and depending on what page you turned, you had different scenarios and endings to the story…well I was talking to Mama C today and we discussed how we choose our own adventures in life…but with a twist……when things happen to us, sometimes, the story we tell ourselves dictate how we respond and how much added stress we add on……I will use myself as an example….over the past few months, I have had some financial strain….now I can say, “oh, just an unfortunate incident” or I can say, “this happened because of something I did in the past”…then I begin to feel bad about things I have done and unconsciously give my story a horrible ending….instead of lifting my head up and fighting out of the corner, I decided to take the punches simply believing they are justified…….no one is justified to struggle or go through pain or sorrow…….next time this happens to you, sit back and think wisely how you choose your own adventure…….
Trying to get out of here early…took a thirty minute lunch so I can go home and try to clean my house before I go out tonight…..got to re tape my audition for Oprah Winfrey…..she is holding a contest for someone to have a new show, so why not take the Wise Words of Spaceship to television??.....now once I do get this footage on the website, I am going to need each and everyone of you to vote…now is that hard for you to do?...some of you, yeah…because hating is in your blood…but I know some of you will support me and that’s all I can ask…….I so pray I win…who knows what God has in store for me……..
Well about to try to get out of here, so without further ado…….Rika’s Quote of the Day……….
“If you are stressed, you are probably making things more important than they really are.”
Hmmmmm.....dont know about that……I get stressed and the last time I checked, my stress comes from things that are important…but I guess I understand what she is saying……once we die, we will still have things in our inbox…another blog for another day…………
Shout out to my man TrulySpoken…..yesterday he not only celebrated his birthday, but also his one year anniversary……..so double congrats to you big homie…..love you and I pray God watches over you r family in all your endeavors……..
Speaking of June 3rd…….yesterday marked the 7 year anniversary of my first album, “Landed in the Hen House”……my how time flies………..
Love yall!!!!
Church!!!!
Thursday, June 3, 2010
WE DON'T DANCE NO MORE..ALL WE DO IS BLOG!!!
Its Thursday already!!!....I guess with the holiday, this week is pretty much flying by……and depending on who you ask, I guess that could be a good or bad thing……how are you all doing today?........I feel a lot better than yesterday…drugged myself up last night and ate leftovers…thought I was going to go out, but decided against it…….kind of glad I didn’t…..actually got about 9 hours of sleep last night……..few more days until the weekend so hopefully, I will get a chance to rest and relax………
I’m thinking about taking some more time off from Essential Entertainment…….not completely, but I do need to maintain a healthy focus…does that mean time for a vacation?...probably so…..I’m thinking that will help recharge my batteries…..I’m hoping that if I take a break from my job, it will give me an opportunity to relax……and I know that is much needed……..this month marks the half year and I need to plan out what EE will be doing for the remainder of the year…I have some ideas; just need to get them down on paper and start implementing them……..
I know I told yall this may be my last blog today…..I doubt it though……its one of the most enjoyable parts of my day…especially when I have a lot to talk about……which I don’t today…..not much eventful has happened in the last 24 hours……but in a few minutes something grand will be going on…..THE LAKERS WILL BE DEFENDING THEIR NBA CHAMPIONSHIP AGAINST THE BOSTON CELTICS!!!......I’m not going to go in-depth about each position or what it would take for each team to win the series…..but being the Laker fan I am, you know I’m going to say L.A. in six games…..I don’t think Boston’s “Cinderella” run this post season will last….they are older and the grind of the playoffs will get to them…..its funny how people say Kobe is nothing like Jordan….my opinion…he’s better than Jordan……yeah I said it…Michael Jordan isn’t the greatest player of all time to me anyway….maybe one of the greatest scorers….but even Wilt and Kobe has scored more than him in a game…..Magic was way better than Michael….and he played in a tougher league…… Michael didn’t win a championship until Magic, Larry, Dominique, Isaiah, Kareem, and Dr. J was out of the league....think about it………
Going up to Rack Daddy’s tonight in Arlington for their Industry Idol……this will be my first actual week I will be hosting so I am interested in seeing how the crowd is up there….last week I heard they had a nice turn out but the sound system died……so they moved locations…I had the show at Mambo Café so I wasn’t able to make it…..hope they have a free drink special up there……..
Why is it that the song you hate the most stay stuck in your head the longest…ugh!!!.......I heard Waka Flocka whoever he is at lunch and I can’t dispose of that song quick enough……
Why do people text in the middle of the night??.....if it was something important, I wouldn’t get it….and by the time I read it, it would be morning so I wouldn’t care??......
Why have I eaten Little Caesars every Thursday for about 2 months straight?.......is it really that good?.......
I know I’m being random…just some things on my mind……like when people say, “I’m bored as hell”…..from what I read, hell isn’t boring…..you too busy trying to find a spot that doesn’t have fire spewing everywhere…..that should be exciting…musical brimstone….and think of the people that are there…..Jimi Hendrix, Elvis, Gary Coleman (maybe), Michael Jackson (if he like boys forreal), is Jason dead yet?......Wilt Chamberlain, Joaquin Phoenix, and Chris Benoit…….sounds like a party to me……..
Well I am about to get out of here……maybe tomorrow, I will have more for your reading pleasure……..
And here it is……Rika’s Quote of the Day…………….
“It’s a bigger mistake to fear making one than actually making one.”
Always try…there is no harm in giving things your best shot……….
Shout outs to my girl Suello…..she is celebrating her birthday this weekend and it’s a beautiful thing to see someone rejoicing for another year….and my girl Bianca…she is also celebrating her birthday this weekend as well…happy birthday to two very special ladies…..I hope all goes well and you have a great time this weekend……..
Love yall!!!!
Church!!!
I’m thinking about taking some more time off from Essential Entertainment…….not completely, but I do need to maintain a healthy focus…does that mean time for a vacation?...probably so…..I’m thinking that will help recharge my batteries…..I’m hoping that if I take a break from my job, it will give me an opportunity to relax……and I know that is much needed……..this month marks the half year and I need to plan out what EE will be doing for the remainder of the year…I have some ideas; just need to get them down on paper and start implementing them……..
I know I told yall this may be my last blog today…..I doubt it though……its one of the most enjoyable parts of my day…especially when I have a lot to talk about……which I don’t today…..not much eventful has happened in the last 24 hours……but in a few minutes something grand will be going on…..THE LAKERS WILL BE DEFENDING THEIR NBA CHAMPIONSHIP AGAINST THE BOSTON CELTICS!!!......I’m not going to go in-depth about each position or what it would take for each team to win the series…..but being the Laker fan I am, you know I’m going to say L.A. in six games…..I don’t think Boston’s “Cinderella” run this post season will last….they are older and the grind of the playoffs will get to them…..its funny how people say Kobe is nothing like Jordan….my opinion…he’s better than Jordan……yeah I said it…Michael Jordan isn’t the greatest player of all time to me anyway….maybe one of the greatest scorers….but even Wilt and Kobe has scored more than him in a game…..Magic was way better than Michael….and he played in a tougher league…… Michael didn’t win a championship until Magic, Larry, Dominique, Isaiah, Kareem, and Dr. J was out of the league....think about it………
Going up to Rack Daddy’s tonight in Arlington for their Industry Idol……this will be my first actual week I will be hosting so I am interested in seeing how the crowd is up there….last week I heard they had a nice turn out but the sound system died……so they moved locations…I had the show at Mambo Café so I wasn’t able to make it…..hope they have a free drink special up there……..
Why is it that the song you hate the most stay stuck in your head the longest…ugh!!!.......I heard Waka Flocka whoever he is at lunch and I can’t dispose of that song quick enough……
Why do people text in the middle of the night??.....if it was something important, I wouldn’t get it….and by the time I read it, it would be morning so I wouldn’t care??......
Why have I eaten Little Caesars every Thursday for about 2 months straight?.......is it really that good?.......
I know I’m being random…just some things on my mind……like when people say, “I’m bored as hell”…..from what I read, hell isn’t boring…..you too busy trying to find a spot that doesn’t have fire spewing everywhere…..that should be exciting…musical brimstone….and think of the people that are there…..Jimi Hendrix, Elvis, Gary Coleman (maybe), Michael Jackson (if he like boys forreal), is Jason dead yet?......Wilt Chamberlain, Joaquin Phoenix, and Chris Benoit…….sounds like a party to me……..
Well I am about to get out of here……maybe tomorrow, I will have more for your reading pleasure……..
And here it is……Rika’s Quote of the Day…………….
“It’s a bigger mistake to fear making one than actually making one.”
Always try…there is no harm in giving things your best shot……….
Shout outs to my girl Suello…..she is celebrating her birthday this weekend and it’s a beautiful thing to see someone rejoicing for another year….and my girl Bianca…she is also celebrating her birthday this weekend as well…happy birthday to two very special ladies…..I hope all goes well and you have a great time this weekend……..
Love yall!!!!
Church!!!
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
OOPS! I DID IT AGAIN!!!
Well, well, well……how are you all doing today?......I think I am coming down with a cold but besides that I am doing rather well……..I hope I come to you all in good spirits…even in this hot weather…man!!....Dallas is a burning up state!!.....haven’t really conversed with you all in a few days…had some adversity…..(as always)…and I’m trying to stay as positive as possible…….(the hardest thing I have ever done)………somehow, someway, I know things will get better for me……rather by hook or by crook……..
Just found out a few minutes ago that we won’t be holding Rolls Royce tonight……yeah I know, bummer!!....I wasn’t there last week so I was truly looking forward to returning…now that I think about it, it has been a few weeks since I have hosted on a Wednesday night…..I wonder if God is trying to tell me something??....its cool though….just gives me another opportunity to clean up more of my house……I know I probably wont do as good of a job as I need to……but it’s a start……I know I need to start getting some extra things out of my crib…….especially stuff I don’t use or don’t need…not saying I’m a hoarder but cleaning things up will allow God to give me more…speaking of…….
Have you ever put gas in a car that was already on a full tank?........how about went all out grocery shopping when your fridge and pantry was already full?.......how about put more bath water in the tub once it was already at a suitable level??.......to answer these, I would say doubt it…now I know there may be a few of you that have deep freezers….or will say you filled up gas cans during Katrina….but think about it….you can only get more in these instances after you let some of it go……I am learning about this in my walk with Christ………
Sometimes we ask ourselves why don’t we have more, or newer or even better…..well we allow ourselves to be tied down with the past….and you have to let that go sometimes…..in order for him to do more, you have to give him room to do more…..if you keep holding on to prior blessings, he has no room to give you new blessings…..now I am not the one that can read you the bible but if I remember correctly, there was a certain part that talked about emptying your vessels….some did….and of course some did not for fear of losing everything……those that were obedient, God blessed them tremendously……more than enough……
Do you ever wonder why bills aren’t paid?......Or why you are not happy with your job?.......relationships never going right even though you “talk” to two or three people at once and cant figure out who is right for you?.....as an entertainer, I wonder about my destiny…..doing the same shows, for the same amount of money…in front of the same people……..do we ever consider that we allow our vessels to stay so full that God is not able to produce more for us?.......I don’t even like buying Jayla toys because she has millions of them already….how would she know if she gained or lost one?.....only so much can go inside a grocery bag until it burst and all the ingredients are everywhere……and that’s what happens to us……we pack and pack and pack………and only when our bag explodes do we finally “decide” to go get new groceries……….
Look at your phone…..how many numbers does it contain that you either a) don’t call or b) have no idea who that person is?......but yet we keep that number….just in case…..just in case of what?.....that we remember them?.......apparently they serve no purpose in our lives……and only when we have to get a new phone do we sometimes lose those numbers…..but because we had so many numbers in our phone that wasn’t needed, we can lose the ones that are important to us…..and getting them back is harder than we think…….
Clean your vessels out every once in a while…we would be surprised how many new things God would give us…..or even how many things that we could use that we never realize we have…….just a thought……….
Sitting at this desk, I’m kinda happy I don’t have a show tonight…….I need to go take some meds…wish I had some soup….but I think I have some Ramen Noodles…..same thing right??.....oh well, it will be tonight…….wrestling doesn’t even come on!!....nor do the Lakers…yeah I said it…..the Lakers…the reigning and defending NBA Champions….and they will be in about three weeks as well…..sorry, but the Celtics don’t stand a chance……………
So I still have a few in the chamber…and I cant go too many days without giving you…….Rika’s Quote of the Day…………….
“Love the heart that hurts you, never hurt the heart that loves you.”
This is a good one…..I have been guilty of this one….there is someone in my life right now that loves me to pieces…and I’m not talking about relationship love…well maybe, but they have my back more than 99% of the people I know…..and yet, I find ways to be cruel or standoffish………and I am so wrong for it…..I need to get out of my own insecurities, because the fact is, people can love you for simply who you are and not want anything from it……the image of society is so corrupt that we think people always want something if they do something………ugh, I don’t like being this way!!!.........
I would also like for you all to do me a favor……..call this number: 254-753-1049……that is the radio station down here in Waco, TX……Essential Entertainment’s own, Derek Daider is getting pushed hard down there…….all you have to do is request his song…so what if you don’t hear it; there is strength in numbers…….what’s the name of the song? Don’t matter!!!......just called and ask if they have that Derek Daider song….honestly, I don’t even know the name of the song…but they know Derek Daider…….lets put one of our own on the map…if you do want to hear his music, go to www.derekdaider.com …………don’t say I didn’t warn you………..
Now tomorrow I am thinking will be my last blog…ever…..why you may ask?....because I feel its time to introduce a few people to you….first will be hustle man…the next will be Countytime……over the next 24 hours, I will be drinking some truth serum….and I will finally put out the blog I have always wanted to……no holding back…no care about feelings…no censorship……..now this is not definite…..I don’t like hurting people feelings…….I just need to get some things off my chest……….
Shout outs to my girl D Ray……I love you soooo much…I know you mad at me….but hell, a lot of people are mad at me………and stay that way…….but you good…I love your heart and when you need me, I will be there…….
Love yall!!!
Church!!!
Just found out a few minutes ago that we won’t be holding Rolls Royce tonight……yeah I know, bummer!!....I wasn’t there last week so I was truly looking forward to returning…now that I think about it, it has been a few weeks since I have hosted on a Wednesday night…..I wonder if God is trying to tell me something??....its cool though….just gives me another opportunity to clean up more of my house……I know I probably wont do as good of a job as I need to……but it’s a start……I know I need to start getting some extra things out of my crib…….especially stuff I don’t use or don’t need…not saying I’m a hoarder but cleaning things up will allow God to give me more…speaking of…….
Have you ever put gas in a car that was already on a full tank?........how about went all out grocery shopping when your fridge and pantry was already full?.......how about put more bath water in the tub once it was already at a suitable level??.......to answer these, I would say doubt it…now I know there may be a few of you that have deep freezers….or will say you filled up gas cans during Katrina….but think about it….you can only get more in these instances after you let some of it go……I am learning about this in my walk with Christ………
Sometimes we ask ourselves why don’t we have more, or newer or even better…..well we allow ourselves to be tied down with the past….and you have to let that go sometimes…..in order for him to do more, you have to give him room to do more…..if you keep holding on to prior blessings, he has no room to give you new blessings…..now I am not the one that can read you the bible but if I remember correctly, there was a certain part that talked about emptying your vessels….some did….and of course some did not for fear of losing everything……those that were obedient, God blessed them tremendously……more than enough……
Do you ever wonder why bills aren’t paid?......Or why you are not happy with your job?.......relationships never going right even though you “talk” to two or three people at once and cant figure out who is right for you?.....as an entertainer, I wonder about my destiny…..doing the same shows, for the same amount of money…in front of the same people……..do we ever consider that we allow our vessels to stay so full that God is not able to produce more for us?.......I don’t even like buying Jayla toys because she has millions of them already….how would she know if she gained or lost one?.....only so much can go inside a grocery bag until it burst and all the ingredients are everywhere……and that’s what happens to us……we pack and pack and pack………and only when our bag explodes do we finally “decide” to go get new groceries……….
Look at your phone…..how many numbers does it contain that you either a) don’t call or b) have no idea who that person is?......but yet we keep that number….just in case…..just in case of what?.....that we remember them?.......apparently they serve no purpose in our lives……and only when we have to get a new phone do we sometimes lose those numbers…..but because we had so many numbers in our phone that wasn’t needed, we can lose the ones that are important to us…..and getting them back is harder than we think…….
Clean your vessels out every once in a while…we would be surprised how many new things God would give us…..or even how many things that we could use that we never realize we have…….just a thought……….
Sitting at this desk, I’m kinda happy I don’t have a show tonight…….I need to go take some meds…wish I had some soup….but I think I have some Ramen Noodles…..same thing right??.....oh well, it will be tonight…….wrestling doesn’t even come on!!....nor do the Lakers…yeah I said it…..the Lakers…the reigning and defending NBA Champions….and they will be in about three weeks as well…..sorry, but the Celtics don’t stand a chance……………
So I still have a few in the chamber…and I cant go too many days without giving you…….Rika’s Quote of the Day…………….
“Love the heart that hurts you, never hurt the heart that loves you.”
This is a good one…..I have been guilty of this one….there is someone in my life right now that loves me to pieces…and I’m not talking about relationship love…well maybe, but they have my back more than 99% of the people I know…..and yet, I find ways to be cruel or standoffish………and I am so wrong for it…..I need to get out of my own insecurities, because the fact is, people can love you for simply who you are and not want anything from it……the image of society is so corrupt that we think people always want something if they do something………ugh, I don’t like being this way!!!.........
I would also like for you all to do me a favor……..call this number: 254-753-1049……that is the radio station down here in Waco, TX……Essential Entertainment’s own, Derek Daider is getting pushed hard down there…….all you have to do is request his song…so what if you don’t hear it; there is strength in numbers…….what’s the name of the song? Don’t matter!!!......just called and ask if they have that Derek Daider song….honestly, I don’t even know the name of the song…but they know Derek Daider…….lets put one of our own on the map…if you do want to hear his music, go to www.derekdaider.com …………don’t say I didn’t warn you………..
Now tomorrow I am thinking will be my last blog…ever…..why you may ask?....because I feel its time to introduce a few people to you….first will be hustle man…the next will be Countytime……over the next 24 hours, I will be drinking some truth serum….and I will finally put out the blog I have always wanted to……no holding back…no care about feelings…no censorship……..now this is not definite…..I don’t like hurting people feelings…….I just need to get some things off my chest……….
Shout outs to my girl D Ray……I love you soooo much…I know you mad at me….but hell, a lot of people are mad at me………and stay that way…….but you good…I love your heart and when you need me, I will be there…….
Love yall!!!
Church!!!
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